Today is my coronation day, I am twenty one. I have to take position as queen to replace my mother. Princess lessons were long gone and queen lessons came into midst. I had to learn quickly of countless of countries, trades, who to trust, how to run the entire kingdom. My powers have been stubborn and I have not gained control. It was frustrating, I couldn't even touch anything, sometimes not even a quill as I wrote notes. But there was one person I can touch. Jack Frost.
"You'll be fine," Jack assured me, leaning on his hooked cane.
"It's easier said than done," I replied sheepishly. I heard Anna singing to herself in the hall, then slowly fading as she went down the stairs, then I remembered why I was decided to open the gates, it was for Anna. It's finally time to see her after so many years. I missed her. And I still do.
"I'll always be here, Elsa" Jack whispered lovingly into my cheek, with a small smirk, leaving a warm kiss against my skin before vanishing. Exhaling a breath I've been holding, I slowly walked to my window as I put on my gloves. The ships were anchoring and the people were slowly falling into the gates.
"Conceal, don't feel," I whispered with uncertainty while looking up at the painting of my father. I missed him so, he would know what to do in a situation like this. I picked up the a candle holder and a small music box Jack had given to me as practice for my coronation but only ice started to surround it. I quickly set them back down. I wasn't able to hold them too long. Jack doesn't know why my powers were being so difficult to control either. I wanted to cry, why can't I just, do a simple task without turning it to icy concrete? I placed my hands on my face with frustration. This wasn't fair, why did I get cursed with stupid powers. Then again, I wouldn't have met Jack. I wouldn't have seen him, some children see him, but most people don't. Anna doesn't even see him.
My hands were even were cold with the gloves on, my whole body is filled with such extreme iciness temperatures, yet I have not shivered once from it. One of the maids had come in to brush my platinum hair. I also wondered why I never had dirty blonde hair like my fathers, or dark brown like my mothers, or as well red like Anna's. They were all natural, even all around the kingdom, and yet mine is completely different. I also questioned if I was adopted, but I was not, Jack even told me and proved that I wasn't. Why am I so different? I just want to have control for once and not worry about it and as well be with my sister. I just want to talk to her without having the fear of striking her with ice again on accident. I don't want to let that happen again. Is someone testing me based on my entire life? Do they think it's a joke for them to suffer without being able to touch anyone?
The maid began to braid my hair and put it up into a neat bun. "There you are, my dear."
"Thank you, you are dismissed." I smiled to her. She curtsied and left without any other word. I clenched my hands by opening and closing them to feel the warmth but only greeted with ice sparkles seeping out. "nonono," I whispered to myself and exhaled quietly till they disappear.
"Relax," I told myself and stretched my limbs and stood up straight opening the doors as the guards stood near by.
"Guards.." I announced shakily, "Open the gates."
As they heard my command, all but two guards turned and marched toward the gates. The last two stayed by my side, escorting me throughout the castle. I felt my heads in my gloves begin to tremble, and the summer heat rising to my cheeks. A dry taste formed into my mouth and I heard the people chattering outside the gates, I was becoming more anxious with each step I took. I felt my fingertips become icy again with it's power losing control, I hissed at my hands to stop but I only got weird glances from the guards and I immediately stood back up straight. The maids of the castle stood on the sides of the carpet, waiting for me to pass by, looking pleased that they will have a queen soon to rule the country.
Jack swooped in, sliding on his bare feet against the red carped in the corridor. I wanted to sprint to him, but as I began I realized no one sees except for me, and a couple of children I restrained myself. As one of the children spotted Jack he nipped their nose and played with them. I couldn't help but smile at him, his head turned toward me and gave a wave. He floated over to the guard on my left, and imitated his marching in a goofy way. I put a hand to my mouth and giggled, another weird glance from the guard and I turned my head back straightforward and tried to be calm as I possibly could.
I heard Jacks husky laugh and floated in front of me, quickly putting his warm lips onto my nose and vanishing.
Not once since I met him, not a minuet has gone by without thinking about him. As I glanced back I felt anxious once again looking at the chapel.
I bit my bottom lip as I walked toward our pope who was waiting for me. The choir rose and began to sing with their lovely harmonic voices as I arrived the very front of the chapel to where the coronations staff and box I must hold.
I reached for them until the pope mentioned my gloves. I glanced at him and I opened my mouth to say no, but I slowly slid them off. They began to tremble more than usual, I wanted to protest but I felt arms come behind me. It was Jack. He put his warm hands onto of mine and helped me reach for the objects. "It's okay," he whispered calmly into my ear. Yet, I felt somewhat relaxed by his words. I wanted to pull back but he kept them going as I squeezed my eyes and helped me turned facing the crowd as I now being announced as queen. I turned to glance but my love was gone. I panicked, and felt the ice start to crystallize the pole and box. I quickly put them back onto their cushion and slid my gloves back on immediately and sighed with relief.
I made it.
