Hey all,

I am so sorry for updating this late. I had a really big project for school (I'm a student) and that had to be finished first. The chapter after this one will be there quick, might even in 2 or 3 days.

Well here is the next chapter. You might get some answers here?

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Sam didn't want to let go, he never wanted to let go again, he couldn't. He lost him once, before, but not anymore. It felt so good. Lying in his best friends arms. Holding him this way, made it real. This way he knew for sure that Matt wasn't dead, that he wasn't going away. It still was hard to believe, but it made him the happiest person in the world.

He did wanted answers whatsoever. He still couldn't understand. He needed a reason, needed a truth to explain why he had to go through all that pain the last three years. He needed to know why Matt was still alive.

He could see the rest of the team, standing, watching them. They clearly didn't know what to do, or to say. Sam wondered what they thought of all this. Thought of Matts return. Wear they happy, or didn't they care? Did they wanted answers to?

'We need to talk' he spoke softly after a moment. In the corner of his eye he saw the rest of the team nod. They agreed.

Matt sighed, not to deep, not annoyed, more relieved. 'I know, Sam, I know'.

Matt stood up slowly, not really wanted to let go of Sam either. I felt way to good.

'Can we talk here?' Matt asked. 'Yeah, it's safe.' Sam gave in return. Matt looked at him and smiled. Then he turned towards the team. 'And them?'

'Their safe to, I want them to hear it.. unless you don't. It depends on you.'

'I guess they can hear, it is not a secret or something. Just I don't know them, you know.'

Sam understood, Matt was his best friend, not theirs. He didn't knew them, didn't knew what kind of friends they were. The team helped him, saved him in some way. But Matt didn't know that. He probably didn't even knew that the team knew about him, about how Sam had killed him.

'Their fine, I trust them, with my live.' He said, smiling bright at his team, who smiled back proud.

Matt knew that face, he trusted Sam with his live, like Sam trusted him. Always had. If Sam trusted them, so could he.

'They helped me, you know. They helped me a lot.' Sam spoke, trying to comfort Matt.

'alright, it's okay. You can all stay.' Matt chuckled a bit when the team led out a relived sigh. They didn't wanted to leave. They wanted to hear the story, wanted to understand themselves why Matt or whoever made Sam believed he killed him. Why they caused his pain. Just why.

Matt walked towards a chair and sat down, Sam followed and seated himself next to his so long lost brother. The team took some of the other chairs. Jules next to Sam. Ed stood against the wall, while the rest of the team sat down. Matt stayed quiet for a while.

'Alright, talk, speak, explain?' surprisingly Wordy had said it. Matt looked up an nodded.

'Okay, maybe I should start at the beginning. Explain everything a bit.' Everybody nodded back.

'I joined the army when I was eighteen. Left the orphanage I lived in. my dad left my mum, mom died when I was 7. I kinda liked to army, especially JTF2. Don't get me wrong, I don't support war and I don't like killing people. But the friends, I loved them.'
He smiled proud en happy towards Sam. ' I met Sam at JTF. We immediately became friends. Never stopped.' He sighed. 'one time, Sam wasn't with me on a mission. He went home because the general summoned him and I went on a mission with a part of the team. While walking through some small village we all spread, we never been in the village before. I was walking alone just clearing the area and looking around. Then I heard some voices, they were English which you barely hear over there. I walked closer, hearing some strange words.' Matt sighed.

'I heared a conversation I wasn't supposed to hear. I even tapped it. I used my phone. I recognised the voice.' Matt looked a bit ashamed.

'There is this corporation JTF works with. They supply us with guns. Special guns and other weapons. They guns are the best. The boss of the corporation is Maxwell Denzil, he used to be a soldier as well and a good friend of a lot of generals nowadays. This corporation delivers us guns, while the Military pays them, they pay a lot. At that time Denzil was planning an extremely big deal about a new gun they made. The deal of the century you could say. JTF was going to buy it. They were going to pay a lot of money for it.
The people I heard talking were talking about a deal between this corporation and… ehm.. well let's just say a subgroup of al-Qaida.'

Sam looked up questioning. He was hurt and confused. He met Denzil. It was a nice guy and Sam found it hard to believe that he did something terrible. Couldn't believe he betrayed them. He wondered who Denzil was dealing with? Which terrorist it was.

