WARNING...SUICIDAL ACTS IN THIS CHAPTER... IF YOU CAN'T HANDLE IT OR DON'T LIKE IT THEN ummm...DONT READ IT!
Chapter 4
He woke up before her again, surprised that he had been able to sleep that long, calking it up to needing a vacation. He heard his stomach grumble and figured she'd be hungry when she woke up too. Not wanting to leave in case she woke up and found him gone, he ordered room service. When it arrived he sat in the corner of the room and ate, trying to be as quiet as possibly as to not wake her. He had finished eating and was staring out the window when he heard her panic filled voice. "Mark, Mark where are you?" He ran over to the bed.
"I'm right here darlin, I didin't leave you"
"oh." she said softly after he was settled beside her on the bed, visibly relieved.
"How ya feelin?" He asked stroking a stray strand of hair from her face.
"Better, i think. I'm sorry i freaked out on you earlier. I just don't like it when people try to control me and tell me what to do"
"You don't have to apologize. I wasn't trying to control you though, i was just trying to take care of you"
"Why? I mean not to sound unappreciative or anything but why do you care, you don't even know me"
" I don't have to know you to like you. Besides i've been there before, I know how your feeling right now"
"You think it would be ok for me to get up now"
"I don't know if thats a good idea"
" I just want to soak in the tub. thought it might help"
"Alright, but be careful."
"Can you help me?" she said blushing." I hate to be helpless but it's kinda hard to move here"
"Um.. okay.What do you want me to do"
"Well first you could fill up the tub. Hot water, not scolding but still real hot"
" Yeah, i know what ya mean"
He disappeared into the bathroom.'What the hell are you getting yourself into mark, next thing you know she's gonna need your help undressing and...shit im not gonna be able to control myself." He fiddled with the taps until he got them to the point that she'd want it and went back out to see if she needed anything else.
"Okay what now beautiful?" his face went to panic as he saw a flash of pain in her face and her body tense." Are you okay?" his voice was filled with concern.
"yeah, yeah i'll be fine. The bath should help.I just need help."
" just tell me what to do." he said, brushing the hair from her face.
"Um...i hate to ask this but i can't exactly undress myself, hell i can't even move." she added chuckling bitterly.
"Okay, hey it'll get better. I promise, you can't start to give up,okay? I need you to be that strong, sarcastic woman i met a few days ago. Understand?" she grabbed his hand and squeezed it in a silent yes. "Now, i'll help however i can and you can trust me to not say or do anything i shouldn't."his voice suddenly got softer. " i want to help you. Don't ask me why , i just do so just relax and don't worry." She squeezed his hand again and mark saw in her eyes that she believed him. He put his hand on her cheek and bent foward to gently kiss her forehead." Okay lets get you in that tub huh"
"Yeah"
"I dont know how to get you out of your clothes without hurting you, what do you want me to do"
"Well the jeans shouldn't be a problem and the shirt if you can find some scissors, you can cut it off. leave my bra and underwear on though"
"Okay." He began the task, being careful about what he was doing. Once he was finised he reached out for her and lifted her, craddling her head so her neck wouldn't move. She whimpered when his large warm hands touched her skin and again when he set her in the water.
She must have drifted off in the tub because the next thing she knew she was waking up in one of marks t-shirtswith his arms wrapped around her small frame. She moaned at the feeling of his skin on hers and his breath against her ear, suddenly becoming very aware of his build and the fact that the only thing he had on was a pair of boxers.
She was surprised to find no pain in her neck and thought she would try and move. His arms tightened around her at her movement and loosened when she stilled. She turned her body, still wrapped in his arms, and looked at him sleeping. He looked so peaceful with the sun highlighting his face and giving his skin a glow.In that moment she realized just how beautiful this man was.She looked at every feature on his face from his hairline to his chin and finally settled on his lips. She was so caught up in his lips that she didn't realize his eyes had fluttered open and startled when the lips she was fixed on spoke. "How ya feelin darlin"
"Umm..better. Thanks for askin"
" Well ya know me, gentleman and all that shit"
"Yeah." she said with a laugh.
