Forbidden Love?
Chapter 4.1
All was going to be normal and it seems like Akira really forgot all the things that happened.
But I can't forget it. How could I?
I must think about it every night but I don't want to show it to him.
'Do you want to come to my place today,Taka-chan? The other guys would come too.'
I want to say no 'cause I was not at Akira's place since that day.
But I can not.
I've already said this too many times
and I don't want that he think it's because of him.
'Yes, I will come.'
...
It was a long night and we laughed, talked and drank much.
Yutaka was the first who leaves, then Kouyou and Yuu.
Now it was only me and Akira.
'Should I help you to clean up?'
'Yes, that would be nice ... arigatou!'
It feels good to talk with Akira
'cause we hadn't done this a long time.
I'm very happy now.
Maybe it's because I'm drunk or I'm only really enjoying it.
'It's already late.
I think I should go home now. I'm ...'
Baaam! Ow that hurt's!
I wanted to go to the kitchen where Akira should be
But then I bumped in him.
I was going to fall back but Akira holds me.
'If I wasn't always near you I think you've already broke something Taka-chan!'
He's still holding me and it feels so good.
He's much taler than me so it gives me a feeling of protecting.
He smells so good, too. Just like Akira.
'Is everything alright, Taka-chan?'
'Yes ... I think it's alright.'
I only wish I could stand like this with you forever.
I don't wanted it but I feel tears run down my face.
Now all feelings come over me.
'T...Taka-chan are you crying? Why?'
I feel how he takes my hand and bringing me to his bedroom where we sit down on his bed.
He sit down right next to me
so near that his shoulder is touching mine.
Why must he be always so kind?
I don't get it,
what makes me cry even harder.
'Let's tell me what's wrong.'
I think I can't hold it back anymore
so I must tell him what's really going on.
...
`Is it that you can't forget about the kiss?'
It surprise me that he began to speak.
'You know Taka-chan ... I ... I can't forget about it
... and ... I don't want to forget it!
You thought it was your fault
but it was me who kissed you!
But now I'm very sorry about this
because I see that you feel bad
and I don't want that!'
'But why Akira-chan? I don't get it!`
I am kind of shocked to hear such words comming from Akira.
'It's because I ... I like you.
I like you more than just a friend
but I don't want to lose you.
I'm so sorry.'
'No it's really OK for me.
You haven't to be sorry.'
Wow! I never thought that things would become like that.
I'm shocked and happy at the same time.
I don't know what to do now
But all I know is that I want to be near Akira.
I stopped crying and it could be that I smile a little bit.
Akira is looking down the floor and now it's him who is blushed.
His hand is grabbing tightly the blanket on his bed
and it looks like he is feeling unwell
so I'm lying my hand on his
that he's getting a bit more relaxed.
'Taka-chan can I asc you something?'
'Yes sure.'
'... can I kiss you again?'
What was he ascing right now?
What should I answer?
I can't belive that this is real!
I always wanted this but now I wish he hadn't asc this.
While I'm thinking this he shove my face softly to his and kiss me very lightly.
His lips are touching mine only a little bit.
Only so much that I can feel his soft lips again.
to be continued ...