-Rio POV-

I don't remember what I was dreaming about, but it was vaguely nice. That was unusual. I only ever get nightmares. Usually true ones. I often wake up suddenly, scared and sweating and breathing hard and alone and I hate it because it makes me feel weak. But I didn't do that this time. I felt warm and safe and I wasn't scared of anything. I remember feeling like that sometimes when I was with Mosoroth, but he was gone.

I knew I'd have to open my eyes eventually, but I was reluctant. I didn't want this fragile happiness to disappear. Instead I took in my surroundings though my other senses- my dragon senses. I smelled pine forests and coffee, that one was strongest and closest. I smelled antiseptic and clean linens, that was probably the room I was in. I smelled freshly mowed grass and tea, presumably another person. There were other smells, but they were too faded to identify. Listening, I heard a rhythmic thumping. I didn't recognize the noise right away. Then I figured out that it was a heartbeat, likely a sleeping one by how slow it was. It was comforting, the sound of that heartbeat. It made me feel safe.

Slowly, I opened my eyes. It took me a moment to remember where I was. The infirmary at Fairy Tail. How strange, to be here of all places. The blue haired girl from before was curled up in the bed next to mine and fast asleep. She seemed nice. I think her name was Wendy, but I wasn't sure. Nobody had introduced themselves properly except the Master and he'd introduced himself as Master so I still had no idea what his name really was.

I moved my head, trying to get my bearings. Once I processed what I was seeing I flinched and let out a small 'eep'. I was staring at a very large, very muscular, very male and very close chest. I looked up. He was sitting upright, leaning against a mountain of pillows with his head knocked back so it took me a minute to recognize him, but I eventually identified that guy from before. His name was Laxus, right?

I was curled up on his lap, knees to my chest, with his arms wrapped around me. I shifted slightly, but then I realized that might wake him and I quickly stopped moving. What had happened? Wasn't I in a different bed before? Why would anyone willingly choose to be so close to me? ME of all people! Why would he be holding me?

I stopped asking questions when I realized something: I liked being held. It felt safe. I hadn't felt safe for a long time. It was nice. I relaxed back into Laxus and snuggled closer. It was like he was a giant teddy bear, not that I'd ever had a teddy bear, but I'd seen them and they looked so snuggly and nice. I smiled and went back to sleep. My last thought before I drifted off again was, So he's the one who smells of pine and coffee. It's a nice smell.

-Laxus POV-

It took me a while to wake up. The first thing I realized was that my neck hurt from sleeping at an awkward angle. Then I realized that the rest of my pain had gone down significantly. I now merely felt soar, like I'd overworked myself but hadn't done any real damage. It was surprisingly refreshing not to be in pain.

I noticed a small weight on my lap. Looking down, I saw Rio. She was smiling slightly in her sleep. It was good to see her smile, she hadn't before and I wasn't sure if she knew how. I couldn't help but notice how extremely small she was, especially compared to me and I didn't mean just in terms of height. Rio was far too thin. Despite the contented expression on her face, she had bags under her eyes and her cheeks were gaunt. I could feel her ribs digging into me slightly when she breathed. Rio hadn't been fed enough. Judging by how tired Wendy had been, she'd been forced to heal more injuries than just my bruises. Probably on Rio, ones I hadn't noticed when her body was fighting me. Earlier she'd been begging not to be hit.

I suppressed a growl. It sickened me that anyone could do such things to another human being. Sure, I liked fighting, but I never picked on the weak or abused anyone to such an extent. And to think that Rio's own mother… No. She was my aunt too, not that Rio knew that yet. I couldn't just pretend that Magda Malkovich had nothing to do with me. I wouldn't distance myself from her just because it was unpleasant. She may be no family of mine, Fairy Tail was my family after all, but I would not pretend that her actions were unrelated to me. Inevitably, I found myself thinking about my father. He was a power hungry dick, sure, but we were still related and he'd never been as horrible to me as Magda was to Rio. I mean, yeah, he was alway saying how I was weak and useless but in the end I had proved him wrong, taking out him and all of Raven Tail with him at the GMG. It hadn't even been that hard. Geez, what was it about my father's generation that made them turn out like assholes? First my father and now Rio's mother. Despicable.

