A/N: Da-doooommmm, here I am again ! :D With me is the most unclear chapter of Think happy thoughts! This has so much different days and characters and everything in it that I can say this is the WORST chapter ever... I'm sorry, but next chapter is better because I know 100% clearly what it will have inside of it (that sentence doesn't make any sense ok) and this is some kind of... filling chapter ):

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Think happy thoughts - Chapter 3
Scheiße = shit in German.

Tino woke up but he didn't open his eyes. Through window's Venetian blind came some light and Tino could hear cars driving outside. Slowly he opened his eyes and saw wooden ceiling. Around him were group of sleeping people and he could still smell the alcohol's smell floating in the room.
"Scheiße...", someone said behind Tino and soon tangle-haired Gilbert cranked himself out from the bed. "Headache?" the German asked when he saw Tino was awake.
"No", he answered and watched how Gilbert left the room silently cursing. Tino sighed. No, his head wasn't aching, his left arm was. He remembered the whole night and quickly he glanced Mathias and Lukas who were still sleeping. He rolled up his shirt's left sleeve and saw well-bandaged arm with no smudges of blood – and Mathias was drunk while doing it! Tino left the sleeve loose, decided to go downstairs and search for some painkillers.

It was raining on Monday. School's floor was slippery because of all the water and no-one smiled when Tino zigzagged his way to history class. He sat down on a bench and squeezed water from his hair.
"Never heard of umbrella?" Tino wanted to punch Mathias who had sat next to him.
"I don't own an umbrella", the Finn said. Mathias laughed.
"Poor you. I think you really should buy one – they've been forecasting rain for the whole week", the older boy said. Tino sighed and after a little silence the Dane became serious. "Have you talked with Lukas?"
"No?"
"He said he wants to talk. Maybe about your... accident on Friday", Mathias said and glanced Tino's left arm, which of course was covered with shirt's sleeve. Tino looked down and nodded.
"Maybe we'll talk today."

Tino couldn't believe that Lukas was actually worried about him. They didn't know each other very well and Tino's view of Lukas was that he was actually kinda scary. While sober he didn't show his feelings, he was quiet and usually very mean towards other people – anyway Lukas was able to read people so well that Tino couldn't be totally relaxed at his company. His grades were good, all the teachers liked him because he concentraded on class and always did his homeworks and he never skipped classes without a good reason. So, there he was, cross-shaped hairpin on his hair, wearing the school uniform and drinking coffee while listening biology teacher's speech about DNA. Everybody knew that Lukas' family was really conservative and religious. No-one knew if Lukas himself shared the same values as his parents. Sure his hairpin was cross-shaped but even non-religious people wore cross-shaped jewerly – and usually Lukas' hairpin was actually up-side down.
"So. Because our time is running out, please read chapter 12 at home and remember that your essays are due Monday. See you tomorrow", teacher said and students started talking while packing their books. Tino threw his book in his bag and was just about to leave the class room when he felt a hand on his shoulder.
"Hi, Tino. Do you have time after school?" Tino looked Lukas in the eyes. The Norwegian wasn't smiling but his look was friendly. Tino nodded.
"Yes. See you at the main hall after the last lesson?" Lukas nodded and disappeared so quickly that Tino wasn't sure which direction he went. The Finn sighed and headed to the language corridor where he had his last lesson of the day.

Tino loved coffee – its scent, its taste and its effect to his tired brain. He smiled to his precious cup of coffee which he didn't buy himself. There was amused smile on Lukas' lips when he saw how happy the Finn was just because of a single cup of coffee.
"I'll repay to you, I promise", Tino said and smiled. Lukas shook his head.
"Nah, you don't have to. It's just a coffee, and I offered it", the Norwegian said. Tino's smile widened – nothing was better than a cup of free coffee! Lukas chuckled and took a sip from his coffee. It was still raining and most of the people in the café were soaked. They could hear people cursing about the weather and the upcoming flu-season.
"Well... You wanted to talk?" Tino said when he got tired of the silence between him and Lukas. The Norwegian nodded.
"Yes. About Friday evening. Do you remember the whole night?" Lukas asked. There wasn't any kind of expression on his face and it was a feature in Lukas what Tino hated. You could never know what was going on in his head!
"Joo. I-I mean, yes", Tino said and and laughed. He always started to speak Finnish when he got nervous.
"I don't want to sound rude, but you aren't okay. You need help. I'm really scared that some day you'll go and kill yourself because of all that self hate you have in you", Lukas said. Amazed by the Norwegian's words Tino stared him. "I can see your want of commiting suicide from your eyes, and I don't like it. I'm not a therapist, but if you're afraid of professionals or diagnosies, I would love to listen. You have to speak about your cutting and suicidal thoughts, Tino. It makes you feel better, trust me. We can together get some professional help to you, okay?"
"How do you know it makes me feel better? Talking, I mean", Tino wanted to know. For the first time in his life Tino was able to see some sadness in Lukas' eyes.
"I had one person in my life who had problems with cutting and depression, too. And he told me that when he talked about his thoughts, he felt better", Lukas said. Tino frowned.
"How is he now? I mean, did he recover?"
"No. At the end he thought that he shouldn't bother other people with his problems and he committed suicide a year ago. And I don't want you to do the same mistake", Lukas said. Even though that Norwegian was still quite scary and distant, Tino felt an urge to stand up and hug him. He seemed to be so sad and hurted because of his loved one's suicide that Tino felt himself sick – how sick would Lukas feel himself?
"Oh my God, I'm so sorry", Tino said. Lukas shook his head and actually smiled to the Finn.
"Don't care about it. I just want you to get better, so can you give me a promise?" Lukas asked. Tino nodded slowly. The Norwegian took a piece of paper and a pen out from his bag and wrote down a number chain. Then he gave the paper to Tino.
"When you feel like cutting, call me. I'll answer, no matter what time it is. Promise?" Tino stared the paper, lifted his eyes back to Lukas and relieved smile sneaked onto his lips.
"I promise."

