Rose asks who Dimitri's dad is. RPOV
Something had been on my mind for a few days. I knew I shouldn't think about it and that I should just forget it but I couldn't no matter how hard I tried. I wanted to know something about Dimitri, I wanted to know about something he rarely talked about, I wanted to know about his father. When I haven't known my old man I hadn't even thought about it because neither of us had dads it was something we shared but now I know my dad I'm curious about his. All I knew about him was that he was a royal Moroi and that he was abusive and that didn't really narrow down the list.
"Rose" Lissa's voice pulled me from my thoughts
"Yeah?" I didn't need the bond to tell me she was worried about something
"Are you alright"
"I'm fine" she raised her eyebrows "I was just thinking"
"About what?"
"Nothing important"
"Hmm" I could tell she was still concerned but she let it go "You ready to go?"
"Go?"
"Feeder, I'm starving" It was then I realized it was already the middle of the vampire day and Lissa haven't eaten anything today
"Well I did tell you to eat earlier, come on lets go" we walked together and I knew there was at least another four guardians around us. When we got there Lissa turned to me
"Are you sure you're okay?"
"I'm positive, now go eat"
Later when I was off duty I continued to think about Dimitri's father as I walked home. Did he look like Dimitri? I knew he was gonna be tall and pale with fangs you know typical Moroi looks but besides that maybe he looked like him, except Dimitri looked a lot like his mother. When I got home I opened the door
"Roza" Dimitri's voice called out, I was surprised that he had got home before me; usually I was the first home
"Hey Comrade" he walked out of the kitchen with two cups of coffee and held out one for me, I couldn't help but smile as I took it "How do you always know what I want?"
"I don't know maybe we're bonded" we walked through in to the living room
"Mhmm, sure we are" he smiled too as we sat down "So how was your day?" I asked before I sipped my coffee that was perfect as always
"Not too bad" he drank his coffee too "mainly meetings"
"Who woulda thought sparky actually does any work"
"He does a lot more than you think"
"Then why do I never see him do anything other than sit and annoy me?"
"Because at the moment he wants to keep it a secret from Vasilisa" Dimitri no longer called her the Queen or her majesty when we were alone, he still couldn't bring himself to say something as informal as Lissa but still it was progress
"Wait" I put down my coffee "Why does he wanna keep it a secret? If he's doing something that's gonna hurt her I will personally…" I never got to finish my threat as Dimitri interrupted me
"You really think he would do that? And you really think I would let him?" I looked away realising that there was no way Dimitri would let Christian hurt Lissa physically or emotionally, he cared about her too much to let anyone hurt her. I shook my head "It's a surprise, a good one too I think"
"Tell"
"No" he finished his coffee "I promised not to tell you"
"But…"
"Nope sorry but I'm under orders not to tell a soul" I turned away from him and grabbed my book from the table "Roza?" I ignored him and started reading "Roza, don't be like this" again I ignored him "Please don't be mad I can't tell I'm under orders" I wasn't really mad at him, I understood that there were things that we couldn't tell each other when it comes to surprises like this "Oh Roza" he leant over to me and began kissing my neck "Come on, smile" I did, I couldn't help it. He continued with his line of kisses all the way up my neck to my cheek and then on to my lips, by then I had dropped my book and turned to face him. When he eventually pulled away he said "I love you"
"I love you too"
"So you're not mad?"
"I never was" He scowled at me
"Please don't be mad at me" I mimicked his words from earlier, which made him smile again
"You're impossible, you know that?"
"It's why you love me"
"It's one of the many reasons" I picked up the book I had dropped and put it back on the table "Oh, I saw Abe today"
"You did? Why didn't he come see me?" I had to admit the thought that my father came to court and didn't bother to come and see me upset me
"Webcam" I immediately felt better "He asked about you"
"What did you tell him?"
"That you are well and that you are looking forward to seeing him next time he comes to court"
"Did he say when that will be?"
"No but if Christian's surprise goes well then quite soon"
"He's in on it too?"