I could understand the hunger for power, I could see where they were coming from in that sense, but to search so desperately that you were willing to kill for it? To put their own children through that kind of hell? This time I did let out a growl, low in my chest, but fortunately Rio slept through it. I couldn't help it. I was tough enough to take that kind of abuse, but Rio wasn't. She was too small and too fragile for something like that. Magda should have been protecting her, not hurting her. Rio and her brother… That was a sobering thought. I'd had a cousin that I would never meet. He was dead.

I took a deep breath. I noticed that Rio smelled of fresh rainfall and damp earth. It fit her quite nicely, as did the blue streaks in her hair. It hinted to her position as the water dragon slayer and matched her personality. Rio was shy, and she got scared easily of things and people that shouldn't be scary, but she was honest and kind. I'd seen that after my conversation with her about her past. Rio was carrying some heavy burdens, but I would protect her from them. It was only natural. I would protect her since no one in her life ever had before.

-Wendy POV-

Laxus was sitting up in bed, hugging Rio to his chest jealously, like someone might try and take her away from him. It was kind of cute to see the big, scary dragon slayer being so protective. I couldn't help but smile.

"Oh, Wendy, you're awake," he noticed.

"Yeah," I croaked out, rubbing my eyes. "How are you feeling?" I asked, "Are you still in any pain? Because if you hurt then Rio will still be hurting too and we shouldn't wake her. If you're not that means she should be okay too and we should get her some food. She needs to eat more."

"Well that's good," Laxus said, sounding relieved, "I'm feeling much better - this can barely even be called pain - but are you sure we should wake Rio? She still looks pretty much exhausted and I don't want her to freak if we wake her up and she misunderstands or something."

"Maybe you're right, we'll let her wake up on her own," I agreed, surprised that Laxus could be so considerate. I understand that his instincts are telling him to protect Rio, but it never occurred to me what might happen if we tried to wake Rio. He was more caring that I would have expected. "I will, however, be getting you some food. You missed dinner yesterday in all the commotion and I don't want you to starve to death."

He smiled at that, nodding. "Yeah, food would be good," he admitted.

-Mira POV-

Wendy came up to me, emerging from the Infirmary. Apparently she'd slept in there last night. That would explain why Charle had insisted on staying in the Guild and didn't return to Fairy Hills. She must have been worried about her partner. When Wendy ordered a mountain of food for breakfast, mostly consisting of meat, I couldn't help but give her a questioning look. Had she hit puberty all of a sudden and gained a dragon slayer's appetite?

"It's for Laxus" she explained seeing my expression. "He's already woken up. He's also feeling much better."

I nodded in understanding and went to prepare the food. I looked at Wendy, hesitating before handing over the food. I was reluctant to ask the girl, but I also felt that I had a right to know, at least a little bit. "Wendy?" I asked, "How is the girl?"

Wendy looked down and sighed. "I guess there's no point in keeping it a secret anymore, at least not after all that screaming you must have heard yesterday. About Rio," she paused but I didn't pressure her. I knew it wouldn't be something that someone so young would feel comfortable discussing. "She's been abused for years," Wendy said, staring at the floor. "I saw the physical evidence right away when I examined her yesterday and I healed what I could. The psychological damage isn't so easy to deal with though and I couldn't see it until she woke up. Rio is scared of basically everything, especially loud noises and people. That's why she flipped out yesterday, because so many people broke into the infirmary shouting. Before she freaked out though… she was in some kind of state of waking catatonia. I've never seen anything like it. I'd like to ask her about it when she wakes up, but I don't want to put her under more stress than necessary and I'm afraid asking might trigger it again. I don't know enough about how to deal with problems like this." She stopped talking. Wendy hadn't stopped staring gloomily at the floor the entire time she spoke and couldn't seem to meet my eyes. I think she felt guilty. Then her face brightened considerably as she got an idea. "Could you try and keep the guild as quiet as possible today, Mira? I don't want the noise getting into the infirmary and scaring Rio again."

I smiled, pleased that there was something I could do for the poor dear. "Of course! I'd love to." I looked down at my hands and realized that I still hadn't handed over Laxus's food. "Here, you should take this to Laxus while it's still hot."

"Thanks Mira!" she said taking the food. Her short arms made me think she should maybe take two loads but she managed somehow. "I'll see you later, okay?" she called over her shoulder.

