Author's Note: So here's the fourth chapter! My idea on this is to check how the other members of the family have been doing. Hope you enjoy!

Please excuse any mistakes.

Chapter Four: A broken family

DONNIE'S POV

It has been a few hours since we found Raph's T-phone and Leo's been acting weird. I mean… like really weird. I understand that he feels guilty for Raph leaving, but... still. He has locked himself in his room, where only God knows what he's been doing, and rarely comes out. He has some new bruises which concern me quite a lot. He doesn't eat, only picks on his food, and looks exhausted. I bet he wasn't able to sleep last night. But who was? However, he stubbornely refuses to let me check him, to make sure that nothing is wrong with, at least his corporal health. And like one missing and one weakening brother aren't more than enough, Mikey is not acting like himself. He is not the usual, annoying, stupid goofball I now miss so much. He is just... too serious, too not-Mickeyish. And Master Splinter's sitting in the dojo meditating all the time is not helping at all.

Raph... please come back, we need you. I need you. Everything sucks without you. Our family is tearing apart, you need to come back and fix it, because I can't. It has always been your role to be the strong one, the one we can lean on, not mine. Whatever the circumstances you are always the one that never breaks, thus keeping us together even when we do break, not I. Maybe it's because I'm not enough, not good enough to keep our family together, that I have to look at my brothers at this condition. No, stop, I need to stop, I need to be strong, for my brothers, now that they can't. But what if I simply can't? There's no such option, I will.

Master Splinter just got out of the dojo. I get in there, for no particular reason. I start exercising because I need to blow off some steam. After a while, I accidentally drop some carton boxes from a shelve. Photos and photo albums fall on the floor. I take one and open it. Childhood memories unexpectidely flooded my mind. I smile. There's a young me, Leo and Mikey cooking. There we are, playing a stupid game. There's a Mikey drawing. There's a Leo practising his katanas.
Master Splinter must have taken those when we weren't able to notice, as I never remember him with a camera.
I take one photo in which, I'm trying to fix something, some sort of a simple gadget. I look really focused, confused and kind of... cute, I guess. As I study the photo carefully, I notice Raph at the background. He looks hesistant, as if he is fighting against himself.
I take another photo. There's Leo and Mikey fighting with paper swords. Raph is visibly at the background, torning his own, in pieces.
Mickey, Leo and I are playing. Raph is nowhere to be found.
Leo's watching Space Heros.
Mikey is asleep on the couch.
I succesfully created... something.

These and way more photos only lead me to one conclusion: Raph was either at the background, or missing. There were only few photos where Raph was at the foreground, and almost no, if any, where he was alone. What does that mean? Had we left Raph out of our activities? Had we left him behind and alone? Had we...

"Hey bro." my brother's voice reminded me of reality.
"Oh, hey Leo! What's up?" I akwardly asked.
"Nothing really. What about you?"
"I'm actually working on a DNA tracker. All we are going to need is a sample of Raph's DNA and, poof! the machine will track him!" I simply answered.

Leo's face darkened.

"Leo... We are going to find him." I reassured him. We have literally looked everywhere but we are going to find are safe and sound. We are. We really are. We have to...

He nodded and smiled at disbelief.

"Leo... its not your fault. Raphael's just... the way he is, you know?"
"He... he thinks that I hate him!" He said. He looked at me, his eyes begging for forgiveness. "I... I don't hate him Don, I never would. You know it, don't you?" he weakly asked.
"Of course I do Leo, as we all do. And I'm sure that Raph knows it too. "
"No." my brother coldly replied, causing me to shiver.
"What do you mean "No" Leo?"
"You don't know. " he answered, turned his back and went to his room.
"What do you mean Leo? What don't I know? " I followed him. He slammed the door. I started banging it.
"LEO! WHAT DO YOU MEAN? WHAT DO YOU KNOW?" No response.
"THIS ISN'T OVER LEO! THIS ISN'T OVER!" I yelled at him, furious at his mischievousness.

MIKEY'S POV

I can hear Donnie shouting at Leo, even from here. On the one hand, I like it, it's nice. It has been too quiet since Raph left. The silence might be the worst part. It only reminds me of my brother's absence. It annoys me, it angers me, I just hate it. So I like the shouting, the arguing, because I miss it. We all do. Maybe Donnie is subconsciously trying to fill one of the gaps Raph has left behind, and that is the tension. But noone will ever to be able to cover all the other "holes" my brother has left behind. Not I, not Donnie, and certainly not Leo. If...When we find Raph, he is never going to believe how much we missed his hot-headiness. I just hope that it will be soon, real soon.

LEO'S POV

I spent the last few hours, finishing reading the first diaries. I was so shocked by everything that was written there. Donnie noticed. I still haven't given him a proper explanation for those bruises Raph's books have caused me. He is not going to stop annoying me, untill I tell him. He is now yelling and banging my door. I decide to ignore it, he'll soon give up. I lie on my bed, and deciding that I know enough of the cause of Raph's issues, I take the most recent notebook, and lose myself inside my brother's thoughts.

That was it! Hope you liked! As always, reviews are welcome!