My Demons

by Hellfire-Princess

"So they dug your grave." True. "Don't wanna let you down, but I am hell bound." Again, True. "Look into my eyes, it's where my demons hide, don't get too close, it's dark inside, It's where my demons hide." All too true. Can she escape her demons? Will they help her after finding out "What I've done"? (Or what she think she did.) YJ will show, unlike in my earlier fics.

4. Did the gravestones attack you?

I'm ba-ack! Now, to address the guest reviews:

Guest 1: Seriously with the hate, calm down! I have reasons behind Bats revealing his identity how he did. And, as a matter-of-fact, Batman is just territorial, it's not just metas he has a problem with. Again, everything is a plan withing a plan.

Guest 2: Yeah, the author's note thing is just something I do, but I'll try not to make them too OOC.

Guest 3: Well, if it's that annoying, I could tone it down. Is it just the OOC stuff with you too? Thanks? Yeah, she's one of my better ones. Yeah, the idea popped into my head and (since I can't draw), I'm going to ask my friend to draw her. Most likely not, so far, no. She will have a pairing though :)

Andy (Guest): Yeah, some people are very confusing. Thanks! Yeah, I'm trying to make her seem strong and powerful yet able to fracture and with little control over her powers. A nice balance, y'know?

Me: members reviews at the bottom

Carmina: Now, without further ado,

Me: Let the chess game commence!

(Breakline)

Carmina's POV

Star City; July 17th; 23:16

I arrive at the scene late, thanks, Dick. I manage to hear Brick call angrily to Speedy:

"Do you know what I pay for a suit my size?!" I snicker in response to the invulnerable man, soon, Robin's signature cackle can be heard and I take that as my cue to join the fight. Robin, Kid Flash and Aqualad try to persuade Speedy to join the team, me, I'm just enjoying the adrenaline and a physical feeling other than pain.

I get close enough to hear Wally comment: "And wait until you see Superboy and Miss Martian. But I saw her first!" He adds as an afterthought, soon after Speedy ends the visit by trapping Brick in foam.

"High density polyurethane foam, nice" KF comments, I just roll my eyes as I drop down by Robin, which earns me a raised eyebrow.

"Who is this? Miss Martian?" Speedy questions Robin.

"No, she's too peppy and, well, green to be me, I'm Carmina, a friend of Robin's and a somewhat partner of Batman, recently rescued from CADMUS." I state bluntly, my hood still covering my face.

"She fits it too, looks like him, dark and broody, yet colorful" Speedy quips, a smile tugging at his lips.

"Bats isn't colorful, I'm more a mix between him and Robin" my comm beeps and I lift my hand to my ear. "Yeah" I respond, hearing his sigh at the other end, Dick beside me smirks, he hears our mentor's noise of frustration at the fact that I can never 'respond over the comms correctly'. It's kinda dumb if you ask me.

"Carmina, report to the cave, I have something I wish to discuss with you." And he hangs up, I turn to Dick, and, with a wave, I flip off of the boxes and head to the Zeta Tubes, thankfully now online, stupid hacker troll.

Gotham City, the Batcave; July 17; 23:29

When I reach the Batcave, I take my mask off and walk up to the Batcomputer.

"What is it, Bruce?" I ask my long-term honorary father.

"I know that you haven't told us anything about yourself yet, but you seemed to adjust fast." I no,not really something I'm too proud of but it's useful. "But, we need you to trust us, I need you to trust me. I know who you are, Adelaide, and you're not alone" at this, even though I'm mad that he pried into my past, I hug him, like I used to when mamma was still alive. "I promised your mamma, and I'll keep that promise" he tells me, his voice muffled by my hair.

"You'd better, gudfader, otherwise mamma will know" I say, my head buried in his chest. I look up at him and smile, "you knew all along, didn't you?"

"Yes" he laughs, "but Dick doesn't, and-"

"I wanna tell him, just a little bit. Tomorrow, can we go visit them?" I ask, curling up in his lap, I'm still small enough to do that, at least.

"Don't you want to go to the cave?" He asks, I shake my head as the Zeta Tube announces the arrival of Dick and Wally, the latter is spending the night.

"That's so cute" Wally comments to Dick.

"I heard that, genialitet " I call sarcastically to Wally, getting up from Bruce's lap and walking towards the boys. "So how did recruiting Speedy go?"

"Lousy" Wally says, scowling, I poke him in the shoulder and take off up the stairs, knowing that Wally is banned from superspeed by Alfred. No surprise, I win and I let out a cackle similar to that of Robin's in victory.

The rest of the night is spent in movies, pillow/tickle fights (the latter Bruce ended by glaring at Wally for trying to tickle me) candy Wally brought in (which they both got little of, an acrobat and a speedster on a sugar high, no thanks, Bruce and I had some though) the night ended with Dick's head on Wally's shoulder, the latter had fallen asleep a while ago. I curled up, my head against Dick's legs, the three of us fast asleep.

Wayne Manor, Gotham City; July 18th; 09:05

I wake up to smell... Mhm, bacon, I get up off the couch, my head was laying on a pillow now, and I can see Dick and Wally in the kitchen. I stretch my arms and yawn as I walk into the kitchen. I sit down with food Alfred already finished and, when Bruce comes in, both Dick and I get even messier hair and I mess up Wally's, who pouted after he didn't get anything.

"How did the three of you guys sleep?" Bruce asks, not looking up from his newspaper.

