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Be warned that there WILL be cursing as well as adult context

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After Kazuma had said bye to his other three friends we made our way back to the apartment complex. They boys were up to their shenanigans again and messing with each other. More like Urameshi was messing with Kazuma who came back at him, with really, really bad insults. It made me embarrassed for him. As we entered the apartment you could tell that Shizuru was home as well. There was a wonderful smell throughout the house, all of us took a deep breath and savored the lovely smell. I walked into the kitchen to ask Shizuru if she needed any help, as the boys walked into the living room wondering what game they should play.

"It's nice to see you smiling." Shizuru said to me as her back was facing me.

I look to the floor. It has been a long time since I have been able to truly smile.

"How was your day?" I asked trying to veer from the subject

She shrugged her shoulders and looked at me. "I think that the only up side of it was the fact that I'm alive."

"I know what you mean." I said as I washed my hands in the sink getting ready to help her cook.

For the next half hour her and I talked about little things, nothing that really seemed to matter. When dinner was finally done, I had set the table, setting an extra plate at the table for Urameshi know that if what he had said earlier is true, then no one would be expecting him home. Calling the boys to the table was pretty entertaining. They shoved and pushed each other trying to beat one another to the table, at one point I saw Urameshi punch Kazuma in the jaw, hard enough that I could hear his teeth clack together. After Shizuru had threatened to not feed them if they kept this childish behavior up she would not feed them. they quickly separated from each other and calmly walked over to the table taking their seats.

During dinner there wasn't much talking, mostly the sounds of the boys scarfing down food. Trying to beat one another in an eating contest

"Geez, is everything with them a contest?" I asked Shizuru.

"Sadly it is." She said as she took her empty plate into the kitchen.

After finishing my food I helped clean the table off, loading the dishes into the dishwasher. Then proceeded to help clean the kitchen, after all the counters had been cleaned I retreated into my room. Changing into my pajamas I sit on my bed and grab a book from my bag. Opening it to the last page I was on, and continuing from there. For a while I sit there reading my book minding my own business. I hear a soft knock on the door, looking up I see Kazuma.

I put down my book. "Sup?"

Kazuma comes and sits on my bed. "Tomorrow is a half day and I was wondering if you would like to hang out with me and Yusuke, we have plans with some friends and we want you to meet them."

I nodded my head. So far I liked Urameshi I didn't see why I wouldn't like his other friends.

"Yeah definitely." I smiled

He smiled back at me. "I'm glad. I know that you will like them, well at least one of them the other one is kind of a jerk."

I lifted my eyebrow. If he is a jerk then why is he his friend?

"Ok, I'll keep that in mind." He smiled at me. His eyes bore into mine making me feel like I needed to talk to him and tell him everything.

He sat up ready to head out the door, I grabbed his hand.

I looked up at him. "Can we talk?"

He looked down at me, and closed my door. And sat back onto my bed he gave me a look that was saying that he was ready when I was ready. I sucked a deep breath and then let it out. Trying to help gather the courage to say what I needed to. I closed my eyes then I slowly opened them looking right into his. That's when I told him everything, it blurted out of my mouth so fast that it was like a faucet I couldn't turn off. The entire time I talked to him he didn't say a thing he stayed there just content on listening to me. After I had told him everything I felt so much better, with every tear that had fallen down, the pain in my chest had grown less, and less till it was almost non-existent. At the end of the story you could see the sadness in his eyes as they started getting misty. He pulled me into a bone crushing hug that told me everything was going to be better, and that it was ok for me to be sad.

I pulled away from him wiping my tears from my face, and smiling. "Thanks, I needed that."

He smiled at me "No problem, I'm glad that you told me."

He squeezed my knee, and getting off of my bed to open my door.

"Kazuma."

He looked back at me.

"You know if you ever need to talk to someone. I'm always here for you."

He smiled and nodded then he left the room shutting the door behind him. I sighed, I felt way better than I have in a long time, too tired to read I pulled my blankets back and pulled them over my body covering. I reached out and turned off the light that was in my room making it dark. I closed my eyes and for the first time in a long time I thought about my mother.