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BPOV

By the time I started up the third flight of stairs in the lecturer's building my confidence was beginning to wane and my feet started dragging. I began thinking what exactly is my excuse for wanting to change classes?...I couldn't just say...well my lecturer is my long lost vampire lover who no longer loves me and I want to switch to save him the pain of having to see me! Yeah I thought that would go down real well!

I was nearly to the door of room 3.16 now...what do I say!...Arghh I don't know, but I was knocking now, I couldn't help myself, I just wanted to get it over with so I could go home and fall to pieces, I would think of something when I saw the subject coordinator.

"Come in" came a muffled soft voice through the door...so I have a male coordinator. I gently opened the door stepping through, looking at the floor as I did this and turning around to face the door as I shut it again, I was nervous, I wanted to delay this so I could think of an excuse...but I couldn't delay any longer, I placed by bag on the floor near the door and I turned around to face my subject coordinator, ready to say hello and introduce myself, when my words died on my lips...

FUCK!!!

Oh my god!!

Arghh!!!

My subject co-ordinator is...is...him...is Edward, I winced. Oh great, this new beginning keeps getting better and better, what next I thought, but then I cringed, I shouldn't think like that, with my luck, then next thing could and would be worse than this! But I couldn't grasp how it could get much worse than this.

I just stood there staring at him for I don't know how long, while he just stared right back from where he sat on his chair in front of his desk. God he's beautiful, how I miss him...no Bella you can't think like this...finally my thoughts broke through my yearning and I remembered why I was here and what I had to do. Edward seemed to see me snap out of my trance and gave a slight smile, but it didn't reach his eyes "Bella" he said softly, pain flashing again across his eyes like earlier, I internally flinched, gee he must really not want to see me I thought. Well that was why I was here, so he wouldn't have to...suffer. "Edward" I said, god the pain from having to say it out loud, one of my arms instinctively wrapped my body trying to hold me together to get this over with.

EPOV

My beautiful Bella is here, right in front of me, as beautiful as ever and most importantly, still alive. I was so happy I couldn't believe it, we thought she had died, Alice stopped seeing her a month after we left, and when we called the house, we heard about Charlie going to the funeral, and that was when I thought I had truly died. I tried so hard to go the Volturi so I could die and be with my beautiful Bella, but my family would not let me out of their sight, someone was always with me throughout that first year or so, and eventually I began to see that I could not go and hurt my family and especially Esme that way. I began to think that maybe I deserved this, to be punished throughout the rest of my existence with the pain of leaving Bella, knowing that I wasn't there, that I had broke her heart...I was a broken man.

But recently I had tried very hard, for my family's sake, to get my life back on track, a new beginning, because I didn't think they could take much more of my pain, especially Jasper, who couldn't really be around me much, because my pain was just so powerful and it caused him real pain also, no matter how much he tried to alleviate it, the pain was ever present and tearing at me.

I snapped out of my thoughts, hearing Bella say my name and flinched when I saw the pain in her eyes and her arm wrap around herself. God what had I done, she looks so lost and broken, I will never, never hurt her like that again, never...she's so thin and pale and has shadows under her eyes, she's not sleeping. She could almost pass for a vampire now; I wondered what she would think of that. "Bella what are you doing here". I thought I had asked innocently, but perhaps I could have phrased it better, because she flinched again in pain and her arm gripped herself tighter.

"Are you my subject co-ordinator?" She asked tentatively, not really meeting my eyes.

"Yes, Bella, I am" God I loved saying her name, now I knew she was alive.

"Ok...well...I would like to withdraw from classical literature this semester"

Now I flinched, "My class?"

"Umm Yes, ....umm I...want...to do contemporary literature first instead...umm I think I would like it better"

We both new that was a lie, she loved the classics above all, but I would not shame her. I slowly got up out of my chair and she slightly moved backward before she could stop herself. "Unfortunately Bella, contemporary literature is completely full this semester, they can't take another enrolment, as are the other literature classes this semester, I'm sorry, you'll just have to stay in my class" this last bit came out angry but I had not intended that at all, I didn't want to hurt her again, but the look of pain and... loathing when she heard that she would have to stay in my class just got to me.

