Let me know what you think, this chapter was really hard for me to spit out for some reason.
Chapter 4
The next morning, I woke in my bed; I'm not really sure how I got there. I honestly don't even remember leaving the bathtub; I must have fallen asleep in there.
I rolled over and noticed that Edward wasn't next to me, so I looked at the clock. I was alarmed to see that it was five minutes till eight. Without another thought, I hopped out of bed, dressed in a pair of jeans and black thermal and went into the kitchen.
Once in the kitchen, I saw that the girls were eating cereal at the table and the babies were in their seats drinking bottles.
"Morning," I said feeling grumpy, but trying to contain it.
"Morning," Edward answered, looking up from some paper he was reading.
"Edward, It's eight, how come you didn't wake me up?" I asked.
"I was going to wake you in a few minutes; I was trying to let you sleep," he answered.
"Thanks baby, but I have to take Reneesme to school, then go to class," I told him.
"I know, she's ready to go, so calm down," he said, pulling me into a hug.
Once I ate breakfast and got ready, I loaded everyone into the car and said goodbye to Edward. He had a job as a Teachers Assistant this semester, so he had to go in most days. I frowned as I thought about it. Corey was in one of the classes he TA'd for, and I hated it. I tried to put the thought out of my head as I drove. Things would get better soon; I just needed to get everyone where they needed to go first.
First, I dropped Renesme of at Kindergarten. "I'll come get you a little after noon," I told her, giving her a hug.
"Ok, love you Jake," she answered.
"Love you to," I told her, before driving away.
As I drove to the college, Willow interrupted my thoughts.
"Do I have to go to the daycare today?" she moaned. "Those kids in there are just plain dumb!"
"Yeah, you have to go," I told her. "I brought you some books and you can make me a Christmas list while your there."
"Ok," she said, sounding happy at the mention of Christmas.
After a few more minutes, I pulled into the college parking lot and got everyone out of the car. I hurried into the daycare the college provided it's student parents and sighed the three of them in. Immediately, the babies started crying.
"Calm down guys, I'll be back before you know it," I told them, picking them up from their seats. After rocking them for a while, they quieted, and I left for my own class.
"Keep and eye on them," I told Willow, before leaving.
"I will," she said and gave me one of her little hugs.
"That's not good enough today," I told her.
"Oh, fine!" she said, and hugged me tighter.
"Love you," I said.
"Love you too," she said dryly.
Once I got out of the daycare, I noticed that I had fifteen minutes until I had to be in class. Wanting to be alone for a few minutes, I hurried back to my car. Once inside, I unzipped my bag and took out the package Carlisle had given me. My hands shook as I read the directions carefully
Take one tablet twice a day, once in the morning and once in the evening. Please consult your Dr. if you are currently taking any other medication. Do not mix this product with certain other medications, alcohol or illegal drugs.
/That's not so hard, / I thought; who would do any of that anyway? I took the bottle of water I had in the cup holder, opened it and took the first one. Again, I hoped that I was making the right decision: I guess I'd find out soon enough.
After relaxing until the last minute possible, I got out of the car and walked to class. Thank god there was only one more week of classes left before Christmas break; to bad it had to be finals week, the most stressful week all semester. Maybe it wouldn't be so bad this year, now that I had a little help.
The class passed normally; I didn't notice much of a change, which I wasn't sure was a good thing or a bad thing.
As class ended, I got up quickly, ready to rescue the kids from the daycare they hated so much. I couldn't blame them; I wouldn't want to be stuck in there with a bunch of strict old ladies and screaming brats either.
"JACOB!" I heard a deep booming voice shout, as I was about to leave the room.
"What," I answered; I know I looked confused when I turned around and saw who was shouting at me. It was Derrick, Corey's boyfriend. He was a big meathead of a guy, how he ever got into college in the first place was s surprise to me.
"THIS!" he yelled, slamming down a crumpled paper on one of the desks.
I walked over to where the paper lay on the desk, and glanced at it. I noticed the handwriting right away; it was Edwards. Along the top of the page, written in red, was a large 69%. Under the grade, it read, "Please Review spelling, punctuation, grammar and organization."
