Sorry about the delay. Ive been kinda busy Im a slacker and i am sorry.. hope its enjoyed

"He said to Jake that it would be in his best interest to stay away from you that if he so even looks at you the wrong way Seth would personally tear him to pieces"

"Jesus Seth, well there went having an easy week."

"All jokes aside Bella, this week is going to be awkward as shit ... I mean come on he still isn't over you at all. And this is the first time he has seen you since you gave him his stuff back right?"

"Yeah Leah, it is but its not going to be me to make this awkward he just has to deal with the repercussions of his actions, you cant have your cake and eat it to all the time. But on a lighter note we have an engagement party to get to!"

As we all pile into Seth's old station wagon the. Why he hasn't gotten rid of it is unknown to me. He says it's perfect for his surfboard so we let him think its ok. We get to the hall and the place looks amazing, Embry must have went with a Hawaiian theme for Lilly. There were tiki torches and flowers everywhere, there were even small fire pits placed in certain areas to give a bit of heat and look. The servers were dressed in their Hawaiian gear and this wasn't the funny flowers shirts they were hula girls and flame throwers and all. As we got up to the entrance we each got a lay, and with an added touch Seth and Lilly each were donned with crowns made of flowers and leaves.

"Surprise Baby, do you like it? I wanted to try to make you feel more at home here."

"Oh Seth this place is amazing! you know that home is where ever you are silly boy."

You could just see the love that radiated from the two of them. As sweet as was seeing my brother and my best friend so much in love, I couldn't help from feeling slightly jealous. I couldn't help but think what my life would have been like if he didn't leave. Frozen at 18 forever wouldn't have been that bad. I would have been in love forever and loved back forever. What I would have looked like would have been the last thing in my mind, I would have him. I was brought back to my reality when Melissa whispered in my ear.

"Stop thinking about him Bella, your better off without him. And I don't mean Jake"

How could she understand, she was never dazzled by a Cullen before he was like a drug I couldn't get enough of. Life after him was like rehab. There was a time he once compared my scent to what a fine whiskey does to a recovering alcoholic. He wanted it so badly but knew better not to taste. I guess that was what my life turned into after Edward left. I wanted him so badly but I knew it wasn't possible he stopped loving me. I thought back to the day he left. We had spent the day together in our clearing in the woods. He had braved making a fire for me. It was there he told me he was leaving. He and the family were going back to Alaska, back to the Denali clan.

"I guess that means I won't be coming with you"

"Bella… it's for the best ... your safe now you can live your

Life and grow old and be happy"

"Happy …without you ...Edward that is not happiness."

"Bella please understand. We are not... meant to be."

"Its already been decided hasn't it?"

"Yes it is we are leaving in the morning"

"I want to say goodbye to everyone, if you're going to leave me again I want to say goodbye. They were a family to me also Edward. I love them just like I love you."

With that I got up and walked away from the fire I didn't want him to see me cry I didn't want him to have the satisfaction of him being stronger than me. He walked away once before and it broke me. I wouldn't let it happen again. After I managed to regain me voice I turned back to him.

"If you are leaving, give me this last night, lie before you leave me … and don't come back Edward"

With that we made love under the stars. It was passionate and yet gentle. We took our time I wanted him to remember this for the rest of his life. I wanted images of this night to play in his mind whenever he closed his eyes. I wanted him to remember what it felt like when his fingers ran across my body. I wanted him to remember the sound of my heart beating more rapidly with each step closer to our end, having it echo in his head forever. I wanted him to know what he was leaving behind. Although it was our first time I poured all the love I had out to him. Our bodies moved in unison till we reached the top. As we laid in each others arms, I looked at him never breaking my gaze. Searching his eyes for an answer to a question I was still looking for. The gold in his eyes were long gone I was left staring into the dark black abyss. Edward looked away first and with that I knew he was right were may not be right together. As he lay over top of me being sure not to keep to much weight on my body he placed a small kiss on my chest,

"I want you Bella.."

