Hello Readers, Thanks for the reviews I appreciate your input so keep them coming. Bonnie is very angry and hurt right now and doesn't know how to deal. She's very angry and angry people sometimes do and say irrational things. She'll eventually come around but I didn't want to write her accepting being a vampire overnight. Hope you enjoy this chapter.
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Bonnie couldn't stand it. She couldn't take her bodies constant need for blood. The need to seek out blood whenever she got hungry. The urge to go and find an human for her to sank her fangs into and drain them of every drop of blood. So she was going to end her life. She was going to take herself out to stop herself from harming others. Bonnie walked out of her room at the Salvatore boarding house looking around and making sure that no one was around.
She snuck downstairs as quietly as she could. The front door came into view, it was morning and the sun was shining strongly outside. Bonnie carefully opened the front door she stood in the shade that the inside of the house provided. A few feet in front of her was the open door and sun light shined over the front lawn. Sunlight that could and would kill her. Tears streamed down her face she hoped that her friends would forgive her for this. Bonnie took one step forward than another. Her feet were inches away from the thresh hold of the door. She closed her eyes and prepared to take a step out into the sunlight to let herself burst into flames and die.
Just as the tip of her foot stepped out into the sun there was a rush of wind. Suddenly Bonnie felt herself being pushed backwards back into the house away from the sun outside and heard the door slam shut. She landed hard on the floor with someone heavy landing on top of her.
Bonnie opened her eyes to see Damon above her with wide blue eyes. "Are you out of your mind?" He asked
"Get off of me." Bonnie told him.
Damon stayed on top of her pinning her down. "You were just about to kill yourself."
"Was until you showed up." Bonnie said
His heart had jumped in his throat when he walked in and had seen her about to step out into the sun where she would have surely burned to death. He had to use his vampire speed to prevent that from happening. "What's wrong with you?"
Bonnie looked up at him her eyes icy and cold. "I'm a vampire that's what's wrong."
"So you want to commit suicide?" Damon asked taken aback.
"Better for me to die, then to end up harming some innocent human for my sick needs." Bonnie told him.
Damon frowned. "Do you feel that bad about being a vampire?"
"Yes." Bonnie answered honestly.
"You're being self fish." Damon spat out.
Bonnie glared up at him. "How am I being self fish?"
Damon narrowed his eyes. "Ever think that your friends would hurt with you gone. Don't you know that Caroline and Elena would mourn for you."
"I'm doing this for my friends." Bonnie retorted "Especially the human ones like Elena, I can't hurt them if I'm dead."
Damon shook his head. "You can learn to be around your human friends and not want to eat them."
"I don't trust myself." Bonnie swallowed.
"Suicide is not the answer." Damon tried talking her away from the ledge.
"Who asked you?" Bonnie snipped at him. "Now let me go and finish me life."
Damon narrowed his eyes. "No way."
"Damon." Bonnie warned tone angry and threatening.
Damon kept her held down under his body. "I didn't try to save you after you got shot just to let you burn yourself alive."
Bonnie opened her mouth to respond but couldn't think of anything to say. She stared up at him.
Damon stared back down at her, man did she have some gorgeous green eyes. He mentally kicked himself because it wasn't something he could be thinking about when he just walked in on her trying to kill herself.
"You going to get off of me?" Bonnie asked
"Not until you promise not to try killing yourself again." Damon told her.
Bonnie swallowed. "That's not up to you."
"Then I can stay on top of you all day." Damon told her.
"Fine I won't try to kill myself." Bonnie said
Damon arched a brow. "Promise?"
Bonnie gritted her teeth. "Promise."
Damon slowly eased off of her.
Bonnie stood to her feet.
Damon stood to his arms folded over his chest staring her down in case she tried to make a run for any sun light.
Bonnie jutted her chin out. "I still hate you for what you turned me into."
"Yeah well I hate you too." Damon muttered.
Bonnie rolled her eyes and went back up the stairs.
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That night Caroline walked in followed by Stefan they had been out trying to find ways to help Bonnie adjust to being a vampire.
