© 2010 JMC0124
Here I am, for now, Im really sorry for the super slow update, my USB flash drive got broken so I have to do chapter 4 again… when it was already finished, apparently, another virus destroyed all my files… So in short, this is the 3rd time Im writing chapter 4, even though every time I write this, it changes since I actually have to think this all over again since I type my stories straight from my mind into my laptop.
In fact, this chapter would less be interesting since Im making this one in a hurry since I still have lots of things to do such as Study, Study and Study… but all in all hope you enjoy this… I did my best anyway to improve this chapter, anyway, I already have chapter 5 being started, I hope I can finish it early... Im still deciding whether to make this a Happy plot for both of them or a Tragic/Sad story for either Naruto or Sasuke... any suggestion!
And also, about this chapter, I've been thinking of this plot for a while so I hope you like it… this is my way to take revenge for Sasuke when he left Konoha… Just read this FanFic and you'd understand what I mean…
Well, Im "Hoping" that you won't get bored with this one… Im really sorry for the slow update, I blame all the computer Virus in the world that kept on messing with my files... That's why I kept repeating chapter 4 three times... Hope you like this!
Disclaimer: Naruto is drawn and written by a talented manga artist Masashi Kishimoto. (Someone I really have no Idea is), and in addition to that, the only thing I own here is the Plot that I thought of…
Story Prompt: A storm appeared in Konoha; and suddenly Naruto was afraid of it
Rating: Anyone above 14
Frustration and Obsession
A Sasunaru FanFiction
Chapter IV: Memories and Regrets
Sasuke was deeply concerned with the Blond, but he didn't know what to do, he wanted to hold his Blond but he was unsure since it may just make things worse, but as he realized Naruto's reaction while looking at the window, something occurred within his thoughts
Naruto only began panicking when the Storm suddenly appeared…
His eyes we're filled with fear as he saw the rain pour down…
I-Is N-Naruto afraid of the…
RAIN !
The Raven immediately ran towards the window and closed off the curtain even though he was not sure of his conclusion, "Darn It, what's going on with Naruto!", Sasuke whispered to himself as he turned away from the window and ran towards the Blond.
As soon as the Raven was in front of him, the Blonde raised his head up and stared at Sasuke, and utter something in low voice, "Thanks for doing that..."
Sasuke was still in confusion, but seeing Naruto's eyes being less filled with fear and now filled with comfort, the Raven immediately got somewhat relieved and kneed down in front of the Blond, "Are you alright now Dobe?"
The Blond slowly shook his head and jolted himself to hug the Raven, who was in front of him and whispered, "Thank you for being here with me Sasuke-Kun."
Sasuke was surprised and was pushed back on the floor by the weight of the Blond, "Dobe, get away from me, you're too heavy!", the Raven was also thinking deep inside his thoughts
So, it was really the rain…
It was the rain that made him like that…
My Naruto, what happened when I was gone!
Why did he become like this!
I really need to know; I must know!
Darn it!
What's with the Rain that could have made him panic like this!
The Raven tried to look at Naruto who was on top of him and the blonde's head on his chest, "Usuratonkachi! I told you that you're heavy, move aside will 'ya!", seeing no response, the Raven gently flipped the blond to the floor and saw that Naruto was asleep, "Dobe, do I look like a pillow!", Sasuke smirked and thought to himself
Well, I won't mind being your Pillow Naruto…
As long as you'll let me make love with you everynight…
Well I guess I have no choice to bring you to your bed...
You really are troublesome, your lucky that I love you Dobe...
The Raven immediately placed his arm on Naruto's back and the other was on the Blonde's leg, then he carried him before sighing, "You look so defenseless, are you trying to piss me off by making me lose control!", Sasuke stood up while carrying the Blond on his arm then walked slowly towards Naruto's room and whispered something almost unaudible, "It's weird, but you still have the same scent all those years from the day I met you..."
Naruto was lying in his bed sleeping calmly and relaxed and the Raven was sitting on the opposite side of the bed while staring at the Blond as he whispered something to the sleeping Blond, "I love you so much that I couldn't take the thought of you suffering like that again, I must find out what happened all those years when I was not with you."
The Raven's mind was filled with intense desire to know what happened to the Blond, and as soon as he was about to stand up; he suddenly heard a low voice, "Sa-Sasuke, please don't go… Why d-do you al-always leave me...", Sasuke immediately looked at Naruto and saw that the blonde's face can be traced with sadness as he talked on his sleep and tears where slowly forming in his closed eyes.