"Good, I'll see you then," I promised. As I watched her go, I worried. It wasn't pleasant to worry but sometimes I couldn't help it. I had captured and interrogated Lucy yesterday afternoon after the screaming had started and she had explained about Laxus and Master's relation to Rio. And that made me worry, not just for Rio, but also for Laxus. How was he holding up with all these changes? Is he up to the challenge of caring for someone like Rio? She needed some serious TLC, that much was obvious. While I knew there were few places with as much 'Love' and 'Caring' as Fairy Tail, I couldn't help but question our ability to be 'Tender'. It was not usually a word that applied to us. Usually I thought our daily and sometimes twice-daily brawls were fun, but it wasn't a good environment for Rio to recover in if she was afraid of people and loud noises. I hoped that she would be okay.

After hearing her screams yesterday I had gone to bed only to have them return to me in my dreams. It had seriously scared me. And the worst part was that if I was that scared just listening to her scream then poor Rio must be even more scared than me to scream like that. I wanted to go to the girl and pull her into a hug, but Master had forbidden entry to the infirmary without permission and Rio would probably be scared being hugged by someone she didn't know. I sighed. I got the feeling it would be a long day.

-Laxus POV-

When Wendy came back with the food the smell alone made my stomach growl. Mira's cooking had always been the best, and I hadn't eaten since yesterday so I couldn't help it. Unfortunately, the noise seemed to wake Rio. She didn't seem scared through, just confused. She sniffed the air and her stomach growled too. I laughed, but she paled.

"T-that wasn't me!" she stammered. She looked afraid.

"It's okay," I assured her. "Half the food's for you anyway." The looks she gave me made me feel both depressed and angry for different reasons. Rio was confused, then when she it dawned on her that I was serious, she became surprised and alarmed. I even saw suspicion flit across her face, which she had to forcibly suppress. It hurt a little that she didn't trust me, but I had to put myself in her shoes. She'd probably never had a decent meal in her life and now some stranger said he'd share with her. I wasn't really a stranger, but she didn't know that. She'd been asleep while we were talking about that so she didn't know. That was going to be an awkward conversation. I could kind of understand why Gramps had never told me. Until yesterday, it would never have mattered.

While I was lost in thought Wendy had set up a collapsible table next to the bed and piled on the plates. "Alright," she said, apparently happy that Rio had woken up and was going to eat something, "Mira made omelets, bacon, sausages, potatoes, toast, chocolate chip pancakes, waffles, and cereal. You can take your pick or just have some of everything," she seemed to be mostly talking to Rio, confirming that she could eat without consequence, "Oh, and there's both coffee and OJ, so you can take your pick."

Rio looked slightly overwhelmed, but happy about it, like she didn't quite understand why this was happening but certainly wouldn't complain that it had. The smell of food was calling me, so I started eating and nudged Rio to do the same. She tried some of everything and then looked ready for seconds, which Wendy brought without being asked. I was glad Rio was eating. She was too thin. Wendy seemed pleased too. I realized that she hadn't eaten either and gestured for her to dig in which she did happily, though she didn't eat more than a normal human.

-Rio POV-

Did I understand why I was allowed to eat so much good food? Nope. Was I complaining? No way in hell. I didn't want to miss this opportunity. I don't think I'd ever felt quite so happy. That safe feeling still hadn't left me, even though I was fully awake now. There was so much food and the people I was with smelled safe and they didn't seem to want to hurt me. It was really nice and I refused to compare it to other memories. I didn't want darker thoughts ruining this moment for me.

My instincts told me that I could trust these people, and, despite a scared little voice at the back of my mind, I decided to listen to them. I trusted my brother and that had been worth it. I'd trusted Mosoroth, which hadn't ended well, but bought me at least a brief window of happiness. The voice in the back of my head didn't want to trust anybody, didn't want to get hurt again like I had when Mosoroth left me or Ray died, but I didn't listen. Even just a little happiness was better in the end, right? I think I said something like that to Laxus yesterday, and I had really thought about it. Was it better to be alone forever or to be happy for a short time and brokenhearted for the rest of my life? I would choose happiness.