"Is she upstairs?" Caroline asked Damon.
"I guess so." Damon said
Caroline went upstairs to see her friend. She quickly came back down. "Bonnie's not in her room."
"She's not?" Stefan asked
"Where is she?" Caroline asked Damon.
Damon shrugged a shoulder. "She has to be somewhere in the house."
"I'll look for her." Stefan said and ran off in vampire speed. He came back after searching all through the house. "She's not in the house."
Caroline glared at Damon. "You were suppose to kept an eye on her while we were gone."
Damon rolled his eyes. "Did I say that I was going to keep an eye on her? She doesn't want anything to do with me."
Stefan frowned. "Did Bonnie tell you that she was going anywhere?"
"I don't know." Damon said "She hasn't talked to me since she tried to kill herself this morning."
"Bonnie tried to kill herself?" Stefan asked alarmed
Damon's lips pressed into a line. "She tried to burn herself in the sun."
This news upset Caroline. "Oh my God poor Bonnie."
Stefan glared at his brother. "Why did you tell us about this?"
"It didn't cross my mind." Damon said
"You don't think that someone that we care about trying to commit suicide is important for us to know?" Caroline asked him with anger.
Damon rubbed a hand over his face. "Perhaps I should have."
"Damn right you should have." Stefan said
"I have to go and find her.' Caroline said
Damon stepped in front of her. "Wait."
"Wait for what?" Caroline asked "Bonnie could be out there trying to hurt herself."
"Let me go and look for her." Damon said
Stefan's brow furrowed. "You sure that's a good idea? Bonnie is angry with you."
"I just turned her, I can track her down and find where she is." Damon told them.
Caroline let out a breath. "Okay but hurry and bring her back before morning time comes. She has no protection against the sun."
Damon grabbed his leather jacket and put on his shoes and went out looking for Bonnie.
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He found her in some old abandoned building in town walking up on a scene that was similar to the one he had seen in Interview with the vampire. Bonnie was in a sitting position leaning against the wall, dead rats with puncture wounds laid all around her feet. He counted at least about twenty dead rats that she had drunken from. She leaned against the wall looking sad and depressed.
Damon's eyes scanned over the dead rats before landing on her. "Drinking from rats Bennett , quite pathetic."
"What are you doing here?" Bonnie asked
"Looking for you." Damon stepped over the rat bodies and bent down until he was sitting on the wall next to her.
"How did you find me?" Bonnie asked him.
Damon looked over at her studying her face. She looked tried and sad like she hadn't gotten any rest. He felt something inside of her, it felt like sympathy he pushed it back down. "I can sense where you are."
Bonnie rolled her eyes. "Just great."
"You know that we have blood bags at the Salvatore house?" Damon gestured towards the dead rats.
Bonnie shook her head. "Those bags are filled with Human blood, I don't want to develop a taste for that."
Damon frowned. "You can control your hunger."
"I don't think that I can." Bonnie said expression grim.
"I can teach you how." Damon told her.
Bonnie stared ahead. "I don't want your help."
Damon let out a frustrated sigh. "I wasn't turning to turn you. I wanted to save your life."
"I know but it doesn't change that you turned me." Bonnie told him. "I can't just accept being this."
"You'll never forgive me?" Damon asked her
Bonnie glanced side ways at him. "I won't."
"Not surprising." Damon said
"Why didn't you let me kill myself?" Bonnie asked him
Damon was caught off guard by the question. "You're really being ungrateful…."
"Answer the question." Bonnie cut him off.
"I told you that I didn't try and save you just to let you commit suicide." Damon said
Bonnie looked at him. "After all of the mean and angry words that I said to you, why not just let me end my life?"
Damon's eyes scanned her face, her green tired and depressed filled eyes searching his for answers. "Ever stop to think that I might care about what happens to you?"
Those words surprised Bonnie, she didn't expect them to come from his mouth, At a loss for words she looked away.
"Let's get you back to the house." Damon told her. "This isn't a place you want to be when the sun rises."
Bonnie rode back in his car with him in silence.