"Even in your dreams you don't trust me Dobe?", the Raven's voice was filled with concern and sincerity he then wiped the Blond's tears that was forming; he then placed his hands on top of Naruto's forehead and pushed his hair upward, "Haven't I promised that I will never leave you again, so please Trust me?", Sasuke then placed his lips on the side of Naruto's right eye then he kissed the Blonde's forehead gently as to not wake up the Blond before standing up and leaving the room,
Sasuke changed his clothe, he is now wearing an orange sweatshirt, almost similar to the one the Blond usually wear but his pants was made of denim, the Raven was already prepared to set out and go talk to the Hokage about the Blonde's condition, he first tried to listen if the rain had already stopped since all the curtains we're closed, he cannot see through the window, "I guess the rain had just stopped for now, even if Naruto suddenly wakes up without me around, guess he won't panic like what he did earlier…", the Raven gave a short sigh before walking slowly towards the door until suddenly…
"Naruto-kun! Naruto-kun! Naruto-kun!", someone was shouting outside the Blonde's apartment, "Naruto-kun, are you there!" followed by continuous loud knocks on the door, the Raven suddenly got pissed off rather than getting confused of who was on the door because Sasuke was more concerned that Naruto might wake up from the noise…
Sasuke was about to open the door, until the person knocking and shouting introduced herself, "Naruto-kun, its fine, open the door, its me Shizune, are you alright!", hearing this the Raven quickly opened the door and he saw Shizune breathing deeply and soaked wet from the rain as if she was running in the rain for a while…
"What is it Shizu-", the Raven was interrupted as Shizune spoke in a rush, "-ruto!", Shizune breathe deeply again before continuing, "How's Naruto-kun! Is he alright! was he in that state again?"
Sasuke, after hearing this realize that this is all because of the Blonde's condition why Shizune came and looked so worried about Naruto, "What do you mean by that state?"
Shizune then walked closely towards the door ignoring the Raven's question, "I must see Naruto-kun right away, first things first, Naruto-kun's condition. how is it?"
Darn it! I must know what Shizune is talking about...
I must know what's the condition of Naruto is...
Fuck! I will know everything, I swear!
The Raven's thought was immediately stopped as Shizune was looking at him waiting for his reply ,"His fine for now…", Sasuke said slowly and calmly to Shizune; and even before she could reply, the Raven suddenly asked her, "Wha-", the Raven stopped and clenched his fist then utter his question to Shizune, "What happened to Naruto! Why did he became like this!"
Shizune was quite surprised with the Raven's questions, "I assume Naruto hadn't told you anything yet, I mean… why he became like this; I'll tell you everything, but first I have to check Naruto's vitals, it's a direct order of Lady Tsunade.", Shizune entered the door pass through the Raven then she uttered something again, "May I also borrow a change of clothes, I hurriedly went here even though it was raining; as soon as we noticed the rain, Lady Tsunade immediately told me to go here and check up on Naruto's condition."
"Sure, there are some extra clothes in the cabinet beside the sofa, anything there would do.", the Raven said as he closed the door softly trying to lessen the noise; he was thinking to himself
This is a good opportunity right, I didn't have to go to the Hokage's office, I could now ask Shizune about what happened to Naruto…
And what was it that Naruto hadn't mentioned to me yet!
I need to know; I really need to know what happened to my beloved Naruto!
The Raven was now filled with the desire to know the truth, to learn everything about Naruto that he still doesn't know, he was in extreme focus with his thought of knowing the Truth
Sasuke was sitting on the couch waiting for Shizune to come out of Naruto's room, he was in deep thought, thinking why the Blond was afraid of the rain.
The medical ninja came out of Naruto's room and the Raven immediately jolted up and asked Shizune with a panicked voice, "How's Naruto, is he alright now! Will this happen again! Tell me Shizune what happened to him…"
Shizune then replied to Sasuke using a calm voice, "Calm down Sasuke, he's alright… for now", Sasuke then sat down on the couch with Shizune and discussed about the Blonde's condition.
After both have seated down the Raven uttered, "What do you mean by for now? Will this happen again to him, why? You must tell me…"
Shizune gave a long sigh and looked down on the floor for a moment, she then tilted her head and looked as Sasuke who was filled with anxiety before she said something, "Well, I guess this could be consider an improvement", the Raven was simply quiet, he doesn't wanna talk right now, all he wants to do was listen to what the medical ninja has to say; Shizune then gave a weak smile to Sasuke before she continued to talk about the situation, "It seems he was quite relaxed right now, I guess being with you contributed to that fact; he's sleeping, meaning he feels somewhat safe, I assume its all thanks to you.", Shizune then turned around and looked at the door of the Blonde's room, "He usually panics and cries all day long during rainy days even when me or even Lady Tsunade is with him, but now, he seems a lot calmer than usual."