I felt his cool breath on my body and I damned myself for my body reacting to him. I arched my body into him eliciting a moan of pleasure. He replied with a growl of his own. He trailed kisses from my stomach up my chest to the pulse point in my neck. Placing one last soft kiss there I heard him whisper

"You will not be his"

It was so soft I almost didn't hear it but from training my ears to pick up on his tone I heard him loud and clear. I made no notion that I heard his words, it wasn't till later did I think back on what he say and wonder what he could of meant by that. I felt his lips curl back and he mumbled into my neck, his cool breath made me have chills. I knew he was going to bite me. I was going to have everything I've ever wanted a life with him but it would have been a lie. How could he make the decision now that he wanted me forever right before he leaves? Right when he realizes I will let him go.

"My love"

Right there I knew this was not what I wanted.

"No… Edward"

With those two words I ended this charade, it was pointless to continue.

"No Edward …Just …. Just ..."

I couldn't even say it the one word that would give me the most pain in the world, thankfully I didn't have to he did it for me. He pulled away from me and sat up looked me in the eye, but I couldn't return the look. I wasn't strong enough to face him.

"Go… is that what you were trying to say Bella"

"Yes Edward"

With that he got up and left ... no sweet goodbye just a cool breeze from the speed he used to leave me. In less time it took to blink he was gone clothes and all. I stayed there wrapped in the blanket we had trying to warm myself by the fire. I've must have been there for a while I stopped feeling the cold wind of the night, I didn't even realize the cool hand that was on my shoulder all I did was stare into the fire watching the flames dance and the wood that once was so hot cool soon after.

"Bella ... are you ok?"

"Oh Alice"

" Ok before we start all the kissy mushy stuff did Embry really set all this up Seth?" I was brought back to reality by Leah.

"Yea he did Leah isn't it amazing I told him I wanted an Hawaiian theme and he just kind of ran with it I thought is was going to be a bunch of people in Hawaiian shirts drinking pina coladas."

"So where is the master mind behind all of this I want to thank him, and I'm sure Bella wants to see him again .." Lilly replied with a nudge to my ribs.

I still felt lost in my dream and a flash of pain crossed my face, I regained my composure as quickly as I could hoping no one caught it. But alas Leah and Melissa both did recognition was plastered on their faces. Leah was the first to save me.

"You guys go a head and find Embry I've already seen him today , I am going to find one of those flame thrower guys and get him to make me a strong and fiery drink, just how I like my men. Come on Bella get one with me!"

"Hmm that sounds pretty good to me , lets leave theses love birds to do all the pictures and hello's for us. Find us when you need us. Lets go Melissa."

"Roger that" only when we were out of earshot both of the girls looked at me and they knew not to meddle to much we never spoke of Edward out loud. " You ok Bella-Roos?"

"Never better now quick find me a drink before I have a breakdown." With that I saw Leah spin around and grab one of the server off guard. She swiped 3 glasses of champagne off his tray and told him if he made sure we were never empty handed she would make sure he enjoyed his tip. She had us cracking up of course she never did anything, but give the guy an awesome cash tip but we all would pitch in at the end of the night.

"Well its not on fire but it looks pretty, I do love an open bar ! By the end of the night we will have a tone of these flower in our hair, Check it out Bella it matches with your dress how about that huh" she says as she pulls the purple orchid out of her drink and into her hair, of course we follow suit.

We raise our glasses "Here is to a great week ladies !" I say, hey its not the best cheer I could come up with but it would do short sweet an simple. I did not need the theatrics of a crazy long toast I will doing that enough tonight and I couldn't waste them. I take the time to look at the girls here with me giving both of them a good stare. Pleading with my eyes that no one brings up Edward directing that mostly to Leah, and that they be at least decent to Jake staring harder to Melissa. They seemed to both understand the unspoken words and nodded their heads.

"Good I'm glad we are on the same page here ladies, now on with our toast. To having a great time back home and to Lilly and Seth, Cheers!"