I was still scared. Scared of getting hurt. Of being alone. Of what might happen. But I didn't want to be. My memories of being strong and rebellious, before it was beaten out of me and my brother, have always been a source of pride. I wanted to feel that way again. I wanted to fight back when someone called me names and kick open doors for the hell of it and break things without being afraid of everything. I used to feel like that all the time. When I wasn't so scared of the consequences, I used to be like that too. I hadn't even noticed that the temptation had disappeared until just now. It had become automatic for me to obey and conform and to shut up and take it and to cower and fear. I wanted my old self back. And I couldn't help but hope that these people would help me. That Fairy Tail would help me.

-Freed POV-

I came into the guild early today to see- I came early because I felt like it.

"Good morning, Mira," I greeted her as I came in. As always she was already behind the bar. "Have you heard how Laxus is doing?" I asked. I couldn't help but be worried about him. He meant a lot to me and I was concerned last night when Wendy said that he would be in a lot of pain when he woke up.

"Wendy says he's doing much better today and I've already sent him two mountains of food so that means he still has his appetite. Master is still saying no visitors in the infirmary through after everything that happened yesterday. Only Wendy's allowed in, and that's just because she's needed for healing. Master is being very protective."

"I understand his reasoning," I said, "I just hope that Laxus will recover soon."

"Me too," Mira agreed, "Him and Rio."

"Rio?" I asked. "Are you talking about that girl who was possessed before?"

"Yes, you left early yesterday so you missed it," Mira informed me. "She had a panic attack yesterday when Team Natsu and a few others broke into the infirmary demanding answers. It was horrible. I could hear her screaming and-" Mira set down the glass she'd been cleaning and hugged her arms across her chest. "It was horrible," she said, "She went on about how she didn't want to be hit and she kept apologizing, it was horrible, like she was practically begging for her life." She shook her head. "I can't imagine what that girl's been thought to be so scared. I know Natsu and the others aren't the quietest, but they would never hurt her."

Seeing how concerned she was I quickly changed the subject. "Why did they break into the infirmary?" I asked. "Did Natsu challenge Laxus to a fight again?" I added suspiciously, "It would be cowardly to attack a man in his weakened state!"

Mira's smile returned and she laughed slightly. "No, that's not it," she said. "Apparently they were spying on a conversation between the Master and Laxus. And do you know what they heard?" she leaned forward conspiratorially. "Apparently Rio is the daughter of a mage named Magda. And Magda was Master's second child. Which makes Rio…"

My eyes widened in understanding. "She'd be Laxus's cousin," I realized, "And Master's granddaughter."

"Exactly!" Mira nodded and returned to cleaning her glass. "So you can see why Natsu and the others freaked out. They don't react well to surprises…" Mira's voice trailed off and her frown returned. "Apparently neither does Rio," she muttered.

I fought the urge to put a hand on her shoulder and lost. "I'm sure the girl will be fine," I said, though I honestly had no idea. "Anyone related to Laxus and the Master is bound to be strong." She shivered under my hand.

"You didn't hear how scared she was, Freed," she whispered, looking down. "I honestly had nightmares last night over how terrified she sounded. I'm really worried about the girl."

"Don't be," I tried to reassure her. "She has Laxus. I'm sure Rio will be fine."

Mira looked up and smiled at me. "Thanks Freed," she said. It made my heart warm a little.

-Lucy POV-

I groaned as I pulled myself up to the bar. "Mira?" I whined. She set a milkshake down in front of me before I even finished asking.

"I know," she said, "here. This will make you feel better."

I actually managed a small smile. My stomach was still hurting from where Laxus had punched me yesterday. I still can't believe he did that. I mean he was possessed and all, but it was hard to believe that a mage as strong as Laxus could just get controlled so easily. I mean, I know Master had said that it was impossible to resist but I still had trouble actually believing that. I occurred to me how much of an ego blow Laxus must have taken after being defeated by a necklace. I snorted over my milkshake.

Then I wondered how Laxus was taking the news about having a cousin. Was he happy about it? I just hoped he didn't reject her. She really needed someone to be there for her and it would help for it to be someone related to her by blood. Then again, everyone in Fairy Tail is family. No matter what, we had already decided to be there for her. I had already decided to take her shopping when she felt up to it and I hadn't even heard her name yet. I smiled to myself. Yeah. The girl would be alright.

I was startled to realize that Laxus had emerged from the infirmary. "Hey Mira," he said, "could you get me some more food?"

Mira smiled and laughed as she went to get it. "You already ate a mountain of it this morning!" she said. "I would think even you would be full by now."