'Kasif' Matt said. Sam knew Kasif, better than he wished he would. The Kasif group, were terrible. They killed everybody that was in there way, in terrible ways. They hated JTF and JTF hated them.

Damn, why? Why were they dealing with Kasif? Why did it have to be Kasif.

'They were planning on making a deal to, a lot of money they were talking about. It was about the Sam gun. Denzil and his company was going to make a lot of money from two teams. Two teams who were fighting against each other.
I wrote every word down and tapped it all before I went back to camp after finishing the opp. In camp I went to the higher ups, the generals and such. I told them everything I heard and wrote down. He let them listen to my tapes. They were devastated, devastated and angry. Angry that their friend betrayed them in such a terrible way and just for the money.
Of course the deal was off, they confronted Denzil, told him the agreement was over. They were planning on arresting him, but there wasn't enough prove yet so they had to set him free. The military hired another company. Meanwhile they slipped the information about Denzil towards Al qaida. Especially towards is a dirty trick, but they wanted payback. I guess you understand what happened.'

'Kasif cut their deal as well' Wordy spoke.

'Yes, exactly. Denzil lost a lot that week. Both his biggest clients were gone. He lost both deals and didn't get any off the money. He was angry, really really angry, so we heard. His company stopped, and he went off the grit. From some places we heard he wanted revenge. He wanted to kill the cause of this. He was going to be rich and I destroyed his entire imperium. He wanted revenge..on me. The price he put on my head was, well really big. Quite some people would kill for that amount of money, especially in that kind of places. The military decided I had to disappear. Disappear until Denzil was gone.'

He looked direct at Sam. 'I wasn't allowed to say goodbye. To protect you, to protect all of you. You all had to believe I was dead, that was the only way Denzil would believe it as well. So I died. But actually I went to a safe house.'

'you're body?' Sam asked a bit shocked and confused.

'Wasn't mine, apparently their wasn't much left. Just some parts. They went for DNA, the higher upps changed the name. The body was an young soldier, just as big as me. They took my clothes, my guns, my stuff, everything. Even my tags. Everybody thought I died, so I guess it worked.
A few days ago they suddenly told me it was over. Denzil was killed by an enemy of his. It is a long story. It suddenly was over and I could get my life back. I went back to Kandahar, they were all happy, confused for sure and a bit angry. Micks even told me that if I would ever do it again, he would kill me for real.'

Sam laughed. He was sure that was real.

'I couldn't find you, than they told me you left. I said: no way. But you clearly did. So I immediately left and came here. Then I found you and you hit me in the face.' Matt laughed loudly.

The team was laughing to, but softer, still figuring it all out. Sam didn't laugh, he just looked. He looked at Matt, he wanted that other answer. He wanted the answer he been waiting for, why this way? Why him?

Matt saw his stare and became quiet. 'I am not angry, so don't be sorry.'

'You're not angry?' Sam asked shocked, and a bit angry,

'No, not at all.'

Sam jumped up. 'I think I had every right to beat you, didn't I? you are not angry? You? I think you should ask me, you should ask If I am angry? If I forgive you'

'You are angry? Because I died? I don't understand. Why should you be angry?' Matt asked. He didn't understand why Sam reacted this way. He had explained everything. It wasn't his fault.

'BECAUSE I'M THE ONE THAT KILLED YOU!' Sam screamed loudly. Matt looked up shocked.

'Wha..What?'

'I am the one that killed you. I shot you, my own best friend. Friendly fire. An accident, yeah definitely. But I still killed you. And WHY? WHY? Why would you make me believe that. Why would anybody want me to believe that.'

'I don't get it, you killed me?' Sam nodded, ashamed. 'That's not possible. They told me everybody thought I died from an attack. An attack by the enemy. Just another fallen soldier.'

Sam didn't look at him. He was standing now and walked towards the window. His teams eyes followed him. Hadn't Matt known? Why did they do it? Jules stood up, walked towards Sam and stroked his arm. Comforting him.

Matt saw the image , he couldn't believe it. Why did the military do this. Why in the world. They lied, they LIED! He ran to Sam and stood in front of him, holding his face in his hands.

'Sam?'

no reaction.

'Sam look at me'

Sam looked up a bit, staring in Matts eyes. Never had Matt seen such a look in his best friends eyes. And he knew it was his fault. He hated himself for a moment.

