Chapter 4
Adam's POV
"Get a grip Lockheart," I muttered to myself in frustration. "This isn't about you. Ican't believe this!"
*Flashback*
"Come on Rose, You can do this," I said, encouraging her. She was trying to send messages to Dimitri through his mind and was succeeding today. She usually did much better.
"I can't do this," she sighed, giving up. She rested her haed in her hands. Something was wrong. She was struggling and she never gave up. This was Rose we were talking about here. I let myself into her head to see what was wrong, even though the little voice at the back of my head told me to not do it.
*Why today, after what happened this morning with Dimitri. He loves me we can't be together. This is emotion suicide. I love him, there has to be some way. Rose! You know better! There is no way! But loving someone else can't be possible if I love him…"
I ripped my mind from hers. I had a lot more practice than her and I was able to enter and exit minds completely un-detected. My heart started falling to pieces. I knew I had to get out of there.
"Excuse me, I forgot to do something," I said mindlessly and ran from the room. I knew it was laime, breaking down over what would have been a crush If I were still a student in high school, but this was Rose. Dimitri loved her and she loved him… and not me. But I love her!
*End Flashback*
Rose's POV
"What was that about?" Dimitri wondered out loud.
"I don't know," I responded, my head still in my hands.
"Why can't you do this?" Dimitri asked.
"When either Adam or I have a lot on our minds, we find it harder to do this. He is better at blocking the emotions than me. I just can't at all." Dimitri's face was full of concern.
"Did you even manage to read my mind at all Rose?" His voice became soft and quiet.
"No," I responded, not wanting to lie to him.
"Then whats wrong?" He queried. I looked up at him and for the second time that day his eyes portrayed every little bit of emotion he felt. I frowned.
"You know, you are not making this any easier Dimitri! You tell me we can't be together and I know it is true. Being so blatant about how muuh you care isn't really helping either. I can't get to a place where I can live without you if you keep doing this, not that I want to but this life has made me make that choice."
"So that's what's wrong. You don't want to live without me." He said, his voice low.
"Can you honestly tell me that you can?" I pressed. He grabbed my hands.
"No, I can't." He slumped his shoulders in defeat. "But I care Roza, so so much. That is something I can't change and never plan to. I wont stop caring no matter what happens." His eyes were full of burning desire. I had to get out of here.
"I… I have to go." I said and ran from the room, not giving him any time to say anything as I fled.
The next few days were silent and awkward around both Adam and Dimitri, even though they both tried to counter-act it. 3 days after what happened with Dimitri, I was in my room getting ready for bed when a rush of panic and fear burst into my head. Lissa. I flew out of the room, grabbing my jacket from my coat rack as I did. I raced down the halls towards the Moroi dorm. She was getting even more scared as I raced closer to her. I wove through the corridors. As I reached her door, I heard her hyperventilating. I grabbed the handle and turned is, opening the door and I saw her and the blood that stained her pale skin and the white carpet.