The outpour of desire for this story... well it's enough to make any girl blush hehehe. Thanks so much you guys, it really motivates me to see how much people like the story and want to see more. You all are the driving force behind my writing. Well you and my current hate of the GG writers, but that's mostly a temporary thing cause usually I'm pretty happy with the way they carry things along.

I'm glad that so many people liked the way Rory realized that she'd made such a huge mistake. I think that even in the episode you could see in her face, even as she handed him the ring back, that she wondered if she was doing the right thing. But that's just me. I wanted to use Lane as the vehicle in realization to show that, despite what Lorelai thought and wanted, the people closest and most dear to Rory absolutely believed that she'd made a mistake and that she should be with Logan. And I had to add a bit of Miss Patty in there, because she's a Stars Hollow staple and she's always involved in whats important to the people of the town.

We'll see more of the Lane, Patty and the other townies later on, but after this chapter we switch gears for awhile.

That said we'll move on: I do not own Gilmore Girls, the characters, original plot or storyline, nor anything else that was written, produced or directed by ASP or the WB/CW. I do however own my own plot and storyline, characters and point of view!

Chapter Four - What You Wanted

"Rory!!!!!" Lorelai shouted as she walked in to the house when she got home that night. "You here?" she called out.

"Just give me a second." Came the muffled response from Rory in her bedroom.

Lorelai set the bags of takeout from Al's on the kitchen table, hung her purse on the back of a chair and started unloading the food.

"I come bearing food!" Lorelai called out again.

"Chinese?" Rory's voice asked hopefully.

"Indian."

"Al's?" The voice came again clearer this time and then the bedroom door opened and Rory walked into the kitchen.

Lorelai smiled widely and waved at the table. "Your dinner is served, madame."

Rory returned the smile but Lorelai noticed that the expression didn't move into her eyes. In fact Rory's eyes looked dull and a bit red, as if Rory had been crying. There was little doubt in Lorelai's mind what Rory had been crying about. She was fully aware that Rory was still upset over her and Logan's breakup, nearly every night Lorelai would hear her crying in her room.

Lorelai tried not to think about the situation at all. If she didn't think about it, she didn't have to worry about whether she'd handled the situation the right way. As far as she was concerned, Logan was no longer an issue and she didn't need to worry anymore about her little girl leaving her alone to go be with some rich, spoiled society brat. No matter how she looked at it, she had to believe that Rory was better off without Logan, and she had to hope that soon Rory would see that too.

Needless to say, Rory and Lorelai hadn't actually discussed the collapse of Rory's relationship since the night of her graduation. Lorelai didn't want to say anything that might make Rory angry at her and Rory hadn't said anything because it hurt too much to talk about.

The girls dug into the food, eating directly from the takeout containers while sitting at the kitchen table. Lorelai told Rory about her day at the Inn and a highly humorous argument that had occurred between Kirk and Michel. Rory talked about Lane and the babies, how cute and happy they all were. They had finished eating and putting the leftovers away when Rory finally broke the ice on a long dreaded conversation.

"When Logan came here and asked you for your permission to marry me," Rory started her voice level and calm. "What was your first thought?"

"Uh, I suppose my first thought was that you were so young, too young to get married." Lorelai replied. She was shocked that Rory would bring the topic up, she knew how much it still bothered her, but she hoped this was a sign that Rory was starting to get over the blond.

"Hhmm," Rory hummed in response meanwhile thinking to herself 'Yep there's number one.'

"And after you'd given him your permission to ask me and he'd gone, what were your thoughts then?" Rory asked.

A small frown formed on Lorelai's lips. "Does it really..."

"Yes, it matters." Rory interrupted, knowing that her mother was going to try to get out of having this conversation with her.

Lorelai sighed and walked down the hallway to the living room, waving Rory to follow her. She sat on the couch and waited for Rory to get comfortable on the opposite end. She used the time to align her thoughts, to try and figure out how she wanted to say what she needed to say.

