Disclaimer: All characters from the most amazing book ever, Twilight, are unfortunately owned by Stephenie Meyer and not me. Any similarities with Breaking Dawn are mere coincidences. I did not copy the manuscript for Breaking Dawn!

Author's Note:

Chapter Summary: Another fluff chapter showing that Edward makes mistakes, too. Yeah, that's pretty much all that happens.

The Song for this Chapter is As I Am by Miley Cyrus.

SPOILERS FOR ANYONE WHO HASN'T READ TWILIGHT, NEW MOON, AND ECLIPSE!!

Chapter 4: New Bella

Edward and I were perfectly content to just be together on my couch. After all, if we went to his house, Alice would bombard me with questions about my wedding, there was no longer the threat of Victoria, and school was over. So what else was there to do?

We couldn't escape Alice for long. Once she realized that we had no intention to go to her house she called me. It ended up only taking her half an hour.

"What is this nonsense about staying home all day?" Alice scolded when I picked up the phone. "There are a million details we need to go over before August!" she then exclaimed.

"Ok. Calm down Alice. If you want me to, I'll come over and help you. All you have to do is ask." I comforted while thinking 'Even thought I REALLY don't want to.'

"Thank you, thank you, thank you! Really, all I need you to do is OK some things, and then you can go to whatever you want." Yeah, it would really be that simple.

"OK, Alice." I sighed and hung up. I turned back to Edward who seemed to have not been paying attention while I had been on the phone. "It seems as if our plans for today are canceled."

"Oh are they now?" he asked mischievously coming over to stand next to me. "And who says so?" he asked, breathing in my face.

"Um, Alice. And she needed me for planning purposes." I stuttered. "And can you stop getting so close to my neck? It's starting to become a touchy area." I said, slowly leaning away.

"Are you reconsidering your choice?" he asked playfully.

"NO!" I screamed. He looked at me with a startled look on his face. "Sorry. But no. I'm not reconsidering. I will NEVER reconsider."

"I'm not so sure of that." Edward muttered to himself, but still loud enough for my weak ears to pick it up.

"No. It's just that now I actually realize what I'm giving up. I just don't want to lose it all so soon. I mean what? After our wedding am I going to just leave everyone forever? I know I'll have to leave eventually. But, if I stay too long, then Charlie and Renée are going to notice the changes. My red eyes for example. And how I don't seem to be getting any older.

I mean you, Esme, Alice, and Carlisle didn't have anyone. And with Jasper, Rosalie, and Emmett, everyone thought they disappeared anyhow. And if I disappear, you'll have to, too. And it's too confusing." I sat down on the couch and sighed.

"Wow. And I thought I over thought things. That's way too much to be going on in one mind at a time." He smiled.

"Yeah, but you have multiple people in your mind at once." I shot back as he sat down next to me.

"Bella," he finally said after a while. "We'll deal with it as it goes along. I don't expect you to just give up your family or me. Of course you'll still see them, for a few years, but..."

"But?"

"But, after a while they'll notice you aren't changing, and you can't see them immediately. You might kill them."

I shuddered. Even after all I had done to try to everyone around me that I cared about, the thought that I might be the one to put them in danger.

"Well, we shouldn't keep Alice waiting." He said, changing the subject.

I thanked him silently. I didn't want to think about the conversation from before.

I grabbed a jacket as I walked out. It was still as cold as it was the day of the fight. Ugh, I thought in distaste as I thought of what had ended up happening that night.

Edward and I then walked out to my truck, and Edward held the door open for me.

Once we had started driving, Edward asked, "Are you SURE you don't want me to buy you a new car? Pretty soon you're going to want something faster. A lot faster."

"Sure, it can be your wedding present to me." I joked.

"OK, one second you don't like the thought of getting married, and the next you do. Can you ever be happy?" he teased, smiling my crooked smile.

"OK. Fine. I'm happy about us getting married. The hardest part is over anyway."

"Really? Hmmm. I would've thought the hardest part was trying to not pass out when you have to kiss me at the altar." He teased again. I guess he was trying to make up for the Jacob thing. And really, I still loved Jacob, but I knew I could live without him. Edward… was a different story. A painful story. One I didn't want to think about ever again. It was almost as bad as seeing Edward withering on the floor from the illusion Jane had put in his head.

"Well, then you're going to have to work on being a worse kisser before the wedding." I teased back.

"Oh, Bella." He said laughing, truer than he had in a while.

"What? You can control your lips, but I can't control my consciousness."

He just kept laughing.

"OK. I don't think I was that funny."

It just made him laugh more.

"Is this some inside joke between you and Alice? See what you can do to make Bella go paranoid?" I teased, seeing how far I could push my luck.

"Bella, if I didn't have to breathe, I would say that 'I couldn't breathe.'" he said through hysterics. "Really? Does the new Bella have a sense of humor?"

It seemed that right after he said that, he regretted it.

"New Bella?" I asked. I couldn't read minds, but I was pretty sure that he meant the Bella that didn't care about Jacob.

"Why does the one time I don't think have to be now?" he asked to no one in particular. He was obviously mad at himself.

"No. It's OK. I know what you meant. And we can't be perfect all the time can we?" I teased some more.

He smiled my crooked smile again, and I could feel butterflies in my stomach. Or maybe it was just those muffins.

I didn't have time to think about it anyway because just then we pulled up to his house.

He came out in a flash and opened the door for me. He had a frown on his face, and his eyebrows were knit together. It was a different expression from the carefree one he had had before.

"Are you sure you want to do this?" he hinted.

"It's now or never." I shrugged.

"You won't say that after today. She's going to make Victoria seem tame." He said, enjoying the frightened expression on my face.

I gulped.

He chuckled and led me up to the door.

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