Hi this is chapter 4 in this chapter you will learn more about Julie and what she feels for Logan.

Disclaimer: I don't own Zoey 101

Summary: Julie talks about her relationship with Lance and how she came to cheating on Logan. It is also about how she feels for Logan.

America's Suitehearts- Julie's point of view

Well this was the first day of freedom and I don't really like it. Lance told me that Logan did not deserve to be with me. At first I didn't believe him. I mean I loved Logan so much. I really thought we were forever. He was my only love. Then a week after Lance told me that Logan didn't love me that he was only using me to get to Quinn I started to notice that Logan did love Quinn.

They were always together. They were always hanging out together. They had their little inside jokes that no one else understood except them. At first it didn't seem like anything important, but after a while it started to get annoying. I just couldn't take it anymore.

I loved him and he didn't love me back, he loved Quinn. I just couldn't break up with him. I loved him too much to break up with him. Then one day I remember I saw them together and it got me angry.

Flashback

Quinn was walking towards the gang. They were all sitting around a table talking. I sat with them. I had been doing it for the last week or so. We were discussing what we were going to wear for the spring fling dance. Zoey was talking and describing her dress. By the way she was describing it, it sounded like it was the prettiest dress. Logan was now walking towards the table. He was a little bit behind Quinn.

The next thing that happens is that Quinn somehow trips. She was about to fall when Logan reached out to her. He grabbed her by the waist. Then they both started to laugh. It was typical Quinn always falling. Then I saw that they had stopped laughing. They were staring at each other's eyes. They were lost in another world.

I think I was the only one that noticed. But I got mad. All I did was stand up walk up to them and just stare at Logan. He noticed me right away. He helped Quinn stand up.

"Thanks," Quinn told Logan.

"Don't worry about it, just be more careful," he said.

"Umm… Logan can we go," I said.

"Sure, but aren't we going to eat lunch with the gang?" he asked confused.

"Change of plans," I said and with that we left. That was something mean to do, but I felt like I had to.

Flashback ends

I don't really know what I'm going to do now. I mean I feel as if the world doesn't exist without Logan. Lance was right though he didn't want me. Logan wanted Quinn he had no eyes for anyone else but her. I hated Quinn for taking away my boyfriend. I thought she was a nice person, but I guess not. I will never in my life trust Quinn Pensky again.

I was thinking about everything. Maybe by some chance Logan did love me. Maybe I was just freaked out by what Lance told me. Maybe Logan didn't love Quinn maybe he did love me. Maybe Lance was just playing with me. Maybe he just wanted me to break up with Logan. Maybe Lance was lying and I had been so stupid that I believed him.

I am going to go find Logan and tell him that I'm sorry. I would beg until he listened to me and we finally made up. We would be happy again. I started to walk to his dorm room. I was walking with a huge smile on my face. I was getting close when I saw them. Logan and Quinn.

They were talking on a bench. They were holding hands. I guess I was wrong they did love each other. Lance was right. I had been so stupid as to think that he had lied to me. I was there just staring at them. Then someone came to her. It was Lance, my only friend in this world. I mean he told me about Logan and Quinn. How could he not be my friend?

"So what do you think?" he asked. I turned around to face him. His face was full of bruises. His lip was bleeding. He looked like he was in pain.

"Oh my god!" I screamed. "Who did that to you?"

"Your ex did actually I think he went mad," he said.

"Why would he do something like that," I said. The only thing I could think of was: he still loves me.

"Because he said something about ruining his reputation," Lance said. Somehow I couldn't believe him, Logan would never do that. But then again he always did the unexpected. He did love his reputation, no one could ever mess it up or he would get super mad.

"Well then I guess he is going to have to deal with it," I said. Just then Logan and Quinn turned around and saw us standing there. That was when I did the unexpected. I grabbed Lance and pulled him to me. We kissed like never before. It was full of anger and frustration. We kissed and it seemed like we would never stop. The next thing I saw was Logan and Quinn leaving.

I didn't stop because I wasn't done releasing my anger. I guess this is what my life is going to be for the rest of the year. Lance wasn't a bad kisser. He could be nice and sweet sometimes. To survive this year of school I have to get a boyfriend and I guess Lance could be a candidate. I think that this is going to be a year full of weirdness. I will eventually have to forget about Logan.

To be continued…

I hope you like it I know it doesn't have much Quogan but in the next chapter there is going to be a lot.

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