"I was concerned that you weren't ready for marriage." Lorelai replied. To herself she thought that Rory could never be ready for marriage to Logan, he was to immature, to irresponsible.

"Wasn't ready?" Rory asked cautiously.

"Well sure." Lorelai told her. "You're young, you've got lots of time to find the guy that you want to settle down with and start a family. You've always had big dreams and I know you want to get your career going before you do that settling. You and Logan hadn't been together very long..."

"We'd been together for nearly three years." Rory interrupted.

"I know but you were in college still. Being together in college is like being with someone in high school; it's seems like it's serious but it's not real life." Lorelai clarified before continuing on. Because she was avoiding looking at Rory she didn't notice that the younger girl was getting more and more angry, more upset.

"It just seems to me that Logan didn't suit you all that well." Lorelai admitted. "He's impulsive and you think things through. He reacts poorly to bad situations, makes bad choices and doesn't consider the consequences. He was always a bad influence on you..." Lorelai was cut off as Rory exploded.

"This is why you wouldn't talk to me when I asked you to help me with my decision when he asked me to marry him!" Rory yelled and jumped off the couch to pace around the room. Lorelai was so shocked to the outburst that she didn't respond to the statement and could only listen as Rory continued.

"You hated him. Everything about him. But you never really tried to get to know him. You looked at him and all you saw was a blond, rich society boy and you hated that because he represented everything about the life that you ran away from." Rory ranted while pacing.

"You know what you just told me? You told me that you had immediately thought that I shouldn't marry him because of the way he acted when we'd first met. That you thought I was too young to understand life in the real world, what love is in the real world. You didn't want me to marry him because our personalities weren't exactly the same, that we did things differently from each other, looked at things differently." Rory huffed out a breath and rounded on her mother. Lorelai's face was pale and her eyes wide as she listened to her daughter and actually took in what she was saying.

Rory paused and stared at her mother. When she finally continued her voice was deadly calm. "You described a person who is impulsive and doesn't always think about the consequences of what they do. Someone who makes bad choices and then reacts poorly when things turn south. Who does that sound like mom?"

"Do you know that one of the things that attracted me to Logan in the first place was that he reminded me a little of you." Rory told her mother and had the pleasure of seeing her mother's mouth drop open. "I've always looked up to and respected you and I could see bits of your personality in him. But he's more than that."

"He shares my love of literature, maybe not as intense but he does. He can debate and argue with me about it and he's right just as often as I am." Rory explained and she sat back down. "He's a hard worker when he needs to be, and he always gets the job done. He suffered a major defeat this spring and sure, he took a couple of weeks and wallowed in his failure, acted immature and irresponsible but when push came to shove, he got off his ass and worked hard to find a job that not only interested him and he was good at but could make him happy too."

"I realized today that all of the reasons that'd I'd come up with not to marry him, were reasons that you would have provided me with. And when you think about it a bit more deeply, every one of those reasons is lost by circumstance." Rory paused. "I knew, even as I told him that I wasn't ready, I knew that those reasons were just handy excuses. That the real reason I was telling him no, the only thing that kept me from putting that ring on and moving to California, was because I knew you didn't want me to. Deep down, I knew."

Lorelai's heart pounded in her chest and that nagging sense of guilt that snuk into her mind during weak moments, exploded inside of her. "Oh honey, no."

"Yes." Rory said firmly and looked Lorelai directly in her eye. "I said no and let him walk away, all but forced him out the door, because I knew it was what you wanted."

The girls sat together silently, both lost in thoughts for a long time. Nearly half an hour later Rory pushed herself up from the couch and started walking towards the kitchen and her bedroom. Lorelai said nothing as Rory went into her bedroom and then a few minutes later came back out pulling one of her suitcases and carrying a second. She jumped up quickly off the couch but stood still watching her daughter. Rory set her bags down by the door and turned back to Lorelai. They looked at each other for a minute before Lorelai broke the silence.

