Chapter Four: Break Away

Sasuke stood outside near the dock staring up into the dark sky pouring rain down all around him. The flecks of rain fell so heavily he could hardly see five feet in front of him. Sasuke's skin burned from the harsh cold leaving his body chilled. He couldn't explain himself what he was doing, but somewhere in his subconscious he understood it was some sort of punishment for his sinful desires. Denying himself the burning fire he felt when he was near Itachi wasn't enough... he had to release it from his body entirely. Itachi had been gone ever since that night, even missing a meeting with the Hokage about his next mission. He wasn't sure how he should take that. Either he was deeply disturbed by what had happened and Sasuke should be ashamed, or he was deeply disturbed about what happened and Sasuke should feel as if he had succeeded in some sort of twisted game in his mind; but if he was honest with himself, he felt both, and that was why he standing in the bitter rain in the middle of the night. Feeling rather than hearing someone behind him, Sasuke turned around to see Itachi standing a few feet before him, the rain soaking him to the bone. The water ran in streams down his skin, his hair framing his face in sleek black strands. Finally focusing on his gaze, Sasuke realized he had spent way too long analyzing his brother's appearance.

However, upon seeing his eyes, Sasuke forgot his own dilemma as he noticed how terrible Itachi looked. Any triumph he thought he felt before died. He had wanted a reaction out of him, yes, but Itachi looked like he had been to hell and back.

"I'm sorry, about the other day..." Sasuke said, trailing off.

Stepping closer to him, Itachi's eyes poured into Sasuke's as if looking for something. Then, with no change of expression, Itachi lifted his hand close to Sasuke's face and traced Sasuke's lower lip with his finger.

Sasuke was frozen at the touch of his brother. Gently, Itachi slipped his finger inside Sasuke's mouth ever so slightly, parting his lips and running the tip against the wet part of his inner lip.

"Whatever you need, Sasuke... I'll give it to you," Itachi said, letting his hand fall away from Sasuke's mouth.

Stunned, Sasuke watched as his brother turned and left, disappearing into the rain.

That night Sasuke had another nightmare. He stood in the middle of his desecrated home, his entire clan slain, and his brother before him taking his last breath. Sasuke wore his bloodied ANBU uniform, Itachi's blade in his hand. He stared down at Itachi, trying to remember how it happened... what had killed him? Was it me? Sasuke couldn't remember, but the blood on the blade in his hand was incriminating enough.

"No!" Sasuke yelled, his voice choked. Itachi wasn't supposed to die... Feeling a numbingly cold wind against his skin, Sasuke felt as if he heard voice somewhere in the distance, but they were so far away it could have been the wind. Falling to his knees, Sasuke lets his tears fall freely as he stared at Itachi's lifeless body. How had this happened?

"What made us so lifeless?" Sasuke asked, the tears streaming silently know.

As the blackness overtook him, Sasuke felt a sudden shock of breath enter his body. His brow was covered in sweat and his body much warmer than he remembered. Realizing he was sitting up in his bed, Sasuke felt a firm hold around him.

Itachi sat behind him, holding him as he awoke from his nightmare, keeping his body from shaking uncontrollably. Seeing Sasuke like that scared Itachi and only when he pulled him against his chest did Sasuke begin to calm down. Pressing his lips against Sasuke's head he kept him close, waiting for him to be calm.

However, to his shock, Sasuke turned his head and pressed his cheek to Itachi's open mouth leaving a hot trail down Sasuke's skin as he twisted against him and captured Itachi in an open mouthed kiss. Unable to even think about it due to how arousing it was, Itachi let Sasuke kiss him only for a moment before responding.

Sasuke wasn't quite sure what he was doing. All he knew was that he wasn't cold anymore and everything he ever needed was right there with him. The feeling of Itachi so close to him made his body tingle with excitement and every time he tasted Itachi's mouth he felt more and more aroused. Pulling his head back so he was facing away from Itachi again, Sasuke gasped at the heat of Itachi's mouth on his neck.

