how can something so wrong , feel so good?

I layed in bed , Eric's arm around me he held me close, not that I hated it but It wasn't fair to Kenny, oh jeez how did I let myself get stuck like this? at first I was thought he was just messing with me, then he kissed me, I was shocked, I kept trying to tell myself Eric is faker or is bad kisser but his lips I could taste the sweetness, that's when I finally knew he loved me, I melted into kiss My brain finally started working when I felt his hands start to remove my shirt, I did wanted it oh hamburger's! I pushed him away, It wasn't right but then Eric told me, that I was everything to him, that's when I realized what I wanted, I just wanted to make Eric Happy, I still loved him with all my heart But I didn't want to hurt Kenny, oh jeez love is so hard, well need less to say, I spend night at Eric's house

I moaned at his Touched unlike Kenny , Eric was hard but didn't leave marks and was always soft , I never knew S-sex with Eric could be so um Toxic? is that the word ,oh hamburger's ! I blushed hard as the night went on; we passed out during the night. Eric was so a-amazing , I blushed as the sun raised , as always I need to leave for school , I felt gulity afterwords , not only for Ken but for leaving Eric.

It had been at least four months, since that night, things seemed the same only me and Kenny gave up on sex, when he asked why , I just lied and said I wasn't in mood; since when is lying a good idea? Eric in the years I had known him, I only saw him cry once a lot of it was fake, but last night when I told him I loved him, He cried and said he loved me too, that's when I knew Eric was the one for me and well it got me to thinking as I was walking to school that morning.

I made it on time, I was sitting in homeroom I was sitting next to Pip We were talking about summer beach's, I barely listened as I found myself looking at Eric, I don't think he notice he was talking to Stan, not that I could hear what they were talking about, Wendy and other's were talking about going shopping after school for there boyfriend's. I looked down , what am I going to do? I love Eric but Kenny well is nice I guess, "alright class calm down!" Everyone stopped what they were doing , it was our old 4th grade teacher " Mr. Garrison!?" Stan yelled , I was just as shocked as he was " what the fuck!?" Eric barked "Eric watch your mouth!" He barked back, he still looked the same, gray hair but he was more tired looking; h-how is he still alive? "What happen to Mr. Bailey?"Red asked from the back, looked graved "he had his breasts done yesterday and he's in recuperating, so I'll be here for next few weeks"

Everyone had there mouth hung open everyone" what?!" then Eric growled "well no wonder this school is screwed" " ERIC WATCH YOUR MOUTH OR I'LL SEND YOU TO THE OFFICE!" Craig kinda chuckled at that " what your going to make your color all hour?" some of us started laughing , I tried to hold back a laugh he sighed ignoring the laughing , he sat at his Desk looking over paper's . " this is home room right? just do whatever you want.." he waved an hand , as if he could care less , hasn't change I smiled as I thought this; that's when I notice Eric was looking at me , It made me blushed I looked away from him and felt something hit my head, I sighed oh jeez I looked behind me to see Wendy and other's looking at me, Bebe pointed at the piece of paper and mouthed "note" what could they want? I picked up the note and opened it

to Butters- lunch with us?

I looked at them and nodded , Wendy waved as went back to talking with other's, I turned back to Pip to talk him for the rest of the class. I walked to lunch by myself , I forgot to pack my lunch , I finally sat with the other girls , I still find myself looking at Eric , I really need to stop doing that " you got your eyes on Eric, kitten" Red smirked , oh jeez I think I'm blushing at my nick name " may-maybe " I nodded , Wendy just rolled our eyes " oh calm down Butters, It's not like that you had sex" they all laughed , I think was blushing hard " oh hamburgers" all eyes were on me " oh! You and Cartman!" I covered Bebe mouth "p-please not so loud" Wendy eyes were still wide "what about Kenny?" I looked down at my shoes, "Butters both of them?" Bebe just smirked, Wendy mouth hung open "h-how long?" I felt my face blush "4 -4 months" Red chuckled "ah the fight of love" Wendy nodded; I snapped up my head what did that mean? "Huh? Fight to the love?" Wendy just sighed "it's this dumb fight, boys go though fighting for the one they love "oh god I looked over at Eric who was talking with Kenny, I didn't want this, "do-does it always happen? Isn't there anyway to stop it" I know my voice was cracking, " sorry Butter's it happens" Red cut Bebe off " well there is one way , just pick one boy" Bebe nodded " it works in the movies" " this is not a movie's !" Wendy growled, I laughed a little it made me feel better; I felt someone put a hand on my shoulder "hey kitten, what do you want?" Wendy asked calmly, I sighed shucks I was still annoyed at the fact of that Nickname but I've never been asked that 'what do I want?', well I wanted to be with Eric but at the same time, I didn't want Kenny getting into a fight Maybe I'll-I'll talk to him see if I can talk him out of fighting, oh hamburgers! What if he doesn't listen to me, no I have to try! "I –I know what I want "as I stood up, the bell rings "and good timing "red commented.

I waited by Kenny's Locker, I usually wait by my Locker for him but this time is different, I can do this, It shouldn't be hard, or at least I hope it won't "Kitten? What are you doing here?" I looked up to find Kenny "oh um well I wa-wanted to talk to you" I started rubbing my knuckles together, he sighed "I'm listening?" he looked at me closely making me heat up, I wish he would back up "um I-I think we should see other...People" his eyes widen and he back away; he looked surprised "really? Any reason why?" he raised his eye, so far he's not mad , maybe this won't be so hard " oh um well , you're no-not there for me when I-I need someone who's there for me, who l-loves me and holds me-" Kenny cut me off " there's someone else?" I blushed full hard, he-he knew!? "How did you-"he shrugged "don't worry about it, hope we can still be friends" he spoke softly, when I looked in his eyes I almost had the feeling he had planned this? No can't be, I nodded "of-of course" He nodded and walked off, I was so confused? He wasn't mad yet he knew about it?

Later on I met up with Eric outside of my house, my Parents didn't want us well doing it in the house, "um Eric" He looked up from the ground, I smiled at him he was so handsome, aw hamburgers "I um broke up-up with Kenny" his eyes went wide but he had a blank look on his face, it scared me what did he think about this? Did he even hear me and that's when I got my answer. He grabbed me and pulled me into a hard kiss, it was warm and …. I felt like a cloud flying on air, it felt like forever before he pulled away and gave a small soft smile and all he said was " my wish came true"