This starts with a flashback from two years before, it stops when the italic letters stop. Enjoy!
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It was a week after Ciel's sixteenth birthday. He had been thinking about his priorities. What did he want to do before he died? How much longer did he have to live so he could do all the things he wanted to?
"The meeting went quite well sir, I think you'll be satisfied with this years profit." His butler informed him, pouring him tea in the living room. Ciel sat back on his luxurious seat, barely listening.
If he didn't make it happen himself, would he experience a first kiss? A first crush? Love at all?
Things like that were very important to people. He wasn't sure if he was like the rest of the people, if he actually wanted any of these things. After all, his sole existence was there to avenge his parent's death. But he did know his curiosity was eating at him, and the unspecified time limit made him more and more anxious.
"Miss Elizabeth sends her gratitude for the gift you sent her in response to hers. Of course it was sent-"
"Kiss me Sebastian." Ciel commanded his butler suddenly. The demon raised his eyebrows and turned to his Master, puzzled.
"My Lord?"
"I-I want to know what it feels like…" Ciel muttered, blushing and biting his lip. There was only silence for a few moments.
"I'm not sure if this is a good idea my Lord," Sebastian said with an eyebrow raised, slightly amused. The words from his master were something he definitely didn't expect, once again surprising him like Ciel always had the tendency to do.
Ciel blushed deeply and suddenly he realized what he was saying. He was asking a demon, a man, and his butler to give him a kiss. Out of nowhere and without warning. What was he thinking?
"You're right…" he said, his eyes slightly wide as he took his tea cup and held it tightly.
"I don't know what I was thinking…" he murmured to himself, still beat red as he took a sip.
"I might do young Master." The butler said, turning and smiling a bit at him. Ciel looked at him, raising his eyebrows expectantly.
"You don't know if you'll ever get to have a first kiss before I take your soul," the demon said simply, his evil eyes sparkling at the word. Ciel swallowed hard and nodded a bit.
"You're probably right Sebastian." He admitted, letting out a breath. He shook his head slightly and leaned his chin on his hand, closing his eyes. It must have been his adolescence that acted before without letting him think it over. It mustn't have been anything important.
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Sebastian gave a bath to Ciel before bed before dressing him in his nightgown. Ciel entered his bedroom and got under the covers of his comfortable bed, his mind far away.
"Young Master?"
"Mm?" Ciel murmured, blinking as he went down to earth.
Suddenly, he felt something on his lips. It took him a couple of moments to realize; Sebastian's lips were pressed against his own, gently but surely. Ciel's eyes opened widely and he pulled back instantly, covering his mouth and looking at his butler, who was looking at him, a small smile on his face.
"What did you just do?!"
"Just following your orders sir." The butler replied calmly and simply. Ciel blinked rapidly, his face burning so much he thought it was on fire.
"I took it back!" the young Earl exclaimed loudly, his hand still covering his lips. Sebastian stood up straight and straightened his suit, laughing under his breath quietly.
"My mistake sir." The demon said, starting to blow out the candles around the room. Ciel watched him, unblinking, his thoughts going ballistic in his mind. Sebastian held a candle stick with the only remaining lighted candles.
"May I ask a question Master?" he said, a smirk creeping on his face. The Phantomhive only blinked.
"Why didn't you just request from Miss Elizabeth to kiss you?" The demon asked, practically grinning wickedly.
"Goodnight my Lord." He said lightly and made a small bow before departing the room, utterly satisfied with his last words as he left the young Earl frozen on the bed.
It took four months for the sixteen year old Phantomhive to dare to ask Sebastian to kiss him again.
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"Young Master."
Ciel's eyes opened from his slumber, sitting up straight. He had fallen asleep in his office, last night's sleep being far from enough for him. It took him a second to realize that he had been dreaming of memories from two years ago. Even in his dreams, the demon was haunting him.
"You shouldn't be sleeping in a place like this young Master," the butler said, shaking his head a bit and smiling slightly.
"What do you want?" the young Phantomhive muttered, clearing his throat as he woke up properly. He rubbed his eye and looked at the demon.
"Lau is here I'm afraid. He is here to discuss business with young Master again," the butler replied, walking over to Ciel. He blinked as Sebastian approached him, holding back a squeak as he leaned over to him.
"What's wrong young Master?" he said as he redid properly a ribbon on his outfit. Ciel blushed deeply and scowled to himself for getting tense so easily.
"Nothing…" he said, looking at his butler's hands as he gracefully made a bowknot before standing up straight. Sebastian just smirked slightly in response.
