HELLO EVERYONE! I AM SO SORRY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO UPDATE BUT AFTER MY SURGERY MY COMPUTER CRASHED AND I HAD TO BORROW A LONER UNTIL I AM ABLE TO EITHER REPAIR MY COMPUTER OR BUY A NEW ONE. I HOPE THAT YOU ENJOY THIS CHAPTER AND I'D LOVE TO HEAR YOUR REVIEWS. THANKS AGAIN FOR YOUR PATIENCE AND ENJOY! R/R

"You've gone viral," Callie announced as April entered the attendings' locker room wearing an evident frown on her face.

"I didn't know you were that type of girl." April dropped the duffle bag she had been carrying and approached the orthopedic surgeon.

"Look at you twerk," Callie snickered holding up her I pad so that April could catch a glimpse of herself dancing on top of the bar like nobody's business.

"Oh my god, I can't believe that's me." She shook her head in dismay almost wanting to puke when she recognized Jackson sitting amongst the crowd. She watched as she took hold of his shirt collar with her teeth, unimpressed by her inappropriate behavior. "How did you get this?"

"One of the interns was watching it with a buddy yesterday and I just so happened to walk past them when I saw you shaking your fanny for a bunch of drunken horny men." Callie swatted her friend on the butt causing April to almost jump out of her pants.

"Callie," she scolded a little embarrassed by her friend's unwelcoming display. If Arizona had been there she might not have found Callie's gesture amusing.

"Sorry was that too much?"

April took a step back allowing her head to brush against the row of lockers behind her. "Yeah, but it's ok. I have other things to worry about- like how I'm going to explain this video to my handsome fiancé."

Callie rolled her eyes at the red head- it was no surprise that April was a worrier; she only hoped that one day she'd grow out of it and finally accept life for what it was- unpredictable. "You were only having a little fun Kepner; he can't possibly be mad at you for that."

April quickly pulled her navy blue scrub top over her head adjusting her ponytail as she gave herself a final look over before putting on her white lab coat. "I don't know Callie; Matthew's views are very conservative and I don't think he's going to take this lightly."

"He's just uptight because you're not breaking him off some of that country lovin. I'm telling you having sex will take away some of that tension he's holding on to and you'll have yourself a more relaxed and happy man."

"You know that is not going to happen. Matthew and I are trying to do what's right for the both of us and having premarital sex just isn't in the cards for us. I've tried that with Jackson and that went absolutely nowhere, hell it almost landed us a baby. I could be bare foot and pregnant right now and believe me I would be the worst pregnant woman Seattle has ever seen. I would definitely drive Jackson crazy with my baby safety plans and my overbearing need to have whatever I want. I'd totally be a Momzilla, right?"

"Actually Momzilla's an understatement," Alex interrupted as he rounded the corner after overhearing the tail end of their conversation. "You'd be more like Kris Jenner on speed or something; you'd be that kid's worst nightmare."

"Whatever Alex- I'm sure the same thing could be said about you- with your self-gratified egotistical bullshit, I doubt anyone would even want to have your kid," April countered placing her duffle bag in her locker and slamming its door shut.

Alex tucked his hands in his pants pocket and leaned against the wall. He was surprised April had even had the courage to say something like that to him. It was kind of nice to see her step out of her shell and tell him off. He also thought the quirky red head was sexy especially now that she was glaring at him as if she was shooting daggers at his face. He wouldn't dare tell her that; he had no intentions in being the fourth wheel in her little love triangle with Jackson and the paramedic.

"Wow Kepner I didn't realize you had that in you, it kinda turned me on."

April watched as he grabbed his crouch and made googly eyes at her- she wasn't impressed by his obscene gesture; in fact, she found it a little disgusting. She was thankful when Callie walked over to him and punched him right where the sun doesn't shine causing him to curl over onto the floor screaming like a two year old that just got told he couldn't have any ice cream.

"Asshole," she said while standing over him. She walked over to Callie who was smiling in triumph after having humiliated Alex and gave her a much commended high five. The two surgeons walked towards the entrance of the locker room giggling as they looked back at Alex who was still lying on the floor.

"Should we leave him here?" April asked her colleague feeling a little sorry for her ex roommate.

Callie furrowed her eyebrow, "Why not, he'll be fine in a few minutes anyway." April nodded turning to her friend before exiting the locker room. She had wanted to tell her something before Alex came in and interrupted their much needed girl time.

"Matthew and I have a date tonight, she announced as the two surgeons disappeared down the hall in the direction of the pit both prepared to start their day.

Callie interlocked her arm in April's completely content with their new found companionship. It felt nice to finally have someone to talk to especially since she had lost the only friend she had ever had. She missed him more than she ever expected to, and her daughter Sophia reminded her more and more of the arrogant much older plastic surgeon.