"M'thias?" The Dane nodded as a sign he listened to his friend but he didn't take his eyes off from his homeworks. "C'n ya help me?"
"With what?" Mathias asked when he saw that Berwald didn't have any unfinished homework.
"W'th Tino."
"Tino?"
"Ja."
"What about him?"
"I wo'ld like t' get kn'w him b'tter. So... Do ya kn'w anythin' he's into?" Mathias grinned. He knew what was going on.
"Sure! He loves coffee and history, and well he IS a Finn after all, so getting drunk is never a bad thing. But well, I don't know him even that much, Lukas told me all these facts. You can ask him or just go and talk to Tino - he is really nice anyway."

Tino stared his mobile phone which he had threw on to his bed. Next to it was a box of plasters, Tino's CD collection and a pile of paper towels. His CD player was screaming while playing some Finnish metal music, but Tino didn't hear it properly even though it was his favorite genre of music. No, he was too concentrated to his bleeding arm and silverish knife to even realize that his CD player was playing his favorite song. When song's last note was over and silence filled the room for two seconds Tino dropped the knife and cursed. Again, little bit too deep.
No, absolutely not too deep.
He stood up, catched some paper towels from his bed and pressed those papers over his bleeding cuts. He cursed more when he saw how the paper started to smudge and he ran to the bathroom. He cleaned his cuts with cold water and bandaged his arm while tears of pain and failure flowed to his cheeks. He just wasn't able to understand why he did it again, why he couldn't stop. The temptation to take that knife and just make the pain go away was always too strong to Tino to handle. Silently he sneaked back to his room, shut the door and fell down to his bed, next to his plaster box and CDs. His CD player was quiet and his phone was even more quiet. Tino sighed. He promised to Lukas that he would call, but still his phone was untouched. He didn't have the courage to take his phone and make that call. What a failure he was! But, after all, their school uniform's sleeves were long and Lukas couldn't see his arm – plus the autumn was coming and Tino would only wear long sleeved shirts because the days were cold and the wind was freezing. So actually there wasn't any problem if you asked Tino.

Tino yawned and took his jacket off. He was happy that it wasn't raining, but dark clouds were floating in the sky and Tino was sure he couldn't walk to home without getting soaked – no, he still doesn't owned an umbrella.
"Tino! Good morning." Tino smiled widely to Ludwig who was getting his own jacket off.
"Good morning. How are you?" the Finn asked and put his jacket to the coat rack. Ludwig followed his example.
"Really tired, Gil and mom argued the whole night and I didn't get any sleep because of that. You?"
"Better than you, I suppose. But you have a short day today, right? So you can go to sleep after school", Tino said and Ludwig nodded.
"Yes, fortunately. What you'll do after school?" Ludwig asked when they left the main hall and headed to the math corridor.
"Ah, I don't know yet. I have to write an essay to my biology class and then I should read some history... So maybe I'll study the whole evening - again", Tino said and sighed. Ludwig laughed and sat down on a bench which was outside of their math class room.
"You'll study when we were about to ask you to come to McDonald's with us after school? No way, Tino." Mathias smiled widely and Tino had no idea where he came.
"But I really have to do that essay", the Finn said. Mathias rolled his eyes.
"C'mon, you! We'll eat quickly and I know you're hungry after school", the Dane said.
"Okay, then. But, who actually is 'we'?" Tino asked, referring to Mathias' earlier statement of 'we asking'.
"Me, Lukas and Berwald. I haven't had McDonald's a long time, so I really wanna go! And I heard that Lukas hadn't done that essay, so maybe you guys can make them together or something. Anyways, see you at three!" After he said that Mathias turned on his heels and left the math corridor.

A/N2: Next chapter has some drunk!DenNor, conversation between Lukas and Tino about the past and of course the adventure to McDonald's! (there is McDonald's about 400 meters away from my school and I go there like... about every Friday with my friends :D I HAD TO INCLUDE IT HERE. Sorry.)
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