When we finished our drinks I look up to see a smirk on Leah's face she is up to something and Melissa is keeping her mouth on her drink, her eye on the raspberry at the bottom of the glass. That's when I felt the presence of someone behind me. My whole body was tingling with an electricity I couldn't explain. I took a deep breath in trying to calm myself but it only made matters slightly worse I could smell him now. I felt light headed and excited at the same time. This was someone I knew but couldn't recognize. I closed my eyes and let myself drown in his scent. It was like the smell of warm summer day after a hard rain in the woods. It was clean earthy smell. Only one person I have ever known had smelled this amazing. I have only smelled it once before also. It was on the day my family vampire and werewolf defeated Victoria and her newborn army. This smell came from the one and only Embry Call, I would know it from anywhere. To be honest I never forgot the way it felt to be in his arms that day. I felt safe with him calmer given the circumstance that my best friend at the time was lying on the ground fighting for his life after being attacked by a new born and the love of my life was somewhere in the background watching me in another mans arms. I just couldn't move I didn't want to leave his warm embrace, it felt like home to me to be in his arms and it scared me to death. I mean at the time I was in love with Edward, and part of me loved Jacob as well he was my sun my warmth in the time of darkness when Edward left me.

But with Embry I felt something entirely different. I remember clutching on to his arms since he had no shirt on trying so hard not to fall apart. All he did was hold me and run his fingers through my hair which felt amazing. At the time I have never been so thankful that Edward couldn't read my mind. Because I focused all my attention on the feel of Embry's hands on my body. I was brought out of my Embry induced daze with Melissa letting out a small giggle into her drink. That's when I opened my eyes to meet the laughing eyes of my two best friends and there I felt the all to familiar blush creep up my neck to my face.

" I hope you have come up with something a little more complex for your toast at dinner Bella, I must say I'm not impressed with your maid of honor skills yet"

There is was that husky honey voice. He was close enough I could feel his breath, his scent invading my senses taking control of my mind and body. The voice that made the electricity just go crazy all over my body. I felt an indescribable pull to him and I wasn't sure why. Once I regained my composure of not to just jump into his arms and beg him to take me away, I turned around to face the man who haunted my senses. But boy I wasn't prepared for what I saw. He was tall dark and handsome. You could tell he kept in shape. I mean I know the pack was all muscles but he seemed to be just as big as Jake maybe a littler bigger. Defiantly better looking. He grew his hair out which surprised me from the normal buzz and crew cut the rest of the pack always had. It made me wonder if he still phased as often as the others, but I didn't think so he looked older and wiser. He looked incredibly sharp in the suit he wore a black suit and jacket with a deep purple, maroon shirt with a tie to match. Funny how we had similar colors on, if I wouldn't of know better Id say it was planned, just so happened that I was in a deep wine colored dress. As I surveyed the rest of him I managed to reach his face and I let out a tiny gasp. His dark brown eyes were staring into mine and I was lost.

"Embry"

His name escaped my lips as a whisper I wasn't sure he heard, but I knew he did. He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. And it felt as if he was breathing in my soul. I couldn't help but look at him with wonderment I shook my head slightly when I saw his shoulders rise and fall with the breath he took and I felt a little embarrassed to be practically drooling over him like a fool. I looked down knowing I had a blush on my face. He moved closer to me and I felt him put his hand on my hip and I couldn't help but notice the way his fingers played on my skin. It felt like my body was on fire everywhere he touched. His thumb traced half circles on my body. His fingers slowly burning his touch forever in my skin. I felt the rush of warmth run through my body. With his other hand he reached down under my chin to have me look at him.

"Bella,… you look beautiful tonight sweetheart, I've missed you."

What he said was quiet and only meant for our ears, knowing half the crowd could hear our words with their wolf ears. It irritated me a little bit that people were able to invade our private moment but I knew they weren't trying. His words were full of truth he did miss me and it was then I asked myself why I never went after him when he left that summer. I saw his head come closer to me and I stepped into his body brushing back a strand of hair back that feel into to his eyes. He leaned in and I thought he was going to kiss me right on the lips in front of everybody and at the time I wouldn't of stopped him the thought of his lips on mine made my heart race. And I am sure he heard it. Damn wolves. Embry leaned in a placed a lingering kiss on my cheek, and wrapped me into a hug. My hand that was once tucking a hair back immediately ran through his soft curls and down to his neck as he kissed me. I felt his chest shudder with a soft growl, and if I wasn't gone before I was lost now. A sweet innocent kiss on the cheek has never had me so turned on in my life. As I reached his neck I felt him pull me closer to his body and wrap his other arm around me and engulf me in a hug. I have never hated champagne so much in my life I just wanted to throw my arms around him and never let go, but no I was stuck holding this glass. We were interrupted by one of the wait staff coming up to Embry about something that happened in the kitchen. He glared at the kid as if to say Im busy here. And in a way he was or at least I wanted to think so. I pulled myself away but I could only go so far his arms wouldn't let go. He gave me a look of where do you think your going, I placed a hand on his arm and he released me with a huff. I could help but smile at him.

