The only light she saw tonight
was that which ringed the high flat stone that the body was placed on. Her eye
were glued to the unmoving husk on the stone. Tears would not come though. She
was done showing that kind of weakness. Instead she would show strength, such
that the woman standing just behind her would be able to draw from it.
The events leading to this
were all a blur to Tahiri. She could remember the searing pain she felt at the
ghostly kiss she'd received. There was a gap there between that moment and
leaving to retrieve the subject of her stare. Then another gap between flying
the assault shuttle and being here now. The more she tried to recall, the more
it slipped away from her like the smoke from the torches into the night.
She was broken from her
attempted reverie by a gentle hand on her shoulder. "It's time to
begin." came the nearly inaudible whisper. With that she took a steadying
breath and stepped into the ring of light, "Anakin ..." The rest of
her words were lost to her. She knew that she said them, but they did not
register. Her mind was too busy reliving the events she spoke of to notice.
The pain. Anytime she
attempted to remember herself it came, acidic and directly on her nerves. The
sheer relief when she saw him. The great fear when she realized that it wasn't
her in control but the brainwashing. Her gasping relief at regaining control in
time to avoid decapitating him. Their take off and subsequent crash. Her
admission to him that she would willingly die with him. Finally making it to a
real ship and getting out of there. Then her mind skipped back. She remembered
exactly what he'd said to her. 'I love you.' It seemed to whisper on the wind
and surround her as she finished speaking.
Leia noted the stricken look
that crossed Tahiri's features and placed a hand on the young woman's shoulder.
The raw pain that greeted Leia's gaze brought a surge of sympathy out.
The look on his mother's face
steadied her. It said, 'I understand.' A sad but grateful smile crossed
Tahiri's face. She stepped back into the shadows and continued her reverie with
a steadying hand on her shoulder.
She closed her eyes as the
sight of the next speaker. It was painful enough to see him on the bier, but to
have a living facsimile before her. That was pure torture. She stayed that way.
Listening to voices come and go. When Kyp's voice faded, she opened her eyes.
Master Skywalker stood there
with a torch. He had asked her if she would like to do the deed. She remembered
shaking her head and gave a quiet reply, "As his Master it really falls to
you. I would be honored don't get me wrong, but everyone here believes that we
were just good friends."
As he lowered the torch, his
reply floated to the surface. "Some of us know Tahiri. Some of us
know."
A wistful smile crossed her
features. What he was doing now was a symbol of letting go. She was not quiet
ready for that yet.
The flames towered into the
night. The occasional popping and cracking sending showers of sparks free into
the night air. Her mind wandered as she watched the soothing flames lick
higher. The dancing waves of heat reminded her of her desert home. She lost
track of time while her thoughts wandered.
The whole time she was
reminiscing she heard the phrase that had saved her. She got to the one moment
that they had had together about the time Master Skywalker stepped up to the
rest of the family. He met her eyes.
Lost in thought as she was she
mistook him for Anakin. "If only I'd realized..." She did not realize
that she had whispered those words that she was but a hairs breath away from
kissing him. but then two things happened, Leia's hand gripped her shoulder a
little tighter and Luke said, "Realized what, Tahiri?"
A credit to her training and
the partially integrated Yuuzhan Vong memories, she did not flinch or blink.
Just pulled back calmly and allowed her eyes to refocus. "Just lost in
thought Master."
"You didn't answer my
question Tahiri."
A faint tremble entered her
voice. "Ask me again sometime." She turned on her heel and walked
back to the refugee camp. Behind her the wind picked up. It did not disturb the
ashes.
~ . ~ . ~
It was dark here. darker than
she could remember it ever having been before. Inky black and as thick as
molasses. She waded her way through it, toward a tiny pinpoint of light in the
distance. She stopped to catch her breath and it was still several hundred
meters off.
That's when she heard the
whispers. "Riina where are you? Come back please. NO! You can't have her,
she is ours."
The young woman's heart
lurched at the pure desperation in the voice. The flood of painful memories.
She was stolen from her parents, taken by infidels at such a young age that she
had all but forgotten the sound of her mother's voice...Her father denying the
right of the intruders.
"Don't listen Tahiri, the
voices tell half-truths." Anew voice put in, one that caused a soul
wrenching that set her trembling. The light grew nearer to her. "Love,
please. For the sake of things to come, you must try to heal your mind."
She collapsed to her knees.
The pain became too intense. "NOOO! I...you ...we...funeral." she
stammered as she clutched the sides of her head in an effort to close out HIS
voice. "You're not real!"
The hands that touched her
were soothing as they helped her to her feet. "I will not lie to you, in a
way you are right." The apparition pulled her into a close embrace.
"But if we were anywhere but here I wouldn't be able to this." He
tilted her head up and proceeded to kiss her.
She broke off gasping. Not so
much from lack of air but at the stinging vortex this action created deep
inside. Her eyes turned to glittering chips of jade. "Don't ever do that
again." her voice dripped acid.
"There is pain either way
you go. But which ever way you decide, you will come out of it stronger."
The image frowned, "There isn't much time left for us this night. I have
something I need to show you." He held out his hand.
She took it carefully and for
the first time noticed that the general vicinity was recognizable. It was the
Great Temple. The cold stone felt good under her feet. The inevitable question
came, "Why are we here, Anakin?"
He didn't answer. Instead he
just kept walking, then he reached the top step and sat resting his elbows on
his knees. "Mainly because this is where we spent most of our time
together." he shrugged his shoulders and shifted to rest his chin upon his
hands. The light on the horizon began to shift and bend. "You might as
well take a seat, this will take a minute."
She settled next to him,
watching the picture begin to form. It was ...her? It had to be it looked too
human for a Yuuzhan Vong, the scar on the forehead matched her and the fact
that she carried a light saber.
"What's..."
"Watch." was all he
said to her.
The scene that unfolded turned
her blood to ice. Oh yes it was her, but just everything was so wrong. Her
voice was soft and menacing. Her eyes screamed mad darkness. She screamed
denial, "That's not me, its Riina!"
"Ahh, but they are one
and the same 'Ri," Came the soft and unnecessary reply as the vision
continued on.
She was chasing someone. It
was a Jedi. They were in some cobbled together station. "That's the
..." she started but paused as the vision of herself caught up to the
youngster.
'The last...' Riina began.
Tahiri didn't her another word though, the young man in the vision turned to
meet the saber coming at him his blue eyes flashing with stubborn
determination. Blue. The same color as Anakin's, as Master Skywalker's...Ben.
It was the only person in existence that it could be.
Tahiri pulled in a shocked
breath and turned her bright green gaze on Anakin. He was gone.
~ . ~ . ~
She woke up without a sound.
The vision slipping to the far corners of her mind and trampled into a figment
of her imagination by a part of her locked behind durasteel walls. She slipped
out of bed. Ever so carefully and quietly she dressed and padded on bare feet
out to the cramped living quarters.
Her path took her to the last
place most of the Jedi would go to, Anakin's pyre. She slipped onto the stone
carefully. She pulled a bottle out of her pocket. Little by little, she put
some of his ashes inside. When the bottle was near full, she capped and sealed
it. Then she slid off the rock.
The stars glittered. She
raised her eyes to them and blew a kiss. " That's yours, my love, where
ever you are." She turned on her heel and headed back to the refugee camp.
The wind picked up. It blew the ashes up in a whirling eddie. They gained more
and more height, eventually separating into smaller and smaller particles. When
the dust reached the clouds in the upper atmosphere, it settled.
The next morning it rained.