'I didn't knew. They lied to me as well. They told me it was just an normal attack. A normal soldier dead. If I would have known I wouldn't had let them do it. Never. I'm your best friend Sam! You are mine. I care so much about you. Do you really believe I would do such a thing to you? You know me Sam? Would I?'

Sam kept quiet but shook his head. No he didn't believe that, he couldn't. Matt wouldn't.
Matt smiled and hugged him.

'I was so angry, so hurt. I couldn't believe I killed you. Everybody kept telling me it was an accident. That it wasn't my fault. But I.. I just couldn't believe that. I kept thinking, kept hating.' Sam looked Matt into his eyes again. 'I hated myself Matt, I hated myself so terrible much. I kept blaming myself, didn't believe I still had the right to live. I didn't wanted to. I wanted to be with you.'

'Even if you did kill me, if I really would be dead, it wasn't your fault. It never has been. I would be quite angry if I would see you on the other side that way, not cool.' Sam nodded. This was one of the only times he actually believed it wasn't his fault. If Matt told him himself.

'Why would they make me believe that?' Sam asked after a while.

'I don't know. They told me they had an opportunity to kill me, but it was by the enemy I'm sure. I.. it's… I just can't believe they did this. They will hear about this. But not now, I don't want to ruin a happy moment. Alright?' Sam nodded smiling.

'So let me introduce you to my team.' Sam looked proud, really proud.

'I already met them a little, but I would like to know more. Maybe we could have a moment together? A drink, a talk?'

'Of course' Sam spoke before turning towards his team. 'Do we need to work? Or..?' he asked.

Greg stepped forward and smiled. 'I think this is a special moment. I'll talk with Holleran. I think you can have a few days off.' He looked at Matt. 'But you better not disappear again mister Whitlock. Then we might have to kill you as well.'

'Never, never again.'

'Good' Greg and Sam spoke.

'I guess we will see you both soon, we would really like to get to know you better Matt.' Wordy told them.

'Same here' Matt said smiling.

'Maybe we can go for drinks soon?' Sam asked, and everybody said yes.

'Where do you want to go?' Matt asked.

'My home' Sam said.

'We'll see you later, Sam.' Wordy patted his shoulder. Jules hugged him tight and walked out of the room. The rest smiled at him, Spike waved a little, before following Jules as well.

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The team went back to doing there choirs, but they kept thinking about Sam and Matt.

Greg was happy. Just really happy. He had seen how hurt Sam had been. He always saw it. Now maybe that would disappear. He liked Matt, but his words had been the truth. Matt couldn't leave again, in any way. It would destroy Sam.

Ed liked Matt as well, he sounded fine and hurt. It explained a lot that he hadn't known that Sam killed him. Still Ed wanted to know who made Sam and the world believe it. He wanted a long an .. private.. talk with that guy.

Wordy was proud and relieved. He was relieved that Sam's pain would get better now. There had been moments he didn't believe Sam would make it through the pain and hurt. He had been afraid Sam couldn't forgive himself. He thought about it a lot. Now that was over.

Leah and Jules were both just happy. Still a bit confused but happy. They both wondered what Sam and Matt would be talking about. Especially Jules wondered.

Spike didn't like Matt a lot. He didn't knew why, but it felt like had just lost his best friend. That there was more to come and more to lose. He didn't like the feeling. But he couldn't stop it.

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Sam and Matt walked into Sam's apartment.

'Nice, no personal stuff as expected, but nice' Matt laughed.

'Oh shut up.' Sam couldn't believe how easy it was to live with Matt in his life again. So terrible easy. So amazingly easy

'I mean it, where are all the pictures? No but seriously tell me everything.'

Sam took a beer and gave one to Matt. Before letting himself fall on the couch. Matt joined him quickly.

'Alright. What do you want to know?' Sam asked.

'Everything, but start with that team of yours' Matt knew Sam loved them, he could see it. He knew Sam in and out. The way Sam had looked when he spoke about them, or looked at them. It said more than enough.

'Fine. Who first?' Sam wondered.

'You're boss of course, idiot.' Matt hit him softly at his temples.

'Alright. Well you've got the boss. Sergeant Gregory Parker, or just Greg. He is the one that does most of the negotiating.'

'Negotiation?'

'Yes, Matt! That is what we do' Sam laughed. 'In risky situations we come in and try to talk or negotiated the subject down. So nobody needs to get hurt. We save them.'

