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This is longer than I first thought but once I started writing I couldn't stop and I wanted it finished with the part that I did.
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Racing into the hospital towards the emergency desk "Olivia Benson, where is she"
Looking up at the man in front of her "Sir, what relationship do you have with Olivia" wanting to hit the desk his frustration, worry and concern brewing over trying to remain calm and in control "I'm her partner/boyfriend I need to see her now where is she"
Her eyes on the gentleman in front of her "if you take a seat I will get the doctor or someone to come and see you as soon as possible"
Taking a breath this was his girlfriend here he didn't want a seat he wanted to know what was going on and to see her "I don't want a seat I want to know how Olivia Benson is, just tell me what room she is in"
Walking over to Cassidy Fin knew how worried he was "just take it easy, they will let us know when they can"
moving around the waiting room they had been through some tough times and just when it was looking up this happened "she has just come through the assault Lewis took on her, the court case and now this, how much more does she have to endure" turning to face Fin he wasn't one to confess anything in public but the thought of losing her "I love her Fin, I can't imagine my life without her" nodding at Cassidy he didn't really have an opinion but he knew Olivia was happy and that was all that mattered to him "I know we just have to wait and see"
Pacing around the waiting room looking up as a doctor comes out "Brian Cassidy" nodding as he walks over as the others wait nearby "Can I see her"
Ushering him to a corner "Ms Benson had a fit on the way to the hospital, and her blood pressure went extremely high to dangerous levels, which caused stress on her heart" interrupting the doctor "she is going to be ok" hearing the doctor continue "we have managed to stabilize her, but she is still in a critical condition, we are running more tests now, do you know if she is pregnant or has any medical conditions"
His tongue moving around his lips remembering the conversation he had with her weeks ago "she thought she might be but the test was negative"
"did she see a doctor" shaking his head remembering the conversation "no she got a pregnancy kit from the chemist, you think she's pregnant?" his eyes still on Cassidy "we need to rule out all possibilities to try to find out what is causing it, for the time being she is stable and the fitting has stopped"
His eyes moving around before coming back to the doctor "can I see her" seeing the doctor nod as he continues more to himself "she is going to be ok"
"we're doing all we can for her" watching as the doctor walks off, hearing Fins'voice "Doctors are like police they don't like to make promises, give Liv our love"
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Opening the door of her room tentatively he didn't know what he would see the relief that she was stable for now. Walking inside the room seeing her body lying against the white sheets she looked so fragile not the Olivia he was used to her breathing steady as the monitor surrounding her bed. Walking slowly over to the bed pulling up a chair sitting next to her, reaching out for her hand, stroking her head he loved this woman so much for the first time he was really in love.
The memories of the last time she was in the hospital her body battered and bruised, he had to wait outside whilst the doctors and nurses patched her up, took the rape kit in a way he didn't want to be in the room, he knew all he could do was imagine what that monster did to her, what he put her through, as soon as she walked out the door he was there for her, taking her back to the station, they wanted to keep her in overnight to monitor her concussion she didn't.
His hands moving through her hair she looked so beautiful and perfect, the past few weeks made him realize how much in love with her he was, what started out as something casual had developed into something more his voice soft barely a whisper "you need to pull through this Liv, I love you and can't imagine you not in my life"
Looking up as a nurse walks in "they've given her a sedative it should wear off in a couple of hours, and we will see how she is then" moving his eyes back to his girlfriend "she is going to be ok then, do you know what has caused this?"
Fiddling with the drip "the doctor will be in and talk to you both, they are waiting for the results of the tests taken, she is in the best care sir"
Not looking at the nurse "so she will pull through" seeing the nurse look at him pausing at the door "her vital signs are stable now, and her blood pressure is not as high, it is promising" before walking out
His eyes turning back to Olivia as he strokes her forehead a smile on his face as her eyes start to open slowly.
Opening her eyes trying to focus where was she her eyes moving around the room coming to rest on Brian "where am I"
Relief in his eyes "you were taken to hospital Liv, you collapsed at work" seeing the confusion in her eyes "why, what happened"
Holding her hand in his "You don't remember?" seeing her shake her head as he continues "they are running tests to find out what caused it, but you had really high blood pressure, the doctor will be back soon, just rest babe, Amaro, Fin and Rollins are outside"
Her eyes fixed on Brian "I don't want them to see my like this"
nodding at Olivia "its ok, I will let them know you're ok, they don't have to come in"
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Lying in the hospital bed the tubes and machines surrounding her the doctors words echoing in her mind, did she hear him right she asked him to repeat it a few times those three words she had longed to hear for so long "Congratulations you're pregnant" she couldn't take it all in, how , why, how far along, no you're wrong. Her eyes looking up at the ceiling and around the room "we'll come back soon with an ultrasound machine which will tell us how far along you are" nodding she had given up hope, how was she going to tell Brian, he was relieved did he want to have kids it was something she had wanted for so long.
She had sent Brian home to get a few things for her, she didn't want him there when the doctor told her what caused it he wanted to stay but she just needed to hear this on her own, she didn't want him to stick by her because he had to or felt obligated.
