Feeling really disheartened right now. i finlly got around to telling my parents that i like girls (yeah that's a thing guys, im a Yaoi loving individual who likes girls and can't stand the thought of being with a man) and you know what? they didn't believe me.

so yeah, feeling really sad right now. sorry if that reflects in my writing.

"Oh man, I hate waking up!" Temari complained as she dragged herself out of their shared bedroom.

"Yeah well how do you think I feel?" I asked, "I get eight hours of peace a night before I wake up and remember I live with you three."

"Aw, you love us anyway!" she called out, disappearing into the bathroom.

The boys dragged themselves out of the room slowly and sat themselves down at the table.

Sometimes I forgot that they were just children – for the most part anyway – but it was hard not to remember when they were walking around, pyjama clad and worn out, after a night of midnight train interrupted sleep.

"What's that smell?" Gaara asked, rubbing his eyes tiredly. Unfortunately Gaara was a really light sleeper, so he didn't really get a lot of the stuff, due to the noise. He had dark lines around his eyes that proved his lack of sleep, and a few odd personality quirks that added to it.

"I made breakfast," I announced. It felt great to say that, because it meant we had money for food to actually have breakfast. "I also made lunch."

Kankuro perked up instantly at the mention of food. "Are you serious?" he asked, "am I still dreaming?"

"I hope not kid, cause that's a pretty sad sounding dream world," I replied.

It felt wonderful to have my family's finances under control again for the time being, and the smiles on their faces were definitely worth what I knew I would later have to endure.

It felt like things went smoother that morning, than they had been going since school started up. My cousins were happier, they got ready faster, we left on time and didn't have to run to catch the train – which we had to do sometimes even though we lived right beside it – and I just felt as though I didn't have to worry about Gaara messing up at school or anything like that.

I made sure Temari knew she would be home alone with the kids after school again that day, and every day for the rest of the week, but I knew I could trust her. They were her brothers, after all, and as long as they behaved themselves I knew I could count on her to keep them relatively alive.

The train stopped outside the Uni-tech building like it did every morning, but I didn't feel that looming sense of dread that I usually felt. I knew this probably wasn't going to be a good day, because I had so few of those as it was, but from the way things were going, I knew at least, that things were going to be alright.

"So how was it?"

Tobi looked as though he had waited all day to ask that question.

We were in the quad, sitting around. All of us, which usually made for trouble but it seemed things were getting to that nice, tranquil place they usually ended up before school became truly chaotic.

Deidara was there with his friends as well, it seemed like he was always moving around, tossing around a ball with a bunch of kids I didn't know. It seemed to highlight the real difference between the two of us. Out here, he was so different, and looking at him spawned this sort of nostalgic feeling inside of me, of the first day of school when we first sort of met.

I couldn't help but notice the way he was constantly looking over at us, throwing fleeting glances in our direction every few minutes, and looking away quickly when he saw me looking back, sparing only a cheeky kind of smirk before turning his attention back to what he'd been doing before.

"Hm, what do you mean?" I asked, if only to annoy Tobi, as payback for landing me with a shitty job.

"Don't fuck around right now," Tobi almost growled, "tell me what happened."

"Well congratulations, thanks to you, I've lost all faith in a little something called human decency."

Tobi laughed and patted my head as though I were a child, which I automatically swatted away, scowling at him. Though it was true, in some areas Tobi knew a lot more than I did, but that didn't make it alright for him to touch me.

"That's something I lost a long time ago," he told me.

"Aw, cut him a little slack," Konan said, giving her usual smile, "I think it's cute that he still believes people other than us will ever be nice to him."

"Not that your all that nice anyway," Hidan muttered.

Konan laughed as though she'd misheard, though it was really a warning for Hidan to take it back. "Excuse me?" she asked. The look in her eyes dared Hidan to talk back.

Hidan held her stare for a moment longer, before folding.

"Nothing," he growled.

"So are you going to stick with it?' Itachi asked, ignoring the rest of the conversation.

"Of course he will! Sasori's no quitter!" Tobi quickly answered for me.

"Well then you should know his parents are going to judge your performance based on his mark in the test Tomorrow," Itachi told me.