"Do tell," she said with a certain sparkle in her eye.

April welcomed her with a wholehearted smile, "Gladly."

So does Dr. Avery know yet?" Jo inquired while staring back at her fellow intern. She and Stephanie were hiding out on the roof avoiding their insecurities and the men in their lives. Jackson had not stopped calling Stephanie since their spat a few days ago, it didn't help his case now that the video of him and April was now circling the internet. It was the closest thing to internet porn she and Jo had ever seen, and it only pissed her off even more.

"Of course not. This is my problem and I don't need him trying to tell me what to do."

"Steph he deserves to know, you don't need to go through this alone, you need all the support you can get to survive this," Jo pleaded while lying back against the wall- her legs crossed Indian style.

Stephanie smiled amiably at her friend thankful that she was so concerned about her. It truly made her feel like she had someone on her side looking out for her- something she was desperately missing from Jackson. He was in love with someone else and the sooner he realized that the sooner she could move on from the mess of a relationship she shared with the plastic surgeon.

"That's what I have you for. Jo you've been so great and I don't know what I would of done if I had been forced to share my secret with Jackson instead of spilling my darkest thoughts to you."

Jo wrinkled her nose a little disturbed by Stephanie's decision to keep Jackson in the dark. She knew if something this big was happening to her, Alex would be the first person to know; he meant that much to her, but yet she was hiding out from him because she was too afraid to admit just how deep her feelings ran for the Pediatric Surgeon. She grabbed her friend's arm and turned herself around so that they were facing the same direction.

"You need to tell him, you cannot hide something this important from the man that you love, wrong or not. He's only human, and as humans we make mistakes- mistakes that sometimes hurt the people we care about the most. Jackson cares about you, so you need to give him the least bit of your time and tell him what's really been going on."

"I don't think I can Jo." Stephanie could feel the sting of her hot tears as they streamed down her face; she hadn't been able to keep them from falling. "I can't stand to be in the same room with him, the pain is too overwhelming."

"Do you still love him?"

"Of course I do Jo, that's why its hurts to keep this from him. I know that he feels something for me but it isn't enough. He doesn't love me like he loves her and he's either too blind to see it or just freakin selfish," Stephanie yelled before cradling her face in her hands.

She was so sick of turning a blind eye when it came to Jackson and April's unusual relationship. She had no intentions in playing second to the trauma surgeon, at least not anymore. Things were changing for her in a big way and she had little patience for men who were afraid of commitment.

She wiped her tears with the sleeve of her pink scrub top and ran her fingers through her tight curls. She leaned her head into Jo's shoulder and locked their arms together- finding comfort in her companionship.

"Isn't it amazing that even after four years of med school, we're still just as boy crazy as we were when we were just awkward teens trying to find their place in society," Jo added losing herself in the perfection of the clouds she so admired. She had been staring at one for several minutes now trying to decipher whether or not it looked like Larry King or Jay Leno from the tonight show.

"Yeah nothing's really changed since back then; well accept that we have our own set of bills and the freedom to make our own decisions. Can you believe I still read seventeen magazine faithfully as if I hadn't aged a day over sixteen?" Both girls giggled in unison taking a moment to reflect on the days when getting through high school seemed like their only worries.

"I think you're right Jo," Stephanie admitted peering out over the ledge of the roof. "I should tell Jackson the truth before I decide the best course of action for myself."

"Finally you agree with me. It's the right thing to do; you know maybe Jackson will be more supportive than you think."

"Maybe, but I really don't think I'll be getting my happily ever after any time soon. Jackson's one hell of a man and I'd be lying if I told you I didn't want things to work out between us, but I really don't see that happening."

Jo felt her pager vibrating from the depths of her scrub pocket. It was Jackson paging her which was odd because she wasn't on his service today. "That's weird."

"What is it?" Stephanie asked staring at her with a peculiar look on her face. Jo stood up from the spot she had been sitting at as did Stephanie as she waited for Jo's response.

"I have to head back, Dr. Avery's paging me." The sound of Jackson's name made Stephanie shiver which was something she hadn't anticipated. She pressed her hands over her scrubs trying to straighten out any wrinkles that might of formed after sitting on the ground.

"I didn't know you were on Jackson's service today?"

"I'm not," Jo answered before exiting the roof leaving a confused Stephanie alone to battle her thoughts.

"Oh," she replied as she watched Jo retreat back into the hospital on her way to see the plastic surgeon.

"Can you believe she just punched me in the nuts and left me there screaming like some chump. I swear if she had been a dude I would of beat her ass," Alex ranted while closing up his three year old patient who not only had a cleft nose but had just received a bilateral ventricular bypass from the assistance of Yang and Jackson. Jackson had no problem scrubbing in on the risky surgery because these days surgeries hardly came by now that he had taken a more prominent role in the running of the hospital.

