This was suggested by whiskey-foxtrot 929. Song depressed the hell out of me but made a great story, enjoy!

(song one-shot is based on: Dear Agony by Breaking Benjamin)

Steele POV

Ever since the diphtheria run I have lost everything, I was even run out of town. Now I live in the little town of Bethel. With no friends or anything...I have tried to redeem myself but I have nothing left to give.

I plan that here in this quite city is where my perfect end is. In nice peace and solitude. I almost like it better than being around friends, but maybe that's just my thoughts. Sometimes I wonder if my friends miss me or remember me, or if I just disappeared into the dirt.

Recently I have been contemplating suicide. Death would carry me into heavens arms...I hope. It would light the way and let me go from the life I ruined. Hopefully I was deemed worthy by heaven, for them to take the time and take my breath. But I just may have done too much wrong, and I'm beyond their reach.

I could have had it all, but my pride got in the way. But sometimes when I think about it, that wolfdog is all to blame. But those thoughts blaming Balto will end me where I began. And I want to be past that. I want to find the enemy from within because I can fell it crawl beneath my skin. It haven't found it yet, but when it do I hope I have enough time in my life for it to matter.

I wish the agony of my past actions could just let me go, but it won't. It is still waiting for something, I don't know what. But it is. Maybe suffering slowly is what it's got to be. Agony doesn't want to leave me until I die.

Suddenly the lights go out. I may have forgotten to tell you this, but a human adopted me. And he has taken care of me and I appreciate every bit of his effort. Now the lights went out, it was as if forever was going to drag me down. The darkness was trying to suffocate me, but I will fight for one las breath. I will fight until the end, which is when I find the enemy within. Cause I can feel it crawl beneath my skin. And then just maybe, agony will let go of me.

But for now I suffer slowly because that is the way it has to be...or does it? Maybe I cant just wait in this house, maybe I have to act and search for my answers. What I have been missing this whole time. I can't let my actions bury me. I have it face the faceless enemy, and say "I'm so sorry."

Due to my new found hope of getting agony to leave me alone, and for the chance of God letting me go, I got up and headed outside. It was cold out and the snow was reflecting a blue tint. The moon being the only thing lighting the black sky. These conditions were the exact ones the day I left Nome, when love dragged me down and hate lifted me up.

Now it was time for me to just turn around. Leave what was nothing left and head back to Nome. Leaving the far beyond this world I created, where I felt nothing more, and into the real world. Where I mattered, or could at least try to matter.

And at this point, is when I felt agony just let go of me. It saw I was determined to be a new soul. With a positive impact on the world. I now wasn't going to suffer slowly, I was going to prosper with every step.

Through the snow I trudged back to the long lost place of my old life...Nome. With a new mindset and will of actions, I was ready to make a new name for myself. I was gonna laugh in the face of hate and show it that I can love. Because that's the way it has to be, no agony.

Well that for pretty deep, that was an emotional side of Steele I must say. Anyways I hope you guys liked it and at the moment I'm working on two other song/one-shot things...XD. So stay tuned and keep suggesting.