HEY GUYS! I have been so lazy. I had the time to update yesterday but then I started reading romantic adventure time fanficton. GUYS FOR ONCE IT WAS A STRAIGHT PAIRING. Fiona and Marshall Lee is my only freaking straight pairing. Should I be sad or proud? Also! My friend wanted the name of one of her favorite band members for the name of the new doctors helping Ponyboy. So if you recognize the name I know he is from Black Veil Brides. I will loosely base the appearance off of the real person, but there will be some differences. The personality won't be because I don't know anything about him other than what he looks like. ALSO I PUT A QUOTE THAT ASHLEY ACTUALLY SAID. SO DON'T YELL AT ME FOR THE FOLLOWING: "Being unique is what's cool man. Being normal? What's that? That's a setting on a washing machine. Nobody wants to be that."

I TAKE NO CREDIT FOR THAT.

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ENJOY!

"I myself am not afraid of ghosts; I am afraid of people."
― Emilie Autumn

Nightmares infested my dreams. Not a single night went by without one of these terrible dreams. Sodapop didn't know about them, not a scream escaped my mouth during the night. It took all of my self control not to laugh when I overheard Soda tell Darry he thought I was getting better. Perhaps they would give me some freedom in the future. The loud reaction I heard from Darry crushed my hopes of this. Darry had already scheduled an appointment with Dr. Purdy, someone our social worker suggested. If I refused to go, Darry threatened putting me into another mental hospital. At least Sodapop tried to make me feel better about it. To bad I wasn't really listening to him. Somehow the ground seemed more interesting.

"-So there is really no reason to worry! You think you will remember all of that?" Sodapop's words finally broke threw my train of thought. I hadn't really heard a word he said, I was remembering how Two-bit burned a hole in the carpet with his cigarette.

"Yep." I smiled," I'll remember every single word of it."

"Good! Now you should get to bed. Tomorrow you have to get up early to go see Dr. Purdy!"

Darry brought me to the appointment early. I felt slightly claustrophobic in the small waiting room. Luckily, the book I brought saved me from having to talk with Darry.

"You definitely aren't a observant fellow." When I looked up, A man was crouched in front of me. He was wearing a coat that belonged to a doctor with very colorful, and not even close to matching, shirt underneath it. I remained quiet, unsure of what to say to this randomly appearing man. He grinned a stuck out his hand for me to shake," Your Ponyboy right? I am the fabulous Dr. Purdy!"

"Hello..." I replied, shaking his large hand.

"Well put that book down, it is time to go on the magical adventure to my office!" Dr. Purdy cheered and began leading me to his room. It was just as colorful as his shirt and personality, and as odd. There was no real theme. Not a single seat was close to the next. He sat down into his desk which had food wrappers and trash scattered, I couldn't actually see the top of the desk. I was taken back when he just shoved every thing off.

"Sorry for the mess, I just had lunch." He continued talking when I didn't reply," So I hate introductions, so we are just going to skip that. I already read your file and you know me name. Is that enough for you?"

"Uh... I guess?"

"Great! Now before I start to ask some questions and have you vent anything I'd like to remind you that I can not tell anybody anything you say in here. So feel free to say anything. Got it?"

"I guess..."

"Alright! Now first question! Do you only know the words Hello, Uh, I, and guess?"

"What?"

"Ah! I take it that you do more then. Do you know anymore words?"

"I am pretty sure I know a lot of words."

"Then don't restrict yourself to saying the same words over and over. You said 'I guess' twice."

"Sorry..."

"Don't be sorry! I am just really weird about these things. Are you ready for your actual first question?"

"Yeah."

"Wonderful! So... Why are you alive?"

"I don't know." That wasn't what I thought It would be. I thought he would just ask how I was feeling or why are you so depressed.

"Maybe It is the fact that you don't actually want to die. I have a theory. When someone is suicidal but they can't seem to die, a small part of them is still sane and wants to live. Humans naturally want the easy way out of things. So the human in you tries to take the easy way out, which in this case is death."

"How would you know this is true for me?" I said as I rolled my eyes," If I just started being normal-"

"Being unique is what's cool man. Being normal? What's that? That's a setting on a washing machine. Nobody wants to be that"

"-Well if I just started being happy instead of depressed all the time would be easier than trying to kill myself."

"Trust me it is not. I am just going to be honest from my personal experience. One day you will find a perfect time to kill yourself. If you don't believe me then try to be happy. Try to be positive. Think no thoughts of sorrow. If you can do that for a week report back to me and prove my theory wrong."

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