"Nah, Rio ate half of it," he waved her off. "The girl's got an appetite like any other dragon slayer, that's for sure."

"Rio's the girl right?" I asked, turning to him, "She's a dragon slayer too?"

He looked at me, apparently surprised that I was sitting there, like he hadn't noticed me. "Yeah," he said, "she is."

"Oh? What element is she?" Mira asked.

"Water."

"Isn't that great?" Mira said happily, "Now our guild has another dragon slayer!"

"I am absolutely not letting her out on missions," Laxus said firmly, quickly cutting off whatever daydreams Mira was getting into. "Definitely not. At least not yet," he amended, "She's much too fragile right now."

Mira and I 'aww'ed at the same time. Laxus looked at us like we were crazy. "That's just so sweet," I said. "So you like her, huh?"

Laxus looked confused. "Of course I do. She's my cousin." That only made me and Mira 'aww' again.

"Anyway," Laxus said, changing the subject, "I just came out real quick to make sure that everyone's okay. Wendy said that nobody got hurt but I just wanted to be sure."

"Well that's not true," I informed him irritably, "You punched me in the gut, like, really hard. And it really freaking hurt! I went home yesterday and had a giant bruise all across my stomach! I'm just glad that I crashed into Droy and not something dangerous like a wall or Erza." Laxus sighed in relief. I could see how worried he'd been, but I wasn't letting him off the hook that easily. "And I'm pretty sure you hit Bixlow in the face!" I added indignantly.

Laxus started smiling at my outburst. "I'm glad everyone's okay," he said. Apparently me being punched in the gut and sent flying across the room didn't count as getting hurt and I'll admit, by Laxus's standards that wasn't much. Laxus stopped smiling suddenly, head swiveling around. He pushed back from the bar and quickly marched toward the infirmary door without saying anything to either of us.

"What was that about?" I asked.

Mira frowned. "Dragon hearing," she muttered. "Something must be wrong with Rio again.

My eyes widened and I stared at the door.

-Rio POV- -Some Time Ago-

Wend left to go talk to someone named Charle. Apparently they were friends. I tried to understand that. Charle would probably worry about her friend. At least I think a friend would do that. I couldn't be sure. I was a tiny bit jealous, but I suppressed it. Of course Wendy had friends besides me. Anyone would. Then Laxus left too. He said he'd be back in a minute and that he just wanted to check and be sure that he really hadn't hurt anybody while he was possessed. And I understood that, really I did. I remember times when I'd wake up in pain and terrified because there was blood on my hands. I could never remember where it was from or what I'd done or who I'd hurt or if I might have killed anybody, but I would be scared and sometimes I'd hate myself. The only way for me to get the blood off my hands when I was chained up in that room had been to lick it clean, which was horrible and disgusting, but it was better than having dried blood on my hands. It was hard to get blood out from under my nails.

I looked up then and realized that I was alone. I had a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. No, no Laxus said he'd be right back. No, I wasn't going to be left alone. No. I hadn't been abandoned. Not this again. I don't want to remember!

I was crying in the woods, stumbling around blindly, not paying attention to where I was going. "Mosoroth!" I screamed, my voice cracking, "Mosoroth where are you? I don't want to be alone again! Please come back! I'm sorry! Whatever I did I'm sorry! Please don't leave me alone! I don't want to be alone!" But he didn't come back. Because he was gone.

I stumbled into a town, still calling for him, tears pouring down my face. Some people just stared at me. Some told me to shut up and be on my way. Nobody offered to help. I was only dimly aware of them. I didn't care what these cruel humans had to say to me. It didn't matter.

A hand closed around my wrist. I turned to see who it was. My mother. Lady Magda. In the flesh. I was horrified. What was she doing out in a town in broad daylight? Why was she here? She smiled at me smugly. Then she issued an order. I hadn't noticed them, but the others were there as well. "Destroy it all," she ordered. "I don't want a single male soul to leave this place alive. If any women fight back or try to defend a male then kill them too. They're beyond saving."

I was trembling. I tried to run, too scared of what would happen if I lashed out with my magic, but my mother's grip was like iron. There was no getting away. I couldn't get away and I was scared. My mother grabbed my jaw and turned my head to see what was happening in the town. I squeezed my eyes shut, but I could still hear the screams. "Don't close your eyes," my mother ordered. I didn't open them. "Don't make me threaten you," she warned, "I will carry out my threats, I just don't want to be bothered to think up what will scare you at the moment." I opened my eyes. And I watched.

