Hello guys,
So I have a couple of things I want to say, we're only three chapters in so hang on the answers will come eventually, and I know a couple of you guys are having trouble thinking of why emily left and whether or not it looks real but come on people you don't even know yet and you guys are already jumping to conclusions. Any who THANK YOU for all the support, I hope you enjoy this chapter...
"Hanna I don't need you to set me up" Alison said for what felt like the fifth time in the last ten minutes "I'm fine"
"Says the woman who practically spends every Friday night by herself" Hanna huffed, they were having their weekly Thursday night dinner in Alison's house and the blonde had gone on and on about this guy she wanted to introduce Alison to, and no matter how many times Alison had told her she didn't want to get involved with anyone the information seemed to go in through one ear and out the other.
"I'm not by myself, if you hadn't noticed I have a son, with whom I need to spend time with" Alison argued.
"You haven't been on a date since you broke up with Dean" Hanna exhaled taking a sip of her wine.
Dean. The only 'serious' relationship Alison had been in since Jamie was born. She met him in a conference in Seattle about two years ago and they began seeing each other practically ever since. However, they had broken things off a couple of weeks ago when Dean had proposed and Alison had declined, arguing that she wasn't ready for that sort of commitment and that she had to think about what was best for Jamie.
"Come on Al, please"
"Dean…" The blonde looked at her boyfriend standing on the other side of the kitchen island, "I mean… it's just-"
"It's just what?!" Dean exhaled as he ran his hand through his hair, "And don't tell me it's all really sudden like I didn't think this through"
"Dean there's a lot I need to consider before I make a decision like this" The blonde sighed "There's Jamie-"
"Don't use Jamie as an excuse" He shook his head, "You know I love spending time with him and he loves spending time with me, so don't use him as an excuse to turn me down"
"I'm not"
"Then why won't you marry me?" Dean asked desperately, "I love you and I want to spend the rest of my life with you"
"Dean I can't get married, I'm not ready. Not yet" Alison sighed before she walked over to him, taking his hands in hers.
Dean closed his eyes before he snatched his hands away "Then I can't do this, not anymore"
"She did only break up with Dean two months ago" Aria pointed out, earning a grateful glance from Alison.
"Exactly, two months is a long time" Hanna exhaled "I swear you'll like him"
Thankfully before the conversation could go any further a panicked Jamie jogged into the room, followed by the wail of Hanna's ten month old.
"Mommy Chloe's cwying" the four year old stated reaching his mother's lap, "I promise I didn't do anything, I was even watching TV with her"
"Don't worry Jamie, she probably just wants to get out of her chair" Hanna chuckled before she stood up from her chair, disappearing as she made her way to the living room, not that it was a shock but the blonde was right and practically as soon as Hanna picked her up the crying ceased.
"I think it's time for you to go to bed" Alison started running her hand through her son's messy hair.
"But mommy…" Jamie whined trying his best to repress a yawn "I'm not tired"
"It's not up for discussion young man" Alison stood up taking her son's hand "I'll be right back"
It was barely twenty minutes later when Alison went back downstairs because as usual it took Jamie barely two minutes to fall asleep once his head touched the pillow. The blonde found a newly arrived Mona and the four girls sitting back down on the table cooing at a very awake Chloe. Mona was a rather new addition to their group considering it hadn't been that long since their brain actually recognized said brunette as a friend.
"What are you guys talking about?" Alison asked as she sat back down on the table.
"Nothing really, is Jamie asleep?" Mona took the deck of cards shuffling them.
"Out like a light" The blonde chuckled as she watched the brunette sitting next to her hand out the cards, "So have you heard from Emily since the funeral?"
Spencer practically choked on her drink at the sudden question, Hanna and Aria looked shocked being caught off guard while Mona eyed them confused, she had been had only come back to town after being away for three weeks and she had yet to learn about the little meeting in the funeral four days ago.
"Emily came back to town?" Mona inquired suspiciously.
"So have you?" Alison asked once more not looking up from her deck of cards, completely ignoring Mona's question.
"No, we haven't. She probably left town right after" Spencer informed.
"Emily's back in town?!" Mona urged again, and Hanna eyed her dangerously as if trying to get her to shut up. Even after all these years it was still hard for them to know how to talk about Emily in front of the blonde, too scared to cause her any unnecessary pain.
"I still can't believe she left" Hanna repeated for the fourth time, from her place on the couch in front of Spencer.