"Who does that guy think he is? Now that he's a TA, he thinks he can just do whatever he wants. Now I might fail! Well, I know he only gave me that grade because he's jealous that I have Corey and he doesn't" Derrick said, just loud enough for the rest of the people lingering in the classroom to hear.
"Whatever Derrick, I can see at least ten problems on the first page alone" I told him.
"Don't deny it Jacob, you know he wants in Corey's pants; he wants to make him the next one on the list," he said, leaning over me.
"That's not true, Corey is the one always flinging himself at Edward," I replied, surprised that I hadn't just punched this guy already.
"Like I said," Derrick said, stepping even closer to me, "don't deny it, sooner or later Cullen's going to wonder, and I'm letting you know now, if it's with Corey, he's a dead man, so you might want to give him the memo."
"Whatever, you don't know what your talking about," I said, walking quickly out of the classroom. I wasn't going to stand there and take anymore of Derricks crap; I had better things to do.
"And you better tell that fucker to fix my grade, or else!" I heard Derrick shout from a distance.
I decided not to pay him any more attention. I was glad that I hadn't flipped out on him; maybe these things really were working.
I was relieved to feel the cold air against my skin, as I walked out of the building. I just wanted to get the kids and get the hell out of there as soon as possible.
As soon as I opened the door to the daycare, Willow was standing there waiting on me.
"Let's get out of here," she said, helping me gather up the babies and their stuff.
"Sounds like a plan," I replied, quickly signing their name out. As we left, I could hear many children either crying or coughing.
"Not much fun at the ol" daycare today?" I asked playfully.
"NO!" she replied, "everyone has a cold or they are crying!"
"Ew, well, you wont have to go back there for a while," I told her.
"How bout never?" she asked.
"We'll see, but right now we have to hurry up, or we'll be late getting your sister from Kindergarten," I said.
When I pulled up to the Kindergarten, it was 12:15. I saw Reneesme and the teacher standing outside the building.
"You're a little late," the teacher said, as I got out of the car.
"Sorry, I was trying to hurry," I told her.
"You young parents think everyone is on your time," she replied harshly.
"Sorry," I said again, grabbing Reneesmes hand and heading towards the car.
"Don't forget, Willows class starts at 1:00 sharp!" I head her call.
"I wont," I replied, and got in the car.
"What a bitch," I mumbled to myself, once I was in the car.
"Don't say that, it's a bad word!" Reneesme informed me.
"Sorry!" I said dryly.
So far, this day had pretty much sucked. I did noticed though, that I was staying a lot calmer then I otherwise would have. I guess the day was a good test for me.
"I'm starving!" Reneesme exclaimed, as we drove down the street.
"That's where we're going," I told her.
After a few more minutes of driving and listening to the girls complain about how hungry they were, I pulled into a small pizza place near the Kindergarten.
"Now, when we get in here, eat quick, I have to get Willow to Kindergarten by 1:00 sharp," I said, mocking the teacher.
Once inside, I ordered three slices, two apple juices and a soda. Usually, I could eat at least two slices, but today, I just wasn't feeling hungry. I didn't even want to eat the slice I ordered, but knew I had to for energy.
"Why can't we have soda?" Willow asked, as I sat the food and drinks down on the table.
"Your dad doesn't like you two having soda and you know it," I told her.
"Well, he's not here," she said. I didn't like that she was thinking of lying to her dad; I hope I wasn't rubbing off on her.
"That doesn't matter, you know you aren't suppose to have it, now eat, we have to go soon," I told her.
As they ate, I gave the babies, who were in their seats in the middle of the table, their bottles. I took a few bites of my pizza, but mostly played with the babies; I just wasn't hungry today for some reason.
"Daddy, aren't you going to eat your pizza?" Willow asked.
"No, I don't want anymore," I told her.
"Can I have it?" she asked. Willow was a lot like me, tall, with an athletic build. She also liked to eat a lot, just like me.
"I want some too!" Reneesme said.
"You haven't even finished your fist piece yet," I told her, handing the rest of my slice to Willow.
