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Ziva's pov
After I left Tony's I went to Ducky's house, it was his turn hosting Thanksgiving. Everyone on the team/family will be there accept me and Tony we wanted to do something special just the two of us. That didn't quite work out. When I got to Ducky's i knocked on the door. There wasn't an answer so I started to walk away. But when i did the door opened and "Ziva?" Gibbs answered the door, I slowly turned around to looked at him, when I did I burst into tears again, he rushed over to me and pulled me into a tight hug "come on Zivi lets get you inside" Gibbs takes me into Ducky's house and sits me on the couch, he leaves and comes back with the Ducky. "My dear, would you like to stay for dinner there is plenty and it'll be ready in 15minutes" "Thank you Ducky, that's very thoughtful, I would love to" Ducky then leaves to set an extra space at the dinner table. Gibbs comes to sit next on the sofa and puts a hand on my knee "look at me Zivi" I look at him with fresh tears forming in my eyes "Yes Abba?" "Zivi what happened, I thought you and Tony were having a special Thanksgiving by yourselves, speaking of who wear is Dinozzo?" I shrug " I don't know where he is Gibbs, I told him and he got angry started shouting at me, then left so I wrote him a note and packed up stuff and left. I didn't know where else to go so I came here. Sorry for ruining your Thanksgiving."
"Zivi never apologise it's a sign of weakness. And what did you tell Tony to make him shout at you?" I didn't reply, what if Gibbs acts the same as Tony? no he wouldn't especially with the team in the room "Ziva?" he hardy ever calls ne Ziva these days its always Zivi or David, but usually Zivi
"I-I t-told T-tony, that.. I'm err.. p-pregnant Gibbs. Please don't hate me" I cry even harder than I had all night, Gibbs just pulled me into a tight hug and kissed my forehead until Abby walks in.
"Ziva, why aren't you with Tony?" I turned around and looked at her "Ohmygod, are you alright what happened?"
"Abby I-I.. me and Tony broke up"
"Ohmygod ohmygod, no why?"
"Because she's pregnant Abby" Gibbs tells her me, he new I wouldn't be able to explain again so he did it for me, he can read me like an open book. "I'm gunna kill, he promised never to hurt you, now you girls see my reasoning for rule 12" Gibbs says making me chuckle slightly
"Abby, Gibbs what am I gunna do? I'm pregnant and homeless"
"Zivi you are coming to live with me, you can't say no, and you can stay as long as you want until you find a nice house or apartment"
"Thank you Gibbs I really appreciate it"
"No problem Zivi anything for my girls, that goes for you to Abby"
" Thank you Abba" I say smiling at him so does Abby.
Ducky comes in to tells us that the dinner is ready, when I walk in the rest of the team look at me with confused expressions on their face I ignore them and sit at the table. During dinner everyone was laughing and having a good time including myself until Palmer asks why I'm here, a single teat runs down my cheek "Oh sorry Ziva I didn't mean to upset you"
"You didn't Palmer its fine. You might as well all know since we're all here together. Me and Tony broke up because I'm pregnant" another tear runs down my face and Jenny pulls me into a hug and says "I'm so sorry Zivi" only Jenny and Gibbs all me Zivi. As soon as Jenny speaks, that's it can't hold the tears any longer I just cry into her shoulder for what felt like hours "Jenny is said Zivi can stay at ours for as long as she needs"
"I was just about to offer Jethro".
I get up and go to the bathroom. When I got out there was a knock at the door so I answer it, it was the one person I hated to most at this time. It was Tony. I slammed the door in his face before he could say anything which got everyone's attention and rush to see what happened, when they came out of the dining room I was leaning against the door hugging my knees crying. Gibbs picks me up bridle-style and puts me on the sofa, then there was another knock at the door, I new It would Tony. I looked at Gibbs tears running down my face and I scream "NOO" none understood why accept Gibbs "Zivi was it Tony at the door the first time" I nodded I couldn't speak I was in too much of a state, "Abby and Jenny answer the door to Dinozzo, and tell him to leave and until we deal with Ziva." they go to the door while Gibbs continue "Ducky would you get her some water? McGee, Palmer she needs her brother's while I get rid of Tony" Tim and Jimmy sit either side of me on the couch both holding one of my hands between both of theirs, I felt safe them there like none could touch me. I heard shouting which made me wince and their hands to slightly tighten a few stray tears run down my cheeks and Ducky wipes them off when he puts my water in front of me on the table "Thank you" "your most certainly welcome my dear. How are you feeling?" "Truth or lie? Truth I'm tired and feel a bit nauseous, lie I'm perfectly fine thank you" "Oh Ziva my dear I truly am sorry" "Why? You didn't break my heart and make me homeless. You took me in and fed me and looked after me. And your the grampa for my baby, if only you want to?" "I would be happy to oblige my dear" he smiles at me and I return a smile, at least my baby will definitely have a family even if I am now a single parent.