" What? I am"
" I know, your just so cute in the mornin thats all"
" Cute? Oh great now im the cute guy." he said smiling.
"Well, what would you rather be"
" The sexy guy!" he said
"But your already the deadman"
He grumbled and then smiled wide as he replied,"Thats right, the dead sexy man"
"I thought it was just deadman"
He smiled ," but im still sexy"
"Oh most definitely"
" Okay darlin lets get up. You sure your feelin better"
" Yeah, im sure"
He got out of the bed and noticed her staring at him."What"
"Thanks" she whispered, barely audible.
He walked over to her side of the bed and sat down. She watched him as he leaned down and brushed his lips against hers so lightly that they barely touched. He whispered, still close to her face so that his lips were right above hers," I really like ya, ya know that? I mean, I really like ya." He was gazing into her eyes and she got lost in the green eyes burning a hole in her soul. She reached her hand up and grabbed the back of his neck and pulled him down for a hard, passion filled kiss.No one had ever took care of her and his words and the way he made her feel made her want him...bad
"what was that for?" he asked, still looking into her deep chocolate brown eyes.
"for caring"
he laughed," Is that what everyone who cares about ya gets"
She frowned," No one else cares"
"Come on, im sure plenty of people care"
She looked at him a little angry," And when in the hell did you start to know anything about my life exactly"
He was shocked by her change in attitude." Well i don't but, everyones got people who care about them"
" Ha, thats hilarious. Well when you meet these so called people tell them to call cause i'd really like to meet them myself." She got up and he grabbed her arm pulling her back down and into his lap. " Get the fuck off of me mark." she said dangerously, through gritted teeth. The look in her eyes and the growl that escaped her lips when she spoke scared him.
" What the hell is your problem, courtney"
"If you don't let go your going to regret it"
"Really? cause im pretty sure the last time you tried that, you ended up cryin darlin." He said icely.
"Fuck off mark, You dont know a damn thing about me"
" Just calm down"
She pulled her arm from his grasp and darted into the bathroom. Her breathing was heavy as she stared her own, now empty eyes, in the mirror and remembered the past, her past. She smashed the mirror in disgust at her own reflection and immediately felt the blood flow from her knuckles. Shards of broken glass fell to the sink and floor. She picked up one of the larger shards from the sink and pressed it to her skin. " You don't know jack shit about me mark. If you did, you wouldn't like it." she whispered to herself as the glass drew across her wrist and the blood started to drip down her arm. She sighed and sat back breathing deeply and enjoying the pain as it rushed through her body.' it'll all be over soon.' she thought as she drifted off to a sleep filled with nightmares from her past.
Mark heard her scream from the bathroom, she had been in there a while. He didn't understand why she had freaked out the way she had"Courtney, Courtney let me in." nothing. He heard her scream again and broke the door in. His breath caught in his chest at the sight of her by the tub, her arms, clothes and the floor covered in blood. He ran to her and trying to wake her. She was mumbling in her sleep but he didn't have time to process it. He had to clean her up and bandage her. he picked her up , stepping on broken glass as he did so, and brought her to the bed. He found the ice bucket and filled it with water and grabbed a rag from the bathroom. He cleaned andd bandaged her. As he was cleaning the bathroom, he finally took the time to process the words from her sleep." Mom, please dont. No more. mommy please make him stop. You can hit me all you want just please make him go away."His eyes widened at the thought of her past and he finally understood her reaction.He went to her and just held her.He couldn't let this happen again. " Im sorry. I swear to god i'll protect you from now on, even from yourself."He kissed her forehead ad held her tighter until he fell asleep himself.
Damn, that was one long ass chapter. alright hope y'all enjoy it. review please. the story of courtneys past is going to come out in the next chapter. there are very mature and disturbing situations, i guess you could say. so this is fair warning. later y'all.