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When I woke up I had slept for almost an hour, but it was already 6:30 am, I didn't know what to do so I got up from bed and put some clothes on. I went down the stairs and sat down in the kitchen, it would taste really good with some of Peetas cheese buns that morning, but I really couldn't ask for them. I just sat there by the table thinking about last night, he took the news about Gale a lot better than I thought; he just left, without a word.

I wondered what Karen was thinking when he got back home tonight. But right at that moment, it really didn't matter. I looked out the window and saw that it would be good weather that day. It was sunny, and the birds were singing. I rose up from my place and left went upstairs, I searched through all my things before I found what I was looking for; my dad's hunting jacket and my hunting boots, I put them on and started walking towards the woods, this would be the first time in years I would feel completely free. When I came in to the forest I relaxed, I could do what I wanted out here, I walked a bit until I found the old tree with my bow and arrows; I took them and started walking through the forest.

After a while I shot a squirrel, it wasn't through the eye tough, but that I hit it at all was kind of a surprise to me. I hadn't been out hunting for a very long time. I walked a few more minutes before I came to place way too familiar to me, it was mine and gales rock. I slowly walked over there, almost as I expected him to jump out of the bushes suddenly, when I came there I sat down. This place had a lot of memories; the last time I was here was before I left to district 2 with Gale. I walked through the forest wondering if I should choose Gale or Peeta, but when I came here I felt it as a sign and we see how good that went.

I just sat there looking out over the forest for a while. I thought about Peeta and Karen. After last night I was sure that I couldn't live without Peeta, but he belonged to Karen now. I couldn't take away his happiness from him now when he had finally found it. She probably was the perfect woman for him; probably she wanted both marriage and children. But I couldn't help but feeling jealous, I had some sort of feelings for him; I wouldn't admit that though, I wasn't sure it was love, but it was something.

About half an hour later I got up and started walking through the forest again, I shot a rabbit, two birds and one more squirrel, the birds and the squirrel even was hit in the eye, so my hunting skills was still somewhere deep inside of me, buried. I started walking towards home, but I went through town. It was already around 10am so most people were at work. I saw the bakery and just had to go there, the moment I opened the door I regret it, I saw Peeta kissing Karen. At that moment I felt sick, but if I would close the door and walk away it would be too obvious that I hated that scene. I went inside and they stopped kissing, both looking at me.

"Hi Katniss, what are you doing here?" Peeta asked me with a little smile.

"I… eh… I wanted to buy some cheese buns…" I said, that was a little true, I loved his cheese buns, so that was a safe shot. He smiled at me, probably remembering that I loved them.

"I'll fix that for you, just wait here." He said and disappeared in to the bakery. Karen still stood there looking after him. Then she turned around and started walking towards me. She came quite close before she started talking.

"I like you Katniss, I always have…"

"Okay…" was the only answer I could come up with.

"I think you are brave and strong, but…" of course there was a 'but'. "…if you try to destroy between me and Peeta, I'm going to kill you." I got really shocked by her words, I couldn't believe my ears, I would never do that, and she really had to love him a lot, but did she really threaten me? I had been through a lot in my life, but I wasn't afraid of her.

"I would never do that, he told me that it had taken a lot of time for him to recover, from what I did to him, and if you two are happy together, then I respect that." I said as calmly as possible, she immediately smiled at me.

"Then you and me will be great friends." I was so confused at that moment, so she was a fake. I couldn't tell Peeta that. He would get beyond angry with me if I told him his girlfriend was a fake. But he couldn't live with her, she hated me at one moment, and then she liked me… I didn't know what to do so I just stood there. Peeta came to me with a little box with cheese buns, and first then I woke up. I smiled at him.

"Thank you. I have missed these." I said pointing at the box, he laughed a little.

"Yeah, you truly loved them huh?" he asked, I just nodded. When I looked at Karen she didn't look too happy over our common memories.

"But, I have to leave now, going to meet Greasy Sae now too… If the two of you don't want some fresh meat."

"What do you have?" Peeta said, I smiled and took my game bag and opened it, I took out one of the squirrels and showed him.