Itachi trailed kisses all the way down Sasuke's neck, hanging onto every moment that he felt his skin beneath his lips and his body so intimately pressed against his own. Grasping Sasuke's chin in his hand, Itachi pulled him back into an unrestricted kiss that he was surprised Sasuke yielded to so easily. Gliding his hands up Sasuke's naked torso, Itachi realized just how badly he had craved this. When he grazed Sasuke's nipple he gasped into Itachi's mouth encouraging Itachi to do it again. Flicking it with more force, Sasuke pulled back from the kiss, his eyes closed tightly as the sweetest sounds were emitted from his mouth.

Sasuke's hand touched his hard length now visible through his shorts as his face twisted into something like pain and pleasure.

"Itachi," he whispered as he began to pull away.

Sensing his denial of what they were doing, Itachi grabbed Sasuke and pulled him back against him, sliding his hand inside Sasuke's shorts. When he had Sasuke's length enclosed in his hand he felt Sasuke's body tense and relax against him in submission. His chest was rising and falling in pants as Itachi released him from his confines.

"Sasuke," Itachi whispered against his ear. "Relax... let me take care of you."

Gasping as Itachi stroked him, Sasuke's hips jerked upward causing Itachi to strengthen his hold against his squirming baby brother.

The sight before him was one he had wondered about for a long time. Sasuke pale body spread before him, his hard length exposed for only him and free roam of his body. Sucking Sasuke's earlobe into his mouth, Itachi nibbled gently before kissing Sasuke's jaw line. His other hand continued its harassment of Sasuke's nipple while the other jerked him off in an agonizingly slow motion.

Sasuke's gasp that must have ripped his throat made Itachi smirk.

Sasuke's hand drifted down to Itachi's urging him to go faster, but Itachi refused. Putting more effort into his ministrations, Itachi made it clear what he wanted.

"Itachi... aggh," Sasuke breathed. "Just... do it... already..." he panted.

Giving into Sasuke's request, Itachi pumped his cock, enjoying the hot sticking substance now lubricating his little brother's cock. Completely absorbed in the erotic sight unfolding before him, Itachi watched as Sasuke's look of passion deepened and the moans he had only imagined before came every second. That image of bliss lasted at least a minute. A full minute of Sasuke squirming in his lap rubbing against his own arousal and thrusting up to meet Itachi's hand as he came down with each stroke. The blush in Sasuke's cheek made him even more beautiful as Itachi held him in his arms to keep him from sinking down at his complete surrender to what Itachi was doing to him. Itachi wondered how aware Sasuke was of what was going on. He seemed so completely lost in his pleasure that a fire could have broken out and he wouldn't have known. Wanting desperately to taste Sasuke as he came close to climaxing, Itachi kissed a place on his lower neck before biting gently into his skin. Sasuke let the loudest moan yet escape his mouth at the burning pain and a moment later he climaxed. Tearing his eyes open, Itachi watched as Sasuke opened his eyes, his breathing still labored. Come had flecked his cheeks and chest and Itachi desperately wanted to lick it off of him, but before he had the chance, Sasuke had pulled away from him. He turned back once out of Itachi's arms and looked at him, still breathing like a mad man, with such shock that Itachi wondered if perhaps he had only just woken from his dream. But he knew Sasuke had been awake... he knew that he had wanted it... and he also knew that Sasuke couldn't admit it.

After that night, Sasuke didn't return to the Uchiha district for more than a month.

For the first time in his life, Itachi resented the loneliness in which he lived his life. His discomfort at Sasuke's departure had eaten away at him like a disease. He hadn't realized how much he depended on Sasuke's presence until he was gone. Now Itachi realized how Sasuke must have been feeling... like he was empty. He was sick with desire for Sasuke's body for a full week after he had left. He had paid too many visits to a whore, and he had only just gotten control over himself again. He couldn't risk another episode like that. It was too maddening. Such a weakness for a shinobi of his caliber was unacceptable.

Itachi pulled on his uniform and left his house. He had a mandatory training session that evening. Thinking he would make quick work of it so he could pay his whore one last visit, Itachi glanced at the training schedule at the ANBU's headquarters and stared at the name.

