I found myself rambling to Bucky. Why? Because I was so damn nervous, I mean, the man was sex on legs and I was pretty much sure that he could get all the ladies he wanted but he got stuck with me. Boo fucking hoo.

" Don't mind the girls if they get nosy, but they are very nice, they'll like you I'm sure of it' I assured him, my body buzzing with nervous energy as we walked side by side, retracing our steps back to the cabin. I took a glance at Bucky. Come to think of it, he didn't look well at all, in the light of the rising sun, I discovered new features that i hadn't caught sight of yet. He had a five'o'clock shadow of a beard which made him look kinda scruffy. He looked exhausted, dark purple bags weighting heavily underneath his eyes. I frowned in sympathy, I didn't know what made him like this, probably his personal life struggles but I won't pry, he'll tell me in mean time when he's ready. The only thing i was sure of though was that I was gonna make sure that he gets better and that he feels loved and cherished because the man looked like a precious cinnamon bun god damnit.

I stopped in the cabin's drive way, hearing chatter coming from the open windows. Bucky suddenly looked uncertain, his brow creased into a frown, every muscles in his body coiled tightly, his fists clenching at his sides, the whirring sound emitting from him again. I gently reached to touch his arm and he jerked away, his eyes wide, like a deer in headlights.

' Maybe it's a bad idea doll, I shouldn't be around people' He said softly, rubbing the back of his neck with one hand while the other one, his left, was tucked into his pocket.

Bucky couldn't take the sad look that appeared in her eyes. She genuinely wanted him to stay, her droopy doe eyes practically begging him. He wondered how he even followed her here. He was a danger for her and all the girls in the cabin, he had to be isolated, cast aside, like the broken toy soldier that he was.

But how could he say no? He longed for contact, for warmth, for company. Here she was, with her glue, just waiting to help and fix him. Perhaps he could allow himself this small chance, before dropping the bomb on her that would make her hate him forever. His heart squeezed at the mere thought of having one of his soulmates hate him. He blocked out the whimper of distress that threatened to spill from his mouth. She was watching him cautiously, her hand still raised to touch him but not quite there yet. Oh how he wanted to just bury himself into her arms and forget everything and remember everything all at once. Listen to him now, it almost felt like he was falling for her already, how could this be ? He knew her for not even a day and the littlest dame he had ever seen had him falling for her with a snap of her dainty fingers. He sighed through his nose, rubbing his forehead wearily as he reached for her with his flesh hand. The beam that lit up her face did things to his heart that he could definatly get used to.

I grasped his hand tightly and guided him up the stairs to the cabin's porch. I reached for the door and took a glance at Bucky over my shoulder. His silver blue eyes were alight with weariness, jaw clenched, the tendons of his neck tensing. I gave him what I hoped was a reassuring look before turning the knob and opened the door. All conversation that was animating the kitchen/dining room stopped all at once.

' Hey girls it's me!' I called, peeking around the door to see some of the girls setting the table for breakfast. Their weary looks were immediatly replaced with bright smiles.

' Oh thank goodness, we were getting really worried since you didnt bring your- ooooh whose this?' Marie rose a perfectly shaped eyebrow at the man behind me, her hands on her wide hips, a taunting smile on her lips.

' It's ummm, it's Bucky' I started awkwardly, feeling my cheeks heating up in embarassment. Marie's friend,Vanessa, came to stand beside her and waggled her eyebrows teasingly.

" You go off into the woods to find sexy lumberjacks Mel?' Vanessa smirked ,waggling her eyebrows. The blush came back with revenge as I muttered a small embarassed 'omg' . I could hear Bucky chuckling behind me, clearly amused.

' No, he, uh, he's my soulmate' There was a hush again before the girls broke into cheers, crowding us. I felt Bucky's hand tighten it's grip on mine to a nearly painful level. I squeezed back in reassurance.

' Welcome to the family' I heard Marie say and boy were we in for a ride.

After the initial excitement, we all settled down for some breakfast since we didn't actually ate anything at the dinner. Bucky seemed tense at first, watching the girls fleet around him, not quite sure what to do with his skin as the girls set up the table and cooked. He was offered a beer, since the girls had already initiated drinking so early in the morning, because,vacation. He gingerly accepted it, which made Marie happy since she kept on insisting that he get one. I declined any sort of alcohol, for the time being, it was a bit too early to drink.

' so Bucky, where are you from?' Marie said conversatinally, deciding to break the ice after we started to eat. I was seated in between Maude and Bucky. I had taken a seat that was facing towards the door so when Bucky sat next to me he could have his eyes on the door, seeming to feel more at ease to be able to see a possible exit route. Bucky had been eating quite ravenously and was already to his second helping when he looked up, eyes wide and cheeks full of food, making look like a chipmunk. I nearly choked on my orange juice as I held back a laugh at the image he was making. He swallowed nervously before taking a sip of orange juice to wash everything down. I saw his jaw working again, his face contorted in confusion. I saw Marie frown in concern from across the table, the other girls watching Bucky apprehensively.

' I-I um...' He started, looking embarassed for his stuttering, his eyes blinking hard as if he tried to battle some inner demon. I tentatively reached and put my hand on his knee in what I hoped was a soothing gesture. I felt the muscle jolt underneath my hand and I reached to pull it back, realizing that i had breached his personal space without his accord once more. He set his on top of mine, pressing his down firmly, as if he tried to ground himself. I saw his nostrils flaring as his chest seemed to heave.

' Veronica , I don't know what you in those eggs but they are delicious' I quickly said, eyeing Veronica, trying to change the subject. Everyone seemed to get the cue to change the subject and we went back to having light conversation, mainly avoiding to ask Bucky personal questions. I felt his hand squeeze mine and I turned to him with a concerned gaze. He mouthed a small 'thank you' and offered a tiny upturn of his lips./pI returned it and squeezed his hand.