'Okay, cool' Matt spoke, not very convinced yet. 'He's any good?'

'Sarge is great, the best I've ever seen. He can talk almost everybody down. He always tries to help, never just judges. He is kind en great. Sometimes he is a bit like a shrink, which is kinda annoying, but he only does that to help you. He does cares way to much about everybody. But is a great leader, strict but nice and caring. He's great.' Sam spoke proudly.

'He seemed pretty cool, and nice.' Matt smiled back the way he had smiled. It made Sam look for a moment. Just thinking how lucky he was right now. 'who's next?' Matt asked taking Sam back to the normal world.

'Ehm.. Well, secondly you've got the team leader. That's the person that is in charge of all the tactical stuff. In team one this is Ed, Ed lane. The big, bald guy' He explained. 'Ed is a great leader too, very very strict, but always in your best interest. He cares but doesn't show it too often, but when he does, you feel like nothing can stop you and that he will always be there. He has en lovely wife, an teenage son en a little daughter.'

'Third, you've got wordy, Kevin Wordsworth. He is the dad of the team. At home he has 3 daughters and an amazing wife. He is the sweetest, kindest and bravest man I have ever seen. He is always there to calm you down, to talk with you. To tell you everything is going to be alright.'

'Then you've got Spike. Michelangelo Scarlatti. He is the genius. He is our computer and bomb guy you could say. But he knows a lot about.. well.. a lot. He is smart, funny and sometimes really annoying. He like you're little brother, annoys the crap out of you, but makes you happy all the time and you care extremely much about him. We used to have another guy in our team. Lew, but he died unfortunately. I don't really want to talk about that.' Matt nodded understandingly. 'Spike was his best friend and it was tough for him, we talked a lot those days. He is a great friend now, the best.'

'The ehm Leah, well Leah is Lewis his replacement. She is the long, dark girl. She is strong, young and brave. I don't know here extremely well, but I actually really like here. She is always fair and tells you the truth. But she is sweet as well.'

'Than last, but definitely not least you've got Jules.'

'Nice' matt Spoke.

'Yeah.. well… we kinda dated.'

Matt immediately putted his hands up. 'I understand, bro-code. All yours'
Sam laughed hard but became a little sad afterwards.

'She is great. Just amazing. She is like the sun, always shining bright, bringing the best in people, she does a lot of negotiating but she is a great sniper to. Yeah seriously, she snipes like hell. She was the first woman in the SRU. She is special. Strong and sweet. Fight and peace. Love and hurt all in once. I liked here from the start. She just well.. rocks. We used to date.'

'She sounds great, and looks great. I mean .. ehm… wait, used to? As in not anymore?'

'Nope, were over, just friends now.'

'Why not? You dumped here? Not smart Sammy, she's a keeper. A fine lady that's a sniper, my my.'

'No, actually she dumped me. We weren't allowed to date and it became a choice between me and the job. Clearly the job won.' Sam said sadly.

'the bitch.'

'Matt, don't say that. I understand here choice. I couldn't leave the team either. And she is great all right?'

'Fine, still don't like it though. You deserve to be happy. People should think about you.'

'Well I got you for that now don't I?'

'Yes you do.'

Sam looked Matt in the eyes, this was nice, just talking telling Matt about his friends, about his live. Knowing he was there for real.

'I am so happy you are alive, you know that. Just.. so… so happy.' Sam Spoke honestly.

'I know, and I am extremely happy to be with you again. You're my best friend, you will always be. I missed you, ya know.'

Sam smiled and blushed. 'You're such a girl' he said to break the moment.

'Ow shut up.' Matt hit his head again.

'Can I stay here tonight by the way?' Matt asked. 'I don't really got a place to go to. And I don't want to leave.'

'You can stay as long as you want.' Sam smirked. 'But you get the couch.'

Matt sighed. 'Fine.' And he hit Sam for the third time.

'Know tell me more, friends, family, how you've got at the SRU, your house, your girlfriends. Especially the girl friends. Everything.'

'Okay, well. I think I tell you how my first day at the SRU went…'

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From a distant the sniper watched them. He followed them to this house, and quickly discovered who it belonged to. He took his phone out again and called.

'Yes?'

'I've found the house, what do you want me to do?'

'Wait. Just a little longer. He took everything away from me. Everything I cared about. Now I will do the same to him…'

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