Sasuke was puzzled with Shizune's compliment to him, he then breathed deeply and asked her, "Does this mean he'd been acting like that whenever it is raining? Why the hell does he act that way, what happened when I was not in Konoha?", Sasuke's voice was filled with intensity and at the same time sincere.
Hearing those questions asked by the Raven made Shizune realize that Sasuke really cares about the Blond, she the smiled a bit, "You really do care about him, don't you Sasuke-kun?"
Shizune gave a small sigh this time, she looked a bit doubtful, then she stared down the small table in front of the couch where she was sitting down, "Did you know, I mean… about Naruto's state was because you left him… actually, Im not sure if I should be the one to tell you this matter, and there's a probability that Hokage-sama may get angry at me, but if you want, I could tell you everything you need to know…", the Raven knew that what Shizune was about to say is confidential, but he really wanted to know so he replied and nodded at Shizune.
Shizune sat down more properly and placed her hands on her lap before she continued talking, "It was very hard for Naruto after you left, he became stubborn in choosing missions, he always wanted to take up missions that may involved you, he was very desperate in finding you…", Shizune then stood up and walk towards the window and tried to peek out by opening the curtain, "...and even if a mission did involve you, it sometimes rain, because of that, he wasn't allowed to go on mission during rainy seasons because of his current state… do you know what was the consequence of that!"
The Raven tried to utter something in a low and wondering voice, "Did it made him more depressed not being able to go on missions!"
Shizune then turned around away from the window and looked as at Sasuke, "Well, it was not the major concern, the real problem was his thought that he couldn't be the next Hokage anymore since he couldn't attend any missions; his dreams are being shattered day by day as time goes on, aside from that fact, he also doesn't eat regularly anymore because he doesn't earn any much anymore because his missions are quite limited in his case."
The Raven immediately tried answering back, "If that's the case, doesn't you, or Lady Tsunade, Sakura or even Kakashi-sensei just bring him food?"
Shizune then walked towards the sofa and sat down again before she answered back, "He doesn't want to accept anything we try to give him, he told us that he doesn't want to be a nuisance to anyone… Naruto's life became very difficult… Not many knew this, it was a request from Naruto, he didn't want people to pity on him…"
Sasuke was getting pissed and angry knowing what his Blond went through while he was away, he was getting mad at himself for leaving the Blond, he then asked again, "So this was all because of his fear of the rain right? Then tell me Shizune… why!"
Shizune uttered, "It all begun the day you left Konoha and Naruto pursued you together with Shikamaru, Neji, Choji and Kiba; do you still remember that day when you left?", Sasuke was quite confused why Shizune opened that topic, but he just nodded and kept on listening to what Shizune was saying, "That was the day Naruto had his Phobia of the Rain…", Sasuke's eyes got shut wide opened because of the shock, he was still unsure why, so he kept quite and let Shizune continued what she was saying, "You had a battle with Naruto that day right, he fainted afterwards from consuming too much chakra, Am I correct Sasuke? That was the information we gathered about that incident, you left him alone in that valley after your battle while it was raining… When Naruto woke up, he was already like this… Its because of you…"
Sasuke's faced was puzzled, even his thoughts was getting more confused, the only thing he was sure of, was that his heart is beating a lot faster, he held his right hand and took hold of the front of his shirt before he told his question to Shizune, "Wha- What d-do you mean by that?"
"After you left him, it was a big mental shock to Naruto, his emotions became unstable; after he woke up after your battle, he cried and cried and panicked a lot, after that day, everytime it rained, he acted that way… Lady Tsunade decided to perform one of her Medical Jutsu to see why Naruto was like that, we discovered out that the rain was a constant reminder to him of how painful it was… of how much pain he felt when you left Konoha."
Sasuke suddenly clenched his both his fist, he also bit his lower lips as his eyes flowed solely with tears, his mind kept telling him that this was all his fault…
Naruto suffered almost everyday because of me…
This was all my fault why he ended like that…
It was me who ruined his life…
It was… It was…
How could I even say that Im the one who loved him the most if Im the one who actually 'caused all his pain all those years…
Shizune kept quite and utter a small whisper, "Sasuke-kun, Im not in any position to say this but... you don't have to blame yourself, Im sure you never wanted this to happen.", the Medical Ninja then stood up, "Sasuke, I'd believe I should leave now, please take care of Naruto", she then went towards the door and left the apartment.