"Still, shot through the eye…" he said and smiled, I smiled back, he was so easy to be with, I looked in to his eyes and I saw in his eyes that he wanted to talk about last night, but he couldn't because Karen was there. When I looked in to those beautiful blue eyes I just wanted to feel his strong, warm arms around me, but I think Karen literally would have slit up throat if I hugged him now.

"Do you want a bird or two too?" I asked and lifted up one of them.

"Yes please." He said and smiled again, it was a very cute half smile, but I wasn't allowed to think like that! He wasn't mine!

"I can drop them at your house when I come home." I said.

"Thank you, that would be very nice." I smiled again and walked out of there. I actually went to see Sae, when I came there, she didn't believe her eyes. She looked at me.

"Katniss? Is that you?" she asked, when I nodded she hugged me. She lived in a cute little house with her granddaughter that was about 10 years old. I gave her one of the birds, the rabbit and the other squirrel; she got happy when she got them. I sat down at her house for a while and we talked a little.

I opened the door to Peetas and Karen's house and went in, the door was unlocked, but the key was hanging next to the door. When I got in it smelled like Peetas house always had, like something was new baked. I went in to the kitchen and put the squirrel and the bird in the sink, they could take care of them by themselves. I couldn't stop myself, before I knew it, I was walking up the stairs, I quickly looked in to their bedroom, but when I started to think about what they maybe did in there I fast moved on to the next room.

It was one of the old guest rooms, but obviously it was used as Peetas painting room, his paintings were so beautiful, he painted everything. I already knew he painted his dreams, both good and bad, and back then, he painted me, but now I saw different pictures of forests, flowers, a deer, one of Karen, and there, behind a lot of other pictures, me. I didn't want to look at them anymore; I walked out of the room, down the stairs and out of the house, on my way over to my own house I met Karen.

"Hi, I left the meat in the sink." I said, a little unsecure of myself.

"Thank you, the is so good, and Peeta makes an awesome stew." She said with a smile. I was still as shocked by this woman, one moment she loved me, then she hated me, and now she seemed to like me again. I just smiled back at her. "But Katniss, remember what I said." I just nodded and started walking towards my house.

She wasn't good for Peeta, she was a fake, but he would hate me if I said it to him, I should show it to him somehow, but I didn't know how. I couldn't destroy his relationship, but if I told him about her, he would think that I'm lying because of jealousy. I would just let it be, he would figure it out sooner or later. I got to my house and walked in, I went to the kitchen and started to make dinner to myself, it felt a little weird being alone, but to me it really didn't matter. I usually had Gale with me, but this was much better, I wouldn't complain if I could have Peeta or Prim here, but it seemed like both of them was as impossible to get here. I wanted to talk to someone, so I walked over to the phone and rang to Minna. One signal, two signals, three.

"Joel Vinson speaking." It answered.

"Hi, this is Katniss." I said.

"Katniss? How are you? Do you want to talk to Minna, I'll call her over, she's outside with the girls." He said.

"Yes, I'm fine, I'd like to talk to her yes." I said. It was silent for a few moments.

"Katniss?" I recognized Minna's voice.

"Yeah, it's me, I made it." I said and I started to get a lump in my throat when I thought about that I would probably never meet her again.

"You made it Katniss, now you never have to see that monster again." She said with a happy voice, I smiled a little.

"So what happened after I left?" I asked.

"First nothing, several hours of nothing, then he came here, furious, wondering if we knew where you were. We told him that we didn't knew, and he left again, I haven't seen him since that, I've only seen him walking around in your, sorry, I mean his house." I smiled at that, but still I felt a little sorry for him, he worked so hard to get me, and then I left him, but when I looked down at my hand, that had no bandage anymore, I remembered why I left him. My wrist was blue and a little swollen, the marks in my face started to fade too, that meant that he didn't hit me the hardest he could, because sometimes I had the marks there for one or two weeks. "How are you doing over there?" she asked me, and I explained all about Karen to her, when I was done she said;

"Are you serious, does she even love him?"

"I think so yes, but a person like that; you can never be sure…" I said.

"There is really nothing you can do huh?" she said.

"No, think about what he would say to me if I told him what she said to me."