I quickly left making my way out of the chapel with my citizens rising until I completely left the building. I was escorted once more to my room and finally let my shoulders sink. I gazed out my window toward the North Mountain, Jack and I haven't been there in years mainly because I can't squeeze out of queen lessons. I'm always busy and it's frustrating. And as well just as frustrating I can never get a peek on Anna anymore while she was growing up, I had to learn everything while she was learning princess lessons.
Then I remembered: Anna.
I turned to look around for Jack, but I knew he knew I've been waiting for this day. This day for my entire life, willing to see Anna, talk to Anna and be with Anna. I quickly exited my room and half-jogged toward the throne room to where the party where was to soon begin. I said my hellos, and how do you dos in the ballroom and finally reached to the the front of the throne room. A horn blew announcing my presence and I gracefully walked and faced the audience, eyes scanning for Anna. She was just coming in herself somewhat late, our adviser placing her next to my side. I nodded a thank you to him and he bowed at his welcomeness.
I was nervous, I played thumbs war with each other for the best thing I could say. Anna, looking just as sheepish as I was. "It's okay, Elsa." I felt Jack whisper behind me as he leaned on his cane.
"I'll walk you through it," I glanced at him and he shook his head, "don't look at me!" he floated behind me, hearing his mischivous laugh, "say hi to her!"
I cleared my throat quietly and spoke to my sister, "Hi."
" Oh hi, me?" Anna coughed nervously, "um, hi." she pushed a loose hair behind her ear. I smiled as Jack guided me.
"Say something nice," Jack spoke hovering over us, I resisted to turn my head up, mainly because I knew I would be technically looking at nothing to my guests.
"You look beautiful," I said to Anna who blinked and looked at me, it was the first time I made eye contact with her in years, and I had to say it was the best feeling in the world to be reunited with my sister once again.
"Thank you!" She exclaimed in excitement, "you look beautifuller!" She stopped to realized what she said and I couldn't help but smile even more. "I mean, not fuller, but you look more beautiful." She corrected herself and I leaned up my head to laugh and say thanks. I glanced to him for more guidance and he gladly did so, "Share your thoughts," And I thought at Jacks words. I didn't want to take too much time about it, then I remembered this was the first time we have ever used the ballroom.
"So this is what a party looks like," I mentioned to Anna.
"It's warmer than I thought," she responded concerned.
"And what's that the amazing smell?" I asked as her and I sniffed the hair together of the sweet scent of - "chocolate," we both said. We laughed together until the duke of Weasalton came in, approaching for a dance. I made an excuse, to where he had taken Anna for a dance instead for a joke, and she laughed shaking her head toward my way.
Jack stood next to me with his hooked cane with a crooked smile, the perfect smile he always had and always captivated me. "It's not that hard." And it wasn't. I felt such at ease with Anna, I wish I can always talk to her. Anna then came back from the dance fixing her feet, she was so beautiful.
"He was spritely," I told her giggling.
"Especially a man with heels!" she groaned fixing her heel standing next to me and Jack, even though she couldn't she him, I also wish she could.
"Are you okay?" I asked admiring her freckles across her cheeks.
"I've never been better," she said fumbling with her hands looking at me as if I were to disappear again, "this is so nice, I wish it could be like this all the time." she hoped.
"Me too," I said, but I remember why. That memory to where I hurt my sister, I had harmed her with the curse that I was born with.
Jack went toward me, "Elsa, don't push her aw-"
"but it can't." I told Anna. Why did I do that? This was my chance, why did I ruin my chance, I am so afraid to hurt her again. She stepped toward me to take my hand but I snatched them away and turned my back to her. Elsa, please turn around and say sorry, I thought, say sorry!
"It just can't." Elsa you're a coward. I could feel the atmosphere breaking. I could feel my heart breaking. All I wanted was just to be close to my sister, and I ruined it. Jack held my hands placing his forehead onto mine, and I wanted to cry and melt into him but I know that would look weird in front of the guests and the staff so I stayed up straight, containing my tears.
"Excuse me for a minuet." Anna spoke in distraught, leaving my side. I wanted to turn and call her back, but I just couldn't. I didn't have the guts to cause I'm a filthy coward. I heard her sniff, I glanced her way but I saw her dancing with someone, at least she was happy. Jack took my hands once again and sneak out of the ballroom. He held me using his power to make me float too, and we danced in the air. "She'll come talk to you again, I promise."
"I hope." I said burying my face into him. I know I had to go back to the ballroom and talk to the other guests but right now, Jack was the only one I wanted to talk to right now. He was the only one I could ever face, touch, smell, and taste. I felt his lips press into my hair and floated down to the ground, my feet touching to the ground. "I don't want to go." I told him and he sighed laughing slightly, peeling my glove and kissing my hand.
"I know I'm sorry," he spoke softly, "we'll go somewhere as soon as you're not busy I promise." He then vanished from me, and I went back to the ball room, pretending I was already making acquaintance with people.
I wish I can be with Jack and Anna without worry. And I hope I can make that true one day.