"Wait a minute Callie's your boss's wife and technically she's your boss too man. You can't just go around making threats like your invincible," Jackson replied checking his watch for the time. He had paged Jo just moments ago and he was sure she'd be waiting for him in his office in only a matter of moments.

"Well if you're going to punch a grown man in the nuts, don't you think there should be consequences? I don't believe in hitting women, trust me, but dude I wish somehow Callie could lose out on a surgery or something or take a budget cut, you can sympathize with me right buddy; my balls would be so grateful to you if somehow you made Callie's life miserable."

Jackson chuckled at his roommate's request- knowing that he would never go against his own beliefs in order to satisfy Alex's streak for revenge. "Are you serious man?"

"Yeah sort of, Revenge is sweet man," Alex admitted while finally applying the last suture to his patient's chest. "Isn't that beautiful Yang," said Alex drawing his attention to the cardiothoracic surgeon who had all but saved his patient's life.

Christina lowered her eyes over the mask she had been wearing and gave Alex a long and hard stare. "Yeah, Yeah. I'm just glad it's over so I don't have to stand here and listen to you two babies cry about your stupid melodrama. I feel like I'm front in center in another teenage drama. I'm out of here," she finished whilst pulling off her scrub cap and exiting the OR. The two men looked at each other, then to Christina as she left the room hoping to keep their composure.

"She's crazy," Jackson offered after it was obvious that Yang had already left the OR and had no reason to come back. Alex had just finished telling Morgan- the surgical nurse on his service, that she had clearance to take the patient back to recovery. She obliged wheeling the patient out of the OR and down the hall in the direction of the cardio recovery wing.

"Yeah man, no doubt." Alex followed Jackson into the scrub room, removed his tainted gloves and turned on the faucet so that he could thoroughly wash his hands. "So about Callie, will you think about it Avery?"

Jackson removed his scrub cap after just finishing washing his hands and ran his hand across his shaven head. He was starting to feel a little annoyed by Alex's desperateness; so what if his ego was hurt; there was no way Jackson was going to entertain his quarrel with the orthopedic surgeon. "No way Karev, I can't purposely punish someone just because my roommate wants me to. I would be abusing my position and risking it at the same time."

"Whatever, I just thought I'd ask." Alex turned to leave stopping at the door to say something more. "I need to give my patient's father an update on his status; I'll see you at home man."

Jackson waited for the Ped's surgeon to leave then he followed in behind him walking in the direction of his office. He knew Jo was probably combing her mind trying to figure out why he had asked to see her. For obvious reasons he needed to see what was going on with Stephanie since she wasn't accepting his calls or any of his advances. In passing an on call room he overheard familiar voices coming from inside. He didn't want to be rude by entering the room so he waited outside hoping to hear a glimpse of what they were saying inside.

"What did he want with you, what did you say to him?" Stephanie screamed at Jo unable to manage her emotions from getting the best of her.

"Nothing, he never even showed up. I waited for him at least a half hour before you came rushing into his office like a mad woman." Jo tried to reach for Stephanie's hand but was rudely rejected as she swatted her hand away from her. "Stephanie you need to calm down, this is insane."

"I can't help myself from getting angry. My emotions are all over the place and I'm pissed at Jackson for sleeping with April. How could he have done this to me?"

"Whoa, I thought he never admitted to that," Jo countered moving an inch closer to Stephanie hoping to take hold of her so that she could console her distraught friend.

"Being too drunk to remember doesn't give him a free pass. He slept with her Jo, I could see the truth in his eyes even though he had no idea what happened. How can I ever tell him the truth now, he'll never be able to love me."

"Don't you go there Stephanie, he needs to know in fact you're going to tell him right now. I'll page him, said Jo pulling out her medical pager and putting in Jackson's extension."

Jackson recognized the chime of his pager going off ignoring it as he continued to listen in on his girlfriend's conversation. He hadn't realized just how deeply he had hurt her; it pained him to see her so broken and lost. He needed to know what was going on with her but he couldn't bring himself to interrupt what was transpiring before him.

"Jo Don't, Please." Jo flashed her pager in Stephanie's face revealing the message she had sent him asking him to meet her in the on call room.

"It's too late, so you're just going to have to prepare yourself to tell him what's happening to you."

"What's the point," she said sounding defeated as she sat down on the bed. "I'm dealing with it on my own; in fact I made an appointment for a week from today to take care of it, so really what's the point in telling him I'm getting rid of his baby."

Jo sat next to her on the bed placing her arm around her shoulder, "No Steph, you can't go through with this without telling him. This life that is growing inside of you is a part of him too."