Apparently Sasuke hadn't glanced at the schedule before he went to his training session. The ANBU randomly selected shinobi each day for a training session so their skills would remain sharp against various opponents. Itachi had only just been notified that evening that his name was up.

Seeing Sasuke eye him with suspicion as he realized Itachi was his opponent irritated Itachi. He acted as if he had rigged the schedule.

"Let's just get this over with, Sasuke," Itachi said, his irritation ringing through his mind.

Sasuke's eyes narrowed at Itachi's words. "Think you can take me that easily?"

Raising an eyebrow at Sasuke's hostility, Itachi responded, "We both know I can."

Sasuke picked up on his true meaning and let out a furious battle cry as he attacked Itachi with full force. His blows were true and fierce, but Itachi blocked every one of them and still managed to get a hit on Sasuke right in the jaw sending him flying back into the wooed terrain several meters. However, it was only a moment before Sasuke upon him again, his eyes glaring. Easily pinning Sasuke against a tree and twisting his arm, he waited a moment to see if Sasuke would try break his hold.

Not to his surprise, Sasuke did try.

"You're going to get yourself killed," Itachi said. "That was a foolish move, Sasuke."

"What the hell do you care? You murdered your own flesh and blood and you have nothing to show for it. How can you even pretend that you care about my life? You didn't even feel anything, did you?" Sasuke asked. "Doing all of that to me didn't even mean anything to you, did it? It was just another way to show you how much better than me you are. Why do you pretend as if you care at all? You don't actually feel anything, do you? Why didn't you just kill me along with the rest of them?"

Itachi's eyes narrowed. "You're a fool, Sasuke."

"Yeah?" Sasuke growled. "Even now your expression doesn't change. You just like proving to me how easily you can handle anything! Why is this so easy for you to accept? All of it! Does nothing have any real meaning to you?"

Itachi had had enough of Sasuke's ignorance. "You think I felt nothing when I slaughtered my own mother? I suffer in silence to spare you the grief of having to watch me fall apart. I've learned how to handle this pain alone since I was a child and the weight of the world had been placed on my shoulders." Itachi was letting his rage take over, Sasuke's desire to see it allowing him to. Grabbing Sasuke by the throat, Itachi glared into his eyes with a menacing aura.

"You have no idea what my life has been like because I've spent it trying to ensure that you would never know what it was like to be me. I did it all without complaint, Sasuke, and do you know why? Because I knew if I didn't, then you would suffer. If I could have left you out of it that night, I would have, but there wasn't enough time. It had to be done before someone could alert anyone else. Trust me, Sasuke, I never wanted you to feel the pain that you do now. I did everything I could. I even murdered my own child so that you could live, and you think I sleep peacefully through the night?"

Sasuke's eyes were wide in disbelief at what he was hearing. Could it be true? Had Itachi really done that... for him...

Angry at Sasuke's blatant shock that he was human after all Itachi threw Sasuke to the ground pressing his cheek into the dirt and holding his arms behind his back. Leaning down next to Sasuke's ear, he whispered, "You want to see how vulnerable I really am, Sasuke? I'll show you."

Sasuke gasped as Itachi thrust him down on his back and crushed his mouth down onto his. There was nothing Sasuke could do. The raw intensity he felt from his brother was enough to take his breath away. It was like a lifetime of pent up anger and resentment was spilling out and Sasuke felt as if he were feeding off of it. Itachi's burning wrath was sparking the dying soul within him and yet he couldn't accept what they were doing. Trying to push Itachi off of him, he expected Itachi to back off like he always did, but this time, he grabbed Sasuke's wrists and held him down, unrelenting in his nearly brutal kissing. Feeling his lip split, Sasuke winced, but couldn't stop the erection forming in his way too tight uniform.

Itachi relished Sasuke's panic and deepened the kiss, making sure he tasted his own blood in his mouth. Pulling up slightly so Sasuke could hear him, Itachi murmured, "You want to see the real me, Sasuke? You want to see me without the mask... I hope you can handle it."