"Sort of, he is providing money but he doesn't know the whole plan" Talking about Abe made me think again about Dimitri's father, he was a royal Moroi so maybe my old man knew him. Maybe I could ask him, he always seemed to be able to find the answers to anything and everything we needed to know. No I couldn't do that, Dimitri doesn't wanna tell me and I should respect that, It's just so hard when I'm so curious. "What are you thinking about" Dimitri placed his hand on mine
"Huh" I had been so caught up in thoughts I had barely heard him
"I said what are you thinking about?"
"Nothing much" he tilted his head
"I know you better than that Roza, come on what is it?"
"It's not important, it's just…" I hesitated
"Roza, you can tell me anything you know that"
"Who is your father?"
"What?" He was obviously not expecting that
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have asked that, if you had wanted to tell me you would have, I'm sorry"
"No, no it just took me by surprise that's all, I… I…" He was stuttering I had never heard Dimitri stutter before "Rose you don't need to know, I don't wanna talk about him" he said eventually "Why were you even thinking about it?"
"I don't know, now I know who my dad is I just feel it's more important for me to know who yours is"
"Well you it's not" He stood up "he is abusive and nothing to me" He walked towards the door
"Where are you going?" I stood now too
"I will be back soon; I just need some fresh air"
"Dimitri, I'm sorry" He turned to face me
"Don't be, you didn't do anything wrong" then he left. I sat back down, why was I so stupid? Why did I ask him like that? Stupid, stupid, stupid. I stood back up and walked in to the bedroom; I kicked off my shoes and changed in to my pyjamas then got in to bed. I curled up thinking about how dumb I had been, I hugged the duvet and slowly drifted off to sleep. I'm not sure how long I had been asleep when I woke to the duvet moving as someone joined me in the bed and wrapped their arm around me. I turned my head to see
"Dimitri" I turned my body to face him "I'm so sorry"
"I told you don't be, you did nothing wrong" he squeezed me gently "You just asked a question I hadn't expected and wasn't ready for" he took a deep breath before continuing "and to be honest I don't think I will ever be ready for it, I'm sorry"
"Dimitri, don't apologize for that, its fine okay?"
"Honest?" Dimitri may be a God to the rest of the world but here with me I get to see the parts of him that are insecure, I only saw them from time to time and today was one of those times
"Honest" I saw him relax "How long were you out?"
"Only an hour, how long have you been asleep?"
"About the same I think"
"So you haven't eaten?"
"Nope, have you?"
"No" then he looked directly in to my eyes, leant in towards me and whispered "Would you like me to order some pizza?" I smiled "We could have a movie night" he continued "and I'm sure we have some Ben & Jerry's in the freezer" my smile turned in to a grin
"Oh Mr Belikov you sure do know how to please a girl"
"I do believe you have told me that many times before Miss Hathaway" He had an almost cheeky grin "So shall I take that as a yes for the pizza?"
"Mhmm" I kissed his nose
"I shall go do that then; do you wanna pick a movie?"
"Sure" That was the start of an amazing evening, we just sat eating pizzas, watching movies and stuffing our faces with Ben and Jerry's until we fell asleep. Almost a week later and I was still thinking about Dimitri's dad, I knew that after what had happened I couldn't ask Dimitri again and I wouldn't go behind his back to find out so I was just gonna have to keep wondering. Me and Dimitri had finished our day and walked home together, he was making me help with the cooking tonight.
"Well we better warn them"
"Warn who?"
"Fire brigade, If I'm helping cook then they had better be informed" He gave me a half smile
"You will be fine; I'm doing the hard parts"
"Dimitri, I've burnt a salad"
"Sure"
"I did honest, ask Lissa" We got in to the house and took off our shoes
"Let's go change in to comfortable clothes then we will get cooking"
"Can't we sit down for half hour?" I asked "We have been on our feet all day, I know you like to get all your work done then relax but I think my legs will give out if I say standing any longer"
"Alright, half an hour" We changed out of our uniforms, Dimitri changed in to dark jeans and a navy blue t-shirt while I changed in to my favourite pyjamas, grey trousers and a grey tank top with 'Kiss me Comrade' on the front.
