Chapter 4

We had been drinking for a while when we decided to play 'I have never' actually when Faith forced us all to play 'I have never' It was a quite a laugh actually, I found somethings out about certain people that I wished I hadn't but it was still a laugh.

"Oh my god!" Faith exclaimed after her fifth drink of straight vodka "We should so play I have never!"

I looked at her like she was mad "Uh... What's that?"

She looked at me the same way I looked at her "What? You don't know what I have never is? Where have you been living B? Are you serious? You were in college in New York and you never played that game?"

I shrugged casually while Faith continued to gape at me. I did say I didn't get out much.

"That is... You can not go to a party without playing that game, there's got to be some sort of law against it" Changing her tone she climbed off the sofa and onto the floor "Right everyone in a circle on the floor. NOW!"

We all did as we were told, mostly because we were scared of her, especially after she had a few, she could be a right psycho sometimes

"Right what you have to do is say that you've never done something right. If someone says something that you've done then you have to down your drink so everyone fill up and you can start B"

I nodded and tried to think of something I've never done. "I've never... um... Oh, I know. I've never skipped a class"

Faith looked at me with her mouth open again. I didn't know why. I did it right didn't I? Angel sniggered at me and I shot him an annoyed look. Everyone except for me and Faith downed they're drink, Faith was too busy starring at me

"Just for that you have to down your drink" She finally said

"What? But I never have" I insisted

"I've never skipped a class... Come on that is shit! Now drink up"

I looked around the circle and saw that they were all chuckling silently. I looked at my drink and brought to my lips, throwing it to the back of my throat like I had done so many times that evening

"Now watch and learn" The way Faith spoke kind of scared me, I could already see where this game was going "I have never gone a week without sex"

I groaned and picked up by drink that I had only just refilled. Faith was smiling at me as if to say drink up. Cordelia, Doyle, Fred, Wesley and Gunn all drank

"Hang on one minuet since when?" Willow asked and Angel smirked giving her a wink

"Since you first had it, so drink up Red"

Willow looked at her drink like it was poison but did what she had to. After she was done she slammed the drink down on the floor and made a sour face like I did earlier

"How did you know she hasn't?" Angel asked Faith

"Oz never had the stamina you have Angel besides she asked so obvious she hadn't"

Willow said nothing but she gave Faith a dirty look and something clicked inside of me. How did Faith know what kind of stamina Angel had unless she...No! She couldn't have. Well on the other hand it was Faith... Gunn's deep voice brought me out of my small trance

"I have never had sex with a guy"

"You're boring!" Faith slurred taking her drink and throwing it down her throat; I followed her lead, then Fred, then Willow, then Cordelia, then Anya and finally Spike. We all giggled but I was the only surprised one

It was Spike's turn now and I could already tell he was going to say something really crude; it was the glint in his eye that was giving him away

"Never have I left someone unsatisfied" Spike smiled as he looked around "...Come on people, be honest here" He said when no one picked up a glass. Anya picked up her glass and gave it to Xander

"There was that time..."

Everyone laughed as Xander went a bright shade of red but he drank the drink

"I have never gone online dating" Cordelia said. We all turned to look at her with raised brows "What... I haven't"

Fred swigged her glass quickly, hoping that no one would notice but I did and so did Anya who laughed hysterically

"Online dating? Come on, you can do better then that"

"You can meet some really nice people on there" Fred argued

"Yeah or child molesters and weirdoes" Gunn added

"Anyway" Faith said loudly moving back to the game she probably wanted to see what Anya had never, I know I did

"I have never...Erm... What have I never done? Www I know! I have never used any sex toys"

The first one to drink was Angel, then Faith. Big surprise there. The last one to drink was Spike who still had the cheeky grin on his face, Angel had half a smirk which was so adorable

Willow looked at Angel with wide eyes. She obviously didn't know this. I couldn't tell if it was fear in her eyes or arousal

"Never have I ever taken any type of drug" Xander stated. Again Faith, Angel and Spike drank, so did Gunn and Fred which surprised me. Fred seemed like such a lovely girl. It was Angel's turn now and I was more then curious to know what he'd never done

"I have never seen my grandmother naked and turned the other way then looked at her again" He grinned then turned to Spike "Drink up William"

We all giggled, every single one of us

"That's sick man" Gunn said

"Err, did you really do that Spike?" Doyle asked. Spike shrugged

"I was in shock!"