"I guess it can't be avoided," Ciel sighed, standing up from his seat and starting to walk out to meet Lau in the sitting room.
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"Earl, how pleasant to see you again," Lau said as soon as he noticed Ciel walking inside the room, smiling widely. Ran-Mao was by his side as always.
"Lau. What brings you here again?" Ciel said as he sat down on one of the armchairs. Lau mimicked his action.
"Ahh not much young Earl, just here to talk a little. Happy birthday by the way, I just heard from the servants that your birthday was yesterday. You'll have to excuse me, I didn't bring a present." Lau said happily, Ran-Mao sitting on his lap. Ciel sighed a bit, not bothering to hide his annoyance.
"Thank you," he muttered as Sebastian entered the living room, holding a tray with tea.
"Ah how great Sebastian is here!" Lau grinned and Ciel arched an eyebrow at Lau's unusual over the top cheerfulness. Sebastian glanced at him and served them both tea.
"Which brings the topic that brought my visit," Lau said, his grin subsiding to a smile. Ciel frowned a bit.
"What?"
"I'll get to the point. I can see that my visit is not the highlight of your day. Especially, when I came to visit you the other night?" Lau said, wrapping his arms around Ran-Mao's waist and tilting his head. Ciel blinked a bit, starting to feel uneasy.
"What do you mean?" he asked, trying to sound composed. Lau grinned again.
"I couldn't sleep that night, so I took a walk around the glorious Phantomhive mansion," he said, raising his eyebrows slightly. Ciel's heart skipped a beat. It couldn't be.
"Are you saying…?"
"Yes." Lau said simply, grinning at the young Earl. Ciel's eyes widened and his face flushed red. Lau had heard him with Sebastian that night?
"H-how much did you hear?!" Ciel almost shrieked, his heart beating madly. Sebastian was standing by his side, not reacting to the information.
"Hear what?" Lau asked, tilting his head and leaning his chin on his hands. Ciel blinked, his mouth opening in surprise. Oh no, he had been fooled by Lau once again, getting information from him when Lau in fact didn't know anything himself.
"Ah, it seems young Master got tricked again." Sebastian said simply, making a small sigh and shaking his head at the mischievous smartness of the Chinese noble.
"What?!"
"So what was I supposed to hear, young Earl?" Lau questioned, raising his eyebrows, the grin not leaving his face for a second. Ciel was dumbfounded, unable to form words. He knew that from his reaction, Lau had a pretty good idea of what he was supposed to have heard.
Someone had learned that he was held by another man, by his butler.
"I wouldn't worry, Young Master," Sebastian broke the silence, as if replying to his Master's thoughts. Ciel blinked and turned to face him, ready to start yelling. How could he possibly not worry with something like this? If information like that came to the outside world…he didn't even want to begin to think what would happen.
"Mr. Lau is a smart man," Sebastian said, turning and looking at the nobleman. Lau looked back at him and stared at the malicious eyes of the demon. He leaned back in his seat, Ran-Mao wrapping her arms around his shoulders in a shielding way. His arms wrapped around Ran-Mao's waist again.
"That's right," Lau agreed, sighing and smiling.
"I know that I would not live for long if I didn't keep my mouth shut, isn't that right." He asked rhetorically. Sebastian only smiled.
"Mr. Lau is very understanding." He said. Ciel watched the two men, still shocked and speechless.
"Well I must go," Lau said, Ran-Mao getting off him before he stood up. Ran-Mao stood close to him right away, looking at Sebastian as if ready to fight at any given moment.
"It was nice seeing you again, young Earl. Talk soon!" he said, waving a bit and walking off with his bodyguard. Ciel and Sebastian watched them go, Ciel hands gripping the armchair tightly as he trembled.
There was silence for a couple of minutes, Sebastian watching Ciel trembling still.
"Young Master, please calm down."
"How can I calm down?!" Ciel finally snapped, standing up and looking at his butler. He glared, his hands into tight fists.
"Someone heard!"
"He's is not going to say anything." Sebastian replied calmly.
"You don't know that!" Ciel growled, storming off into his office. Sebastian let out a small breath and followed him.
"But I do young Master," Sebastian protested, and Ciel turned to face him. He looked at him with a hard expression, his posture tensed up and his fists clenched.
"It would be a shame for the butler of the Phantomhive family if he couldn't hide a simple thing like this," Sebastian said lightly.