"He wouldn't be angry with her, he would be angry at you." She said with a sad tone. We talked for a while more, but then I had to go to finish the dinner. When I sat there eating, I thought about everything and nothing, after dinner I sat down at the sofa, looking out the window, I could see over to Haymitch house from here, and from my bedroom and the kitchen, I could see Peetas house. I sat there looking out for a while, before I decided to go see Haymitch.

I just walked in, without knocking, if I knew him right, he wouldn't come to open it anyway. I went in to the kitchen, he just stared at me, and he was drunk again, of course.

"What are you doing here?" he asked me.

"Visiting you." I said.

"Why?"

"Because I felt lonely."

"Then I'm happy that you came here and not went over to Peeta." he said, we both got silent for a few seconds, his house was a mess, even if he obviously had some cleaning help there, once or twice a week. "So, you wanted to talk or just stare?" he asked me.

"I don't know, it depends…"

"On what?"

"How willing you are to talk." He just grunted something as an answer, I didn't know if I should tell Haymitch what kind of person Karen was.

"How well do you know Karen?" I asked him, the look he gave me didn't look happy, but he still answered.

"Not much, why?"

"She just seems a little… I don't know, she seems very nice, but when Peeta left the room, she more or less threatened me…" I said and Haymitch looked at me with a little smile.

"I knew you would figure out that you had feelings for Peeta, but I expected it to take more than one day…" he said, I threw him a look.

"It's not that, I don't love him, I think, at least not like that, yet…"

"Don't want to know." He said, I just stared at him. "Leave them alone, don't separate them, he's finally happy again." He continued.

"I know, but what if she really isn't a good person?" I asked.

"Then Peeta will realize it, sooner or later, he's a good kid, he knows what to do…" Haymitch said. I nodded and got up; I saw that he was starting at my hand. "Did he really hit you?" he asked, and I knew we didn't talk about Peeta anymore. I nodded again and sat down again. Haymitch gulped and looked at my face.

"I made the wrong choice…" I said quietly. "That's why I don't want Peeta to make mistakes, she probably won't hit him, like Gale did to me, but psychical pain can be even worse."

"That's not what we're talking about anymore, leave that!" he almost sounded angry. "He really did hit you?" he asked again.

"Several times a week." I said, he almost looked disgusted.

"He fought for you, he won against Peeta, he got you, and then he started beating you…?" he said, he almost started to sound like he cared about me, and that was something new. I nodded again.

"He really is an ass." I said.

"What happened?" he asked, I told him the same things that I had told Peeta the night before, when I finished he looked at me, and I saw pity in his face, he was Haymitch, he never got emotional, this was something completely new to me.

"You and Peeta were the first two that I brought home back with me, and then some asshole hurts you… I should… and if Peeta knew…" his sentences never finished.

"Peeta already knows." I said quietly.

"Why did you tell him that?" Haymitch asked.

"Because he came over and we fought, and he stepped towards me and I automatically tried to protect myself and he put together one and one." I said in one breath. Haymitch just looked at me.

"That means that if Gale ever comes to 12, he probably dies." He said, he smiled a little at the thought, and I knew he was right.

He walked closer to me, all I could look at was his gorgeous blue eyes, and all I could see in his eyes was love. He put his hands at my waist and put his forehead against mine. My body immediately reacted to that, I wanted him closer. I put my hands behind his neck and pressed his face against mine to kiss him. His lips were soft and nice and he kissed me passionately for a long time. I felt his hands wander over my back and then he pulled my shirt over my head, I started to take his shirt off too, and he started to kiss me more passionately, when I took his shirt off, his lips moved down to my neck and he kept on kissing me.

Suddenly I woke up, I rolled over and expected to find Peetas body there, but then I realized that it was just a dream, that Peeta was home with Karen, maybe doing the same thing to her as he did to me in my dream. I felt sad when I thought about it; okay, in real life I probably couldn't really have sex with anyone yet without getting flashbacks and horrible memories from when Gale raped me…

I lied there in bed thinking about how alone I felt, after this dream I felt better and worse. I felt better because I was sure that I had some kind of feelings for him, it should be too early to say, considering that I was married last week, but somewhere inside of me I felt that I needed Peeta, in one way or another.

I was sad about that it didn't matter if I loved him with all of my heart, because he still belonged to Karen.

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