"Pyjamas? Really Roza?"
"What?" I looked up at him "They are comfortable and it's less laundry"
"You're impossible"
"Of course I am" I lent up and gave him a quick kiss before walking back to the living room, He followed me
"Books?" I asked as we walked
"Cuddle?" I grinned, everyone else saw the tough, deadly Russian God when he was out but at home I saw the soft, adorable side of Dimitri. He sat on the couch and put his feet up, his legs spread slightly then he reached up and pulled me down on to his lap. I swung me legs up and lay my head on his chest as he wrapped one arm around me and began to play with my hair. We often sat like this in silence, him playing with my hair and me drawing lazy circles on to his palms while listening to his strong heartbeat. I don't know how long we had sat there when Dimitri broke the silence "I'm glad you've never met him" he mumbled softly
"Met who?"
"My father"
"Why?" I sat up a little
"Because he hurts everyone I love" He was still running his fingers through my hair "and I wouldn't want him to hurt you"
"He'd never be able to hurt me, I would kick his ass"
"I know you would" there was a few moments silence before I said
"I thought you didn't wanna talk about him?"
"I don't" his soft, mumbling voice had vanished instead there was a firm almost pained voice in its place. He patted my back and then pushed me to get up "Off you get, cooking time"
"Oh God help us all" I joked as I stood up, I saw the corner of Dimitri's lip turn up slightly but not much as he stood, took my wrist and walked towards the kitchen. I was surprised that the food actually tasted pretty good, we made lasagna and I can honestly say I was proud of it; it wasn't burnt, it didn't make us sick and it even looked nice
"You did a good job today Roza" Dimitri said as we got in to bed "in fact I think you should help with more meals"
"You do?"
"Mhmm" He wrapped his arms around me "it was delicious"
"Only cause you did the hard parts"
"But you helped, that's the important part" He kissed my forehead "and when you feel that you are finding it easy we can move you on to the harder parts"
"You just want me to learn to cook so you don't have to"
"No so that you can if Christian goes away and you are here alone" I looked up at him
"Is Christian planning on going somewhere?"
"Not yet but he might in the future" I stayed silent and snuggled my head back in to his chest. We had been laying there for almost half an hour when Dimitri said "He's name is Randall"
"Sorry?"
"My father his name is Randall"
"No last name?"
"No, he never told us"
"It's a little odd for a guy to never mention his last name"
"To be honest I don't care about his last name, I know his name is Randall and that he is an American royal"
"Why are you telling me this?"
"Because I would rather you know from me than anyone else"
"I wasn't going to ask anyone"
"I know" We lay quietly the only sounds being Dimitri's heartbeat, his breathing and my own.
"Do you think you have any siblings?" He looked at me "Half siblings from him I mean"
"I don't know, I never really thought about it" I looked at him, watching as he thought about the possibility of a whole family he never knew "but if they were anything like him I wouldn't want anything to do with them"
"But what if they weren't? What if they were good people who disliked him as much as you do?"
"I don't know" He paused "We may get on very well"
"Have you ever looked him up? There can't be that many royals named Randall and you would know who it was the moment you saw a picture" Dimitri shook his head
"I don't want to look him up, I want nothing to do with him"
"But what if…"
"No Rose" Dimitri ran his hand through his hair "I don't want to look him up or know anything about him I am just grateful that he is out of mine and my families lives"
"Sorry" I said quietly "I didn't mean to push it on you I just…"
"I know you were trying to do something good Rose, there's nothing to apologise for" he held me a little tighter "I just don't want anything to do with him"
"Okay that's your choice and I respect that" he tilted my head up to look at him
"Roza, please don't look him up" I was shocked at how he had known what I was thinking
"Seriously can your read minds or something?"