Once everyone had finished, I horridly packed everyone into the car and drove back to Kindergarten. When we arrived, it was 12:58.
"Hurry," I told Willow as she ran towards the building.
After dropping Willow off, I took Reneesme back to the college to meet Bella. Bella had a really hectic class and TA schedule on Monday, Wednesday and Friday, so Reneesme stayed with us those nights and every other weekend. On the alternate weekends, Willow would stay at Bella's. Even though the two bickered a lot, they didn't like to be apart, so we tried to keep them together as much as possible.
"Hey Mom!" Reneesme yelled, as we got out of the car.
"Hey, how was school today?" Bella asked.
"Great! Jake was late picking me up though and the teacher yelled at him," she laughed.
"Sorry, I had to get the rest of them from daycare first," I told Bella.
"It's ok Jake, I know you have a busy schedule too," she replied. "Are we still on for Wednesday night?"
"Of course," I told her with a smile.
"Did you guys get lunch?" she asked Reneesme.
"Yes, it was really good, but Jake didn't eat, he was being bad today," she replied.
"Why do you have to be such a tattle tale?" I asked her playfully.
"Are you alright Jake, I have never heard of you not eating?" Bella asked.
"I think so, maybe one of those germ infested kids from the daycare gave me something. It's a cesspool in there you know?" I laughed.
"Jake that's a horrible description," she laughed. "Well, give me a call if you feel sick, I'll bring you over some soup."
"Alright, well, I'm actually feeling pretty tired; it's been a stressful morning; I think I need a nap," I told her.
"Ok, see ya tomorrow," she replied.
"Bye Bella, bye tattle tale," I said, giving Reneesme a hug.
Once in the car, I realized it was just the babies and me, which didn't happen very often. I loved spending time alone with them; the best thing about it was that they hadn't learned to talk yet, so they just sat there and looked cute. Unfortunately, I knew that wouldn't last for long.
We had not been planning on having any more children until I was finished community college, however; that plan didn't really work out. Last Christmas break, right before the new semester started, I found out I was pregnant. It wasn't until March that I found out it was twins.
I didn't find out the sex of the twins until they were born. They were born on a warm day in August, but to me, it was an excruciatingly hot day. Carlisle oversaw the entire pregnancy, and was there for the delivery. There was no way I could explain the abnormally high temperature to any other Dr.
When they came out, again, they were both girls. It really didn't bother me; I liked girls and always seemed to hang out with them more anyway. I knew Edward loved them, but I could also tell he wanted a boy. He couldn't believe that two boys kept making girls.
Edward and I had done some research on the twin's astrology. Because their ruling planet was the sun, I named the first-born Liza, after the West African Goddess of the sun, and the second, I named Ruby, after the gemstone of the sun.
I was excited about the babies, which surprised me. I knew I wanted to have more children with Edward, I just didn't think I wanted them so soon. Although I was happy, the pregnancy took a lot out of me, especially in the summer months.
I remember some nights, I would get so hot that Edward would take me deep into the woods, undress me and lay me in the cool grass; it was the only thing that could cool me down.
Edward thought me being pregnant, lying in the grass was the sexiest thing on earth, when all I wanted to do was lay there and try to cool down. During my pregnancy's, both with Willow and with the twins, Edwards sex drive doubled. Usually, he was pretty restrained, not wanting me to feel pressured into anything. But when I was pregnant, that restraint pretty much flew right out the window.
Honestly, I didn't mind; it made him seem more human to me, not like some perfect being who had control over everything. I loved when he would lay me on the ground and tell me that if he didn't have me right there, he would die.
I respected Edward for usually showing such restraint with me, because truthfully, with the kids and school, I wasn't always in the mood. However, I did miss those wild moments, which, with being so busy, were hard to come by these days.
I ended my memory, as I pulled into the driveway. It had been a chaotic morning and I just wanted to relax.
I went inside the house, changed the babies and sat in the big reclining chair with them in my lap. I turned on some random cartoons for them to look at and attempted to read some of the book for my final on Wednesday, but ended up falling asleep within minutes.
