Chapter 4: Wrong When You're Gone
So…it came to pass. It was now Derek's turn to avoid Meredith. The pain was to much to bare. She'd cheated on him…and with Alex of all people!
She felt lower then zero. But one thing that she'd decided to do was leave him a voicemail:
"Guess I should've shut my mouth, but I had to get it out. So much for being head-strong. Huh? Now I'm, going halfway out my mind. I know I was out of line. And Derek, I'm so sorry for that. No, scratch that I was dead wrong.
"But I know I should've let it go, but I just had to be right.
Could've left it alone,
but no I just had to be right. I couldn't
stand for you not to know the I, would've fell back if I
knew all I'd be left with. Because now…you're gone."
She took a deep breath. "I just know that now, I'm backing down this time. I don't wanna fight. I don't care who's right. Cuz, I'm wrong when you're gone….It doesn't matter that I was wrong, or if you were wrong. We were both wrong."
She brushed her hair back and continued. "Heaven knows that if you were here with me, I'd be on my knees apologizing for everything I've done. I know I pushed you away, but I swear I'm going to do better….I just need to hear your voice….Derek I miss you…"