Sasuke watched in complete awe as he saw his brother form seals faster than any shinobi should be able to and felt a true sense of fear at the dark smirk on his face. Realizing he had made a shadow clone, Sasuke really began to fight as the shadow clone pulled him into its lap and wrapped its arms around his chest, literally holding Sasuke down before his brother watching the scene unfold. Staring up at Itachi, Sasuke realized he couldn't escape. Nothing he did would be enough to get away from Itachi if he didn't want him to go.

"Itachi, stop this," Sasuke pleaded.

Itachi closed his eyes and humphed. "You should take it like a man, Sasuke. It's unbecoming of you to beg."

As soon as Itachi said it, he was glaring at Sasuke again. "You needed so desperately to know me, Sasuke. You should be proud of yourself... you finally pushed hard enough for me to give you what you so desperately want but can't seem to take for yourself. If you had been strong enough to see, you would have understood long ago."

Sasuke's mouth fell open as what Itachi said clicked. He was right... he had been blind. Itachi had so easily shielded him from his suffering that Sasuke had mistaken his kindness for indifference. Feeling Itachi dangerously cutting at his pants with a kunai, Sasuke's eyes snapped open.

"Don't worry, Sasuke," Itachi smirked, "I wouldn't draw your precious blood as you did mine."

Shuddering at his hardened length being exposed to the cool night air, Sasuke couldn't help but become even more aroused at Itachi sitting between his spread legs. Without touching him at all, Itachi ran his tongue from the base of his shaft all the way to the tip leaving Sasuke breathing erratically as he watched. The wet feeling made him shiver as the cool air attacked his body. Flicking the blade of his kunai down further, Sasuke felt his throat go dry as he felt the tip of the blade at his tight entrance and all the blood left his face.

"Itachi," Sasuke cried, careful not to jerk.

Smirking evilly up at Sasuke, Itachi flicked the kunai around in his wrist and put the handle to his mouth, licking it thoroughly. Sasuke may have been scared down to the core, but his brother licking the end of the kunai made him anticipate whatever he was about to do. Feeling the cool wet metal at his entrance made Sasuke wince at the bitter pleasure and sweet pain the sensation caused. The end of the kunai pressed on him in slow circles, gently pushing inside of him. The feeling was one Sasuke had never known.

"You're supposed to act like you hate it, remember, Sasuke?" Itachi murmured, pulling the kunai from him.

Itachi set the blade on his chest, pulling his hand back and wrapping it around his throbbing cock. Feeling the cool blade, Sasuke glanced at it and noticed the shimmer of blood on the blade form where Itachi held it. Feeling nauseous, Sasuke realized Itachi was now lubricating his cock with his own blood. The morbid pleasure it brought Sasuke couldn't be denied. The raw way Itachi showed him how he cared for him had caught Sasuke off guard. He had been completely wrong the entire time. Itachi had always tried to protect him, and even now, despite how easily he could take him to his pleasure, he worried over Sasuke first and foremost. Feeling guilt and shame, Sasuke struggled to get away, not wanting Itachi to show him anymore.

"No, Sasuke," Itachi said. "You brought me to such a low... now you have to deal with it."

Feeling the clone vanish, Sasuke felt Itachi drag him forward and pull at his hips until his mouth was positioned before his entrance. The gentle flick of his tongue at the sensitive muscles was enough for Sasuke's entire body to jolt to the point Itachi gripped him even tighter. The next was longer, and Sasuke felt the wet muscle plunge deep inside of him and caused him to release a throaty moan he couldn't hold back. Itachi repeatedly dipped his tongue deep within him until Sasuke couldn't stand it anymore.

"Itachi... I can't... take this any longer..."

Grabbing Itachi's hair, Sasuke pulled him forward. Surprisingly, Itachi gave in and thrust his tongue inside Sasuke's mouth. More than disgusted, Sasuke fought him off, but Itachi wouldn't let him. Forcing Sasuke down against the ground, Itachi slid his tip at Sasuke's wet and gaping entrance, prodding him gently as if in warning.

