A/N Still Don't own Twilight… such a shame. But I was dreaming about running my hands thru Robs hair tonight while he whispered in my ears with that sexy ass voice of his.. (sigh) Damn TCAs… sry but the best part was when he called the teenagers funny. Had to laugh. (no I am not one)

Anyways. No this is not the cookout chapter yet. Had a small change in plans. Yes this a very short chapter but I thought that I would give you all a tiny little look into Edwards head and some of the things that he is thinking.

As always thanks to my darling Twilightbyus without her words of wisdom I may not have did a little EPOV for a treat but shes just smart like that. I could be her puppet….. wait does that sound right?

VicewardPOV

I had fucked up.

Yeah I know this.

I have no idea what I was going to do or why I did it. But the moment that I first saw her that night, I could not stop myself. She was just way too gorgeous, sexy and fucking beautiful. And then she went for me. The way that she moved under me after she took me home with her and let me worship her was like nothing else.

I was not happy about having to slip out the door while she was out but I knew that I had to no matter how badly I wanted to stay, but it just wasn't going to happen. I already felt guilty enough as it was. I knew that I should not have let Jasper take me out that night.

But Tanya had plans and Jazz insisted that I get out and have some fun since I was finally all moved and settled in and school started that week.

School.

There are almost no words that could describe the way that I felt when I first saw her on that first day of school; shock, excited, nervous, scared, horny. At first I was not sure if she recognized me. Once I found out her room number I looked her up and found out her schedule. She had a free period in the afternoon so I spent my morning working up the nerve to go and speak to her.

When I first walked in there I could tell that she wasn't sure of who I was at first because it took her a few seconds to get that shocked look on her face. Looking at her again so close I couldn't hold myself back. I wanted her again. No, I needed her.

I am going straight to hell.

She felt even better then the drunken night.

Miss Swan is one in her own and I knew that I was screw. Pun intended.

I had no idea how I was going to be able to work with this women and not touch her or hold her. It was going to be hard as hell to keep my distance from this angel. Angel who seems is here to haunt me with her beauty.

I told her that I wanted to see her again. I know that it was wrong but I couldn't help myself. I wanted to. I just knew that before I was able to do that I was going to have to figure a lot of things out. But I wasn't sure. Yes, I wanted to see her but I was not sure how that hell I was going to do that with Tanya in the way. Yes I love Tanya, but that was a long ass story.

Then when I was going to go home when the day was out to try and figure all this out Tanya came to meet me at the end of the day. I thought that I had mad it in the clear and was going to be able to get her out of there.

Boy was I wrong.

Bella was walking by and my uncle stopped her to talk. Then he of course introduced her to Tanya. The shock and anger on her face was plan as day, though she was trying to hide it.

To say that I felt terrible is an understatement.

When she found a pitiful excuse to leave, Rose, my cousin's wife went after her, but not after she shot me the deadliest death stare that I had ever received. After a bit more small talk, Emmett went to look for them and Tanya was hungry and ready to leave.

The worst part of it is that Tanya wanted me to make love to her that night. I never felt more gross in my life. Don't get me wrong, Tanya has a rocking body and knows it. She's also a drop dead beauty, but she is no Bella Swan. Tanya is blonde, a bit too skinny, and fake boobs that her father bought her spoiled ass. Yes, she is a spoiled daddy's girl. That fact I cannot and will not lie about it is part of the reason why I am here but I don't like to think about that if I don't have to.

Bella Swan is a complete opposite. Her beauty is all natural, with her sexy curves, silky long brown chestnut hair, and dark chocolate eyes. Those eyes hypnotized me from the first glance and I got lost in them. I may not have spent much time with her and most the talking time that we did spend together we were both a few sheets to the wind. But she was the most down to earth creature that I had even encountered and I am hooked. It's like a heroin addiction. I can't get enough of her.

The day after I tried to talk to her but she clearly tried to steer clear of me. Not that I blame her. So I was going to take action again and try to get her on her free period but that was a failure.

I was in the lunch room and was about to sneak out when I saw her across the room. When she spotted me and took off. If it was not for the crowds of kids I would have been able to catch up to her. I was positive that she ran into Rose's room but Rose denied it and the students didn't look phased at all. Well not like that would notice more then my super model looking cousin-in-law working under the hood of a car.

I am a ma, I understand their thinking. I'll admit, it is hot.

When I left her room I went back to where I was standing in hopes that she was going to walk back through there.

She never came.

It was clear that she was avoiding me.

I only had one thing left to do in my attempts to talk to her today.

I wrote her an email. I wasn't sure if she was going to write me back. I would not be able to blame her. I was in the wrong this I know. I need to fix this. I want to try and have a chance to talk to her so she will hear me out. After I wrote her the email I tried to call Emmett in hopes of some insight on Bella but that was no luck. I had been trying to get a hold of him all day. I talked to him last night and he was actually cool, I could tell he was a little from the sounds of it he had no idea what was going on. So that must mean that Bella had not told any one.

I was sure now that the only way that I would be able to talk to her was either hope that somehow we bump into each other at school, although I knew that we could not have the full conversation that I was hoping for there, but at least I could have a few words with her. If that didn't work out there was always at my parent's house this weekend at the cookout. I would just have to try and get her alone.

That was going to be the biggest issue, especially with all the people that are going to be there. My mom, my dad, Emmett, Rose, Alice, Jasper, and Tanya. Yeah this isn't going to be easy.

And there you have it.. Let me know what you know think of him. Next one will be BPOV which will be the big cluster-fuck of it all. I am hoping to have that done for next weekend. But if you enjoyed this small look into Viceward's head tell me and ill bring him back every once and a while..