Chapter 4: Life as a Wolf

Jacob's POV

I was not prepared for the pain that losing an imprint could bring. Then again no one was. Imprinting was said to have been a rarity among my kind. Though it seemed like many of us still managed to find imprints.

One thing that I certainly had never expected was that I would imprint on Bella's and Edward's daughter. As soon as I looked into her eyes for the first time my life was forever changed. From that moment I vowed to protect her and be whatever she needed me to be.

She was my reason for being. Losing her was excruciatingly painful. For the first time I truly understood how Bella felt when Edward left her for all those months. I wasn't in love with Renesmee the way she'd been in love with Edward but I understood exactly what she went through. Nessie's disappearance was like a blowing a hole into my chest. Only more painful.

The only way I could bear the pain was if I remained a wolf. As an animal emotions were a lot easier to deal with. They weren't as strong in animals as they were in humans. Though in my case the pain was still excruciating. Bearable but excruciating.

I lost track of time. Since I never phased back into a human again I pretty much stayed out of touch with civilization and I didn't notice the passage of time or advances in technology if there were any.

I had even lost touch with the rest of the pack. Most of them stopped phasing a long time ago so they'd age normally alongside their imprints. Even Quil had quit phasing once Claire became a teenager.

I was alone and honestly I was okay with that. I was okay with being a lone wolf. You get used to things like that eventually.

I caught the scent of deer on the wind and chased it down. After tackling the animal and killing it I devoured every last bit of flesh that I could.

After eating my kill I got really tired and sleepy and decided to call it a night. I was awakened in the middle of the night by an odd sensation. I felt a slight tugging in my chest. I tried to ignore it but it was strong. As if it was trying to pull me in a certain direction.

I got up, shook all of the dirt out of my fur, and followed the sensation as odd as that may sound.

It was definitely pulling me. Whatever it was. The longer I followed the stronger the sensation got. For the life of me I couldn't figure out what was going on.

Before I knew it I found myself in the city. I had avoided the city for so long that it was a strange sight to see. It didn't seem like much had changed over time so maybe not much time had gone by since I'd chosen to remain a wolf.

I was about to just give up on this whole ridiculous notion of following odd sensations in my chest when I caught her scent. I froze. No. It couldn't be. Not after all these years.

My years tracking and hunting prey made it easy for me to track her scent. As I was certain that I was getting closer the pulling in my chest became even stronger. Now I realized what it had meant. Nessie was nearby and her presence had been calling me.

My tracking led me to a bridge. In the distance I saw a teenage girl under the bridge trying to shelter herself from the rain. The blanket she had did nothing to keep her warm from the bitter cold.

I ran over to her as fast as I could. I could barely contain my happiness and excitement. As soon as she noticed me she screamed in fear.

I skidded to a halt several feet away from her. I was confused. I was sure that this was Nessie. I knew it was her. Her scent was the same and she looked like the perfect combination of Edward and Bella. Didn't she recognize me?

I approached her more slowly and carefully. She still looked scared.

"What kind of animal are you?"

The truth hit me like a ton of bricks. She had amnesia. She didn't remember who I was. When she went missing she must've lost her memory but how? What happened to her?

I started crying. After so much time I'd found Nessie but she didn't even remember me. She probably didn't remember her family or what she was either.

I jumped a little when I felt her hand in my fur. I looked up at her and I heard her heart beat a little faster. She froze.

I licked her face a few times so she'd no that I meant no harm. The blanket she had was soaking wet and was certainly not protecting her at all from the cold or rain.

I pulled it off of her and what I saw shocked me to my very core. A wheelchair. Not that I'd never seen one before since my dad used one all the time. Just the fact that my Nessie was using one shocked me.

I nudged the chair softly and whimpered. I wondered what couldn't happened to my half vampire imprint that would cause her to be wheelchair bound.

She smiled softly and as if she could read my mind she said "I'm paralyzed from the waist down. Been that way for as long as I could remember,"

I put my head in her lap knowing that would give her more warmth than that blanket had been. I got a little worried when she started coughing. Certainly being out in the cold and rain wasn't good for her at all.

I couldn't believe it. I had found Nessie but she had no memory of me and she was paralyzed. That little Nessie who loved to run around and land herself in some sort of trouble now confined to a wheelchair. I remembered Edward making comments here and there about wishing he could tie her down to a chair so she wouldn't be able to run away from us. I wondered what he would think of his remarks if he ever found out that Nessie was confined to a chair now.

Nessie started coughing again and I looked at her in concern. Then I heard something in her chest that I didn't like. I could smell that something was a little off but I couldn't tell what it was. The only thing I was sure of was that it wasn't normal and that had me worried.

"What do you mean he's a werewolf?"

My head shot up so fast that I made myself dizzy.

"His name is Jacob?" she looked at me quizzically and I had no idea what the hell was going on. She obviously didn't remember me so how the hell did she figure out the truth?!

"Is it true?"

I wasn't sure who she was talking to before but I knew that question was aimed at me now.

I shook my head 'yes'.

"Wow first ghosts and now werewolves,"

Ghosts? What was she talking about?

"I guess you knew him when you were alive Bella?"

Bella? Okay now I was sure I was losing my mind. I was very confused.

She coughed again and I walked up to her and nudged her chest. There was something definitely there but I wasn't sure if it had to do with her coughing or something else entirely. All I knew is there was something in her lungs that I didn't like.

"Ghosts and werewolves," Nessie said. "Unbelievable,"

I had a hard time believing it to but then again if werewolves and vampires existed whose to says other supernatural creatures don't exist?

"Jacob do you think that maybe you can help us find the Cullens?"

I nodded my head 'yes' once again.

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