29 November, 1997

I thought my stay here was going to make me better, but it's made me even madder. It's because I'm alone… so alone… Mother visits me sometimes… Jude and Naomi too, but really, the only ones I have to talk to are the voices; so I do. The healers should just let me go. Who knows? I might get better. Even if I don't recover at least I'll be with my family. And for goodness sake, they're wizards! Why out of all the illnesses I could have, I have the one that magic can't cure. Although, one good thing is I've made a new friend, her name is Esther. She stays in the room across from mine and I see her when I'm allowed to leave my room. She suffers from the same malady. It's comforting to know I'm not the only one out there. Even when we don't really talk I enjoy her company- we both have a sense of what the other is feeling. While talking to her I found out that she's a muggle-born, although I didn't tell her I technically was one too. I told her that I always wanted to learn more about the muggle world, so she's been "teaching" me. She tells me of the non-magical world, little by little because we only get to see each other for snippets at a time. Sometimes, even her husband comes in during our "lessons" and just listens to her. It seems like he learns more than me! Hearing her stories makes me think of my father and mother. I love that feeling… I picture my real parents doing things together…doing things with me. Lately, the healers have been whispering more than usual. Often they just whisper about us, but this time they seem worried. I never quite hear what they're saying, but I know that it's about You-Know-Who and his followers and the disappearances. I may be seen as crazy, but I can tell that things are getting worse. We really have a war on our hands. I don't get to hear a lot of specific news, but I hear enough to get the scope of what's going on. I just hope my family and everyone else is safe. Oh, do you hear that? …Of course you don't. It sounds like the opening lines to my favourite play, "Hélas, Je me suis Transfiguré Les Pieds". It's very comforting… You know, it was the first play I ever saw. Listen to the funny, principal actor and the sweet voice of the leading lady…