"What test? I wasn't told about that!"

"Of course you weren't, the kid wants you to fail," Tobi stated. "We're having a physics test tomorrow. None of his other tutors have ever managed to improve his grades, so maybe you'll be a first!"

"What's the point? He could just tank the test even if I did do a good job."

"As bad a person he is, that isn't something he would do," Itachi said, "from what I know about the people before you, he prefers a fair fight, so to speak. He'd rather get into your head and use whatever weakness he can find, rather than taking such an easy way out."

"That's great. I can't think of anything that really gets under my skin, so it should be good."

My words were met with mocking laughter from almost all of my friends – except those with too many manners or too little enthusiasm to do so.

"Are you fucking kidding? I can think of eight things right now!" Hidan cackled.

"Yeah but –"

"You're the most impatient person I know," Konan agreed, pointing out what I would allow to be named, one of my biggest flaws.

"That's hardly fair!"

"That kid is going to eat you alive," Itachi said solemnly.

Right after that, I thought I heard Tobi say, "in more ways than one."

Instead of insulting my personality like the others had, Kakuzu just handed me a newspaper and said, "I'd start looking for something else, if I were you," he said.

"You really have this little faith in me?" I asked the all. Where the hell had Kakuzu even gotten a newspaper anyway?! Did he just carry these around to express his overall doubt of my ability to hold down a job?

"Pretty much," Pein said in that uncaring voice of his.

Great. First my family now my friends.

"I don't understand, un!"

At this point, I was about ready to give up. Maybe burn the books. Maybe burn the entire building.

Konan had been right when she said I was impatient, and this was the sixth time in literally ten minutes, that we had had to stop because Deidara was having problems keeping up.

Itachi had filled me in on the things they'd been studying in class, and the things which would most likely be on the test. I remembered taking the same course last year, and we were relearning most of the stuff in my own physics class anyway, so I knew it wasn't my explanations which were confusing him. No, the only logical reason was that Deidara was a complete idiot.

I took a deep breath and counted to five – I generally didn't have the patience to count to ten – like I'd been forced to many times before when helping Gaara and Kankuro with their classes. They were just as annoying as this, and I didn't get paid for helping them until they were grown up and rich.

"We've been over this eight times," I said, doing my best to keep calm and not make it obvious how annoyed I was.

"But it's hard, un!" he complained.

If he were one of my cousins, I could just lock him in his room with his books and notes until he was ready to try again. But that probably wouldn't go over well in a situation like this.

"If you don't like it, why'd you take the class?" I asked.

It was almost time for me to go home, we'd spent the better part of two hours completing the work he had for his other classes, because he refused to go near his physics material until everything else was done.

We hadn't even covered half of the things Itachi had mentioned.

"Un, I never said I didn't like it, I just said it was hard," he replied.

"That makes no sense!" I yelled, before remembering my place and saying, "why are you such an idiot?"

"That's not very nice, un!" he exclaimed, "I'm not an idiot, I just have trouble learning all these formulas and stuff, un!"

"Are you kidding?" I asked, beyond frustrated by now, "it's just like Calculus, you're good at calculus, why can't you be good at physics?"

Deidara shrugged. "Can't we do more history stuff, un?" he asked.

"No brat. Your history assignment isn't due until next week, so you can either work on it by yourself, or after school tomorrow. This is more important right now," I told him, "this is basic stuff, seriously. We'll start at the beginning with one dimensional motion. The formulas are right here, so you don't have to remember them all right away."

"Your annoyingly persistent, un," Deidara sighed, lifting his head from his arms where he'd been resting during our argument, "my last tutor would've flipped the table by now and stormed out. He wasn't a very nice guy though, un."

"and you're annoyingly uncooperative," I countered, scrawling down one of the equations we'd covered in my own class that day, which related to what I was trying to teach him now, "if you don't want to pay attention in class, that's fine. But as long as your parents are still paying me, you're learning this stuff one way or the other."

He let out a sullen sigh, "you're so mean un," he said.

Whatever, that was the least of my concerns right now.

The next twenty minutes were more productive than the entire day had been. I couldn't tell if he'd just been testing the waters before and pretending to be a slow learner, but I didn't care because we were making progress and it seemed like he was definitely going to pass.