Ciel took a shaky breath and shook his head, going back and sitting on his desk. He rested his elbows on the wooden surface, leaning his face on his palm in desperation. He knew that Sebastian was probably right; his words were doubtless. But he still felt like he wanted the whole world to swallow him whole. Even if only Lau found out, it still was too much. The embarrassment of someone knowing that the last living person that held the Phantomhive name was letting himself being held behind closed doors by another man was immense.
"You simply don't understand," he sighed after a minute of silence, shaking his head again and rubbing his forehead. Sebastian watched him. Indeed things like that didn't seem like things someone should care about, at least to him.
"I can guarantee you that you don't have to worry about anybody else finding out." Sebastian said reassuringly. Ciel sighed in defeat.
"Good. Don't let anybody else find out. It's an order." Ciel muttered.
"Yes, my Lord." The butler said, making a small bow.
Ciel couldn't get his body to relax. He was so tense that his stomach felt sick. He made up possible scenarios in his head containing Lau telling the noble society of Ciel's shameful acts. They all ended up with him dying of shame, or leaving the country, or being publicly stoned to death.
Sebastian sighed in defeat when he saw that his words did nothing to make his young Master relax, and he came closer, walking around his desk and standing next to his chair.
Suddenly Ciel felt his face gently being turned to the side and lips pressing against his own. His eyes widened slightly, bewildered by the butler's sudden actions. He felt him gradually starting to kiss him deeper, and once getting over the shock his eyes slipped shut and kissed him back. He expected the demon to pull off after a couple of seconds, but he just kept kissing him, making him flustered and unfocused.
"Sebastia-" the young Earl breathed, pulling back an inch to suck in a breath, but before he could finish his words he was interrupted by the demon's lips colliding against his own again. His tongue snaked into his mouth and moved against his, Ciel not resisting one bit. His arms hesitantly rose up and wrapped around his butler's neck, allowing himself to give in to the kiss completely. The gloved hand that was still resting on his cheek from when he turned his face felt so good against his skin. The passionate kiss made him warm all over, his heart beating fast as he made a small sigh of pleasure. They've never kissed for such a long time before. The demon's lips were like a drug that slowly spread throughout his system, leaving nothing behind but a feel of contentment. Nothing else mattered at the time but his burning kiss.
When after a few minutes Sebastian pulled back, Ciel felt himself leaning slightly forward subconsciously towards his butler's lips. His eyes opened half way through, his breathing heavy.
"Are you feeling better young Master?" Sebastian asked in a low and clear tone, looking at his Master and smirking a bit. It took a couple of seconds for Ciel to remember for what reason he was not feeling better before. He blinked slightly and pulled back.
"Please." He scoffed. He sat up straight in his chair again, scowling. He cleared his throat, his cheeks still rosy from the kiss, his lips tingling. The butler brought a hand to his mouth to hide a small laugh.
"I'll bring you your tea sir," he said, smiling and starting to walk off. Ciel bit his lip hard.
"Sebastian."
"Yes, my Lord?" Sebastian turned and looked at his Master, raising his eyebrows slightly.
"I don't want tea. I want to go to my room…" Ciel muttered, looking away and blushing even more.
Sebastian smirked.
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"As you wish, my Lord."
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Fufufufu don't I just love to tease you all .
Firstly, I want to devote the chappie to Shelby for being awesome!
Secondly, I want to thank all the awesome reviewers who gave me ideas for this and future chapters! And lastly, anyone new that has commented and faved the story!
Tell me what you thought of the kissing scene please! I wanted it to be all smexy without anything…well sex-y happening hahaha. But I lost my inspiration half way through . So tell me what aftertaste it left for you!
Small note on the flash back, notice how Ciel doesn't linger on the fact that Sebastian bathed him and such. I wanted to show that it was still all normal to him and that he hadn't started really feeling anything.
TEASER FOR NEXT CHAPTER: Ciel gets sick. (awww ;D)
EDIT: THIS IS NOT M-PREG lmfao I got a couple of reviews asking if it is so maybe the teaser gave the wrong impression XD. This is not m-preg, besides the fact that there is a demon in the story and other supernatural beings that can't be avoided I try to keep it as realistic as I can. So yeah no m-preg, I would have said so =D
Also I feel bad for not answering any questions, so please if you want something answered right away about the chapter use an ff account if you have one? If you don't have an account that's fine but I have no way of answering if you ask questions =S. That ofcourse doesn't mean that I don't love people that don't even have an account review it, I love it and thank you! =D
Yet another edit lmao: I FOUND THE PIC WITH OLDER CIEL AND LONG HAIR! WOO! To see it, go to my profile, and I have a direct link to the piccie. You won't be sorry ;D