We all erupted in giggled again and I could see why Faith wanted to play this game

"I have never been used" Willow announced. I could feel her gaze on me and knew she would never have said that and laughed about it if she wasn't drunk. No one drunk, I was the only one. Slowly I picked up my glass and threw it down my throat bitterly. I could hear the ohh bless sounds coming from the circle. They all felt sorry for me but I didn't need they're sympathy

I looked at Angel, he was studying my face closely so I looked away, no one saw the hurt in face, but he must have because he had his head tilted and his lips parted a little just studying me

"I've never had a one night stand" Doyle said. Yet again Faith, Spike and Angel took a gulp from their glass

"This is no fun. Is there anything you guys haven't done?" Anya whined

"I've never perved on my Nana" Faith giggled looking at Spike

"I didn't perv on her!" Spike argued

"Ok William" Angel winked a false believing face. I giggled again making him look at me with a crooked smile that made my knees weak.

"I think I'm going to head off to bed" Willow announced as she got up from the floor gripping the sofa for support. She looked back at Angel before leaving the room "Are you going to stay down here or come to bed?"

"I'll be up later" He didn't even look at her. His eyes were on the glass of vodka in his hand as he tilted in to the right then swirled it around, watching the burning liquid swish in the glass. Willow just sighed loudly making sure that we all knew that she wanted him to follow her before I heard her footsteps on the steps

"The misses is pissed with you" Gunn stated. Angel just ignored him and continued swirling his drink around before finally consuming it. Fred swiped Gunn's arm

"Stop stirring!" She scolded.

I giggled, I don't know why. Maybe it was the alcohol or maybe it was the fact that the group in the circle were all the kind of friends I wished I had. They were all so comfortable with each other and then it was me. The quite one in the corner who had never gotten drunk before, who wanted to jump her best friend's fiancé, who didn't think about her dead mother. I could go on, there was so much wrong with me, I was such a bad person even though I didn't do a lot of bad things. I knew right from wrong, I always did the right thing and I was tired of it. I wanted to be a rebel for a change.

"How was life in the big city then?" Faith asked. I snapped out of my thoughts when I realised she was talking to me. Life in the big city, yeah, it was a big city, a huge city but life in it was nothing special.

"It was great" I lied

"Don't tell us too much" Cordelia joked still sitting on the floor and leaning on the sofa. I crawled back into my corner on my hands and knees, I don't think I was able to get up without making a fool of myself but on the other hand I don't think anyone else would have been able to remember anyway

"I've always wanted to go to New York" Fred announced randomly looking at the ceiling with dreamy eyes.

"I've always wanted to go to Fiji" Cordelia said "Beach, Sea, pool. Doing nothing but tanning for a whole week while being waited on hand and foot ooh paradise. Does it rain in Fiji?"

"They have tropical storms, I think" Doyle informed her

"Yeah, they do" Angel confirmed

"How would you know?" Anya asked. I sat still wondering how the conversation had moved to what weather they have in Fiji

"Been there" Angel said as if it was obvious. Too me it was, I mean come on, how else would he know? Well he could have read it in a book somewhere. Why do I always have arguments with myself?

It was getting late now and I was getting tired, I usually was in bed by half ten. I got up trying to steady myself and blinked three times trying to get the room to sit still and stop spinning.

"I think I'm going to go" I managed to mumble. It all sounded good in my head but when I said it, it didn't sound so good. I held onto the wall as I made my way to the door and I could hear Faith laughing, probably at the state I was in. Someone wrapped they're arm around waist and then the other on my shoulder; it turned out to be Angel. I pushed him away and he hit his head on the door frame which earned more chuckled from Faith who lounging on the floor in hysterics

"You can't even walk" He told me as if I didn't know. Of course I knew but I didn't need his help, well I did but I didn't want it. We both stood at the bottom of the stairs for a while, I can't remember how long but he was there with his arm around me trying to keep me up. I could tell he was drunk too but not as drunk as me, no one was as drunk as me.

"We're all going now. We're going to share a cab back" Wesley said passing everyone they're coat from the bottom of the banister. Angel nodded. As they left I tried to go with them only to get pulled back by Angel. The front door slammed and it was only us. Willow had gone to bed hours ago.

"You can stay here tonight" He said coldly "Willow wouldn't want you to go home in the state you're in"

"I'm... not ina sta..t...te" I frowned and pushed his hands away. Now that I didn't have his support I leaned against the stairs, my hands playing with the wooden panels

"Yes you are" He tried to grab my hand again but I pushed him against the opposite wall. His hand was still on my arm so when I pushed him he grabbed me with him. He was now leaning against the wall and my body was almost touch his. I could feel his breath on my neck, his heavy breathing filled the hallway. I did the only thing I could in my drunken state and leaned towards him, lifting my self on my toes.

TBC...

A/N: Haaa I really wasn't expecting that many reviews but I'm not complaining. I was actually really chuffed. I've already written the next two chapters so an update shouldn't be long. Thank you so much for you're reviews its what motivates me to write so once again thank you all