Tony's pov
After I pull myself together I go to Ducky's to see if they know where Ziva is or if they'll help me find her. I knock on the door and the beautiful Ziva who I love with everything I have opens the door and slams it in my face before I could say anything, even though that killed me inside I guess I deserved it and a slight relief went through my body that she was safe. I hear sobs from the other side of the door that made me feel even worse and I hear talking. I wondered what was happening, I waited a few minutes before I knocked on the door again and I heard a scream which sent chills down my spine, then suddenly Jenny and Abby open the door looking incredibly pissed not the drunk pissed, angry pissed and you never what either of them to be pissed separately let alone them together, I was in for hell but if I get to talk to Ziva it'll be worth it. "um.. hi guys, look I know your pissed right now but I really gotta talk to Ziva" I go to walk in but Abby pushed mw back "YOU BAATARD. DO YOU KNOW WHAT SHE'S GOING THROUGH? WHAT SHE'S BEEN LIKE EVER SINCE SHE GOT HERE? NO? DIDN'T THINK SO! SHE'S BEEN A WREK TONY! KICKING HER OUT YOUR APARTMENT-"
"WOW ABBY, HOLD IT RIGHT THERE I DIDN'T KICK HER OUT, I LEFT TO COOL OFF AND I GOT BACK SHE WAS GONE" I yelled back at them
"That's even worse Tony"
"How director please enlighten me"
"Well Tony, it was obvious she was frightened of telling you encase your reaction, and her worst nightmare was that reaction. Now she thinks you hate her and don't want the baby. You better decide what you want Tony until Jethro comes."
"Umm hi boss. look I really need to speak to Ziva"
"You need to leave Dinozzo"
"But boss, I love her-"
"Well you should of thought about that about that before you SHOULD OF THOUGHT ABOUT THAT BEFORE YOU SHOUTED AT HER, INSULTED HER THEN WALKED OUT ON HER. NOW LEAVE DINOZZO. I'll see on Monday at work"
"BOSS I NEVER INSULTED HER"
" REALLY DINOZZO? SO YOU DIDN'T CALL HER STUPID AND BASICALLY BLAME HER FOR GETTING PREGNANT?"
" Yeah alright boss I did but-"
"No buts Dinozzo, you screwed up big time but right now your gunna leave and we'll see you tomorrow at work."
"FINE!"
*Monday/next day at work Squad room*
Tony's pov
I get into the squad room at 7am which for me really early I mean McGee isn't here yet. "Morning boss, um where's Ziva?"
"She's with the direct-oor"
"Why?"
"I don't know Dinozzo I'm down here with you not up there with her"
"Right sorry boss. I mean won't happen again boss"
Rule six - never say your sorry it's a sign of weakness
Ziva's pov
I come out of Jenny's office and pause before I come down the stairs cause I see Tony, I don't want to see him not today or speak to him. I look at Gibbs to find he's looking at me, he nods as if to tell me it's okaai and I can be strong. I make my down the stairs and sit and my desk, I sense Tony watching me but I ignore him. Suddenly I feel nauseous, and run to the bathroom.
Gibbs pov
When Zivi comes down she sits at her desk ignoring Dinozzo's looks, she gets up and runs to the bathroom holding her stomach protectively and her mouth. Dinozzo gets up about to walk past me until I put my hand in his way as I get up, "Leave her Dinozzo, your the last person she's gunna want" he sits back at his and I go to check on Zivi. I walk into the ladies bathroom and lock the door "your going to have to talk to him sometime Zivi"
"I know Abba, just not today. Please don't make me"
"Zivi I'd never make you, unless it would fix everything, but I think it would"
"Would you tall to him first see what he says if he still loves me and the if he wants the baby that sort of thing"
"If you want me to Zivi, buy I already know the answers"
We walk out the bathroom and back to our desk. I kept hearing this ping-ing noise I guessed it was a message for Zivi on her computer but she was ignoring it. That's when I saw Tony cry slightly only a few tears but it broke me heart to see two of my children so badly hurting when it can all be fixed by a conversation.
I had a secret button placed under my desk which would shut the elevator off and not turning back on until I pressed it again that's when I got the perfect plan Operation: Tiva I know I sound like Abby but her and McGee are in the lab trying to find a plan themselves. "David, Dinozzo. Go get McGee from Abby's lab" They get and head for the elevator "I'll take the stairs" Zivi says heading for the stairs.
"David, Dinozzo take the elevator or your fired" I know that was a bit extreme but it was only a threat.
