Dear Diary,
I woke up yesterday thinking it had all been just a dream, that I hadn't found the love of my life. It was depressing to think that I had once again been disappointed by reality. Thought as mu sight got clearer I realised I was in the room from my dream, Jared's room. I was so hopeful that this was my reality, I ran out to the kitchen to find him cooking breakfast. I approached him, rather quietly and wrapped my arms around him. It kind of surprised him, but in a good way, I hope. Well I think it was a good way because he turned around and kissed me. It felt surreal, this all felt surreal, but I wanted to hold onto the moment because it felt so magical and out of this world, it was amazing. Well we held onto the moment for a bit too long, because the pancakes Jared was cooking burnt. I felt kind of guilty, we had cereal instead. When I was eating my cereal I kept looking up at him, trying to figure out if this was a dream, a couple of times he looked up at me. When our eyes locked, I would drop my head. It was slightly embarrassing, but I loved him so much I never wanted to stop looking into his beautiful eyes.
He surprised me; we were going to spend today meeting the rest of his pack and formally meeting the ones from yesterday. I was excited and nervous and both of the feelings balanced out to a state of relaxation. I had a quick shower and then got changed. That's when the nervousness hit again, what did an "imprint", (as Jared had told me I was) where when meeting her boyfriend's family. I settled on a nice floral dress, it was classy but not to formal, and casual enough that it didn't look like I was just going to sit in front of the TV watching movies all day.
We went out to my car, Jared was going to drive. He was so cute and such a gentlemen, opening my door and closing it. It seemed that he just continues to give me more reasons why I love him; he amazes me more and more. It was a short drive to the "headquarters'" (again another term Jared used). I could see the nervousness on Jared's face, it radiated from him, and so when we got out of the car and he grabbed my hand, I gave it a little squeeze. I wanted him to know that I was here for him, and that essentially I loved him. Knowing that he was so nervous meant I didn't want to portray my nervousness, so I kept it in. We walked straight through the front door, and it appeared that everyone was in the lounge room watching TV.
Jared pointed to them all as he named them; I didn't remember many of the names and only a few I could match to their faces. I recognized Jacob, who fixed my car and when a strange voice came from the kitchen beckoning all of them to acknowledge me properly, Seth was the first one. He looked kind of young, but he wasn't the youngest there.
Jared took me to the kitchen, where as he explained briefly his "Mum and Dad" awaited us. He was still so nervous so I kissed him and told him to calm down. By then we were standing in the kitchen doorway, Emily approached me, she was so pretty despite the scars the ran down her face, I would have to ask Jared about that. The scars were slightly distracting but I was polite enough not to stare. Jared was in what looked like an uncomfortable one-armed hug with Sam. While they were talking and Emily and I were talking I slightly eavesdropped, I was accepted by Sam. I hoped that this would ease Jared's nervousness.
We stayed there till' quite late and when we decided to leave, I thought it would be the perfect opportunity to ask Jared something that had been weighing on my mind since the morning. I asked Jared to promise he wouldn't leave me. He replied with "I promise to love you and never leave you, I promise you forever, babe." It was the sweetest and most romantic thing anyone had ever said, it made me realise that it wasn't a dream and he loved me.
I was pretty tired by the end of that, so I guess I fell asleep in the car. I don't remember because I woke up in bed this morning with Jared snuggled into me. It was perfect. Jared says today we are going to meet some "Cullen's" whatever they were. Jared would have to explain; anyways we are leaving soon so I better go. I'll write more the next time I get a chance.
Love Stacie xo