Sasuke was still deep in his thought until he stood up and walked towards the wall and pressed both his hand upon it, he then shouted to himself, "It was me… It was me who made Naruto lived a life of Hell, If I knew this would happen, I should have just tried to forget about my revenge!", he then hit his head on the wall over and over again, the wall had gotten blood stain and his sight became red because of the blood caused by hitting his head on the wall, his tears and blood mixed together and flowed through his face up to the collar of what he was wearing; Sasuke then stopped and fell onto the floor and whisper to himself while he was sobbing, "Naruto… Im sorry, I really am… plea-please forgive me, please forgi-", the Raven was then interrupted.
"Stop it!", Sasuke suddenly moved his eyes and tried to look at where the voice came from, he saw the Blond looking at him, his eyes was filled with concern and worry as he looked at him.
The Raven turned his eyes away and said slowly, "Naru- Naruto… Wou- Would you please forgive me… I-I kno-know it may be impossible but…", the Raven wasn't able to finish his statement because Naruto suddenly hugged him from behind…
"Sasuke-teme, shut up alright, please don't blame yourself for what had happened to me, I heard your conversation with Shizune; and Im telling you that I never blamed you even once for what had happened… we're bestfriends right? I guess that's reason enough for me to trust you that you never wanted this to happen to me…"
Sasuke then turned around and answered back, "Bu-But it was all my fau-fault..."
The Blond just smiled back and continued to what he was saying, "No it isn't, Its not your fault alright, so please... just please don't blame yourself like your doing right now, It pains me to see you in that state especially now that we had just reunited.", the Blond then tightened his hug and whispered softly, "...and don't sob will 'ya, It's freaky, It doesn't suit you at all…", Naruto was then laughing weakly and helped the Raven to stand up from the floor…
Sasuke then smiled as he wiped his eyes with his sleeves, "Thanks for being so understanding, I can't believe how lucky I am to meet someone like you… Dobe!", he then chuckled softly
Naruto replied, "Teme! You are indeed a lucky person because of me, for that you have to cook dinner tonight, and make sure it would taste good alright?", the Blond then took a small piece of cloth in his pocket, "Here, use this to wipe the blood of your head, let me just get the First Aid kit..."
The Raven then smiled as he looked at Naruto who was walking towards the other room where the First Aid kit is located.
Sasuke was now sitting on a wooden chair waiting for the Blond to change his clothes, his mind was wandering and he still kept blaming himself for what had happened to Naruto, as he was still deep in his thought
This is the right Time...
I must tell him now what I really feel for him...
or maybe I should wait a little longer...
What! What should I do to ease the pain I 'caused him...
The Raven's focus was broken from a sudden yell from the Blond, "Sasuke-teme! I guess we should just stay here for today since its almost 5:00pm, its quite not right for you to go out in public and meet our old friends…", Naruto then gave a big grin to Sasuke who was still sitting, "Let's just visit them by tomorrow, alright?"
Naruto was about to walk to the other room when all of a sudden, Sasuke pulled the Blonde's arm and hugged him tightly, before the Blond could complain, the Raven suddenly kissed Naruto on his forehead, "Even though you told me not to blame myself, Its quite impossible for me to do that…", Naruto then tilted upward and looked at the Raven who was talking, "…so from now on, Im gonna take care of you with all my heart, I'll protect you and I won't anyone hurt you ever again; I promise you that, so please be at ease from now on."
Naruto suddenly spoke while still inside both of the Raven's arms, "Sasuke-teme, I told you that you don't have to do anything like that, I never blamed you, Its fine for m-", he was suddenly kissed by Sasuke on his lips, the Blonde's eyes widened with shock since he was not expecting anything like that from the Raven.
The Blond then pushed himself away from Sasuke and then he shouted irritatedly, "Bastard! What was that all about, why did you that!", Naruto was very confused to why Sasuke suddenly kissed him, his question was immediately answered…
"Its because I love you Dobe, not just as friends or brothers… I want us to be… I want us to be more than friends… I want you to be my Lover…", Sasuke turned his head towards another direction while blushing as he continued his confession, "I want you to Love me the same way how much I love you, I want you to be always by my side at all times, I want us to be together, I promised I'd protect you…"
Naruto's brain suddenly stopped functioning from what he just heard, It was all too sudden, he never expected that Sasuke would one day confessed about Love to him… He walked a few stepped backwards before he fell onto the floor, his mind was in a trance of confusion, his heart was beating faster and faster and it was getting quite hard to breathe, his body begun feeling hotter and hotter, and his eyes was still staring at the Raven who was standing in front of him.
"Hey Dobe, didn't you hear me… I said that I LOVE YOU"