A/N: I am so sorry that this took so long. I went on vacation and simply did not have time to write. I hope this is alright for ya'll. J Thanks for all the follows, and your reviews were so kind. Thanks so much.
"Barry," Jane finished.
The sound of his name caused Maura to recoil. If she had not been looking at Jane's face when she said it, she would have thought she misunderstood her. But the disbelief she saw matched her own feelings.
Maura never did spook easily. In her mind, everything had a logical explanation that left very little room for anything too thrilling or mysterious. But the moment Barry's name left Jane's lips, goosebumps spread over her entire body.
"Jane, I don't understand. How did you know that I was going to say that?"
Jane didn't answer right away. The truth is that she didn't know how to answer. What was she supposed to say? Because I have been chasing him, too, Maura. And I thought he could run fast BEFORE! Ha ha ha.
"Jane," Maura repeated breathlessly and with impatience. Clearly unnerved by the situation.
Desperate to reassure Maura and herself, Jane prepared to make up some lame excuse to cover her own discomfort and uncertainly about the situation. It wouldn't be too hard to convince Maura of something bogus. After all, Maura wouldn't likely believe a supernatural explanation, anyway.
"Lucky guess. I'm a detective and you look like you saw a ghost so..." and that was it. Jane stopped mid-sentence. Her sudden awareness of the letter in her left hand made her fall mute. How could she lie to Maura? How could she be this close and not take a chance. The answer was simple.
She couldn't.
Taking a deep breath, Jane steadied herself for what felt like the greatest leap of faith and courage she ever had to muster.
"Maura, I'll tell you how I knew you were following Frost in a minute, but there is something else I need to tell you first. I owe you an apology, because I didn't come to you right away when I first read this."
Jane raised the letter to show Maura, who immediately drew in a sharp, ragged breath. She recognized it right away. If Maura looked pale before, she looked positively faint staring at the letter.
Seeing the look of fear on Maura's face caused Jane's heart to ache with the desire to soothe her. "It's okay, Maura. Camille gave this letter to me because I told her … I told her that I love you,"
Jane began to ramble. "She knew about your agreement with Frost and made me admit it before giving it to me so I told her that I have loved you for a very, very long time I still do and I'm terrified that you don't feel the same way..."
Umpff
For the second time in less than five minutes Maura crashed into Jane, but this time their lips took the brunt of the force and Jane was once again pushed back into the wall.
Maura didn't comprehend anything Jane said after she heard the words, "I love you." After all of these years, she had given up hope. She simply couldn't bring herself to tell Jane her feelings, and when Barry died she lost the only person she had ever admitted it to. The only person who she could ever talk to about it.
"Of course, I still love you. You big …drug!" Maura cried, wrapping her arms around Jane's neck and holding her as close as she could.
"Big dope, Maura. I think you mean big dope," Jane chuckled.
They looked at each other before erupting in laughter. Jane couldn't help but get the sense that this was so like them.
When they began to settle, Jane knew it was time to do some explaining. It didn't really matter if Maura believed that Frost led them to one another, Jane believed it. She believed it with her whole heart.
Despite her love for Maura's hard science mind, Jane always left room for something more. Something unexplainable. Something spiritual, even.
"Maura, I knew you were going to say that you were following Barry, because….because I was following him, too. He appeared to me at the park. He led me to you, Maura." Jane didn't know how Maura would respond. She knew she needed to give her some time to process it.
Maura was quiet for a minute. A sea of emotions and wonder formed in her eyes and Jane could do nothing except watch while Maura tried to the find logic and understanding in what Jane had said. When she responded, her words didn't surprise Jane at all.
"Jane, you know how hard it is for me to accept that what you are saying is really what happened. For that matter, it's just as hard for me to believe my own eyes. A part of me wants to argue that the two of us may have experienced some kind of shared hallucination. It has been known to happen," Maura argued. Not looking entirely convinced.
Jane smiled at her. This is the woman she loves. It was exactly this quality that intrigued her so many years ago. How Maura would argue against something that was improbable in favor of something else that was improbable, but at least sounded scientific.
"Maura, I really don't know what happened. But I do know that I want to kiss you again. I have waited a really, really long time."
And Maura didn't keep her waiting.
As they began to walk away in the direction of nowhere in particular, holding hands as if they had been doing so for years, Jane decided to give it one more try..
"I swear it was him, Maura, I chased him all over the place and when he led me around that corner, I ran square into you."
"Squarely, Jane," Maura corrected.
"Yeah, yeah. Mr. Adverb," Jane replied, squeezing Maura's hand.
"…. and that is how it all went down, Barry. I owe it all to you. My whole life is changed now, and I have never been this happy.
I am sorry that I haven't come here to visit you in a while. Maura and I … well… we have been, ahem, catching up on things the last few months. And NO I won't give you any details. Perv.
It's been a real adjustment. Of course, Ma just wants us to have kids and Crowe keeps looking at Maura and I like we should include him. Yuck!
I haven't seen you since Maura and I got together. She hasn't either. She and I don't talk about what happened too much. But, I'll tell you what I believe. I believe it was you. I believe you were still looking out for us. I believe you finally had the ability to give me the desire of my heart… so you did. It is the best gift anyone could have ever given me."
Thanks, Frosty."
The End.