"Stiff" and "alright" were the answers he got from Dick and Wally.

"What about you, Adelaide?" Bruce notices my lack of response.

"Oh, um, fine," I say, my thoughts already preoccupied.

"Adelaide?" Wally and Dick chorus. I look up smiling sheepishly.

"Oh, yeah, Bruce found out my real name, and we decided I should tell you," I say.

"Isn't that a weird name?" Wally asks and I give him an 'are you bloody kidding me' look.

"Says Wallace 'Wally' Rudolph West, who's best friend is Richard 'Dick' John Grayson." I tell him, snorting, and he gives me a sheepish smile in return. "Besides, my 'weird' name has a meaning." I tell him, "it means 'God has favored me' in my native tongue" I tell them smugly. The glance at each other and smirk.

"Cool, what makes you so special at birth that your mom would name you that?" Wally asks me.

"Reasons" is my only reply as I leave to get ready.

East Gotham Cemetery; July 18; 12:07

I walk to the graves of my mamma and my systrar and bröder and I kneel down in front of them.

"I-I miss you all, I can hope, wherever you are, you've forgiven me, and if you haven't, I hope that I laid the price. I-I'm so sorry too" a tear falls down my face as I mutter a line from a song by heart.

"When the days are cold, And the cards all fold, And the saints we see, Are all made of gold. When your dreams all fail, And the ones we hail, Are the worst of all, And the blood's run stale. I wanna hide the truth, I wanna shelter you, But with the beast inside, There's nowhere we can hide" I stars at the names etched into the stone, the words weighing heavily on my heart. "Help me escape my demons, mamma, systrar, bröder help me." I mutter finally as I stand to leave the graveyard. I feel Bruce put his hand on my shoulder.

"I'm sure they forgive you, Adelaide," and with that, we walk in silence to the car.

Mt. Justice, Happy Harbor; July 18th, 13:18

"So, I went to a graveyard and you all kicked robot butt? I wonder who got the better end of that," I comment, chuckling lightly.

"It seems dunno, Car, did the gravestones attack you?" Wally asks and I smile.

"Naw, but the gravestones were pretty intimidating" I quip/admit, smiling wryly.

"I have heard that visiting deceased loved ones can act as a sense of closure or comfort." Aqualad comments, a hand on my shoulder, I tense slightly, preparing for Wally's bluntness.

"Are you having problems with closure or comfort?" He asks, concern lacing his voice.

"Dude! She doesn't have to tell us!" Dick reprimands his friend.

"No, it's okay, rude, but tolerable" I tell them, glaring slightly at Wally. "Just problems adjusting, that's all" and we move the conversation from there. We eventually end up trading aliases, and I introduce myself as Carmina, since Robin has already called me that. We watch 'The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe' and just hang out for awhile, something about missing out on 'social interaction with the team'. Apparently Red Tornado told them that.

Later,

The Zeta Tubes announce the arrival of Batman. He enters the room and we lock eyes, and he nods, Robin and I following in suit. I can hear Wally announce:

"I will never understand how they can do that without telepathy" and a slight chuckle coming from Aqualad.

The Batcave; Gotham City

July 18th, 17:33

"Let me change and we can go out to eat since Alfred is in England now, and I have a feeling you'd rather not have my cooking," Bruce says, walking over to the changing area I look to Dick, confused.

"You do not want Bruce's cooking, at all" he explains, disgust on his face.

East Harbor, Gotham City

July 18th, 24:25

I can feel the rush of adrenaline as I drop down off of the rooftop and onto the thug below, knocking him out. I am surrounded by barely trained thugs as I drop down, avoiding a kick and spread ice onto the cement. I move quickly, sliding underneath thugs and tripping them, keeping perfect traction on the ice and the thugs are taken out in a matter of seconds. I meet up with Batman and Robin and the three of us enter the building, the boys taking everyone head-on, I'm inspecting the weapons. Things get hectic and I ditch the idea of dragging them to the docks to push them into the water, instead, I make a small fire and light the wooden crates. I grab an unconscious Robin and Batman and I make our escape, the building exploding behind us.

Batcave, Gotham City

July 19th, 1:13

"Ugnh, this is why I know hate arms dealing busts" Dick says, sitting up in the Medbay and rubbing his head.

"Eh, you'll live" I comment, helping him off the bed and letting him lean on me as he limps up the stairs.

"Yeah, I've had worse" he agrees as we reach his bedroom; "night, Adelaide" he says before entering his room.

"Goodnight, bror " I whisper to his door as I turn and enter my room.

Breakline

Okay, so member's reviews:

DoctorMerlinRied: Thanks! Yeah, I'm not one of those types of people either, but I know a few (cough-mom-cough). You're welcome. Yeah, some people don't like it though... To heck with it, I like it, and I don't care if they disagree with it, it's my story!

Wally: Yeah! Wait- what are we talking about again?

Me: *facepalms* Anyways, to our other member review:

Narutofan978: Thanks! I have two, and Robin is not among them...

Carmina (since she has no hero name yet): Well, that's all! We have votes in for names already, here they are:

Whisp: 4

Serene: 1

Me: remember- you can still choose, I might set up a poll on my profile page. The names are:

Hawk

Eagle

Gaea

Serene

Whisp

Me: Remember, you can send me what you want her hero name to be, I am open to suggestions. But for now...

Wally: Stay Whelmed, get Traught,

Robin: Feel the Aster and Crash the Mode!

Me: Firecracker OUT!