That was not what Jackson had expected to hear; his girlfriend was pregnant and she hated him so much that she was getting rid of his kid. He didn't know how to process that information and talking to her now wouldn't resolve the shame or the guilt he felt at this moment. He took a deep breath feeling the quarter sized lump that had formed in his throat hoping to suppress the tears that were leaking from his eye lids. He couldn't remember ever wanting to cry but now after hearing that he had fathered a life, a life that because of his faults would not see the light of day. It made him sick. He made himself sick. He could hear the two women sobbing from inside and took the cue to walk away-his own tears fiercely blinding his face. He found an empty corridor finding solace on the floor.

"Get it together Jackson," he said aloud holding his face in his hands.

"Jackson are you ok?"

Jackson felt a hand take hold of his shoulder and looked up at the woman that stood above him. April was wearing a lavender strapless dress that stopped just before her knee accented by a pair of silver heels and the most beautiful set of pearls he had ever seen. Her hair was tied loosely in a bun and her bang swept to the right of her face. Jackson was taken aback by how beautiful she looked; she looked like an angel staring down at him with deep caring eyes.

"You look beautiful," he said opting not to discuss how incredibly sad he felt after overhearing the news of Stephanie's pregnancy. He didn't think he could just let her go through with ending his baby's life, a life that he helped create.

"Thank you," she said with a pleasant smile, "but are you really ok?"

"Yeah, I'm fine. I'm just stressed. Where are you headed? Do you have a hot date with the paramedic?"

"Yes I do, but you're avoiding the question? Talk to me Jackson." She sat down next to him on the floor hoping she wouldn't get her dress dirty. She had spent hours picking out this dress because she wanted to look perfect for Matt on their date. It had been a while since they had been out on a real date and she was looking forward to having a night of fun and romance for a change.

Jackson wrapped his arms around his knees and leaned his head back against the wall taking a deep breath and exhaling as he thought of what he should say next. He didn't want to burden her with his conflicting feelings about Stephanie and the baby or the way he felt about her.

"I Just found out I'm going to be a father today."

"Oh" April replied feeling a little uncomfortable by his earlier statement. A baby was a huge step and she didn't know if this news was something she should be happy about.

"Oh is all you have to say. No congratulations for your former best friend."

April assertively slapped his bicep, "Jackson I'm sorry. This is big news and I really didn't know what to say. When did you find out?"

"Just now, I overheard Stephanie talking to Jo about it. Can you believe she's been keeping this from me for weeks?"

"You mean she didn't tell you?"

"No, I don't really think she was going to. She's going to abort the baby," he confessed feeling the need to bury his face in her chest. He felt the tears fill his eyes until there was no more room left to hold them inside.

"Oh Jackson, I am so sorry." April placed both hands on Jackson's face and stared firmly into his eyes. She felt a sudden sense of sadness as she looked into his solemn blue eyes; she wanted so badly to be there for him but she didn't know how to comfort him.

"April I don't know what to do, I'm losing my baby before I even had a chance to decide if I wanted it."

"Jackson you can't give up; you have to convince her to keep the baby. Show her the man that I know you are."

"How can I when all she sees is the man that hurt her." Jackson cowered his head unable to look April in her eyes for the shame he felt had total control over him.

April lifted his chin up so that she could look him straight in the eyes. She needed him to see how much she cared about him. She needed him to know how important he was to her.

"Jackson, do you know what I see?" She watched Jackson reluctantly shrug his shoulders and reply with a no. "I see a brilliant, enduring man. A kind, warm hearted man who loves harder than anyone I know." April could feel her eyes watering as she tapped into her true feelings for the man before her. She couldn't stop herself from saying more, or doing more. She found herself lost in his eyes like she had been time and time again.

"Jackson I love you," she confessed taking hold of his lips with her own. She felt his mouth cave into hers kissing her with a passion she had yet to feel since they had broken up. She wiped the tears from his eyes with her thumb smiling at him as more tears escaped her eyelids.

Jackson couldn't believe what was happening to him, the woman of his dreams had just confessed her love for him. There was nothing in their way.

"April," Matthew called out to them having witnessed the intimate moment between his fiancé and the plastic surgeon.

April parted from Jackson's embrace and looked towards her fiancé who was holding a bouquet of a dozen purple lilies.

"Matthew, I"

"Stop, how could you? I loved you." Matthew dropped the bouquet of flowers on the floor and turned to walk away. He wanted so badly to destroy Jackson who was quietly sitting on the floor beside his fiancé. How could he have been so foolish to think that she had gotten over her ex, and was ready to move on with him? He felt like a complete idiot.

"Matthew wait," April screamed after him but she was too late because he didn't even bother to turn around soon disappearing down the corridor.