Ziva's pov
I can't believe Abba's making me ride the elevator with Tony. All I want to do is curl up in and cry but I can't and I'm out of tears. We enter the elevator and I push the button for Abby's lab. After a few seconds the elevator stops and the light goes out, I try flipping the switch to see if anything happens but nothing does, so I call Gibbs "Gibbs the elevators broken on us"
"I know Zivi"
"How?"
"I switched it off I have a secret button"
"Why would you do that?"
"Because I care about you and you need to talk to Tony"
"But I don't want to not yet please Gibbs" the thought of being stuck with Tony in the elevator causes some tears to fall I can't have him shout at me like that not again, I wouldn't be able to handle it
"I know you're frightened he'll shout at you again like last you spoke but he won't I promise and he does I kill him"
"You promise?"
"Yeah Zivi I promise, okaai?"
"Okaai"
I shut off my phone and put it back in my pocket. I don't look at Tony I don't want to see the hatred and anger in his face again but I can he's looking me mainly because his whole body is facing me.
He goes to wipe a tear off my cheek and I flinched, I don't know why I guess when I was and someone shouted at me they would hit me, but I new Tony would never hurt even if he did hate me.
"I'm not gunna hurt you Zi" he says in a soft voice, I miss his sweet voice, I miss his touch, they way he holds me protectively, the scent of him. A few more tears drop thinking about what we had, he wipes them away until I slid down the wall until my bum hits the cold elevator floor.
Tony sits beside me still looking at me "Get it over with Tony"
"Get what over with?"
"The shouting. I know you hate me know and I'm sorry but I never planned and to be honest I'm terrified I never thought about having children specially before marriage, but its happened and im keeping my baby, you made it perfectly clear Saturday that you want nothing to with us and I'm fine with the rest of the team said they'd be there to help and support me. You won't have to pay child benefit or anything I can manage alone. You can go back to your normal life being a player again with no responsibilities" I can't help myself I cry silently tears that I didn't think I had spilling down my cheeks, I look up to see a tear run down his face he was looking at the elevator door, so I guessed that the tear was a tear of relief. I put my head in my knees and I hold my necklace talking hebrew to Tali so Tony doesn't understand even though she's dead I believe her spirt is always with me. I feel his squeeze my knee so I look up at him.
"Do you love me Zi"
"My feelings have nothing to do with this Tony but.. yes Tony I love you. The way you hold me protectively, your scent, the cute nicknames you come up with for me, your sweey voice, they look of love I used to see in your eyes when we were together"
"Ziva I love you to b-"
"I get it Tony you don't want a baby, I understand"
"no its not that.." he just paused mid sentence, I look up at him wishing he would hold me and tells me he's here for me and the baby and that's nothings going to change between up we're going to a family, but I know he wouldn't say that. He cups my face and pulls me into a kiss "No Tony, you cant just kiss me and make it better it doesn't work like that" I say pulling my face out of his hands "DAMMIT ZIVA I LOVE YOU ALRIGHT? I LOVE YOU, I HAVE ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND I ALWAYS WILL"
I new he would shout at me again I turn my and let more tears falls, it frightens me when he shouts it reminds me of my father when he would shout at me then beat me, I guess i was afraid that Tony would beat me after he shouts but he new my father did that to me. He suddenly stops shouting and scootes closers to me on the floor and I touches my knee again making me flinch "Oh Ziva I'm so sorry, I forgot you know I'd hurt you right never ever, I love you sweet cheeks and I want you to come home so we can go house hunting and buy a bigger so when our baby comes into the world we'll have enough room, I was thinking a house with a massive garden and a pool and we could a climbing frame so our baby can play if we can't go to the park, and when you can't drive because your carrying another Dinozzo. I thought we could have 3 kids, maybe two girls Tali and Kate and maybe a boy Anthony Junior after yours truly" I look at him the tears have stopped falling during his beautiful speech "what about the other night Tony?"
"I know and I'm sorry, I didn't mean to say it, the news was sinking in and I was shocked and happy and worried and scared all rolled into one, like when McProbie's drunk different emotions every second" I giggled, Tony leans closer so our foreheads are touching and whispers "I miss you, your giggle, when you make me coffee when you get back from your run, how you wake me when you get out the shower, how you lean on me when we're watching TV, the traditional prayer you do before we have dinner with the candles, how I only I know you like to snuggly especially when we're sleeping. Please Zi I need you, I love you" he whispers the last part and kisses me, he pulls back but I pull him back in, he lifts me because he knows I'll complain that the floor made my bum cold. We pull away and rest my head in the crook of his neck "Just so we're certain about everything, you want me and this baby?"
"More than I've ever wanted anything" he puts a hand on my stomach protectively
"I love you, Tony"
"I love you too, Zi"
"We owe Gibbs for shutting the elevator off"
"Yeaah we do" we sit there I comfortable silence holding each other waiting for the elevator doors to open.