"Where are you going?" She had to ask even though she had a pretty good idea what the answer was going to be. A horn tooted from outside announcing the arrival of someone.

"San Fransisco." Rory replied. Someone knocked on the door and Rory turned to go. "I'll call and let you know when I get there. My flight information and the number for the hotel I'll be staying at are on my desk in my room."

"Rory." Lorelai started to speak but Rory cut her off.

"I'm not sure how long I'll be gone. I don't know if Logan will see me, if he'll even want to talk to me after what I've done but I have to try. I love him too much not to try and get him back. I know you won't understand but this is something I have to do." Rory spoke with her back to her mother. "I have to try and get him back, mom. I have to believe that he loves me enough not to just turn me away. I need him. And if that means I lose you, well then that's my choice."

Rory put her hand on the knob and pulled the door open.

"Hi love." Finn smirked.

"Gilmore." Colin nodded in greeting.

"Thanks for coming to give me a ride to the airport guys. I know that you're busy these days." Rory greeted them with a kiss on their cheeks and each of the guys reached for one of the bags sitting by the door. "I'm sure you both remember my mother."

Finn and Colin glanced at Lorelai and they each gave her a small smile. She returned the smile but said nothing. Neither boy missed the wet eyes and pale faces of both the Gilmore girls.

"We should get going, I don't want to miss my flight." Rory said. They guys turned and headed back to the SUV parked in the driveway. Rory started out but paused in the doorway.

"Bye, mom." Rory said softly and walked out, pulling the door closed behind her.

Lorelai stood still as a statue as she listened to the vehicle start again and then back out of the driveway and drive away. She was still standing there five minutes later when there was a knock on the door. Running on auto, Lorelai walked to the door and pulled it open.

"Luke." She whispered and the tears finally spilled from her eyes. "What are you doing here?" Lorelai managed to ask.

"Rory thought that you might need some company." He told her. At his words Lorelai burst in to shaking, sobbing tears and threw herself into his open arms.

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In the backseat of the SUV Rory cried silently as Logan's two oldest and best friends drove her to the airport. They didn't talk, they didn't ask any questions or demand details. When they reached the terminal, Finn parked and they all got out of the truck. Colin got the bags out of the back and Finn put his arm around Rory's shoulders while picking up one of her bags. Colin carried the second bag and the three of them walked into the terminal building. Finn led her towards one of the desks and Colin talked quietly with the attendent at the counter.

Finally Rory realized that they weren't at her terminal, they were in the building for private planes and charter flights. Her gaze went to Finn's in question.

Finn saw the look and answered with a smirk. "Logan would kill us if we didn't take good care of his best girl."

"Logan might kill you for telling me where he is and for helping me." Rory remarked.

"I don't know what happened between you two Ror, but he still cares about you." Finn told her.

Rory closed her eyes to avoid the sympathy in his and sighed. "He asked me to marry him Finn, and I didn't say yes."

"Rory." Colin said from her right and something in his voice insisted she look at him when he spoke again. "He was hurt, there is no denying that, but he still loves you."

"I hope that's enough."

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I know you're wondering: is she going to have to choose between Lorelai and Logan? And if she does, will she really choose Logan? I think I know. I'm pretty sure I know, but we'll all just have to wait and see. As to why I'd have Colin and Finn come get her and give her a ride instead of Lane or somebody else from town, the reason for that will be explained later. So will the townies input and plan to help Rory get Logan back.

I hope you all liked it and will continue to review like mad, cause I gotta say when I see how many reviews there are for this story I think to myself 'Damn, I better start on the next chapter...'

And speaking of the next chapter: several people asked when we would see Logan and how he's dealing with the breakup, the move and everything else... Well the answer is simple, the next chapter revolves around Logan and his reaction.

Till next time :o) apalusa

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