I hadn't decided whether or not I would keep this job after this one week trial thing, but at least I knew that, if I had to, I'd be able to do this for the rest of however long it was required.

I was feeling fairly confident by the time we were kicked out of the library. We were the only ones left there and took our time packing away our things while the elderly librarian went off to answer the phone.

"I don't suppose it'd be any use asking you to study at home?" I asked. I had barely anything to take with me so I was ready to go, but I waited for him anyway, since it was dark outside and this wasn't a good place to be outside alone. Of course, it was different for poor people like me; so I wasn't worried.

"I don't know un, I might pull through just to throw you off," he said with a smile.

It was a good thing he didn't know just how much that smile threw me off already. Part of me was still caught up in that memory I had of him from the first day. I mean, if he just never, ever opened his mouth again, he'd be bearable. He was actually kind of cute, so long as he wasn't babbling on about shit that made him sound like a complete bastard.

Wait what?!

He was a guy! Guys weren't cute! Even if he did look really feminine. That didn't make it okay!

I had never had these sort of conflicting feelings before, actually to be honest I'd never felt anything towards anybody except a kind of platonic love for my cousins and tolerance for my friends, so you can probably understand why this would be so confusing.

Deidara continued to smile at me, having packed away all of his books, he made a gesture suggesting we get going and I followed after him in distracted sort of zombie state, too busy thinking things over to bother paying attention to anything, until we were stopped by the librarian on our way out.

"Is one of you Sasori?" she asked, holding out the phone to us.

"Yeah, that's me," I said, taking the phone from her. I knew I was late, but not enough to make my cousins worry. That made me worry about why they'd bothered to call. "Hello?"

"Hey where are you?" Temari's voice was easily recognisable, even though such an old phone.

"I'm still at school Temari, did something happen?" I asked, feeling increasingly worried as she took her time to answer.

"Not really, I mean I wouldn't get too worried, it's just that your genius little cousins let a game of I dare you get just a little too far," she told me calmly.

"What do you mean, what happened?" I could feel Deidara watching me as I began to freak out, just a little bit, but Gaara and Kankuro were morons and had done extremely idiotic things on occasion when nobody was around, "weren't you supposed to be watching them?"

"Yeah, I was. But you know how tricky they can be! I looked away for like two seconds and the next moment Gaara tells me Kankuro was throwing up a frog."

"What? Where the hell did they even get a frog?!" I was yelling at that point, "what the hell is wrong with them?!"

"I don't know, I think Gaara stole it from his class. I think we should take Kankuro to the hospital to get his stomach pumped or something, he seemed really sick."

Had it been a week earlier, I would've refused and told Temari to just wait it out, but since I had the relative security of this job, I said, "Alright, I'll meet you there. Don't let them out of your sight again until I get there."

With those words, I hung up and placed the phone down before rushing out of the building, running a hand through my hair in the way that stressed out people usually did. Damn my cousins and their stupid ideas of entertainment! But thank god I'd paid the bills in time or Temari would've had a harder time contacting me.

I heard Deidara running after me, and slowed down after remembering why I had been there in the first place.

"Hey un, sounded like one hell of a call, what happened?" he asked, once he'd caught up to me.

You know, walking through the school halls at night was kind of creepy as hell.

"It's nothing. Just a small problem with my cousins is all, nothing I haven't dealt with before," I told him, "they're like three miniature yous."

"Aw un, I didn't know Danna had a family!" he said excitedly, his blue eyes seemed to light up and he gave another smile.

"Don't call me that," I told him, "and don't talk about my family, they're none of your concern."

He laughed that weirdly enchanting laugh and said, "That's adorable Danna un, you think there's thing in your life that doesn't concern me. Now that you're my tutor I have the right to know everything about you!"

I sighed, realising he wasn't going to drop the nickname. As for the whole knowing everything about me thing, I decided not to worry about it. He was rich, sure, but basically harmless.

That's what I thought anyway, until the next day during morning break, leaving the main building with Temari.

So, i have this all bascially planned out, but i'd be really interested to see how my readers think this is going to turn out.