So when you finish the second part of chapter one here tell me what you think is going to happen I'm interested to know. Tell me who is going to rape who why? whos going to commit suicide and why? Hint there's two suicides and which one breaks first cals safety net Ethan's safety net or Lily's? Ohh plot twists! Anyway ill let you read the rest pod the chapter which I felt sick writing.

Ethan's pov

I'm gonna have to face it, I have to work with him. It's gonna be hard he's an idiot. He's bullied me for the whole of the two years I've been there and obviously the only person I've told is Amelia. I mean I've never lied to get out of anything apart from showing people my scarred wrists but today I had to lie. I had to tell the headmaster I'd been sick and not that it was because I didn't want to work with Marcus because obviously he'd ask question. I couldn't have anyone ask question. Cal would have helped the old cal, the cal that let me curl up next to him and rest my head in the crook of his neck during storms and my mum and dads arguments. I used to go with cal to his dads house and play with his little sister Anna she was so nice but then the fire happened and they all died. My only escape was over I always had to get out of my house. Honestly, I'm scared of my dad I know he's hit my mum and he's hit me. He's hit me almost as much as Marcus and his gang have. I'm fucking useless I'm so alone not even Amelia knows my secrets . If I left now who would notice. Cal would find me though I can't let him see that he's so fragile. I've seen him break so many times so I have to be strong for cal and Amelia. I don't give Amelia enough credit because honestly I wouldn't be alive without her. She doesn't even know how much she helps me just by well speaking to me. I was so disappointed when I found out Amelia was only in two of my classes French and dance. I should probably tell you the subjects I do. I study medical science Latin French German history geography dance performing arts music along with English and maths. So that's my subjects all of them I know that's a lot but if I get into kings! (Btw kings is the best med school in the country and one day I wish to attend it). I'm going to be a doctor when I'm older so is Cal. I want to work with him. Anyway, it's time now because today's actually been quite bad. I pull out my sweet release. That little thing that would make me smile. I brought the razor to my wrist and made the cuts. One cut two cuts three cuts more and I was finished.

Marcus' pov

What should I do should I go up to him? Ask for his number? His address? Then when I'm with him what do I do with him? Kiss him? No is that to much a little bit too much. Jut hint to him?

I think I need to speak to him about it. I have to I can't live without him much longer. He consumes my soul. Everyday he's all I have on my mind. Everything is Ethan I hate to admit it I really do. I'm officially wrong and disgusting. I AM GAY! I always feel like going somewhere and just yelling that at the top I my voice. I can't wait for tomorrow's French lesson because we have to start. An hour with him it's gonna be fun. I can sit really close to him and get really close to him. I'm a few weeks I can make my move I will have him he will love me. Wether he wants to or not.

Cals pov

My little brother always thinks I don't know what's going on. I know he's getting bullied and beat up at school I know he's self harming but I'm scared to bring it up. Scared to hurt him he's my safety net. I think this every night as I slip into bed in the darkness and I sleep until Ethan wakes me screaming.