So, I think this is actually going where I want it to! I don't love it, but I also know that if I don't post it now, then I never will!
Classes start up on Monday, meaning I won't be able to update as often. But know that I'm not giving up on this story!
-Jordyn
"Seriously? Karev?" A voice echoed through her head, pulling the half awake doctor into full consciousness. "There are 200 doctors in this hospital, and you decide to sleep with Alex?" Addison was becoming more alert, and with each passing second there was a conversation growing louder that she wanted no part in. She just prayed that they kept it outside the lounge. Not once did her mind stop to think about the compromising position she found herself in. But instead, she was trying to find ways to go back to sleep. All she wanted to do was enjoy a few more blissful minutes with Teddy in her arms.
"I'm an adult and I can sleep with whomever I please!" April screamed back, busting through the door. Addison cursed whatever God she had angered this week. She had obviously done something to deserve this cosmic payback of allowing her and Teddy virtually no privacy.
"But Karev? You could do so much..." Jackson screeched, following April into the lounge. Both doctors stopped dead at the sight before them. Not only was Teddy comfortably situated on top of Addison, with their legs tangled together. But somewhere along the line, Teddy had managed to work her hand under Addison's shirt, and now had a firm grasp on a full breast. Addison couldn't help but enjoy the irony of being caught in the act by three different interns in just as many days. However, this was not how she had intended to announce their relationship. If they even had one.
"Wow," Jackson managed, after taking in the scene in front of him. There was no way to misinterpret what was going on, as Teddy's hand was her own demise. April just stood back, her jaw on the floor.
"I... Uh..." April sputtered. Unlike her partner, she wasn't able to form coherent thoughts as she tried to banish the image in front of her from her memory, forever. No one needed to see one of their most respected attendings feeling up anyone, let alone another woman. Especially when that woman happens to be your boss' ex-wife.
"Is there something I can help you two with? Or are you just enjoying the free show?" Addison snapped as she carefully slid Teddy's hand from her shirt. The blonde moaned in protest while the interns standing in front of her had the good grace to look embarrassed. After an awkward silence, April couldn't take it anymore.
"You uh, you do know this is a public area, right?" April asked, avoiding Addison's gaze. The red head gave her a glare that said 'no shit Sherlock.' Jackson was still lost in his own thoughts at how sexy the two doctors looked together.
"Yes, I'm quite aware Dr. Kepner. Thank you." Addison tried to dull her glare down slightly while looking at April, after all. It was her fault for falling asleep in the lounge, with Teddy.
"Were just gonna, uhm, gonna go get back to work." Avery said with a wicked smile, and with that he was out the door. April followed close behind him without another word.
Knowing her glare would do little good through the door, Addison sighed, and flung an arm over her eyes. This couldn't be happening. Surely she was still asleep, and the awkward situation she found herself in was just the universe playing a cruel joke on her for not talking to Teddy earlier. Cosmic payback for letting Teddy think that maybe things could go somewhere. She did love Teddy, there was no question about that, but she wasn't ready to shout it from the rooftops yet.
The sudden movement seemed to shake the blonde surgeon out of her sleep, but she remained on top of Addison, much too content to even consider moving. She rubbed the sleep from her eyes, and gave a little yawn that Addie couldn't help but smile at. Teddy was adorable when she was half asleep; and it was that adorableness that was making it hard to be upset with the woman in front of her. She hadn't done anything that someone else in the same situation wouldn't have done. It was a natural progression of their relationship. Addison just wished that two interns hadn't witnessed this new development.
Addison let the moment stretch a little longer, trying to find the right words to say, and enjoy having Teddy in her arms, maybe for the last time.
"Did you have a nice nap?" She asked, absently drawing small patterns on Teddy's back with her free hand. She discovered a few particularly ticklish spots that she would remember for another time.
"I did. Sorry I passed out on you like that." She snuggled closer to Addison, so there was virtually no space between their two bodies, and that's how she liked it. The closeness of Addison kept the demons away, and she wasn't ready to face them just yet.
"It's alright." She reassured her, "But I think you should probably know, April and Jackson came barging in here about ten minutes ago, and saw... Well," She tried to find a nice way to say it without embarrassing Teddy, until she realized there wasn't one.
"Saw what?" Teddy asked, her voice urging Addison to go on.
"Saw us sleeping, and well... Your hand was kinda up my shirt, and holding onto my breast." A blush quickly rose in Teddy's face, and her breath caught in her throat. Addison could feel the other woman's reactions more than she could see them.
"Addie..." Teddy tried to find a way out of the jam she had managed to get herself into. "I'm so sorry... I didn't mean to... I guess I should have warned you that I'm a cuddler when I'm exhausted." If possible, Teddy's face became a deeper shade of red as she spoke, while Addison was trying to contain her laughter at how flustered she was. Deciding to add a little more fuel to the fire, Addie went on.
"It also seems, at least from my experience, that you are a breast woman. I'm learning all kinds of new things about you today!" Teddy just buried her head in Addison's shoulder, while Addison's body was shaking with her laughter.
As they both collected themselves, Teddy spoke.
"You know, between Grey, Kepner and Avery, we're going to be hospital gossip for months!" she joked, placing a kiss on Addison's exposed collarbone.
Addison instantly tensed at the words. She couldn't stand the thought of her personal life being the talk of the hospital, again. She cared for Teddy, more than she'd like to admit. But the thought of the entire hospital being involved in yet another of her relationships was just too much. Teddy felt the shift in Addison's body, and she pulled away to look her in the eye.
"And that bothers you, doesn't it?" Teddy looked Addison in the eye, daring her to deny it, but Addison couldn't hold her gaze. "I know that everything with Derek and Mark was ugly, but us. We'd be beautiful. They wouldn't be talking about us because of a mistress, but because of how great we were together." Addison's breath caught in her throat at Teddy's words. She knew on some level that she was right, but the thought of people judging her again was still there.
"Teddy, I just," Addison fought to find the right words. "I can't have my personal life be the amusement of this hospital yet again. My friends are here. Even if I'm not." And I'm not ready to tell the whole world how I feel about you yet, she didn't add.
"Then give it a few weeks. We'll lay low, and it'll blow over. They'll find someone else to gossip about. They always do." Teddy didn't see what was holding her back. She finally found someone that made her happy, and she didn't really care if the world knew, as long as she had Addison in her arms. She had always acknowledged her attraction to women, but she had never found a reason to make it know, at least not before Addison.
"Teddy," Addison tried to protest again, but Teddy stopped her with her lips pressed against her own. She thought about protesting and pulling away, but the feel of Teddy's lips against hers robbed her of any ability to think clearly. The kiss was soft, but not lacking emotion, and it conveyed everything that Teddy was feeling. The possibility of what they could be, and just how good they could be together. If she couldn't tell Addison, then she would do everything in her power to show her.
When they pulled apart, Teddy let her head drop against Addison's shoulder; a broad grin plastered across her face. Addison had a similar smile on her face, but it was also mixed with a bit of sadness. As much as she wanted to give Teddy everything, she knew in her heart that she just, couldn't. There were things she wasn't ready to face, and the whole world knowing about her relationship with Teddy was one of them.
"Come on, let's get some food in you before you pass out on me again," Addison joked, effectively changing the subject, and avoiding the elephant in the room. She hoped that maybe if she pretended that it was there, it might eventually go away. She wanted to spend a few, uninterrupted minutes with the woman she loved, yes loved, before it was all taken from her.