Disclaimer: I do not own Death Note or any of the songs used in this Fanfic.

A/N: All songs are by The Rasmus. This is a SongFic. Yaoi, LXLight.

All italized words are lyrics of the song. BTW, the plot of this FanFic are quite in different order.

Enjoy!

Song 4:

You got it wrong

The Kira case just got too dangerous. It got too complicated as well. The Japanese Police will leave if L doesn't point out anymore improvements. He got to act. He decided.

Light was sleeping. In his dream he saw a person's silhouette, slouching and his thumbs were on his lips. After a short while, the person's face became clear, it was his beloved L. That time, it was winter and it's almost his 17th birthday. He thought he got his present a little too early.

Light woke up with the sight of L. "Light-kun, your father is looking for you."

"O-okay, thanks." Light went out. "Where is he?"

"Light-kun, I was just joking. I really need to tell you something."

"Ha-ha, is it really that important?"

"Yes." L said with a serious face.

'When you found me on the street,

Did you think you rescued me?

Bet you thought without you I would die.'

"I want to break up with you." L continued.

"Wha-what?" Light said. He was surprised at first but his anger overtook. "What the hell are you talking about, L?"

L was shocked to hear Light say his real name. It was the first time he said it.

"Everything is becoming complicated, Yagami. I can't play with you anymore. But thank you, it was fun."

"That was not a fucking joke, is it?" Light yelled with anger and pain.

"I'm sorry, but no."

'Like a snake you swallowed me,

I took it 'til I couldn't breathe

Just to bring your fantasies to life. '

"Then why did you say you liked me when I didn't even show a hint of my desire for affection?"

"Yagami, it was obvious."

Light just stared at L. He couldn't believe it was happening, the nightmare that he doesn't even dare to dream. Everything was going perfectly, no, their relationship is smooth. But why all of a sudden?

The thought of him being Kira flashed on his mind. Maybe L was just confused because he truly suspects him.

"Maybe the Kira case is just getting on you, maybe you just need to rest." Light tried to persuade L.

"No. I know you understand how I feel. You used me too."

"What?"

'You count on the faithful to get your way,

And to follow your light.'

"But, but I love you, Ryuuzaki! And you said you do too. Then what was those times we've been through?" Light was getting furious yet tears started to flow in his eyes.

"No, you got it wrong."

'You got it wrong now,

'Cause I don't give a fuck

I'm not your believer.

You got it wrong so

I guess you're out of luck

Your dream just lost a dreamer.'

Light stormed out of the room. When he got outside, he kicked the nearest trashcan until all of its contents are out.

"Damn you, L! I loved you and you tell me this? Are you that suspicious of me?"

Light Yagami was indeed in-love with L even if he is his enemy. L never realized that it was hard for Light as it his for him.

When Light met L, he started to take his killings lightly. And besides, he couldn't even concentrate that much on his tactics. He almost wrote L's name in his death note, but he noticed just in time to stop himself. L wouldn't die anyway, Light still don't know his full name.

When Light met L, he thought that he became gentler, even with his Shinigami Ryuk.

When Light met L, Light isn't obsessed in becoming the god of the new world (as he says it) that much.

When Light met L, everything just changed, little or much.

So Light was simply heart-broken.

'You fooled me with your mystery,

Preaching peace and charity'

When Light came back, since the investigation is still not over, L was sleeping. L is just too cute. Is L torturing Light?

L woke up finding Light next to him. He looked at his eyes and it was wet. Light has been crying.

"Light… I thought I made it clear that—"

"Shut up, L. Please, one last time. I can't take it."

"Light…"

'But I see through your vanity and lies.'

"It's not true; I didn't use you, L."

"I could no longer pretend that I believe you Light, and you must accept that so pleas—"

Light hugged L so tightly it almost chocked him. "I know that you love me, L."

"No, Yagami."

'You think you got the best of me,

But I will rewrite history,

I'll take back my life to your surprise.'

Light was now convinced that L did not love him, not even once. Light stood up, went out and banged the door close.

He felt that his chest was tightening as if he was having a heart attack. Besides the pain, he felt anger. He was so mad at L that he could rip his head off. But doing that would just hurt him more.

He thought of revenge but it seems it's just not going to work. He just loves L too much.

'If I could make it as painful as you did

I'd be just wasting my time.'

While he was walking…

"Light-kun!" Misa popped in front of him. He covered his eyes as fast as he could so that Misa won't see him crying. But she did.

"Light-kun, are you crying?"

"No, stupid." But it's obvious that he is, he just remembered what L said. 'No, Light, you got it wrong, I never loved you.'

'You got it wrong now,

'Cause I don't give a fuck

I'm not your believer.

You got it wrong so

I guess you're out of luck

Your dream just lost a dreamer.'

Light headed home, his own home. He declared to himself that he would try and forget.

He shut his eyes so tight to block his tears from flowing. He tried so hard to overcome the hell he was feeling. Actually, he thought, it was worse than hell. But there was something on the tip of his mind…

What was L's true objective into making him believe that he loves him?

He didn't really achieve anything, or unless he did, but he didn't tell Light about it.

But if ever there was, what is it?

He felt so bad and hurt that he thought of this.

'There's a little part of me

That would like to see you cry

Even just one tear

I know it would never dry.'

Light eventually fell asleep.

Meanwhile, L was curled up in his bed.

L was angry at Light, not because he was persistent, but about this:

'If Light really loves him, then he would notice, somehow, that I am also hurt.'

L said that he didn't love Light, but it was all a lie.