Biting Sasuke's bottom lip rather viciously to keep him in place, Itachi plunged inside of his tight entrance all the way to the hilt, effectively stopping Sasuke's resistance. The loudest cry yet came from Sasuke's mouth and reverberated down Itachi's throat as the pain set in. Sasuke's fists pounded against his chest, but Itachi didn't move. Finally breaking free from Itachi's fierce hold on his lip, Sasuke struggled to get his arms free.

"Itachi," Sasuke whispered.

Shocked at the weak sound of his voice, Itachi looked down at Sasuke's face and saw unshed tears brimming in his eyes. He had never experienced what Sasuke was going through, but like any virgin, there would be pain. However, despite how angry he was with Sasuke, Itachi took pity on him.

Kissing him despite the fresh blood, Itachi caressed his mouth, easing the tension in his body. Releasing his swollen lips, Itachi kissed his face, urging him to relax when Sasuke spoke.

"Was she... really pregnant?" he asked.

Surprised by the question, Itachi felt his entire body tighten against his will at the thought.

"Why, Itachi?" Sasuke asked his whole body trembling under Itachi's weight. "Why would you choose me over your own child?"

Itachi closed his eyes. "To take away your life would be cruel. The child never lost anything because it never had it to begin with. Your life, Sasuke, has always meant more to me than our entire clan. I've always wanted you, Sasuke... I just hadn't realized how badly."

Feeling Itachi slide out of him, Sasuke braced himself for the painful thrust he knew would come, but knowing it was coming did nothing to make it any better.

"Itachi, it hurts... please stop," Sasuke begged, the tears sliding down his cheeks.

"No," Itachi muttered, his face stricken with pleasure, "If this is the last time I see you, then I'm not going to waste it. Physical pain does not last, Sasuke."

Feeling him thrust again, Sasuke cried out in pain, feeling his strength ebb away from him. There was nothing he could do. Itachi would take what he wanted. As Itachi thrust into him faster and harder than before, the pain hardly subsided, but the look on Itachi's face seemed to put Sasuke into a trance. His once perfectly composed brother who never made a mistake was fucking him senseless against his will. Sasuke could have never expected such a fall from grace out of Itachi, but he had never expected him to admit that he had always wanted him either. It was as if he wasn't ashamed of it, like he had nothing to keep him from feeling what he did. Sasuke resented this because he wanted to be in that position, without the ties of reality to keep him from accepting how he felt.

Not much later, Itachi had forced Sasuke on his hands and knees before pulling him into his lap. Unable to resist, Sasuke felt Itachi hit a spot within him that made him cry out every time he thrust against it. Then, Itachi's hand wrapped around him, making each thrust compound the growing tension in his body. Sasuke had never appreciated Itachi's strength as he did now, having been able to restrain and exhaust Sasuke of all his energy and still be able fuck him so hard. When Sasuke climaxed, he did so without resistance, letting his body fall completely into Itachi's arms as he rode his brother's cock willingly until he buried himself inside Sasuke's body and held him tightly against his chest.

Sasuke's eyes were only half open as he felt Itachi spill his climax inside of him. The feeling of being so close to him could not be compared to anything he had ever felt before and Sasuke didn't want to move. Itachi nuzzled Sasuke's neck before moving his lips next to Sasuke's ear.

"Do you feel me yet, Sasuke?"

Sasuke's eyes shot wide open. He did feel him. He felt like an open flame that was burning him alive and Sasuke couldn't escape. For so long he had wanted to know what Itachi was feeling, how he could exist in such a calm manner... Now he understood. He had never been at peace. He had never felt calm. He had only suffered, and under Sasuke's constant abuse, he had caved to what he had wanted for so long and Sasuke had so unknowingly antagonized—him. For the first time in his life, Itachi had been selfish and allowed another to feel what he wanted. And for the first time, Sasuke felt fear that someone such as his brother, perhaps the most powerful ninja the hidden leaf had ever seen, found his only pleasure in life through him.

Finally breaking free from Itachi's grasp, Sasuke vanished without looking back.