Donnie's POV

Toss and turn. Check the clock. 2:37 AM. Ugh! Toss and turn, toss and turn, toss and turn. Check the clock. 2:37 AM. I can't believe I told Leo I'd give up until he screwed up again. What he doesn't know is I've loved (Y/N) longer than him. After I met her, I gave up all hope on April and started chasing (Y/N). A few months of her remaining oblivious, Leo started chasing her too. After he learned of my crush on her, he started getting closer to her. Closer than I could bring myself to get. Being shy may be cute on some people, but it's not when it's you. The day I actually got up all the courage I could get to finally tell her, I gave up. I walked into the dojo, where she was sparring with Leo, and just turned back out. They were on the ground in their first kiss. Leo had her hands above her head, and looked to have complete control. Eventually, (Y/N) left to her apartment, and Leo pulled me over to a corner so we could talk.

"I saw you." My older brother said instantly.

"So." I answered forming a blush on my already saddened face.

"You're too late." He responded to my blush.

"So?" I asked getting a little louder.

"So, don't get any ideas. She's mine, remember that. I'm not letting her get away. She's the best thing that ever happened to me. I don't know how I'd get along without her. Don't ruin this for me." He said walking away before I could respond even a little. The next day, I walked out of my lab after staying up all night working on the shell-raiser, and the first thing I saw was Leo watching Space Heroes. He wasn't alone though, because (Y/N) was behind him with her arms around his neck loosely and her chin on his shoulder. That's when I figured I had completely lost my chance with her. After the, uh, the incident with April, and (Y/N) came to me, I finally felt like I had a chance. I finally got my turn at enjoying my life. To have my happiness. I gave it back to the one who never would have given it to me. Back in the lab when I kissed her, that was the most courage I've ever had. Or ever will have. I couldn't do that again, and I used it up at the wrong time. I wasted my whole chance to be with her, but nothing's ever scratched into stone. I still have a chance. I still have a chance to try again. You always have a chance to try again.

Leo's POV

Lying in bed, I sigh to the ceiling. It's a content sigh. A true love sigh. I roll over, and flashbacks come back. The first night (Y/N) stayed in the lair, and she slept in here. That was way before she lived her. Back when we were together. Back when I was her first choice, not tied for first. Not tied for last. I may have been too hard on Donnie, but I would rather him be angry with me than at her. At himself. I still have no idea why I tested fate, but Donnie instantly thinks I did it just to get at him. I did it to protect him. He told me about his crush after I'd started getting close with (Y/N). When she'd sit closest to me on the couch. Came to me for advice. Came to me for a smile. A laugh. For a friend. Donnie never understood that. He always said he would've had a much more plausible chance than me. I was honestly trying to help him. He didn't realize it, but (Y/N) came to talk to me about him once too…

"Hey, uh, Leo?" She had asked two weeks before we got together.

"What's up?" I asked her. I stopped punching and kicking the air. Turning around, I saw a nervous look on her face.

"Uh, d-does Donnie, uh, like me?" She asked. My eyes widened, and my mouth closed.

"Uh, Uh, I uh, I mean, why?" I asked stumbling for words. Donnie had told me for as long as I could to keep this a secret.

"So he does?" She asked. I can't lie to anyone close to me. I can't loose anyone's trust. I guess it's too late for that now. I looked up at her, dropped my head, and nodded. "That's what I thought."

"Why? Why'd you want to know?" I asked. By now I had had a crush on her, so jealousy was trying to show his ugly face.

"Cause, I've started to notice. Don't tell him please!" She answered. She answered it, not excitedly. My jealous insides calmed down, and I unclenched my fists. I hadn't even realized they were clenched. I guess that's when the violent behavior towards the younger purple clad brother began.

"I won't tell him, but why not?" I asked sitting next to her on the dojo floor. Most our best memories were in the dojo. Some of the memories that may never come back.

"Because. I love Donnie, but not like that. I love him, and I'd do anything for him, but same with Raph and Mikey. I just don't know how to tell him this without hurting him." She said. Sitting on the floor, you could just feel the seriousness in the air. The stress. But also, the care.

"Look, I'd help, but this is something only you can do. No matter how you say it, you know he'll get over it eventually. Some of these things, they're just easier to forgive."

"Yeah, I know, but I don't want to ruin the bond I've already accumulated with him. I'll figure out how to tell him, thanks so much!" (Y/N) announced as she left the dojo. I don't think she ever actually told him, because he still chases her. He chases her as fast as he can run. I just wanted to protect him. That's what I've sworn to do. I'm going to do absolutely everything I can to protect this family. To protect my brothers and father. That includes Donnie whether he wants it to or not. Whether he thinks he's included or not. I don't care how he feels. I still love him. He's still family.