"I know Hanna, you've said it four times in the last two minutes" The brunette sighed "I'm just as shocked as you are"
"But they're having a baby" The blonde kept fidgeting with her wedding ring, looking down intently at it, "the only reason Ali is having this baby is because Emily asked her too, and now Emily is gone, what if she doesn't want him anymore?"
"Don't." Spencer snapped sternly "Don't even go there"
"Yeah" Alison exhaled "and Hanna you can let Mona ask about her, I can handle it" she added catching Hanna off guard.
"No, no I know that" Hanna mumbled "I just-"
"You just want to protect me, I get it" Alison smiled "All I'm saying is that it's not necessary. I think that after everything that has happened I can handle Emily"
"We don't doubt you can handle her, we just think that you don't need a constant reminder of her" Spencer sighed. "Not after she left"
"Why did she leave?" Mona inquired, to be completely honest she had never really heard the whole story; mainly because she became friends with Alison way after the brunette had left but also because at the time she was locked up at Welby and when she got out Emily was long gone and no one wanted to talk about it.
"I don't know" Alison mumbled before she looked up "All we know is she left without saying goodbye"
-x-
The dim moonlight was the only thing illuminating her path as she made her path as she made her way through the dark. It had been a really long time since she had been here, yet that didn't mean they weren't in her mind all the time. The last time she had walked down this road was one week before she left town, and three months after her mom died. Finally reaching her destination she took a deep breath before she kneeled down in front of their tombstones, -Pam and Wayne Fields-; just being here brought tears to her eyes because she missed them. A lot.
"I know I haven't been here in a really long time, but I haven't been in town for a while, four years actually." The brunette whispered gently stroking her mother's tombstone, "I thought I was doing the right thing but I'm not so sure anymore."
She kept looking at her watch, she knew Alison would be back any minute now and she needed to be out of here before she arrived. She knew it was hard enough as it was, the last thing Emily needed was to face her. She couldn't because she knew that if she saw her, if she saw the blonde, she would change her mind. And she couldn't risk it.
"I know I promised I wouldn't let anybody hurt them" Emily sighed and by now tears were running down her cheeks "But apparently I ended up hurting them even more."
The cancer had taken all of them by surprise, how quickly it spread and how fast it had drained the life out of her. Yet, nothing the doctors could say or do could make the brunette lose that one last ray of hope, that little glint of light that kept her convinced her mom would get better. So she lived one day at a time and she didn't let anybody, not even Alison, talk to her about the cancer or how bad it had gotten.
"Emmy you have to listen to what the doctors are saying" Pam exhaled from her place on the hospital bed, reaching out to place her hand on top of her daughter's, "The cancer spread to my pancreas, there's not much they can do"
"No" The brunette shook her head furiously, crudely getting off the bed, "No, there has to be something else they can do, if not here then maybe we can find another hospital or a medical trial, there has to be something we can do"
"Emily, sweetheart…" Pam said lovingly, "There's nothing else we can do"
"Mom, please. We can't give up" Emily pleaded her eyes swimming in tears "I can't lose you too"
Pam sighed reaching her hand out in the air, as a silent plea for her daughter to take it. Which she did, and before she even knew it the brunette was sitting back in the bed next to her mom.
"We knew this day might come" Emily shook her head so her mother spoke once more, "And I know how scary it may seem but it's time"
"Time?! Mom it's been three months" A tear ran down her cheek.
"Three months I've spent more time in this hospital than in my own house" Pam gently squeezed her daughter's hand. "And you've spent more time in this hospital than in your house, you've seen more of my doctor than of your fiance"
"Ali understands"
"She's having a baby Emmy" Pam smiled her eyes now full of tears too, "Your baby"
"Exactly, you're going to be a grandma" The brunette wiped away the tears running down her cheeks, "Don't you want to meet him?"
"You know there's nothing I would love more" Pam sadly smiled "But I'm running out of time, so there's something I need you to promise me"
"Mom…"
"You're about to start a family, you're going to become a mother, and although it is the most amazing thing that can happen to you, it's also an enormous responsibility" Emily nodded before her mother continued "So you need to protect them, because once this child is born it's up to you and Alison to give it it's best shot, no matter what it takes"
"I know" The brunette stated, "I know that"
"Then promise me you'll protect them, no matter what it takes"
"I promise"
The sound of a breaking twig made the sobbing brunette jump, and turning around she found an old acquaintance standing behind her and without thinking it twice Emily got up on her feet whipping clean her tear stained cheeks.
"Jenna."
"You're back"
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