Collision
Chapter Four :)
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I guess you could say it was awkward with the three of us. Carl tried his hardest to make small talk with Emmett, but I knew he wasn't in the mood for talking. After an hour of one way conversations and uncomfortable silences Emmett made his excuses and left. I felt kinda sad after his absence; the night had been a right laff and I really didn't want it to end, although I guess all good things must came to an end at some point. I can't begin to imagine what would've happened if Carl hadn't woken up. But being with Emmett tonight made me realize just how much I've missed him, we're good mates after all. At least now I'll be seeing him at work.
I had to get out of there; I couldn't stay in their home after what had just happened with me and Kieron. What the hell was I thinking? I crossed a very big line tonight and I really wish I hadn't. I've never even looked at a man like that before, but it's so hard not to want Kieron with his glowing skin and perfect features. Don't even get me started on those beautiful blue eyes of his. But whatever this was, this feeling that I get when I look at him is wrong and I will do all I can to not feel it again. Maybe I will just have to stay away from him only that might be a bit difficult when I'm gonna be working with him on a daily basis. I should've listened to Claire.
My head was banging when I got up this morning, but I had never felt happier going in to work. I guess you could say I definitely had a spring in my step, which of course was all thanks to Emmett. Today we are filming our kissing scenes, as if I didn't have enough last night. I smile at the memory of it and I try my hardest not to act like some love struck teenager, but then I see him and that all goes out of the window and I'm smiling at him, you know one of those big cheesy smiles.
It must have been the drink last night because I'm feeling pretty normal today, almost like last night hadn't happened. Work is work at the end of the day and I always try my best to act professional. I was going over a few of my lines when Kieron came in smiling like a Cheshire cat. I couldn't look away from him, I wanted to I really did, but that smile of his gets me every time. I give him a causal nod, although inside I'm smiling in just the same way. We've always had a kind of flirty relationship, so no one would notice anything different between us.
Emmett seems a bit off with me today. I ask him if I've done something wrong, but he tells me that he's just feeling slightly hungover. I can't help but feel a little paranoid, maybe it's about last night. Maybe he regrets everything. Maybe I should just forget what happened between us. Only I don't think I can. I tell myself I have Carl and that he's a good man. I tell myself that Emmett has Claire and that I shouldn't be feeling this way about him, but I still do.
I keep my distance as much as I can from him, but he seems to be everywhere I go. He thinks he's done something wrong, asks me if he has. I just tell him that I'm feeling rough…too much drink the night before, but he looks at me with sad eyes and I know he doesn't believe me. How could he think that he's done something wrong? He's amazing. If we were both single then maybe we could think about getting closer, but were not and I don't fancy having an affair. Too many people would get hurt, although it would be a dream come true for most of the Stendan fans.
We are just about to do a kissing scene and I can feel myself start to shake. I've never had a problem doing it before, but now we've shared a real kiss everything feels different. He is standing before me, I'm looking into his eyes and he is looking in to mine and without words I know he feels the same way as I do. He cups my face and I cup his and my stomach flips when his mouth connects with mine. I can feel his tongue in my mouth and my own tongue starts to dance with his. We're not even supposed to do tongues.
"And cut! That's a wrap for today."
"Kieron…Emmett…I said cut!"
I heard the directors shouting cut, but I couldn't pull myself away from him and his beautiful mouth. When we did finally break apart Kieron's mouth was red and he was kinda blushing. God he's such a girl at times. I make a joke of it; tell them all that we wanted to give the Stendan fans a little extra because they had been so loyal. They seemed to accept that. I returned to my dressing room shortly after, to catch my breath if nothing else. This was bad, really bad. The knock at the door moments later was expected.
"Come in."
"Hi Emmett, sorry to bother you, but I was wondering if I could have a quick word?"
"Yeah course, come on in Kieron. What can I do for you?"
"It's about last night and what just happened on set."
"Look it's done, we can't undo it can we? Let's just draw a line under it and start again yeah?"
"So you don't want it to happen again?"
"Kieron it was just a moment of madness. We are both in relationships and we both have a lot to lose."
"Yeah…yeah you're right. I'm sorry."
"What are you sorry for?"
"I'm sorry for bothering you with this when I should've known that it didn't mean anything. We're okay though aren't we?"
"We are always okay Kieron and its okay I like you bothering me."
"What a coincidence, I like bothering you."
"One more kiss won't hurt surly?"
I came here to put things right between us, I hate feeling out of control and I wouldn't want to ruin a perfectly good friendship with someone I look up to and admire. But he's flirting and making things hard for me and before I knew it he had planted another one of his sexy kisses on my lips. I respond, of course I respond. I don't think anyone has ever kissed me the way he does. I can tell how much he wants me, but it's okay because I want him too. I am mesmerised by him. He pushes me back against the door and when he locks it I feel a shiver down my spine. He wants me to surrender to him and I am more than willing.
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