Rated M to be safe: back to bed kids! (before things get hot)
- Tout par amour, et rien par force -
Gintoki woke up due to heavy rain hitting the windows. Tsukuyo was still sound asleep, but had somehow managed to get under his own futon and moreover, within his arms.
"Well, whatever."
He slightly lifted himself so his head could take support on his bent arm. With the hand that previously rested on her butt, he brushed off her blonde bangs to see one of her scars. It sure was quite a lot of stitches. Still, that added a little something to her face, which somehow, made him unable to think of her without seeing them.
These two scars were the proof that she had long ago given up on being a woman, but to him it was the proof she was a perfect clean soul and thus, an even more beautiful woman. He put a gentle kiss on her forehead and wondered how they could have become so close in such a short amount of time.
She groaned and rubbed her eyes.
-Hi there, he said with a faint smile.
-Hmm? Oh, it's juss ya, she stated bluntly.
-What is that supposed to mean?
Her eyelashes fluttered and she slowly turned her head to see him better.
-What's tha' noise? She frowned with a hoarse voice.
-Typhoon
-What time?
Eying the Justaway alarm clock that stood not far, he turned his gaze back at her.
-3PM
She let out a heavy sigh and snuggled back again his chest.
-I don't wanna get up, she added while hugging his waist to cling to him.
-My, my... I didn't know you were such a heavy sleeper nor that you were so bold, he stated somewhat proud.
-Shaddup. Cuddles have nothin' to do with boldness... she muttered against his shirt.
"Cuddles... Huh?"
-Hey Tsukuyo...
-Whaaat agaaain? Her irritated and muffled voice almost inaudible.
-Can I also be bold? He asked seriously.
-What?
She lifted her face from its cozy nest, only to feel something warm pressing against her lips. It lasted a very brief moment, but she understood he had just kissed her. When she realized what had just happened, her face suddenly grew incredibly hot and she, indeed, found that her previous behavior was quite bold... She cursed herself mentally for being 'such a heavy sleeper'.
Awkwardly glancing at him to see what kind of face he was making, all she saw was his captivated dead fish eyes that were silently gazing at her.
-Um... Gi-gintoki...?
-Hmm?
-You... juss... ki-kiss-kissed me, right? She asked uneasy.
-What? Nope I didn't.
-What?! Her tone now back to its usual one.
-What? His face and voice distraught.
-No. Ya DID kiss me, I'm sure. She stated.
-Umm... Nooo... I didn't. He rolled his eyes as if it was the most obvious thing ever.
"What the-?! Is he makin' fun of me now?!"
Seeing the upset look on her face, he threw himself into some necessary explanations.
-Listen, you seem to be sure I kissed you, but I tell you, I didn't KISS you. For real. Aaaaand, because I don't want you to think that you can't trust me because I sworn I wouldn't do anything to you, I will now show you what is a kiss so, then you'll realize that you were wrong and that I didn't break my promise. But it's only so you could make the difference between what IS a kiss what it is NOT. Also, it's-
He was blabbering about so many things at the same time and with such a speed, she had a hard time to follow the full speech. Instead, when he asked her if it was okay, she nodded, not sure what to answer.
Then, he pushed her on the mattress, lifted her chin with his finger and brought his lips to hers. Though it was only multiples pecks, each time he pulled softly at her lower lip so she would open her mouth. What she unconsciously did.
Then, came 'the' kiss he was talking about. His tongue ventured through her lips and gently stroked her own. He slightly angled his head to breathe her, taste her and kiss her even more. She could feel his hot breath, his burning lips, his powerful tongue, his kind of sweet saliva and all the feelings he was conveying to her while supporting her back-head with his hand. It was such a strange but addictive sensation. She never thought a kiss could feel this way and especially this good, as it was her first one.
When he finally broke the kiss, mildly nibbling her lip in the last few pecks he gave her, she slowly opened her eyes not sure what happened anymore. She just stared at him, speechless while a satisfied smirk sprouts on his face.
-So, can you still say that I kissed you until now? He asked as if he had found the ultimate proof of his innocence.
-I-I s'ppose I was wrong then... She admitted unwillingly.
-See? Told you so.
While he was still lying on top of her, she raised a hand to his head and gently grazed the outline of his jaw. He took it off, only to play with each of her slender fingers.
-So? You didn't answer to my question... He stated innocently.
Seeing that she didn't seem to recall anymore, he asked again.
-Can I also be bold?
If the previous kiss wasn't bold, she feared what he implied to do by asking her that kind of question. As if he had read her mind, he stated what was something obvious to him.
-I won't force you to do anything you don't want to do; just say 'stop' if you feel the need to and I will.
She kept silent and he assumed that because she was a virgin, she would be afraid as things were moving quite fast. Since he didn't mean to scare her, he thought the best way to reassure her was to be honest.
-I just want to kiss you more, he confessed. Only if... that's okay with you?
"Oh...That's it."
She felt relieved, but somehow, something in her chest tingled... What was this feeling? Why was it that her previous relief had grown in an uncomfortable, almost painful lump in her throat?
-Yeah, sure.
-Really?
-Yes.
Her brain was looking for an acceptable answer while her agitated heartbeat had flattened back to a dull rhythm. Was it because of her? She blamed herself for acting like an innocent maiden in front of him when her thoughts were nothing like it.
~Silence~
-Um... Well, it's not that I don't believe you or anything but I kind of get the feeling that you're not really happy with that... am I wrong?
She was ashamed of herself. Though the mood was certainly good, she had managed to ruin it and worse, to make him worry about her. Of course she knew he wasn't the kind of man that would force her, he didn't have to tell her... But with her previous hesitation and her empty words, she had even driven him to say such things.
