SAGA's POV

He is my everything. Everytime I see those beautiful emerald eyes, that stupidly adorable smile, I feel my temperature rise drastically. Almost as if I was about to explode.
I love him. To the moon and back, with all my heart. I'm starting to sound like some love struck teenage girl but it doesn't matter. I've found the light in my world. My Oda Ritsu.
How can someone be so innocent and adorable? How can someone tolerate me yelling at them, screaming hurtful words, calling them disgusting? How can they still tell me 'I love you' after that? I guess Ritsu is an outlier.*

"Senpai... Do you love me?" I was surprised at his question and started to panic.

"Eh?" This isn't good. I'm not good with embarrassing situations.

"It's just you never say anything... And I'd like to think you do." Shit. What do I say? Just say you love him Masamune! Say it!

"...Tch- quit being such a girl." No! I didn't mean to say that! I love you! Forgive me please!
His face automatically turned dreary and he had a shaken expression. Almost as if he was about to cry. Right as I was about to say something, tell him that I truly love him, he stood up.

"Wait Ritsu!" I grabbed for his arm but was struck with a surging pain to my skull. Ritsu roundhouse kicked me and ran out.

That was the last time I ever saw 'Oda Ritsu.'

Suffering. That's all it was after that. My family broke apart. My life became a disaster. Nothing was right with me anymore.
When college started I completely lost touch with my shitty parents. I also lost touch with who I was. I started drinking heavily, smoking, sleeping around. I was a mess. It happened when I found out that you had a fiancée. On top of that my father wasn't my actual father.
If Yokozawa hadn't been there to help me I would probably still be like that. Yokozawa is my best friend. He was the one who stayed with me during the hardship in my life and he helped me to become the man I am today. I regret playing with his feelings, I should've thanked him for being with me.
Thinking back I really should've enjoyed my youth, because the only good memories that I have are the ones of you. Everything else is a blur. I wonder what you were doing. When I was in that depressed state, had you moved on? Did you forget all about me, get a pretty girlfriend, and simply walk away from Saga Masamune?
I was always thinking, if I could see you once more, what would I say to you? Would I bow on the ground and apologize over and over? It was all my fault. I should've kept chasing you. I didn't know that I would never see you after that day. And now I regret that I hadn't loved you more, cherished you more.
I read in a book once, "So I know she forgives me, just as I forgive her." How I wish that would be true. If he saw me again I wish he would envelope me with his warm body, hug me tight and never let go. Sadly, reality is a bitch.

ONODERA's POV

"When someone walks away from you it's not the end of your story. It's the end of their part in your story." I told myself that everyday, trying to convince myself that I didn't need him. I was telling myself that I shouldn't want someone who trampled over my feelings. But inside I knew how badly I wanted to see him.

"...-tch quick being such a girl." Eh?

It came crashing down in a split second. Everything I had known was warped into barriers surrounding my heart. My blood boiled and I ached all over, sadness and anger swelling through me. I gave him a hard kick before storming off. I never saw senpai again.
The topic me going to England had already come up so I told my parents I wanted to go, as soon as possible. My parents went to the school to pick up my things while I sat home having internal conflicts. I kept telling myself I had just been used and thrown away.

He said he loved me. It was a lie
He made love to me. He had sex with you
He made me feel special. All so he could use you better
That's not true! It is
Senpai wouldn't do that! He did
He told me he wanted me. Just to make you fall deeper
I don't believe it! Its true
But senpai... ...never loved you..

It was all a game to him. He never loved me! He called me a girl to stop my dilutions of thinking we could ever actually be together. I was a fool in love. That's all. At least I learned this ahead of time, this saves me from being hurt later on. I'm never letting someone use me again. I take control now. It's time to forget about senpai. About Oda Ritsu.

When I came back for College I entered a national university, majored in literature, and pretty much built myself up to adulthood. Everyone was surprised that I had been turned into a completely different person.
I acted like I hadn't realized it myself but this is the front I put up. I wasn't going to be hurt by anyone. In my next relationships it was always me who ended up hurting all my girlfriends. They all said it seemed like I didn't love them. I bought the clothes and jewelry, I took them out to eat. What more did they want?
I asked myself, what? What was the love that I had neglected to give these girls? I had sex with some of them, but afterwards they would act depressed. I remember one girl, when I broke it off with her this is what she said: "I never got to feel the warmth of your touch." I had touched her, I held her hand. What could she mean?
The warmth. That was what senpai had taught me. Wherever he touched me would set on fire, it was so hot and I craved for even more. It was like he was pouring so much love into every touch, but of course that was just an illusion.

I couldn't take the heat. I burned. I was set ablaze to the center of my heart, I was damaged. I don't think anyone could fix the void he created. No one could make me enjoy my life as much as I did in that first year of high school, or make me dread every moment afterwards for running away like a chicken.

Of course that didn't matter anymore, because Oda Ritsu is dead, and Saga Masamune wasn't invited to the funeral.

"Don't trust too much.

Don't love too much.

Don't hope too much,

Because that 'too much'

Can hurt you so much."

Did this quick to explain what happened when Ritsu left and how they ended up like this. thx for reading and Animebaconlover thx so much xD I always wanted him to be kinda sassy