~ Bella ~

I felt myself being dragged away, I didn't fight it, I just went along with it and let myself be dragged. For some odd reason I couldn't help but feel sad. I couldn't explain that one! Why on earth would I feel sad? No, I said to myself, no no no, no emotions! I would not let those kinds of emotions in, never again!

I told myself a thousand times to get rid of those stupid emotional feelings, especially after he up and left. Those kind of feelings led to bad things in my book, it led to caring, caring led to hurt. They say there is a fine line between love and hate, maybe I have passed that line, who knows! All I knew is that I was never going to let myself suffer that kind of hurt ever again, never, I promised myself.

We got to our table, as far away from the Cullen table as we could get, and sat down. Nobody else sat near us, they all seemed to know better. So, we ate in silence, quite an awkward silence I would say. We each seemed to be lost in our own thoughts. It was good that no-one could read my thoughts at that point because I had a hard time keeping my mind from thinking of the beautiful family across the room, the Cullens. It was getting harder and harder trying to ignore them, they seemed to be everywhere. It was especially hard keeping my mind from travelling to one particular Cullen and I thanked god at that point for his inability to read my mind, I would have been lost if he could have done that!

I almost growled, wait, me growling, seriously, oh well! As I said, I almost growled when I heard a chair being pulled back, obviously interrupting my thoughts. I was almost afraid to look up, not knowing who I was going to see, I did think it might have been Alice Cullen or maybe Edward, so imagine my shock when my eyes met with one of the most beautiful of them all, Rosalie Cullen. What the hell! I nearly choked! I was so shocked at seeing her, as I said I thought it would have been Alice, even Edward maybe but not under any circumstance did I think it would have been Rosalie!

I knew I that the shock didn't show on my face, I had learned to control my emotions quickly so I managed to meet her steady gaze with what I hoped was a face free of emotion. Huh, I bet she is thinking to herself "Bella couldn't do that, hide her emotions, but this new Izzy can". Then knowing Rosalie, she probably wasn't impressed at all!

Before I could speak she asked me "Could we have a moment to talk alone Izzy?" I like the fact that she used my new name, so I decided that I could at least give her a few moments of my time. I looked at Angela and said, apologetically "Angela, would you mind giving us a sec? " Angela looked at me, probably wondering if she should leave her alone with me so I wiggled my eyes at her to let he know it would be okay. She smiled and said "Are you sure you will be okay alone with her" obviously oblivious to the fact that vampires can hear a pin drop in a thunderstorm! Well, to be fair she wouldn't know Rosalie or any of the Cullens were vampires so I smiled my reassurance at her and said "yeah, I'll be fine, just give us a sec? " She nodded and stood up and went to dump her tray and leave the room. I knew she was worried about me but she really needed to let go, I mean I am not a porcelain doll anymore!

Rosalie sat down and got down to business, "okay, lets not waste any time here, I know you hate my brother for what he did to you, and I don't blame you. However, he was an idiot to do what he did but he has been miserable ever since without you. To tell the truth, we all have been, yes including me! Our entire family is broken somehow and I don't know how to fix it. I think somehow you are the key. Emmett does not even crack any jokes anymore and a life without him doing that is a sad one indeed. Jasper has become even more anti-social than he was before, if that were possible and Alice, now don't get me started on Alice. Alice will not shop at all anymore and if that happens then we all know that something is terribly wrong. Esme is so emotional and it as though she is crying, well we know she can't, none of us can, but Izzy we do grieve, we do feel pain you know. Carlisle is much the same; he is never home and spends all of his time at the hospital. Now on to the big one, Edward, well Edward does nothing, not a single thing. He does not read a book, watch TV, play the piano, and write his music, nothing whatsoever. He exists, he sits in a corner on the floor in his room, moping. He then goes through the motions and gets ready and comes to school. He has absolutely no interest in anything and he does not hunt. It's as though he needs to torture himself. Don't get me wrong, Edward has been the most unhappy of all of us over the years but when he met you it was as though someone switched on a bright light and he came alive. Well Izzy that light has gone out now and he is what he is, dead. We have to force him to hunt and its quite hard, we nearly had to go catch the lion and bring it to him, he is a destroyed man now Izzy" she stops talking and it is then that I realise that she had said it all so fast. I really had to focus while she was talking to catch it all, I got most of it, especially the bits about Edward and that was what made my jaw drop. I couldn't hide the emotions on my face this time!

As I did not speak she continued, "Izzy, believe it or not this has all affected me too you know, I even miss you…….." Wow, now there was an announcement I could not ignore! I whispered in a shocked tone "but you hate me rose, you always have so why…….? "

"Yes, yes, I know I was a total bitch, but it's just that you had, and in a lot of ways you still have what I don't have and I would give anything to have that back again" said Rosalie.

"What do I have that you would want Rosalie; I mean you have everything, don't you? What do I have that is so special?" I ask in a whispered voice.

"Izzy, your human, you have your life, your humanity, what else is there? "She replied.

I had almost forgotten that her one true wish was that she could be human again; I had forgotten that she would have given up everything she had now, including Emmett, if she could have gone back to being human.

Rosalie continued talking then "Look, I don't care what you call yourself, Izzy or Bella, whatever you like, I don't care but I will say one thing, you are part of our family, we want you back, no we need you back! So think about it will you? I know your hurting but we all are, please Izzy think about it, will you? ".

With that the bell rang and she got up to walk away, she never looked back and if she did she would have seen me sitting there totally shocked and speechless, probably with my jaw hitting my chest!

Wow, I thought to myself, she sure did give me a lot to think about……..

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