-Gintoki... I din' mean to push ya 'way, I'm juss... I mean, it's as you said; I'm perceptive 'bout some stuff and clueless 'bout some other...
The butterflies in her stomach didn't stop her. With each word that was coming out of her mouth, she felt her chest getting lighter.
-Knowing you, I... I somehow 'spected ya to be more... 'Greedy'... So when ya said ya juss wanted to kiss me I was surprised an'... also... a lil'... well... disappointed. I thought 'maybe I ain't attractive as a woman', after all I ain't that pretty 'n' have scars on my face an-
He stopped her before the situation would grow even more awkward.
-I don't want to look like some pervert right now, because whatever you might think of me, I'm not one, he stated, but... I admit I do find you quite attractive, especially at the moment and I wouldn't kiss any woman if I didn't feel anything for her to begin with.
-Oh.
-Yes. I didn't want to push you by rushing things between us -even if it's quite difficult for me right now- he added, so... since it's already embarrassing enough as it is, could we please stop here and... and, well... just forget this conversation has ever happened...
She giggled.
-Hey, could you please don't laugh at me now?!
-Sorry it's juss... I'm sorry. Everythin's my fault, I complet'ly ruined the mood now...
-At least things are clear now. He said, trying to cheer her up.
-Yeah an' I'm happy they are.
-That's good then.
She looked at him and the faint smile he wore. Her heart felt so light yet, she wished she could go back a few minutes into the past, so she could answer that simple question without her previous worries meddling in.
-...Yes, you also can. She said while gazing at him.
-What?
-My answer... to yer question, she added faintly while looking away.
First at a loss, his smile grew slowly wider while his eyes slightly narrowed.
He gently stroked the back of her neck and kissed her. Like the first one, she enjoyed each and every second and let her body respond to his advances. While their tongues intertwined, she stretched out her arms around his neck, gripping the black fabric of his shirt.
She gasped for some air and he reduced the kiss to light ones, smoothly travelling to her jaw and neck. Loving each touch, her chin naturally lifted up to give him more space to work. She had long stopped thinking, her brain somewhat shunted by the electric shocks she felt from him. Every sound and move she made were of pure reflex from her body to his.
Then he gently pulled at the yukata's collar to unveil her naked shoulders and collarbone, and softly began to suck on her skin. She moaned while in the process, one of her legs freed itself from the blue swirled fabric to hook on his waist. He grinned to himself.
Soothing her raw reactions, he trailed his hand from her shoulder to her ribs, letting it slide on the slope of her waist, meandering now the luscious curves of her hip and thigh. She shivered under his touch and gripped harder to his shirt.
He responded to each of her moves like reading an open book. When her body grew accustomed, he gave her no time to rest, but instead new sensations to feel.
The fact she had no experience whatsoever in physical -or sentimental- love was a bit scaring, a lot embarrassing and a lot more exciting. Although he had never mentioned anything about it before, she knew Gintoki had known many girls before her. She assumed though, that much of them if not all, were prostitutes as she couldn't really picture him being all lovey-dovey in a relationship. The way he had to touch her, so gently as if she may break, certainly showed that he cared for her. For this reason, as well as many others, she slowly closed her eyes and gave herself in to her silver-lover.
When he had achieved to mark the low area of her neck with some hickeys, he soared back up to her mouth to meet her tongue again. While his hand pursued its course on her thigh to overcome the firmness of her buttock, it reached her hip. Then, his fingers met the string of her bikini-like panty. She slightly jolted under him, startled by his hand that had managed to travel so far under the yukata.
He broke the kiss to take a look at her. She was panting hard with light rosy cheeks.
-Can I untie the obi? He asked to ensure he wouldn't scare her.
She nodded and he smiled at her. He softly pulled at the obi knot and his lips moved down to her belly. While both of his hands smoothly brushed the fabric away, he trailed the newly opened path and traced it with multiples kisses.
Soon, a pair of crossed arms blocked his way. Embarrassed, she had covered her naked breast and averted her eyes.
-It-it ain't fair that I'm the only one almoss naked... she stated while blushing harder.
Surprised at first, Gintoki smirked and got up on his two feet. Then, he took off his black shirt and bluntly threw it through the room. She watched him silently undoing his belt and her heart pounded so hard in her chest that it was somewhat painful. When his hand landed on his trouser's button, he stopped.
-Don't you dare laugh at me... He warned.
Because the possibility to make fun of him in that kind of situation didn't even cross her mind, she seriously answered that she wouldn't do such a thing... but, when she saw his pink strawberries-printed boxers, she couldn't refrain her smile to grow wide. She fought herself not to burst in laughs at his kid-looking underwear and embarrassed face.
-You said you wouldn't laugh!
-I-I ain't...
But the urge to laugh quickly faded away when he fell on his knees to cage her with his arms aside her head .
He silently studied her expression and she felt her cheeks burning while her heart raced. Without taking his eyes off from hers, he caught one of her hands and pressed the palm against his chest where she felt the loud thumping of his heart.
-Satisfied? He pouted
The exact word was more like 'shocked'. Tsukuyo couldn't imagine that behind the composure and the confidence, Gintoki was in fact just like her. Knowing they were both feeling the same way, her widened eyes seemed to be now smiling at him. In her turn, she also pressed the palm of his hand against her own heart.
-Yes.
With her free hand, she cupped his face and brought him down in order to kiss him. Thing he happily agreed. Then, he gently prompted both her arms to rest around his neck and began to pursue his previous travel. Slowly, he left her mouth to taste her chin, her jaw, her neck and her collarbone until he reached the roundness of her breast. At the same time, his hands had found back the curves of her hips and where now following their way on her soft skin beyond her waist, up to the higher part of her rib cage.
~rumble rumble~
The typhoon was raging outside and suddenly...
*CRAAACK*