"Its ok Embry, find me later when your finished"

"Ok Bella… I will see you soon."

"No problem honey."

And I left him with a kiss on his cheek. When I got a couple steps away I turned back and saw his watching me walk away with a sly smile on his face, so what does every respectable woman do in a situation like this. I gave him a little show I walked slower and swayed my hips a bit more, not overtly but just enough to get his attention. Leah and Melissa moved to the bar while Embry came over to say his version of a hello. When I reached them I turned back to look at Embry he had a hand running threw his hair he had a wild look in his eyes and was slightly flustered, he was still looking at me nodding his head in agreement at the waiter who spoke to him. I raised my glass to him and smiled. I saw him lead the waiter away to head back to the kitchen. When Embry was out of sight I turned back to face my doom. Leah still had the smirk on her face and Melissa just handed me a glass of ice water. I questioned her but took it anyway. The cold water felt so strange in my hand I was almost shocked at the temperature.

"Here things were looking a little hot you might need to cool down there Bella."

"Uhh … right ... yea thanks Mel." it dawned on me we were in front a huge crowd , hopefully no one else realized how bad I wanted to jump Embry right there. But Melissa always noticed things I didn't want her to and that's why I love her.

"So are we going to talk about what just happened there Bella, I mean good god was that really Mr. Honey Voice himself?"

I let out a gush of air I didn't realize I was holding in. "Uh … yea Melissa that was Embry, and I'm not sure what just happened out there. I mean wow did you guys see him he is .. huge taller than Jake, Leah is it even possible with Jake being Alpha?"

"It isn't supposed to be possible Bella and that's the strange part. He is taller than Jake now and bigger hmm I wonder if he has been phasing since he has been in Seattle?"

"What do you mean Seattle, I didn't know he was living there?" All this time he's been in the same city as me and had no idea.

"You need to get out more Bella, he has been living there for a while now, cooks or runs a restaurant there im not sure the name of it."

"I had no idea Leah, Jake never told me what he was doing either did Emily."

How much of his life did I miss, how out of the loop had I been. I had a strange desire to know everything I could about Embry. I wanted to know how he lived, how he loved what made him happy and to my surprise how I could make him happy. Then I realized I wanted him. I wanted him like I've never wanted anyone else in the world. Then it hit me he is a werewolf , hence has an imprint. He wouldn't be able to love me the way I could love him, never fully. It felt like my world just came to a crashing halt.

"Speaking of Jake, here he comes Bella."

I was actually really nervous to see him again. The last time we saw each other I was throwing his clothes and everything else that we had together at him. And he stood there pleading me to understand that is was a mistake and to forgive him saying we could work through it all. I think now after everything I may have forgiven him, part of me will always love him, he was still my sun but my world would never revolve around him again. The pain was still there the betrayal had lessened a little but managed to come back full force when I turned around to see him walking toward me. I managed to look him in the eye and I could tell he still felt the pain even after a year or so. I couldn't help from my heart reaching for him. He stopped walking toward me his eyes begging to let me speak to him they were searching for answer I wasn't ready to give yet. Seeing him stand there with a look of desperation on his face brought back all the memories from that night.

It was a late night for the back to school. We had to set up and break down everything and I was exhausted. Trying to sell US History to a bunch of high school students and their parents who only really care is how many college credits can my child get with this class. I managed to get out of the school at the ripe ole hour of 12 only to make my way to Jakes apartment he shared with another guy. I ran inside trying to dodge raindrops in a monsoon and threw off my jacket on a chair in the kitchen. It was then I noticed the beer bottles and purse on the table. They were just opened and hardly any was drank.