Staring up at the roof waiting for the ultrasound how was she to tell Brian that she was pregnant she didn't even know what his reaction would be, he was relieved previously would this be the thing to push them apart he knew she wanted a family
With the good news came the reason why she had a high blood pressure and she was close to getting preeclampsia the thought that after all this time when she finally is going to be a mother that she might lose the baby that she never knew she was carrying.
Putting her hand on her stomach this was her baby the baby she had longed for so long, it felt so unreal she didn't want to believe it, for the time being she couldn't believe until she saw it on the screen, there was uncertainty her whole life was changing, feeling tears forming in her eyes she should be happy isn't it what she wanted, the thought she could lose it and Brians reaction was becoming too much.
Pacing outside her door, he had raced home, he wanted to be in there whilst the doctor was examining her, but Olivia being Liv didn't want him there, he wanted to be there in case it was bad news, to know what was wrong with her, in part he understood her reasoning but it still didn't make it any easier.
Looking up at the door seeing Brian standing there the worry in his eyes she knew he wanted to be in there with her whilst the doctor told her and examined her but she just couldn't, she had hoped the doctor would of come whilst she sent him back to the apartment, she could tell how much this was affecting him.
Walking over to the bed reaching for her hand "Liv" feeling his hand on her forehead stroking it "I'm ok Bri" the worry in his eyes still there "I was so worried Liv, do they know what caused it?"
Her eyes moving away from Brian's slightly she knew she should tell him but she wanted to be sure first, to have the ultrasound, part of her knows that he should be there for it but this was her body what if there was something wrong with the baby would he want it, looking up at him "they are still doing tests, we should get the results later today"
Feeling his lips on her forehead biting her lips she hated lying to him but she just couldn't tell him the truth not yet, she needed to get her head around it before dealing with him, smiling up at him "as soon as I know I will let you know"
nodding at her his eyes not moving away the worry still there "why is it taking so long, I'll go and get the doctors to hurry up"
Reaching out to grab his hand "leave it Brian, they will let us know" stroking her hand taking a deep breath "Ok"
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Looking at the screen as they move around her stomach hearing a noise as the doctor said "that's the heart beat, it is strong and healthy"
Looking at the screen in amazement she never thought this day would come she had wanted a baby for so long but had nearly given up "how far along?"
Looking at the screen and back at Olivia "I'd say about 22 weeks" her eyes wide in surprise "I took a pregnancy test and it was negative"
Seeing the nurse facing her as the nurse speaks 'that can happen if you take it too early, a blood test is usually the best to detect a pregnancy" nodding it all made sense now as the nurse continues "have you had your periods"
shaking her head "no, but after the negative test I put it down to stress and the job" her voice soft "then menopause I thought maybe it was starting and my chance of having kids was over"
Her eyes looking down at her stomach trying to take it all in "I was on the pill, how did I become pregnant?"
Seeing the nurse looking at her a smile on her face reassuring "stress, antibiotics, the pill isn't 100% safe, did you miss any days. There are a few ways even on the pill that you can still become pregnant"
Packing up the ultrasound "you'll be kept in for a couple of days just to be on the safe side but you need to have an ultrasound every 3 weeks, the older you are the more at risk you are, at the moment you have nothing to worry about with the baby but your health they will need to discuss with you"
Handing Olivia a piece of paper "the first photo of you baby, congratulations, if you have any questions let us know, we will do another ultrasound before you go home just to be sure"
Nodding looking at the piece of paper she was going to become a mum, but what type of mother if she didn't even realize she was having a baby looking down at her exposed stomach she could see the bulge there, her clothes were becoming tighter her hand moving to her stomach before closing her eyes rubbing her hand over her face.
What was she going to tell Brian she knew at 22 weeks she wouldn't be able to keep it from him or anyone for much longer the bump already showing, she had given up hope after the false pregnancy test never thinking of taking another one yet here she was now going to become what she had wanted for so long a mother.
Her mind going back to the phone call telling him quickly that she wasn't pregnant was he actually relieved or saying it for her benefit she wasn't so sure now, when she first told him she thought she could be pregnant he didn't say much then it was a surprise neither of them expected, their sex life had gone slightly with the pressure of work, yet they had a few nights of passion, she was on the pill.
Looking up seeing Brian walk in a small smile on her face trying to sit up on the bed seeing him hurry over "Liv, whats happening, do the doctors know what caused it yet, have you got the results back?" watching as he walked over to the bed sitting down on the side his fingers running through her hair turning her eyes slightly away from him before looking at him a small nod her tongue moving over her lips before looking up at him.
Looking at his girlfriend lying in the beds with monitors around her, he had been so worried about her seeing her body against the white sheets, her brown eyes looking up at him "whatever it is Liv, I'm here for you we'll get through it together"
Looking up at him she wanted to believe that, it was a shock for her she never thought she'd be able to have kids her eyes moving away from him for a brief moment before back at him her hand moving up her shirt slightly before reaching for his and moving it to her stomach "I'm pregnant Brian"
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Stay tuned there are a couple more chapters, Brian's reaction is coming up and what the future holds for each of them and them as a couple.
Please review if you have enjoyed it. I have really enjoyed writing about Bensidy