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Bella's POV:

I walked up and down my stairs beads of sweat falling down my now pale face. I wanted to scream. I mean hell my mother had abandoned me to get lost in the amazon with "the love of her life" when she told me that she was going to go give vaccinations to the "little indians".

Ironically I had just finished a movie filled with cannabalistic sacrifing indians so hello nice time to tell me mommy. i wished she had stayed and loved me. But she decided to play Jesus. I felt bad though. I mean how could I be so selfish to add the happiness of a little girl to the saving of lives!

I sighed. Edawrd was being a lot to handle on. I had already blurted out my life signature to him. I rolled my eyes. I was so sad; this guy had me pacing all over and trying to keep a fluttering heart from completely stopping. Great now what to do in rainy forks when you cant sleep.

its not Friday so that excluded clubbing and too late to catcha movie on this Antenna T.V. I sighed i had to ahve a talk with Charlie about HBO.

"I'm bored." I told the world and glanced around the empty house as if expecting an answer. I do have homework? Yeah i guess i'll just do that.

I heaved a sigh of defeat as i trudged upstairs. I wondered where my mom was. I prayed Phil was dead. I gave Edward a mental good night before passing out on my trig work sheets.

I got a pocket got a pocket full of sunshin i got a love and i know that its all mine

I sat straight and slammed my arm down everywhere trying to get rid of that annoying song before it stuck in my head. Too late.

"Crap."

I switched my stereo to c.d. mode and popped in The Fray.

OVER MY HEAD-THE FRAY

never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's got to be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along

Let's disregard
As you find another friend and you discard
And you lose the argument in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on our mind

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound, lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

I took a shower all in the while managing to get shampoo and conditioner in my eyes from being unable to stop bobbing my head to the beat of the song. i plumped down on my bed to blow dry my hair when...

"Shit!" Charlie obviously snuck into my room and set the alarm at 5:30 a.m.!!

I gave int o my impulses and fell backwards.

Great not only was I about to do make a scar again in someone's life on purpose today but I had been awaken earlier than usual to become more aware of it.

I was about to slip on my converse when I remembered today's plan. I turned to the left side of my closet.

I slipped on a midnight blue tube top with some black hip hugging skinny jeans.I pulled on some black flats and acccesorized with dangle blue stars hanging from my ears.

I looked out my window. NIce such a dress-up only to get wet outside.

I ran downstairs and saw a note on the frig.

Good Morning Bella,
Enjoy ur ride to school!
Your dad,

CHARLIE

I sighed torn between joy and guilt. I didnt deserve Charlie.

you dont deserve edward cullen either

A sick voice sneered in my head. I looked down ashamed. No I dont I shot back.

I shook my head. great now what i was gonna get an imaginary friend, called Tito. I was going crazy.

But who wouldnt when everyone's leaving you from your mother to your disappeared older brother to the possible love of your life?

Time For School.

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