What am I doing? Catherine could only think to herself about the kiss with Evan.
It wasn't that it was bad, Catherine thought it was quite nice. With the alcohol going straight to her brain she wasn't sure exactly if she liked it or hated it. Liked it. If she was being honest with herself. Certainly something she had to be, or something like that would never make sense. Knowing it was a kiss with Evan, she knows and works with. The man dated, and if anyone made it a living Evan would. Catherine didn't want to be a notch in the mans belt. Of course one kiss wouldn't make her one.
It was only a spontaneous thing..It won't happen again! It can't happen again! There had been that one part of her that wanted to admit to her feelings for a man. She had wanted to come clean that the kiss was anything but perfect. Perfect being the one man she wish was there. Catherine knew that if anything, he was there in his own way. She found herself looking towards the windows, wondering if she could see him. As the thought of walking over to take that moment she would hear her name being called. Her reality was he had to be kept a secret, not that it was something she wanted. Vincent. He was always around when she needed him. Did that mean he was there now? in his own way. Was he close enough?
Despite who was all at her birthday party, there was one other person she wished could have participated. Openly, perhaps the kiss would have been with him. Vincent.
Her sister had put up a star the was significant to being their mother. And in her mind she was content with that. But she wasn't certain if Vincent was close enough to be considered there too. A part of her. That very big part of her that wanted to say there is someone special in her life. To admit that feelings were simply more. That she even now was counting the minutes that she could see him again. Catherine in all honesty wanted the kiss to be with Vincent. The one that she had seen, both his true beauty. And the beast he became, that had saved her life so many times when she needed him. Her superhero. Even though she had to remain focused on her birthday party, and pretty much participating in the festivities. Catherine wanted it to be over, just so she can see Vincent.