'you sure I can stay here?' Bucky questioned, setting down his bagpack on the bed. I watched him as i leaned agaisnt the doorjamb.

'of course, its all good' I reassured,waving a hand.' if you want to take a shower, theres a bathroom in the basement and one of this floor' I said, crossing my arms and watched as he tested the matress with the palm of his hands. He stretched himself out onto the matress like a big cat,the springs creaking underneath his weight.

He settled down with a grunt. Not even 5 seconds passed before I heard soft snore coming from him. I smiled softly, slowly walked over on my tip toes, trying to be as silent as possible. I peered down at face was relaxed with sleep but there seemed to be a stubborn little worry line on his brow. I felt like smoothing it down, to take all the worries that seemed to plague him ,lock them up and throw them into the bottom of the ocean. I reached to carefully take off his cap, it couldn,t be comfortable to sleep with that on. I froze when he snuffle and gave a grunt before settling back down. I let out a tiny sigh of relief and slowly leaned away, cap in hand. I set it ontop of the nightstand on the side of the bed. I reached to slowly take off his combat boots, who were caked with dirt and seemed well-worn. I undid the laces before prying the boot off his foot and repeated the same process with the other foot. I kept them in hand , planning on hosing them down to wash away the dirt. I was surprised he didnt leave any dirt trails in the house. pI

I backed out of the room slowly and closed the french foor softly with my free hand. I passed the girls who were sitting on the carpet around the coffee table,playing a board game. I took a peek outside and saw that it was a complete downpour. Perhaps i could just leave the shoes outside, theyll get washed either way.

We were right in the middle of a guessing game. In which I was making a fool of myself in when we heard a scream of terror ,that reverberated into our very bones.
'w-what was that?' Annie asked wearily, the card that had 'Nicholas Cage' written on it drifted down from her forehead when she turned her head.
'maybe the girls are watching an horror movie downstairs, ill go ask then to turn it down' Annie suggested, setting her glass of wine down and stood up,only to freeze when it came again, the sound sounding like a wounded animal.
'What the fuck man?' Maude whispered, her hands coming to grasp my arm. My eyes darted to where the noise came from. Bucky.
'Bucky' I said getting up, the fleece blanket that had been on my lap falling with a whispery thud. I quickened my pace as another guttural wail came from the room. My heart squeezed painfully, my eyes watering against my own accord.
'What wrong with him?' I heard Maude ask, feeling her hand grasp the bottom of my hoodie, as if to keep me from going into the lion's den, so to speak. I gave her no answer as i gently nudged the door open.

'Bucky?' I called softly into the obscurity, the sound of heavy, ragged breathing meeting my ears. My frown deepened, as I pushed the door fully open, bathing the room in muted light.

I saw him trashing on the bed, as if fighting an invisible enemy, giving his all to get away and by the sound of his wounded cries, he was losing. I got my ass into gear when I heard the sheets protest as they were torn to shreds by his mighty fists.

' oh shit , we should wake him up, hes gonna hurt himself' I nodded and gently guide her towards the bed.

' take the lamp away in case his smashes it' I instructed in a whisper, wincing when his swinging fist almost made contact with said lamp.

I had no time to think when I was suddenly yanked onto the bed as soon as I was in reach of the bed, Bucky's hard,solid body suddenly looming on top of mine, his weight pinning me down. I heard Maude let out a small squeak, clenching the lamp to her chest

My breath caught in my throat as he let out a low, menacing growl, his dead grey blue eyes meeting my terrified hazel ones in the semi darkness. I swallowed some saliva, my mouth suddenly feeling dry. My heart thudded against my rib cage in,fear? Worry? Was I afraid of Bucky in that very moment?Yes maybe a little, I knew that he could snap my neck at any given moment, because in this instant, Bucky looked downright terrifying, eyes glowing ominously in the dark, white teeth gleaming as his lips were pulled back in a snarl.

I held back a small whimper when he pressed as hand to my throat, his grip carefully tightening.
'H-hey Bucky,it's me, Mel' I started lamely, trying to catch a glimpse of recognition in his eyes. I bit my lip as I reached out a gentle hand and pressed it to his cheek, my thumb brushing against his stubble chin.

I felt a breath of relief leave me when the hand on my throat retreated , coming back to rest next to my head.
'yeah that's it big boy, shhh, everything's fine, your safe' I whispered, smoothing down his hair with my other hand, finding them slick with sweat. I wrinkled my nose faintly but continued my ministrations until I saw his eyes blinking blearily, all the tension leaving his body as if all the fight left him. He also seemed satisfied to used me as his personal pillow when he settled down , his body landing on top of mine heavily. I let out a wheeze as air left my lungs in a precipitated manner. I think I felt a rib crack...

I felt him nuzzle the fabric of my hoodie, taking a deep whiff of the fabric, his body growing lax on top of mine.
In any other circumstances ,I would of loved to do some horizontal loving with the man but right now , I felt relieved that he had finally settled down, no longing looking like a ferocious lion. I wrapped my arms around his shoulders and rubbed the spot between his shoulder blades.

I finally looked at the numerous pair of eyes that were peering into the room.
' Are you ok? Maude asked, now glued to her sister's side.
'yeah, don't worry, he didn't hurt me' i reassured, waving a dismissive hand. 'we'll speak of this later okay?' I whispered.
'alright just call if there is anything sweetie'Marie said , her voice holding a motherly tone. I gave her a smile, which i hope she saw before she closed the door, only leaving it partially open.

I gave a sad sigh, looking down at the sleeping man.

What exactly happened to you Bucky? I wondered, pressing a kiss to the crown of his