The next thing I heard was Edward and Willow coming loudly into the house.
"I'm getting better!" I heard Willow protest.
"According to who," I heard Edward ask.
"Grandpa Carlisle," she answered.
"Oh, well, he's not very good either," I heard Edward laugh.
"Dad, I'm only five I'll get better," she replied.
"Good, because if your going to be in this family, you have to be able to play baseball," he laughed again.
"Well, I'm not as bad as Reneesme," she said.
"Good point, no one's that bad," he replied and they both laughed.
"Hi Daddy," Willow said, as she came into the living room.
"Hey," I said, still groggy from my nap. "It's almost 5:00, where were you guys?" I asked.
"We were practicing baseball after school," she said, and I could tell she was cold from being outside so long.
"Come here, " I told her, motioning towards the blanket I had over me.
For once, she actually crawled onto my lap and under the blanket.
"Brr," she said, snuggling into me.
"You let her get to cold," I told Edward, who was now standing in the entrance to the living room.
"Sorry, I noticed she started shivering, so I brought her in," he said.
"Remember, she actually gets cold," I told him sternly.
"I'm sorry," he said sincerely.
"I know," I said, smiling at him, so he would know I wasn't mad anymore.
He walked over and kissed me gently on the lips, picking up the babies as he did so.
"Is it time for them to eat?" he asked.
"Yep, would you please feed them for me; I want to get Willow in the bathtub, to warm her up," I told him.
"Of course," he said, walking into the kitchen to feed the babies.
I went upstairs and started the bathwater, while Willow went in her room to get her pajamas. While she was in her room, I quickly went and grabbed my bag from downstairs. I took one of the tablets from the box, put it in my pocket and through the bag in my room.
When I walked back into the bathroom, I noticed Willow still wasn't in there, so I quickly filled a small disposable cup with water and popped the pill in my mouth.
Willow walked in as I was finishing the water.
"Ready," I asked.
"Yes, I'm freezing!" she exclaimed
"Alright, well, yell when you're in and I'll be in to help," I told her, wanting to give her some privacy.
After the bath, I dried Willows hair and we went downstairs to find Edward and the twins.
When we entered the kitchen, Edward had the babies in their swings. He also had the leftover spaghetti ready for willow and I.
"Yum," Willow said, immediately going for the spaghetti.
"Thanks," I said, as I walked over and hugged Edward.
"Your welcome, but you really should be thanking the microwave," he laughed.
"You're in a silly mood today," I told him.
"I know, today was my last class," he said.
"Oh, I thought you had one more on Wednesday morning?" I asked.
"Nah, I canceled it; they took their finals today, so there really was no point," he explained.
"Slacker," I said
"Yeah, pretty much," he laughed.
"Did Derrick take your final today?" I asked; as I sat down to eat.
"Derrick who?" he asked, generally confused.
"You know, Derrick, Corey's boyfriend," I answered.
"Oh, that guy, yeah he took it…why?" he asked.
"He came up to me today, yelling about how you gave him a bad grade," I told Edward. I left out the part where he threatened me.
"And what did he say?" Edward asked; I could hear the hint of anger in his voice.
"He was just mad about the grade," I half lied.
"Jacob! Tell me what he said?" he pressed.
"Why do you care so much?" I asked.
"Because I can tell your lying, and if you feel the need to lie about it, he must have said something important," he answered.
"Alright, I'll tell you about it when we go to bed," I said; I wished that I hadn't brought it up.
"Fine," he replied, pulling out a huge stack of final exams and placing them a little harder then necessary on the table.
I sighed and took a few more bites of my dinner. Again, I just wasn't hungry.
"I'm done," Willow said. "Can I go watch TV now?'
"Yeah, just keep it low, I have to study for a while," I told her.
Once Willow had left the room, Edward looked up from the stack of papers he had been pretending to focus on.
"So, are you going to tell me now?" he asked.
"He told me that you better give him a good grade or else," I replied, revealing a little more of the truth.
"Or else what?" Edward asked with a laugh.
"I don't know, he didn't say," I answered.
"Alright, what else did he say?" Edward asked.