Archana waved her long, pointed fingers and her spiders swarmed over someone and I saw him writhe on the ground as they bit him and I saw him die. Iuliae cast a spell and I saw a magic circle appeared under a man's feet. I saw him scream in pain when she snapped her fingers I saw his arm snap backwards. I saw it happen again. I saw them lay waste to the entire town. I saw so many people die. And when it was over my mother knelt next to my ear and whispered, "I'm so glad you survived, Rio. It was so tiresome searching for a suitable puppet. You always did fit me so nicely, like it was meant to be." She let out a very evil sounding giggle. Most people wouldn't think giggles could be scary, but my mother had perfected a scary giggle. "Do you know why it's so funny?" I didn't answer. "It's because you came to me. All by yourself. It was fate. You were meant to be my puppet forever." She stroked my face. I couldn't move. I still hadn't managed to look away from the carnage, from the corpses. I think a tear may have fallen from my eye but I couldn't tell. "I'm so glad it was you that came back. My pretty little puppet. I do so hate wearing ugly faces, but yours is so much like mine. I won't ever let anyone hurt that pretty face."

The memory left me. I was shaking. I curled up into a ball and started rocking back and forth. I tried to suppress a sobb. I lifted a hand to claw at my face. I hated it. I hated looking like her. I hated my blood. I hated my family. I hated it so damn much. But I hated myself above everything. "No!" I said aloud, but it was no more than a strangled whisper. "No, no I don't want to be. I don't want to be alone! I don't want to be here! I was supposed to die too! Why can't I just die?"

Laxus slammed the door open and I jumped backwards. He looked angry. I think I trembled even harder. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." He slams the door behind him, more quietly this time but I still flinch back. Laxus marches over to the bed and pulls me into his lap. I'm still shaking and I can feel tears falling and my head is spinning. I'm scared.

-Laxus POV-

Damnit! I turn my back for one stinking minute and she's already like this. The worst thing about it is that this is my fault for leaving her alone. And there's nobody I can punch. I'm used to the kind of problems that I can just punch or electrocute and they'll go away. But Rio didn't have that kind of problem. I couldn't punch it and make it go away. So I did what I could.

She was still shaking and crying as I held her. "It's okay," I told her. "It's okay, I'm here. Nobody's going to hurt you." I promised. It took her a while to calm down. I just kept stroking her back and telling her it would be okay. It seemed to help. Once her shaking had finally subsided I asked her what happened. Rio looked up at me and started shaking again as she tried to make herself speak. I hugged her face to my chest. "It's okay. You don't have to look at me," I told her, "Just tell me what's wrong."

She took a shaky breath. "I'm sorry. It was just a flashback. There's nothing wrong." Rio's voice sounded painfully small.

I growled. "It's definitely not alright if you're this scared," I told her. "I won't leave you alone anymore, will that help?" she nodded against my chest slowly.

"I'm sorry," she muttered sleepily. "I didn't mean to. It just happens sometimes. I'm sorry." I think she fell asleep then. I sighed and lay back down on the bed, keeping Rio in my arms and pulling the blankets over her. She seemed to have a habit of falling asleep after she cried. I think it wore her out. I sighed. I had meant to say hi to the Raijinshuu while I was out there so they wouldn't panic but my visit had been cut short. I didn't blame Rio thought. I should have made sure Wendy was with her before I left, then maybe this wouldn't have happened. I should have known Rio would get scared being left alone in a strange place. She still didn't quite trust us yet and I couldn't blame her.

What had she meant when she'd said it was 'just a flashback'? It obviously wasn't 'just' anything. I wondered if the same thing had happened yesterday when she was under the bed. If I had come back sooner would I have seen her sitting with her eyes wide open and breathing fast like Wendy had described last night? How often did things like this happen? I held Rio a little closer to my chest. I wanted to protect her but I couldn't protect her from her own mind.

I sighed. I just didn't know how to help Rio yet. I would talk to someone tomorrow, possibly Wendy or Gramps, and get advice. I didn't like the idea of swallowing my pride like that, but for Rio I was willing.