Riley raced home after practice and ran up to his room as fast as he could. Throwing his cell phone and the note across the room he started to pace, back and fourth constantly rubbing his temples. He didn't understand it, why Zane had to give him that stupid note just as he was trying to get over him. Riley's heart pounded as he paced back in fourth pulling at his curly hair, he just needed to forget, forget everything that happened between them, just for this one year so that he can leave high school and Degrassi behind, and go on and live his own life in college, where he wasn't constantly caught up in the teenaged bull shit that seemed to come along with Degrassi.
Riley caught a smell of dinner wafting up to his room, but he wasn't hungry anymore, he was shocked and confused, the only emotions he felt currently. Riley picked the note off of the ground and read it again, he traced his fingers over each letter, memorizing the note for every pencil stroke. He remembered the familiar handwriting, he had a million notes written in that same handwriting in the bottom drawer of his desk, along with stupid other cliche relationship things, a couple of mixed cd's, tickets from a baseball game they went to, one of Zane's teeshirts, and of course the classic photo booth picture strip. Riley hadn't opened that drawer for months, since him and Zane had parted ways, and could only bear the pain to open it for once second while he tossed it's latest member into the drawer. Riley laid back in his bed, sore for football practice and his head still swimming from the contents of that day, the hair, the body, the smile, everything reminded Riley of what he had lost, every time he closed his eyes Riley could still see the near perfect face grinning back at him. Bolting straight up out of his bed Riley let the image seep out of his mind, he couldn't let himself think anymore, it hurt too much.
After eating dinner with his parents, Riley sluggishly went back to his room and spent an agonizingly long time doing homework, stretching out each essay question and algebra problem to it's fullest extent, checking and rechecking his work continuing to fill up his mind. When there was no more possible homework Riley could work on that night, he picked up a book that was near his bed and attempted to distract himself even further, realizing the book was a gift from Zane and had somehow escaped from the bottom drawer, Riley threw the book in the drawer and sat on the edge of his bed. Sitting there breathing deeply, suddenly the room felt too small for him, and Riley's breathing started to quicken, it felt as though the walls in his room were slowly closing in on him. Riley new his anxiety when it was beginning to strike up, so he grabbed his car keys and flew down the stairs, needing to go somewhere anywhere just so he can breathe again.
Riley went to his car and took a few deep breaths before opening the door and putting his keys in the ignition. He pulled out of his driveway and started driving, he didn't consciously know where he was driving to, but it's brain had it's mind made up, driving the familiar path towards Riley's favorite park. Riley parked his car and hopped out smelling the fresh air and trees and was able to breathe deeply again anxiety free. He walked over to a bench that he had sat on many times before and continued to take deep calm breaths that he learned during his many yoga exercises. Finally after a couple of minuets Riley was anxiety free and felt completely relaxed, at least for a moment.
AN: Sorry I'll get to a chapter with some dialogue soon. Thank you guys for continuing to read and all of the sweet messages that you've sent :) I really appreciate this. I have a couple ideas for where i'm going to take this but I want to pan them all out first so it may take me a while to update. But thanks for reading again! And I hope Riley doesn't seem too OCC here, i'm trying. :)