"No I just know you, I know you would like to know who he is but I don't and I am asking you to not look him up because I don't know what you would do to him"
"I wouldn't do anything I swear"
"Even if you didn't I would ask you who he is and I would…" He trailed off
"You would do something that you would regret"
"Regret? No, but my mother would be disappointed in me"
"Disappointed? Why?"
"It would remind her of the day I kicked him out"
"Why would that be a bad thing?"
"I scared her that day I would never want to scare her like that again" we sat in silence again until a thought came in to my head
"Didn't you say you beat up your dad?"
"I did" for the first time since this conversation had begun I saw him give a small smile
"Was it the day you kicked him out?" Dimitri nodded his smile fading slightly
"Yeah"
"Give him any scars?"
"He's probably got one on his left temple"
"How'd you do that?"
"I punched him and he fell against the table and cut his temple" I almost smiled, I was glad that the guy that hurt Olena got what was coming to him
"Tell me something" He looked down at me "Did you beat the crap outa him?"
"Honestly? I nearly killed him"
"What?"
"Roza for the last thirteen years whenever he came over my mother was confined to her bedroom or the kitchen, listening to mama scream in pain as he hurt her" his eyes were becoming dark in anger "Then that day I walked in to the kitchen as he slapped her across the face knocking her to the floor and picked up one of her large knives holding it to the throat" I gasped "I reacted fast kicking the knife out of his hand and pulling him up to face me, I was almost as tall as him and I was a lot stronger" He paused as if he were remembering it "I told him to pick on someone his own size then I punched him making him hit his head and fall to the floor, then I kicked him over and over until my feet hurt then I dropped to my knees and punched him repeatedly. I saw the knife out of the corner of my eye and I grabbed it holding it to his neck, I said to him 'How do you like it? Being on the receiving end, what to stop me from slitting your throat?'" He took a deep breath "I was going to kill him, my mama stopped me she placed a hand on my shoulder and said 'Dimitri don't, he's had enough' I still didn't move until she said 'Dimika please you're scaring me' I was frightening my mother the way he had" Dimitri was shaking "I threw the knife to one side and picked him up by his shirt before walking to the front door and literally throwing him out on to the front path, I walked out he tried to scramble away from me but I crouched down and grabbed him then I told him 'You are very lucky my mother stopped me or you would be dead' he froze then and looked up at me in pure fear I told him 'If you ever come back I will kill you, go' then I stood up and walked back to the house but before I closed the door I yelled out to him 'Now' he didn't need to be told twice" When he was finished I was honestly shocked.
"You once said you had to learn to control yourself like I have to"
"That was the day I learnt I needed that control" I paused before asking
"Dimitri, why did you choose now to tell me all this?"
"It was today" I was confused
"What was today?"
"Twenty third of April was the day I kicked him out; I just felt I needed to tell you"
"Why didn't he press charges" Dimitri looked confused "He's a royal and you threatened to kill him but he didn't tell anyone"
"Because we had to be a secret me and my sisters, if anyone found out there would be serious trouble for him"
"Wait so no one…" he cut me off
"No one knows about us" We didn't speak for a while we just sat me taking it all in and Dimitri calming himself down eventually I said
"Thank you" I kissed his cheek, he was no longer shaking but he was still tense
"For what"
"Telling me, being honest and making me love you even more"
"How could that make you love me more?"
"You protected your family and you didn't kill him as much as you wanted to"
"I considered it again you know"
"Killing him?"
"When I was Strigoi" He shuddered slightly and I wrapped my arms around him "I thought it would be the perfect time to track him down, kill him and make him pay, honestly I don't know if that was the Strigoi or me"
"It doesn't matter, you're Dhampir now and that is all in the past" Dimitri sighed
"You're right" He kissed my forehead again "Thank you" I moved over and turned off the lamp
"I love you Roza" I leant up and kissed him
"I love you too Dimitri"
I've noticed I often end stories with them saying 'I love you' to each other but you know what I like it :)
I rewrote and re uploaded this after TRC came out because the way I had written it before didn't make sense with the information provided about Dimitri's dad in that book, hope this version is okay with everyone :)
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