"That's kind of odd, Tony must have some girl over"

I didn't think much of it until got to the top of the stairs and heard silence coming from Tony's room. I placed my ear straining to see if I just couldn't hear anything. I felt like a bit of a perv trying to hear if he was with a girl. It wasn't even a minute of me trying to listen in on what was supposed to be going on in Tony's room did I hear moaning? I wasn't from his room it came down the hall from Jakes room. Our room. The one we shared together. Im not sure how I made to the end of the hall I don't remember walking or hearing the door open downstairs. When I reached the door to our room I stopped and listened maybe it was some sick joke Tony was playing on us. Until I heard the creak of the floorboard behind me. My shoulders fell relief washed through me it wasn't Jake in the room because he was standing behind me.

"Honey I think we have a problem" I was saying as I turned to face him. The only problem was that when I looked up I didn't see Jakes dark eyes. I was met with a pair of stormy blue eyes that looked confused.

"We sure do sweetheart, because if your out here then who is there?"

And with that I ran into Tony's arms trying not to believe what was happing to me. I stayed quiet until I heard the woman in our room, moan my boyfriends name. I stayed in that position for a while the shock rolling off me with his whispers of " I'm so sorry" in my ear. I turned around and stared at the door wishing this was all some horrible nightmare I would wake from. But I realized it wasn't when I heard the bed squeak and her giggle and gasp. I knew it was over when I heard is voice finally.

"That's right"

"Oh Jacob!"

"Say it again I want to hear MY name!"

"Jacob!"

"Mine !"

He yelled and then in a softer voice I heard him say something that made my heart break even more. The pain from the memory of Edward saying the same thing came flashing in my mind. An I almost fell over with the amount of pain that was in my heart.

"Not his Bella"

That's when I lost it and I guess so did Tony he kicked the door open which surprised me a lot. Somewhere in the back of my mind I wondered if he was some sort of supernatural being. I stormed in right after the door flew back, and saw Jacob my sun the keeper of my most of my heart. On top of another woman. I saw his face and his eyes were clouded over and he didn't seem himself. He was shaking like he does right before he phases. Time went slowly from the point Tony kicked the door in to when I heard the girl scream out of fright. That's when I saw her. Her brown hair in disarray wild eyes terrified of what I would do. Looking back at me then to Jake waiting for something to come out of his mouth but he just stayed silent. It was Tony who spoke first knowing full well I wasn't going to even acknowledge the woman. He was practically growling her.

"I think you should leave just grab your clothes and change somewhere else."

Once the silence was broken I saw Jacob shake his head. It was like he had snapped back to reality, I saw him look at the woman who got out of our bed with horror in his turned to me with tears in his eyes.

"Bella you have to ... oh god what have I done"

I looked at him as my world fell apart my the hole in my chest ripped and destroyed my heart. I wasn't able to speak. Breathing was hard enough I was gasping for air. Tony stepped outside to make sure the she-devil left. I couldn't focus on anything all I heard was him he was yelling to me.

"Oh Bella! God I thought... its going to sound crazy I thought she was you !"

Still nothing I felt so cold

"I would never… break my promise to you. I never meant to again

"I thought she was you I swear"

I heard him but I didn't want to hear it anymore how the hell could he of thought it was me. I scoffed yea she had brown hair and she was pretty fair skinned but really come on.

"I don't know what happed .. I had a couple of beers down at Mikes and then I realized I was back here wasted ... I can't remember how… Bella Please Believe Me!!"

He came close to me and I stared into his eyes with tears flowing out of mine. He grabbed my arms and for the first time in my life his hot touch burned me.

"Bella I Love You! You have to know that."

"

No… Jake ...how… I can't even look at you."

With that I ran out the house and into the storm. Running deep into the woods I had to get away I had to wash his touch off me. I got pretty far into the woods till I realized how far away I got. Dropped to my knees in the mud and cried my eyes out. I didn't know where my tears ended and the raindrops began. I was outside for what it seemed like days before Seth found me curled under a tree trunk.