"Fine" she said, my angry tone getting to her, and that beautiful flush crept up her cheeks, "I'll just have to endure it then" she said, not looking at me any longer and turned abruptly to exit the room, going to yank the door handle open, but in her anger and before I could warn her, she yanked the door handle to open the door, but the door didn't budge, except for the handle coming off completely in her hand, the force of her pull sending her backwards across the room to land on her bottom near my feet.

"Sorry Bella, the door handle is...I mean was a bit iffy, I was waiting for maintenance to come and fix it"

Bella was still sitting on the floor, just looking at the door handle in her hand "I'm sorry Edward".

"It's okay" I told her, "you didn't mean it, I should have asked them to hurry up and fix it sooner, it's a bit of a health risk, what if there was a fire, we'd be trapped" I shuddered at the thought. Bella seemed to come to "What do you mean trapped, can't we just pull the door open" she almost screamed, jumping to her feet and trying to pull the door open with her bare hands, working herself into a frenzy. "Bella, it's ok, I'll just call maintenance to quickly come get us out, clam down". I quickly made the call and they said they would be about ten minutes, I said ok, but hurry and hung up. I could have kicked the door out myself, but I didn't want to draw attention and have to explain, I was also in shock at seeing my Bella and I would take any time I could get with her.

Bella was still trying to pull the door open, working herself further into a frenzy, I thought she might be going to have a panic attack, I didn't remember her being claustrophobic before and I thought the prospect of being stuck with me wasn't the end of the world! I heard a sniffle, and that broke my heart, I couldn't help myself, I went across to the door and turned Bella around and pulled her into my arms. God I've missed her, my throat burned from her beautiful scent, but I welcomed it, I welcomed her, I welcomed everything about her, my love. She was shocked at first by my approach, struggling with her panic and then, coaxed by my soothing words and my hands rubbing her back and holding her head to my chest, she began to relax and held me back. BLISS, I wanted to shout my joy, my Bella was back in my arms.

I held her for what felt like hours but was really only minutes, my arms holding her warm body tight, my hands roving across her back and arms, Bella brought her face into the crook of my neck, and when I felt her warm breath on my neck and jaw, I couldn't help myself, I brought my hand up under her chin and brought her beautiful lips to mine, giving her the most sweet and gentle kiss I ever have and she didn't resist me, sighing softly and kissing me back. Her sigh is what did it, it was so beautiful, I literally couldn't help myself, the lust just went straight through me and a little growl escaped my throat and I pushed her against the door, pushing my cold hard body against her warm soft one and kissed her deeply and passionately, we couldn't get enough of each other, our tongues and lips melding with all our pent up lust and emotions. This was the most out of control we have ever been, but I couldn't think about anything but having her.

But Bella suddenly stilled in my arms...what was wrong, I continued to press gentle kisses to her jaw, but Bella just put her hands onto my chest and pushed me back, and I went willingly, I would never do anything she didn't want. "No Edward" she said softly, "I... we can't do this...you don't have to, I understand" and turned around to bang on the door, shouting for help and someone to get her out. What was she talking about, I don't have to?

Bella was working herself into a frenzy again, tears streaming down her cheeks, her fists banging on the door. I went to comfort her again "Bella" putting my hand gently on her back, "No Edward" she cried, "I'm ok you don't have to do this, I just want to get out and everything will be ok" she cried, banging on the door screaming to get out now. What is going on her head I thought, but these thoughts were interrupted by a soft voice on the other side of the door, "stand back Bella, I'll get you out", it was Alice. Bella moved back, still sobbing, not looking at me. Alice gently kicked the door open and stood in the doorway surveying the situation, me standing in the corner, and Bella sobbing frantically in the middle of the room. I could see through Alice's mind that Bella stopped crying and gave Alice a quick smile before flying out the door without a backwards glance. Edward, Alice thought, what did you do to her, and I don't just mean now, she looks so broken Edward, you have to be gentle with her, take it slow, if not, I've seen it, she'll run away and she then tried to block out the image of Bella in a mangled car wreck, I flinched. Alice I will never, never hurt Bella again, I love her so much, I want her back...

Yeah Edward I know, Alice thought...but Edward I'm not so sure she knows that, Bella's got a long memory and words stick you know, think about that, take it slow. I love you Edward and I love Bella too, I want my best friend back ok.

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