"That was the just of it," I answered.
"Why wont you tell me?" he asked, frustration evident on his face.
"Because, the rest of it, I don't rally want to bring up," I told him.
"Please tell me Jake, I don't want you to keep things from me," he said sincerely.
"He said you were giving him bad grades because you were jealous of him being with Corey. He said that you were going to end up cheating on me, and that if you did it with Corey, he was going to come after you," I explained.
"Why the fuck is everyone so worried about Corey!" he said angrily.
I didn't answer for a few seconds; I was too shocked at what Edward had just said. It was rare to hear Edward curse, so when he did, I knew he was upset.
"Edward, you just asked me to tell you and I did," I reminded him.
"I know Jake, I'm not mad at you. I just don't like that guy and I don't want him making you think I like Corey," he explained, trying to keep his temper under wraps.
"Well, do you like Corey?" I asked, before I had time to think about it.
"No! I wish you would stop thinking that," he said.
"Do you honestly not notice how he acts around you? Edward, he practically throws himself at you every chance he gets," I explained.
"Jacob, I don't notice it, I guess because I don't care. I have no feelings towards Corey, so I could really care less what he does," he said.
"I believe you, but you have to pay attention, because Derrick notices it too," I told him.
"I will pay more attention," he told me. "I don't think I'll see him anymore anyway, now that classes are over."
I chose to end the Corey conversation then; I really didn't want to waste any more time on it, plus; I had finals to study for.
We both sat at the table for a good two hours, me, studying for finals and Edward, grading them.
Once 9:00 came around, I had had it, plus; I had to get Willow and the twins ready for bed anyway.
I closed by book dramatically and yawned. "No more for tonight" I said.
"I only have a few more left, so I'll be up in a few minutes with the babies," Edward told me.
"Ok, I'm going to put Willow to bed and get a shower," I told him.
When I walked into the living room, Willow was watching something on Animal Planet about sharks.
"Come on, it's time to get ready for bed," I told her.
"Ohh, do I have to!" she whined.
"Yep, and if you come on now, I'll read you one book," I told her.
She quickly turned off the TV, said goodnight to Edward and we headed upstairs. I tucked her in and red her a book, then went to take my shower.
As I walked into our bedroom, I saw Edward sitting on the side of the bed waiting for me.
"Hey," I said, walking over to him.
He didn't answer me, instead; he pulled me over to him and started kissing my bellybutton. His cool hands rubbed up and down my sides, feeling good against my hot skin. He kissed a trail up to my chest, then stood up to kiss my lips, all the while, continuing to rub my sides.
After some moments, he slid his arms around me, lifted me up and placed me on our bed. A second later, his knees were on either side of my legs and he was pushing me back to lie on the bed.
It was strange, earlier in the day, I had yearned for one of those wild moments, and now that I had my chance, sex was the last thing I wanted.
I lie there, letting Edward continue to kiss me for a while, not wanting to loose the closeness. When I felt that he wanted to go further, I had to stop him.
"Edward," I breathed, taking his chin in my hand.
"Yes?" he said, surprised that I had stopped him.
I couldn't remember a time where I had ever told him no, or wanted to for that matter.
"I can't," I told him simply.
"Oh," he said, looking at me directly in the eye. "Are you alright?"
"Yeah, I just haven't felt right today," I told him.
"What do you mean?" he asked.
"Well, I haven't felt hungry all day and now… well, you know," I said.
He didn't say anything; he just lay there and looked at me.
"Are you mad?" I asked, trying to gauge his reaction.
"No, I'm sorry, I didn't know you were feeling ill," he told me.
"Edward, it's ok, I think I just need a good nights rest," I said.
"Alright," he said, putting his shirt back on. "I think I'm going for a run, I need to… get rid of some energy," he laughed.
"Ok," I laughed. "I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry Jake, just rest. If you need anything, think really loud, and I'll bring it to you," he said.
"Ok, goodnight Edward," I said.
"Goodnight," he said, before leaving the room.
A/N: I hope this chapter was not to monotones, it is just really important to the plot that I describe everything in such detail.
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